Jane Kelly 01 - Candy Apple Red

by Nancy Bush

  As I jogged up to my front door, catching my breath and slipping the key in the lock, I mentally congratulated myself on my industrious fitness program. Self-affirmation is all that stands between me and the depression of reality so I keep a steady "Atta, girl!" going in my head at every given opportunity.

  Stripping off my In-N-Out Burger T-shirt (which I brought back with me from my last trip to California) I walked into the bathroom and reminded myself I had to buy groceries or die. My desktop computer-years old and a real electronic grinder-sits cold, blank and silent in the little desk/nook I’ve arranged next to my bed. Though mainly used for writing up short reports for Dwayne, invoices for my process serving services, e-mail, and the occasional resume, I worry its life is close to ending and whenever I hit the switch, I fear its little green "on" light might sputter and slowly fade out forever. I’m not only afraid of the cost of replacing it, I’m afraid of new technology, period. I keep a laptop in a case nearby, just in case. It’s far newer, though given how quickly computers grow obsolete, it’s definitely in its twilight years. I’m attached to both of them in a way that defies description, especially for a loner like myself. And what’s really amazing is although they both have this nagging quality about them- their very silence a stern reminder for me to get to work-I would be completely bereft without them.

  I took a quick shower, toweled off, threw on a robe, then pushed the play button on my answering machine. Marta’s voice loudly told me to phone her A.S.A.P. I made a face, sensing I should avoid the call. Then Billy’s hatchery fish comment skimmed across my mind and propelled me into action.

  "Jane Kelly returning Marta’s call," I snapped out to the receptionist. This particular woman has one of the snottiest voices on record and I always try to cut her off as fast as possible.

  She smoothly responded, "Ms. Cornell’s in a meeting."

  Though I should have felt relief that I could delay my talk with Marta, I was consumed with impatience. There’s a whiff of smugness to the receptionist’s tone which calls me to battle in spite of myself. "Tell her I’m on my cell phone," I said, then reeled off the number as fast as humanly possible.

  "Could you repeat that, please?" she asked, not bothering to hide her scorn.

  "Oh, sure." This time I spoke clearly and slowly. Even while I was running through this mini-drama I asked myself why I do such things. Call it my low tolerance for frosty self-importance.

  "I’ll give her the message," she said and abruptly clicked off.

  I sat back in my chair and surveyed my domain. Pretty much a desk, chair, phone, notepad, pen and stapler. And computer, of course. I switched it on and waited while it went through its beeps, whirs and flashing screens. I know others grow annoyed if their computer doesn’t jump to attention like a military cadet but I don’t mind the wait. It’s like a cat stretching awake.

  Sometimes, there’s a moment of perfect synergy when what you’re thinking suddenly comes into the moment of your life. As I waited for my computer to finish its wake-up routine, my mind drifted to thoughts of Murphy. Tim Murphy, to be exact, though no one called him by his first name. He was the guy who’d walked into Sting Ray’s one night and bowled me over with quick repartee, wicked sarcasm, innate politeness and one dimple in an otherwise masculine jaw. I’d fallen in lust with him right there and then. When I learned he was taking criminology courses, I’d signed up at the first opportunity. And when he’d finally left L.A. for his native Oregon, I’d followed him blindly to Lake Chinook as soon as I could. I’d wanted to live with him, soak him into my system, wrap our lives together, but Murphy had resisted. He’d sworn he loved me, but it turned out his love hadn’t been quite as real as mine. His was the kind that disappeared like fairy dust as soon as I grabbed for it. And though it lasted a while, it had already faded some by the time a horrific tragedy involving his best friend from high school placed us on opposite sides of the law. Murphy never forgave me for believing the worst of his friend, despite overwhelming evidence. He chose to run away from me and all things related to Lake Chinook. I, however, have remained. A part of me I don’t often face knows that although Murphy was devastated by his friend’s tragedy, he also used that event as an excuse to end our faltering relationship.

