Complete Works of Harriet Beecher Stowe

by Harriet Beecher Stowe

  And Nabby did not gainsay the word, but only laid her head on his shoulder and sobbed, and said he was a real true friend and she should never forget his kindness; and Hiel kissed and comforted her with all sorts of promises of future devotion. Truth to say, he found Nabby in tears and sorrow more attractive than when she sparkled in her gayest spirits.

  But other influences emanated from that shadowy room — influences felt through all the little neighborhood. Puritan life had its current expressions significant of the intense earnestness of its faith in the invisible, and among these was the phrase “a triumphant death.” There seemed to be in the calm and peaceful descent of this quiet spirit to the grave a peculiar and luminous clearness that fulfilled the meaning of that idea. The “peace that passeth understanding” brightened, in the sunset radiance, into “joy unspeakable and full of glory.” Her decline, though rapid and steady, was painless: and it seemed to those who looked upon her and heard her words of joy and trust that the glory so visible to her must be real and near — as if in that sick-chamber a door had in very deed been opened into heaven.

  When she became aware that the end was approaching she expressed a wish that her own minister should be sent for, and Dr. Cushing came. The family gathered in her room. She was propped up on pillows, her eyes shining and cheeks glowing with the hectic flush, and an indescribable brightness of expression in her face that seemed almost divine.

  The Doctor read from Isaiah the exultant words: “Arise, shine, for thy light is come, and the glory of the Lord is risen upon thee. For behold, darkness shall cover the earth, and gross darkness the people, but the Lord shall arise on thee, and his glory shall be seen on thee. The sun shall no more be thy light by day, neither for brightness shall the moon give light to thee, but the Lord shall be unto thee an everlasting light, and thy God thy glory. Thy sun shall no more go down nor thy moon withdraw itself, for the Lord shall be thy everlasting light, and the days of thy mourning shall be ended.” In the prayer that followed he offered thanks that God had given unto our sister the victory, and enabled her to rejoice in hope of the glory of God, while yet remaining with them as a witness of the faithfulness of the promise. He prayed that those dear to her might have grace given them to resign her wholly to the will of God and to rejoice with her in her great joy.

  When they rose from prayer, Zeph, who had sat in gloomy silence through all, broke out:

  “I can’t — I can’t give her up! It’s hard on me. I can’t do it, and I won’t.”

  She turned her eyes on him, and a wonderful expression of love and sorrow and compassion came into her face. She took his hand, saying, with a gentle gravity and composure:

  “I want to see my husband alone.”

  When all had left the room, he sunk down on his knees by the bed and hid his face. The bed was shaken by his convulsive sobbing. “My dear husband,” she said, “you know I love you.”

  “Yes — yes, and you are the only one that does — the only one that can. I’m hard and cross, and bad as the devil. Nobody could love me but you; and I can’t — I won’t — give you up!”

  “You needn’t give me up; you must come with me. I want you to come where I am; I shall wait for you; you’re an old man — it won’t be long. But oh, do listen to me now. You can’t come to heaven till you’ve put away all hard feeling out of your heart. You must make up that quarrel with the church. When you know you’ve been wrong, you must say so. I want you to promise this. Please do!”

  There was silence; and Zeph’s form shook with the conflict of his feelings.

  But the excitement and energy which had sustained the sick woman thus far had been too much for her; a blood vessel was suddenly ruptured, and her mouth filled with blood. She threw up her hands with a slight cry. Zeph rose and rushed to the door, calling the nurse.

  It was evident that the end had come.

  CHAPTER XXVII. THE FUNERAL.

  ON that morning, before Dr. Cushing had left the Parsonage to go to the bedside of his dying parishioner, Dolly, always sympathetic in all that absorbed her parents, had listened to the conversation and learned how full of peace and joy were those last days.

