Cheating Time (Longevity, #1)
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Chapter 13
Bed of Snakes
Carlie
"Carlie… is that you?" he asked, looking around like he was confused about where he was and what he was doing.
When he realized he was positioned strategically between my legs, he knew exactly what he'd been trying to do and jerked away from me.
"Jesus! What the hell? What the hell is going on, Carlie?" he asked in rapid succession.
He didn't expect me to answer, and I was glad because there was little I could offer.
"I-I'm sorry. If that was me… I-I'm sorry," he murmured.
"You… you were having a nightmare. I was trying to wake you."
"Really? It doesn't seem like I was having a bad dream. In fact, it seems to me it was anything but a bad dream," Jayden said in a self-deprecating way that made me feel sorry for him.
"I wouldn't know. All I do know is you were tossing and turning. Now you're not. Are you going back to sleep or are you going to let me rest?" I asked, purposefully pretending I had no idea what Jayden had been doing, what Jayden had wanted just seconds ago.
"Be my guest," Jayden said, waving his hand toward his bed. "I'm not sure I'm going to be able to go back to sleep with you anywhere near."
I shrugged and crawled over to Jayden's bed, curled into a ball, and closed my eyes. Like Jayden, I wasn't going to sleep anytime soon, but there was no way for me to look Jayden in the eyes after that make-out session—asleep or not.
Twenty minutes later, I was still awake and Jayden was taking long, deep breaths periodically. There was no mistaking the fact that he was beating himself up mentally. Unable to take one more long-suffering sigh, I flipped toward Jayden and said, "For God's sake, Jayden, you were dreaming. Get over it," I whisper-shouted.
"Just go to sleep," he replied over his shoulder.
I wanted to go over to him and make him talk to me… make him realize I was no worse off than I was an hour ago. Actually, I was worse off because an hour ago I had no idea what it would be like to be with Jayden. Now I did, and I wanted more. I needed him to kiss me deep, to hold me tight, and to crave me more than his next breath. That was what I wanted.
That's all I want, I thought right before I drifted off to sleep.