Lullaby

by Buddhima soni

  ***************ADRIANA’S POINT OF VIEW******************

  I was watching my parents acting so weird around me latley. I saw all the fake smiles on their faces since I got back to Australia. Especially seen my mom crying, when ever she was alone in her room. But pretends that she is soo fine when I asked her if something is wrong.

  This is a wound inside my heart to see my mom crying and dad quiet, not active and fun like the good old days. I surely know that something is terribly wrong just by seen them to cry and go insane about some problem. May be it’s something they cannot tell me but I really love to see them happy at least making me a reason.

  It was two weeks since I got back to my home and now in feeling much better than I used to. My arms all back to normal and my stitches were cut off last week.

  While I was spending my time alone at home, I had to face few water troubles as well. But I tried hard to not to focus much on it a bring more meaning less problems into my head and i get sick thinking about them. So I ignored them as much as I could. Staying at home for two and half months wasn’t an easy task for an adventurous girl who mostly travels like me.

  I thought of arranging a trip for myself and for my parents after seen them in a very bad stressful situation at home for whatever they problem is. I wanted to free them from this problem that is crushing and pressurizing them from inside and give their heart and soul a break by taking them to a very relaxing place in Australia for few days. So I thought of arranging it as a surprise trip for them.

  I was contacting Alex and Sammy to see how they were doing. They were still in Dubai with aunt Mandy. I glad I have two friend like them because they helped me a lot to get better physically as well as mentally and I heard my mom saying that they were so worried about me all day and night during the coma I was in. but I still I didn’t tell them anything about my weird powers that are related to water. I didn’t even feel open to talk about it with my mom. She already knows about it, but even she didn’t feel comfortable to ask me about it.

  Mostly I really didn’t want to make it a big deal and tell everyone about it because, I still failed to find out the real cause behind this weird happenings. It may be something good or may be something terribly bad. So till I find the truth behind my powers I wanted to stay calm and quiet

  After planning a trip the whole night I got up early in the morning and ran to the kitchen. Both mom and dad were there in the kitchen having a very serious chat as usual. I was so mad and upset seen them like that always. So trying hard to ignore it i ran and jumped on to my dads back wrapping my arms around his neck and legs around his waist. And I kiss his cheek.

  “Good morning dad and good morning mom” I greeted them

  “Good morning angel” they both greeted back.

  “Mom… dad … I need to tell you guys something...” I said with a big smile on my face.

  “Sure but before that we need to talk to you too about something which I think is more important” dad said with a look of confusion in his face

  “Oh! Is it that important? Because I have surprise for you guys!” I questioned

  “Yes baby it is... surprise is post pond” mom said

  “Ok... so what is it?” I asked

  All three of us sat in the round table in the dining hall where we always gather to talk about important stuff at home and have our family conversations. Dad came and sat first next to me and mom came with three cups of hot coffee. And wow it tastes like heaven.

  “So daddy what did you’ll wanted to tell me!” I questioned

  “Ok sweetheart, listen carefully this is something important for your life. Don’t think we care about you less or love you less. , this is a very impossible decision we took but we had no other option than this. “He said taken my hand and squeezing it.

  “OH MY…. What are you‘ll triying to say? What did I really do for you’ll to be this serious with me?” I panicked with a shock because my parents were never this serious with me. They are two people that always had a very relaxing lifestyle and had a very beautiful smile in their faces. But now they look so down upset and mad at me. What did I really do to them to be like this with me? I guess it was something to do with me that was troubling them all these time lately and made my mom cry and dad care about me a lot like never before. Now I all make sense. But my major question was what exactly I did to them to be soo upset.

  “Sweety, we were watching you all theses days you were with us. And you have changed. It’s hard to say… guess you have some extraordinary power. Don’t you think so? With water? We saw a couple of time the weird things that happen when you interact with water. Don’t you think so sweaty?” mom questioned me

  “MOM? What are you saying? It’s your imagination you are seen weird things there’s nothing like that I’m so fine mom” I tried to convince them.

  “ADRIANA! Admit it! You are not fine! We are been serious and you have to tell us the truth. This is a risk for your life. why are you acting like a kid. Whats wrong with you?” dad shouted at me

  “HAROLD! KEEP IT DOWN! Don’t be so hard on this girl let me talk to her and explain” mom said to dad

  “Darling let me make it short... we assume that you are chosen… to be a magician. I know it is not normal to be chosen at your age but may be due to different mutations or any other conditions there are rare situations where they chose people at different ages like in your case…” mom went on explaining

  “MOM “I yelled. I was shocked I couldn’t grasp what I was hearing. I never thought in my wildest dreams that this whole situation will lead my parents to a conclusion like this.