  When her father was gone, Dolly took her little basket and went out into the adjoining meadow for wild strawberries. The afternoon was calm and lovely; small patches of white cloud were drifting through the intense blue sky, and little flutters of breeze shook the white hats of the daisies as she wandered hither and thither among them looking for the strawberries. Over on the tallest twig of the apple-tree in the corner of the lot a bobolink had seated himself, swinging and fluttering up and down, beating his black and white wings and singing a confused lingo about “sweetmeats and sweetmeats,” and “cheer ’em and cheer ‘em.”

  This bobolink was one of Dolly’s special acquaintances. She had often seen him perched on this particular twig of the old apple-tree, doubtless because of a nest and family establishment that he had somewhere in that neighborhood, and she had learned to imitate his jargon as she crept about in the tall grass; and so they two sometimes kept up quite a lively conversation.

  But this afternoon she was in no mood for chattering with the bobolink, for the strings of a higher nature than his had been set vibrating; she was in a sort of plaintive, dreamy revery — so sorry for poor Nabby, who was going to lose her mother, and so full of awe and wonder at the bright mystery now opening on the soul that was passing away.

  Dolly had pondered that verse of her catechism which says that “the souls of believers at their death are made perfect in holiness, and do immediately pass into glory,” and of what that unknown glory, that celestial splendor, could be she had many thoughts and wonderings.

  She had devoured with earnest eyes Bunyan’s vivid description of the triumphal ascent to the Celestial City through the River of Death, and sometimes at evening, when the west was piled with glorious clouds which the setting sun changed into battlements and towers of silvered gold, Dolly thought she could fancy it was something like that beautiful land. Now it made her heart thrill to think that one she had known only a little while before — a meek, quiet, patient, good woman — was just going to enter upon such glory and splendor, to wear those wonderful white robes and sing that wonderful song.

  She filled her basket and then sat down to think about it. She lay back on the ground and looked up through the white daisies into the deep intense blue of the sky, wondering with a vague yearning, and wishing that she could go there too and see what it was all like. Just then, vibrating through the sunset air, came the plaintive stroke of the old Meeting-house bell. Dolly knew what that sound meant — a soul “made perfect in holiness” had passed into glory; and with a solemn awe she listened as stroke after stroke tolled out the years of that patient earth-life, now forever past.

  It was a thrilling mystery to think of where she now was. She knew all now! she had seen! she had heard! she had entered in! Oh, what joy and wonder!

  Dolly asked herself should she too ever be so happy — she, poor little Dolly; if she went up to the beautiful gate, would they let her in? Her father and mother would certainly go there; and they would surely want her too: couldn’t she go in with them? So thought Dolly, vaguely dreaming, with the daisy-heads nodding over her, and the bobolink singing, and the bell tolling, while the sun was sinking in the west. At last she heard her father calling her at the fence, and made haste to take up her basket and run to him.

  The day but one after this Dolly went with her father and mother to the funeral. Funerals in those old days had no soothing accessories. People had not then learned to fill their houses with flowers, and soften by every outward appliance the deadly severity of the hard central fact of utter separation.

  The only leaves ever used about the dead in those days were the tansy and rosemary — bitter herbs of affliction. Every pleasant thing in the house was shrouded in white; every picture and looking-glass in its winding-sheet. The coffin was placed open in the best front room, and the mourners, enveloped i
n clouds of black crape, sat around. The house on this occasion was crowded; wagons came from far and near; the lower rooms were all open and filled, and Dr. Cushing’s voice came faintly and plaintively through the hush of silence.

  He spoke tenderly of the departed:—”We have seen our sister for many weeks waiting in the land of Beulah by the River of Death. Angels have been coming across to visit her; we have heard the flutter of their wings. We have seen her rejoicing in full assurance of hope, having laid down every earthly care; we have seen her going down the dark valley, leaning on the Beloved; and now that we have met to pay the last tribute to her memory, shall it be with tears alone? If we love our sister, shall we not rejoice because she has gone to the Father? She has gone where there is no more sickness, no more pain, no more sorrow, no more death, and she shall be ever with the Lord. Let us rejoice, then, and give thanks unto God, who hath given her the victory, and let us strive like her, by patient continuance in well-doing, to seek for glory and honor and immortality.”