  These thoughts flashed across my mind in quick succession, about three seconds in real time. At the end of those three seconds my cell phone buzzed, splintering the images and memories.

  "Hello?"

  "Jane!" Marta boomed over the phone. The woman was over six-feet-tall with a voice to match. She could deafen with one word. I yanked the phone from my ear and hoped I still possessed my hearing.

  "Jane?" Marta demanded, her voice now tinny and faraway as my arm was stretched straight out from my torso. I carefully placed the receiver to my ear.

  "I hear you."

  "I have a client who has an unusual request and I think you’re just the person to help."

  I opened and closed my mouth several times, seeing if I could pop my ears. They seemed okay but there was an alarming little creaking sound at the corner of my jaw. I thought about TMJ. Temporal... mandibular ...jaw thing. Whatever. It was bad and sometimes it takes an operation where your jaw’s wired shut for six weeks. I don’t normally worry about such things, but the thought of all food coming through a straw for six weeks was enough to scare me straight. No more caramels? No more Red Vines? I’d never be able to eat beef jerky again?

  "What unusual request?" I asked.

  "It’s about Cotton Reynolds."

  My heart leapt. Christ, I thought a bit shakily. Had thoughts of Murphy actually triggered the past? "What about him?" I asked, trying to hold my voice steady.

  "My client wants some follow-up on . . . Bobby Reynolds." Marta hesitated, unlike her to the extreme. "She wants you to interview Cotton."

  I stared at my office door and instead of its scarred, paneled wood saw the white-haired man who happened to be one of the wealthiest in the state of Oregon. Cotton Reynolds lived on the island-the site of the Coma Kid’s accident- and it was less than a mile from my bungalow. By boat, I could be there in ten minutes, if I wanted to. By car, it would be trickier. The island was private and Cotton’s was the only house on its three acres. If I dropped in to say hello, I wouldn’t get past the huge wrought iron gate nor the Dobermans.

  But interviewing Cotton wasn’t what was on my mind. Following up on Bobby Reynolds was. Murphy’s close, high school friend. His best buddy. The cause of the horrific tragedy my mind had briefly touched on.

  I almost hung up right then. I probably should have. A shiver slid coldly down my spine; someone walking on my grave.

  Bobby Reynolds had murdered his family and left their bodies lined up in a row-wife, Laura; Aaron, 8; Jenny, 3; and infant, Kit-somewhere in the Tillamook State Forest, just off the Oregon coast. Bobby Reynolds was a "family annihilator": a man apparently overwhelmed with the responsibility of his family so he chose to send them to a "better place." He shot them each once in the back of the head, then drove away. He dumped his Dodge Caravan on a turnout off Highway 101 which meanders along the West Coast throughout Washington, Oregon and into California, then disappeared without a trace, though he’d been rumored to have been seen as far north as the Canadian border, and as far south as Puerto Vallarta. To date, after four years, he was still very much a fugitive. The murders-disputed by Murphy who simply could not believe his friend capable of cold-blooded homi-cide-had driven Murphy away from Lake Chinook, the tragedy and me.

  I cleared my throat and asked, "Who is this client?"

  "Tess Reynolds Bradbury."

  "Bobby’s mother?"

  "Cotton won’t talk to her about Bobby or anything else. They haven’t spoken civilly in years. When it was all over the news they had words, but it wasn’t exactly what I would call communication."

  "I remember," I said, recalling how Cotton’s ex, with her blond bob, hard eyes and angry mouth had been bleeped out by the local news, time and again. Cotton had been silent
and stony, although my impression was that it was a mask for deep, deep pain and shock. I’d tried to talk to Murphy but he’d gone to a place inside himself, as distant as a cold moon, before he’d left for good.

  "Why does she want me to talk to him?" I asked, baffled. "The police and F.B.I. and every news channel around has been on this since it happened. What could I learn? I don’t even know Cotton."