  “Yes Adriana... mom is telling the truth only magicians can do what you can do…” dad tried to convince me

  “But c’mon mom! When you’re chosen you have to leave your parents and everyone forever right? And live with all the other weirdoes? “

  “Sadly yes baby but…”mom said

  “But what mom? Dad? You guys want to let me go? Don’t you’ll love me? I can’t leave you’ll like that? My friends! I can’t do that… I’m not any magician I’m just ME! Stop trying to get rid of me! Don’t do this to me” I strated yelling at them and started crying... I couldn’t bare what they were tiring to convince me about

  “Adriana... you can’t make these serious decisions of your life all by yourself. We have already made arrangements as soon as university starts talk with your headmaster about getting the leaving and get your room cleared up. tell your friends that you are chosen and get ready to go to school of magic.” Dad said in a demanding tone

  “What? You made arrangements without even letting me know before hand? How could you’ll? Am I dreaming? I’m your only girl, only child! How can you guys go for a decision like this? Mom... speak up! Is dad serious?” I screamed crying even more and with anger

  “DARLING……… we love you soo much and we really don’t want you to go and leave us either... it’s painful for us too. But we have to do this for you to be safe and your future to a better place. Think about us sweety. we love to see you alive and happy somewhere in the world. Your life will have a big risk to stay with us. Also it’s very illegal to keep you with us.” Mom said with tears jerking from her eyes too and triying to pretend that she is fine.

  “We never wanted to do this but what can we do other than coming for a decision like this? We want you to live safe anywhere.” Mom said. Dad was soo mad he was just frowning at me trying hard to control his temper.

  “I’m not goner die mom! Please let me be with you’ll. Please… I can’t leave you’ll please” I was screaming my lungs out

  I couldn’t take it anymore. I knew they couldn’t undo it. So I ran to my room and locked it. Didn’t talk to anyone the whole day and ignored all my food. I could only cry and cry without giving my self a break because I couldn’t believe what they were trying to tell me. I can’t be chosen. I just can’t be.

  My parents were also as worried as they were knocking on my door trying to
get me food to eat. And trying to talk with me but I didn’t answer to them the whole day. My parents were so depressed. I felt lifeless. I wanted to die I can’t just leave my home, loved once, university, best friends and everyone forever. Its not like I spend the whole of my life time with my parents but since I started to go to university I try my best to keep contact with my parents when ever I could.

  Getting chosen at this age is the worst thing that could ever happen to me. Go to someplace I never wanted to be just to be who I was supposed to be. .. Leaving everything I want right behind and erasing my whole past, it’s not something possible for any one

  When I finally got my self fit into this society and found so many friends and now having to leave everything just to be someone I really never thought I get to be. True I was soo interested in magicians but I never thought I will have to be one. I was only experimenting. But I never like their lifestyle. NEVER

  The more I spend time at home the more I tend to get hurt. So I thought of getting out of my room and going to someplace to calm my mind and relax. There is one place near my house in Melbourne. I always go there when I get upset and when I really need some time alone. It’s this small lake near my house

  Not many people come there because it is surrounded by woodland. It has always been my secret hideout. The water in the lake the trees the sand, the small ducks and swarms…they all can predict the stories hidden behind my tears or my smile when ever I go there because I share most of my stories with the beautiful calm nature .

  The pleasing cold water in the lake always was there for me to talk to and share my sorrow and happiness… I talk to the nature and seek for answers for my unsolved questions. I hear them talking back to me telling me how I should react for every obstacle or every moment in my life. I see them smiling with me when I smile and share my good happy times. That’s why I always prefer that place so much.

  My parents knows this place so I didn’t bother them searching for me. But I wrote a small letter just in case for my mom and kept on my dressing table and I got out through my room window without making any noise and ran to the woods that was few miles away from my house. The environment was so calm and quick I could only hear birds singing .the trees were so shady and sunlight could only come through very limited spaces through the big tress and fall on to the ground.

  It was so chilling and cold breeze wrapped my whole body and made me feel like a stranger. When I move forward through the woods and get to the small lake. It looked so beautiful the water was shinning like crystals and many ducks were dancing on the water and the environment was so green took my breath away. It reminded me the first day I got here.