  And then arose the solemn warble of the old funeral hymn:

  “Why should we mourn departing friends Or shake at death’s alarms? ’Tis but the voice that Jesus sends To call them to his arms.

  “Why should we tremble to convey Their bodies to the tomb? There the dear form of Jesus lay, And scattered all the gloom.

  “Thence He arose, ascending high, And showed our feet the way; Up to the Lord we, too, shall fly At the great rising day. “Then let the last loud trumpet sound, And bid our kindred rise; Awake! ye nation under ground; Ye saints! ascend the skies!”

  The old tune of “China,” with its weird arrangement of parts, its mournful yet majestic movement, was well fitted to express that mysterious defiance of earth’s bitterest sorrow, that solemn assurance of victory over life’s deepest anguish, which breathes in those words. It is the major key invested with all the mournful pathos of the minor, yet breathing a grand sustained undertone of triumph — fit voice of that only religion which bids the human heart rejoice in sorrow and glory in tribulation.

  Then came the prayer, in which the feelings of the good man, enkindled by sympathy and faith, seemed to bear up sorrowing souls, as on mighty wings, into the regions of eternal peace.

  In a general way nothing can be more impressive, more pathetic and beautiful, than the Episcopal Church funeral service, but it had been one of the last requests of the departed that her old pastor should minister at her funeral; and there are occasions when an affectionate and devout man, penetrated with human sympathy, can utter prayers such as no liturgy can equal. There are prayers springing heavenward from devout hearts that are as much superior to all written ones as living, growing flowers out-bloom the dried treasures of the herbarium. Not always, not by every one, come these inspirations; too often what is called extemporary prayer is but a form, differing from the liturgy of the church only in being poorer and colder.

  But the prayer of Dr. Cushing melted and consoled; it was an uplift from the darkness of earthly sorrow into the grand certainties of the unseen; it had the undertone that can be given only by a faith to which the invisible is even more real than the things that are seen.

  After the prayer one and another of the company passed through the room to take the last look at the dead. Death had touched her gently. As often happens in the case of aged people, there had come back to her face something of the look of youth, something which told of a delicate, lily-like beauty which had long been faded. There was too that mysterious smile, that expression of rapturous repose, which is the seal of heaven set on the earthly clay. It seemed as if the softly-closed eyes must be gazing on some ineffable vision of bliss, as if, indeed, the beauty of the Lord her God was upon her.

  Among the mourners at the head of the coffin sat Zeph Higgins, like some rugged gray rock — stony, calm and still. He shed no tear, while his children wept and sobbed aloud; only when the coffin-lid was put on a convulsive movement passed across his face. But it was momentary, and he took his place in the procession to walk to the grave in grim calmness.

  The graveyard was in a lovely spot on the Poganuc River. No care in those days had been bestowed to ornament or brighten these last resting-places, but Nature had taken this in hand kindly. The blue glitter of the river sparkled here and there through a belt of pines and hemlocks on one side, and the silent mounds were sheeted with daisies, brightened now and then with golden buttercups, which bowed their fair heads meekly as the funeral train passed over them.

  Arrived at the grave, there followed the usual sounds, so terrible to the ear of mourners — the setting down of the coffin, the bustle of preparation, the harsh grating of ropes as the precious burden was lowered to its last resting-place. And then, standing around the open grave, they sang:

  “My flesh shall slumber in the ground Till the last trumpet’s joyful sound. Then burst the chains, with sweet surprise, And in my Saviour’s image rise.”

  Then rose the last words of prayer, in which the whole finished service and all the survivors were commended to God.

  It was customary in those days for the head of a family to return thanks at the grave to the friends and neighbors who had joined in the last tribute of respect to the departed. There was a moment’s pause, and every eye turned on Zeph Higgins. He made a movement and stretched out his hands as if to speak; but his voice failed him, and he stopped. His stern features were convulsed with the vain effort to master his feeling.

  Dr. Cushing saw his emotion and said, “In behalf of our brother I return thanks to all the friends who have given us their support and sympathy on this occasion. Let us all pray that the peace of God may rest upon this afflicted family.” The gathered friends now turned from the grave and dispersed homeward.