  "You’ve met. You were Tim Murphy’s girlfriend."

  "I wouldn’t call myself his girlfriend," I said succinctly. "I knew him." Not as well as I thought I did, as it turned out.

  "Murphy was close to Bobby and Cotton. Tess thinks you can use that connection-"

  "No," I said again, with more force. "I’m outta this. I’d be useless."

  "She stopped by my office the other day, and we started talking about Bobby a little. She never could before. But it’s like she’s suddenly gotta get it out."

  "You’re a divorce attorney," I reminded Marta tonelessly. I couldn’t keep up with this. My head reeled. I felt ill.

  "I’m her divorce attorney," Marta agreed. "But I’m also a friend. After she started talking, your name came up. She remembered you."

  If I hadn’t been so overwhelmed I would have been surprised. Tess had barely seen me. She’d been divorced from Cotton in those few months before Bobby’s deadly deed was discovered. I hadn’t known Bobby very well, as he and his family had moved to Astoria. I mostly knew about them through Murphy. I’d only met Bobby and his wife Laura a few times, so when their pictures were in the papers they’d looked like the strangers they were to me. I said, "It would be a miracle if Cotton remembered me."

  "He knows Murphy. That’s all that matters."

  I didn’t like it. It was sneaky and wrong. Oh, sure, I can be a snoop, but this tragedy was epic. I felt small and mean even talking about it with Marta. "What kind of information does she expect?" I asked. "I don’t get it."

  "Whether she’s right or wrong, she thinks Cotton’s been in touch with Bobby. I know the police and F.B.I. have wrung him dry, and he’s been more than cooperative. I’m just telling you what she wants. And she’s willing to pay well."

  "I’m not a private investigator." Or information services specialist.

  "As good as," Marta dismissed, but then she was always saying things like that when she wanted something.

  "How much is she willing to pay?" I asked cautiously, lured in spite of myself. I inwardly shuddered. It was like dipping a toe in cold, cold water.

  "An initial five hundred dollars and then whatever you work out. She wants you to develop some kind of relationship, Jane," Marta went on. "She says Cotton always admired you when you were there with Murphy. She thinks you could...have some sway."

  "I doubt it."

  "Are you saying you won’t do it?"

  I didn’t know what I was saying. I was out of my depth and I knew it. I’m not all that hot at self-delusion. If I were really thinking about taking the jump to information specialist, I’d sure as hell like to start with something smaller. Like grand larceny. Or . . . corporate tax fraud. Or that Erin Brockovich deadly chemical thing. I did not want to be personally involved in the investigation, no matter how distantly, as I was in this one.

  "Cotton remembers you," Marta insisted. "Bobby told Tess how his dad liked you."

  "Bobby told his mother that his dad liked me? That’s just great. When was that, Marta? I was only here for a few months before it happened."

  Marta sighed at my obstinance. "Are you going to do it, or not?"

  "All signs point to not." I paused, belatedly hearing some innuendo between the lines. Why did Tess want me to get close to Cotton? My thoughts took a turn toward the salacious. "I’m not going to sleep with him."

  "Oh, for God’s sake, Jane. Tess just wants you to suck up to him a little, show some interest in the guy. He’s been living like a hermit with his young wife ever since Bobby slaughtered his family and ran." I cringed at her words. "Tess thinks this is the perfect time to lend a sympathetic ear."

  "I won’t get any results the police haven’t."

  "Five hundred dollars plus, whether you learn anything or not," Marta coerced.

  Five hundred dollars plus. My brain started calculating, taking a trip of its own, as I wondered how many "sessions" I could squeeze out of the deal. It’s hard to turn down pure, cold cash. Dwayne would be proud of my way of thinking.

  "Cotton’s having a party next Saturday night." Marta sweetened the pot. "I can get you an invitation."

  "How?"

  "Well ...Murphy’s been invited. He’s coming into town this week."