  I went and sat near the edge of the lake on a wooden bar. They were remaining of a small bridge and slowly I put my legs into the waters. I could feel the cold freezing water running through my whole body upwards and making me shiver…it was almost winter but I have never noticed this water to be this cold.

  I didn’t disturb the stunning ducks instead I leaned against a tree and closed my eyes. Every thing happened the last couple of days came to my mind one by one.

  how I got caught up in a meeting for magician… how I soaked the entire bed without a even a drop of water anywhere near me… how I froze the humungous water wave….and how the lighting came through water and strike me and got absorbed right into me… how I made the water float all around the hospital room…..and how my own loving parents came to a decision like this … I burst out screaming and crying as I suddenly opened my eyes because recalling these heartbreaking terrible memories made me burn from inside because it hurts so much

  I spent hours and hours talking with the beautiful nature and searching for answers. I couldn’t find any answers for my questions but all I realized was that I cannot change the past. Now the magicians’ already know about me. It’s almost the end of my vacations and I determined to go to university and clear my room and come and get my bags backed to leave to school of magic.

  May be I’m about to experience a whole different ADRIANA when I go there and learn my magic. May be I deserve to be a magician. So I thought of been nice with my parents. They have no other option to make after all. The last couple of days I’m staying with them. Staying mad at them and not talking to them will not change a thing since now nothing can stop them from talking me to the school of magic. Because I am too late. So the best way is, been close and give my loved once all my love the last couple of days I’m goner with them.

  So I walked home as it got dark slowly. As I walked out from the woods I saw a huge rush near my house many torch lights and people chatting and some crying. When I went closer my mom and dad was standing outside the lane near my house with a torch searching for me with several neighbors and as I appeared they came and hugged me tight crying.

  “ADRIANA……………….. WHY ARE YOU BEEN THIS STURBORN DON’T YOU KNOW THAT WE WORRY ABOUT YOU.” mom shouted at me

  “But mom I told you not to worry about me that I will be fine.” I tried to convince her

  “You expect us to not to worry when we don’t know where you go after a bad day?” dad questioned roughly

  “MOM…see you guys worry about me this much when I just go somewhere without telling you guys. How do you’ll expect me to stay away from you’ll forever like this? Ah?” I noted

  They didn’t answer because they were in a shock not knowing what to say.

  “Mom lets go inside I’m sleepy…and tired and most of all I’m HUNGRY”

  Ok ill take her home. Harold thank the neighbors for the support “, mom groaned to dad and we when in the house.

  From that night onwards I gave all my love and cared about my parents a lot. I sent a letter to the headmaster saying I will be flying overseas to another country .so ill be leaving university. But still I didn’t tell any of my friends. I tried to spend a lot of time with alex and sammy as well after they got back to Australia from Dubai. I didn’t know how to tell them about the truth. They sure can keep secrets but I could tell them straight because ill have to leave two awesome friends like them… will be so hard just like leaving my parents.

  I tried hard to enjoy my life for the maximum during this short time.

  Finally holidays came to an end and I and my parents thought of going to the university to get my leaving documents and get my room cleared up. And also the next day ill be leaving my parents as well FOREVER. I made up my mind stronger as possible.

  It took 5 hours for us to make it to the university. And as I got down from the car I stood near the university gate and took a deep breath and stared at it before walking in. I worked so hard to get my self into this university. I can’t believe I’m leaving this place.

  I slowly walked in and directly walked into the headmasters’ office and he had the documents ready. I only had to talk to him and get them and come out. It didn’t take much time. Then I walked slowly through the corridors and checked the time table to see where would Alex and Sammy will be during this time of the day. They where sadly in the psychology class. I didn’t want to disturb them, but I really wanted to see them for the last time.Then I realized instead of meeting them and start crying and get more upset I will write them a letter and leave…

  While my mom and dad help me to clean up my room I started writing a letter. I wanted to tell the truth so without mentioning much I wrote exactly what I wanted to say. My hands were shivering and shaking which made my hand writing look terrible. But somehow I managed to write it and while I was leaving I went into Sammy’s room since I had a spare key and left the letter on her table with the spare keys of Sammy’s and Alex’s rooms since I will never need them again.Then I ran out of the university crying and not looking back. I ran and ran and ran and hugged my parents and cried so much. They didn’t have anything to say than sharing my tears. And we left back home to get my bags packed because tomorrow guardians will be coming to take me to the school of magic.

 
Chapter 7

  Tears won’t help.