  With the instinct of a true soul-physician, who divines mental states at a glance, Dr. Cushing forbore to address even a word to Zeph Higgins; he left him to the inward ministration of a higher Power.

  But such tact and reticence belong only to more instructed natures. There are never wanting well-meaning souls who, with the very best intentions, take hold on the sensitive nerves of sorrow with a coarse hand.

  Deacon Peaslee was inwardly shocked to see that no special attempt had been made to “improve the dispensation” to Zeph’s spiritual state, and therefore felt called on to essay his skill. “Well, my friend,” he said, coming up to him, “I trust this affliction may be sanctified to you.”

  Zeph glared on him with an impatient movement and turned to walk away; the Deacon, however, followed assiduously by his side, going on with his exhortation.

  “You know it’s no use contendin’ with the Lord.”

  “Well, who’s ben a contendin’ with the Lord?” exclaimed Zeph, “I haint.”

  The tone and manner were not hopeful, but the Deacon persevered.

  “We must jest let the Lord do what he will with us and ours.”

  “I hev let him — how was I goin’ to help it?”

  “We mustn’t murmur,” continued the Deacon in a feebler voice, as he saw that his exhortation was not hopefully received.

  “Who’s ben a murmurin? I haint!”

  “Then you feel resigned, don’t you?”

  “I can’t help myself. I’ve got to make the best on’t,” said Zeph, trying to out-walk him.

  “But you know—”

  “LET ME ALONE, can’t ye?” cried Zeph in a voice of thunder; and the Deacon, scared and subdued, dropped behind, murmuring, “Drefful state o’ mind! poor critter, so unreconciled! — really awful!”

  CHAPTER XXVIII. DOLLY AT THE WICKET GATE.

  THE next Sunday rose calm and quiet over the hills of Poganuc.

  There was something almost preternatural in the sense of stillness and utter repose which the Sabbath day used to bring with it in those early times. The absolute rest from every earthly employment, the withholding even of conversation from temporal things, marked it off from all other days. To the truly devout the effect was something the same as if the time had
been spent in heaven.

  On this particular dewy, fresh summer morning it seemed as if Nature herself were hushing her breath to hear the music of a higher sphere. Dolly stood at her open window looking out on the wooded hills opposite, feathered with their varied green, on the waving meadows with their buttercups and daisies, on the old apple tree in the corner of the lot where the bobolink was tilting up and down, chattering and singing with all his might. She was thinking of what she had heard her father saying to her mother at breakfast: how the sickness and death of one good woman had been blessed to all that neighborhood, and how a revival of religion was undoubtedly begun there.

  All this made Dolly very serious. She thought a great deal about heaven, and perfectly longed to be quite sure she ever should get there. She often had wished that there were such a thing in reality as a Wicket Gate, and an old Interpreter’s house, and a Palace Beautiful, for then she would set right off on her pilgrimage at once, and in time get to the Celestial City. But how to get this spiritual, intangible preparation she knew not. To-day she knew was a sacramental Sunday, and she should see all the good people taking that sacrificial bread and wine, but she should be left out.

  And how to get in! There were no Sunday-schools in those days, no hymns or teachings specially adapted to the child; and Dolly remembered to have heard serious elderly people tell of how they were brought “under conviction” and suffered for days and weeks before the strange secret of mercy was revealed to them, and she wondered how she ever should get this conviction of sin. Poor Dolly had often tried to feel very solemn and sad and gloomy, and to think herself a dreadful sinner, but had never succeeded. She was so young and so healthy — the blood raced and tingled so in her young veins; and if she was pensive and sad a little while, yet, the first she knew, she would find herself racing after Spring, or calling to her brothers, or jumping up and down with her skipping rope, and feeling full as airy and gay as the bobolink across in the meadow. This morning she was trying her best to feel her sins and count them up; but the birds and the daisies and the flowers were a sad interruption, and she went to meeting quite dissatisfied.