  I swore beneath my breath, loud enough for Marta to hear. Murphy? "What a setup. I’m not interested, Marta. Not one little bit."

  "He knows you might be there. He wants to see you."

  "Not a chance." Marta knows what she’s doing at all times. She’s an operator, someone who sees what she wants and goes after it, no matter how many souls she grinds into the pavement along the way. I almost admired her.

  "Murphy still talks to Tess," Marta went on. "He mentioned you the other day. That’s what got Tess thinking."

  "Murphy and I don’t talk."

  "Jane, Tess is going to be in my office at three today. She’d really like to meet you."

  "You’re railroading me. I can hear the train whistle."

  "I thought you might want to see him."

  "Bullshit. You thought of a new way to squeeze money out of a client. How much is Tess paying you for this setup?"

  "Plenty," was her equable answer. "Tess is a grateful client."

  I almost laughed. I could imagine how well Marta had put the squeeze on Cotton as Tess’s representative in the divorce. Her unabashed greed appealed to me, maybe because deep inside I’m a kindred spirit. Okay, maybe it’s just that I’m not that deep inside.

  She seemed to sense my lessening fury. "Is that a yes?"

  Distantly, I heard the sound of a buzzing boat’s engine. I walked toward the rear windows for my peek-a-boo view of the water. It was a beautiful, 75-ish afternoon in late July. The weatherman had said the temperatures were going to rise through the weekend, peaking at about 88 degrees late afternoon Saturday. The night of Cotton’s party. Great boating weather.

  I had an instant memory of a hot midnight on Murphy’s boat, illegally docked in the shelter of Phantom’s Cove, two hundred feet beneath the houses perched on the bluff above, hidden by the canopies of oaks and firs which kept the cove under shadow most of the time. I remembered fevered bodies wrapped tightly together, sweat and silent laughter that remained caught in the back of my throat. And pleasure.

  An ache filled me inside. I’d fallen in love once in college, but Murphy was the next, and last, man who’d ever filled my senses so completely. I half-believed now that it would never happen to me again. Maybe it would, but right now it felt impossible.

  The thought that he might actually be at this party was enough to send me into the kind of female panic I loathed seeing in others. I couldn’t go. Even if I met with Cotton, I couldn’t go to this party if Murphy was going to be there.

  I said as much to Marta. At least I think I did. But she responded with a quick overview of how much income this could provide me. I turned her down over and over again, I swear. Yes, dollar signs danced in front of my eyes, but the thought of clapping eyes on Tim Murphy again was something my system couldn’t take. I told myself I would rather live in destitution for a thousand lifetimes than go another round with Murphy.

  "...we’ll see you at three, then," Marta said happily and hung up.

  I was left staring into space, my jaw hanging open. Slowly, I brought my lips together again and clicked off my cell phone. There was no memory in my mind of an agreement to meet with Tess, but somehow I’d managed to say yes.

  Chapter Two

  I had hours before my date with Marta but that didn’t mean I didn’t have things to do. I yanked on a pair of black jeans that had shrunk, making me look as if I
were wearing capri pants. I coupled this with a once black, now gray, sleeveless T-shirt and quickly tied on my gray and black Nikes without socks. I gave another cursory glance in the mirror. My light brown hair lay in a shoulder-length tangle. I’m beyond stylish, no doubt. The Nikes were my good shoes, not my running shoes. I also own a pair of flip-flops and that about says it all for my entire shoe selection. There are a few dresses in my closet, left over from college when I used to care what I wore. I save them for weddings and funerals. One of these days I’m going to have to learn how to shop, but it hasn’t happened yet.

  I dragged a brush through my hair, hoping for a miracle. No use. The gods of coif gifted me with straight, forgettable hair that firmly defies any kind of style. I used to complain about it until I listened to the woes of those cursed with serious curls/frizz whose taming time at least tripled my alloted five minutes for hair. Now, I keep my mouth shut. As I scraped my hair into a ponytail I remembered things could be worse.