Fourplay

by Jane Moore

  a novel

  Jane Moore

  BROADWAY BOOKS

  New York

  Table of Contents

  Title Page

  Dedication

  Epigraph

  Chapter 1

  Chapter 2

  Chapter 3

  Chapter 4

  Chapter 5

  Chapter 6

  Chapter 7

  Chapter 8

  Chapter 9

  Chapter 10

  Chapter 11

  Chapter 12

  Chapter 13

  Chapter 14

  Chapter 15

  Chapter 16

  Chapter 17

  Chapter 18

  Chapter 19

  Chapter 20

  Chapter 21

  Chapter 22

  Chapter 23

  Chapter 24

  Chapter 25

  Chapter 26

  Chapter 27

  Chapter 28

  Chapter 29

  Chapter 30

  Chapter 31

  Chapter 32

  Chapter 33

  Chapter 34

  Chapter 35

  Chapter 36

  Chapter 37

  Epilogue

  About the Author

  Copyright

  For Mum and Ellie

  a man now, the first thing I think about is: Is this the sort of man I want my children to spend their weekends with?”

  RITA RUDNER

  1

  what made her do it. Feminine intuition perhaps.

  The day started the same as any other. Jo was rushing around getting the kids ready for school; Jeff was rushing around thinking only of himself. As usual, he had already asked several moronic questions as if he were merely a guest in the house in which they’d lived for four years. “Where are the clean towels? Is there any milk? How does the central heating timer work? We’re running out of toilet paper.” And so on. It was a never-ending assault on Jo’s senses, like having a third child.

  Trouble was, Jeff was one of those men who had grown up with a mother who did everything for him. All his life, he had been accustomed to just dropping an item of clothing on the floor and not seeing it again until it miraculously reappeared in his closet, washed, ironed, and hung neatly on a padded hanger. Jo suspected Jeff’s mother prided herself on being there to catch her son’s discarded clothing before it touched the floor. There was little doubt she had been disappointed by her son’s choice of such a shambolic, disheveled wife.

  This morning, the Planet Hollywood T-shirt Jo had worn in bed the night before was tucked into a pair of baggy-bummed, black tracksuit bottoms, and her dark-blond hair was scraped back into a messy ponytail. On her feet were a pair of those flat airline socks designed for people with no ankle, heel or arch.

  Thomas and Sophie were sitting at the breakfast table. Thomas, who was eight, wore only the bottoms of his Batman pajamas; the top was tied around his head like a pint-size commando. His shock of blond hair was in its early morning Woody Woodpecker style, and he was spilling cornflakes over the floor as he turned to watch the TV set flickering in the corner.

  Like most six-year-old girls, Sophie was in her pink phase. Barbie pink phase to be more precise, with Barbie nightdress and slippers, and a Barbie hairslide wedged on one side of her head, giving her hair the attractive swept-over look favored by Arthur Scargill. She was drawing a misshapen heart on a piece of scrap paper with one hand and eating a jam-covered bagel with the other.

  Jo was frantically buttering two rounds of Marmite sandwiches for their lunchboxes when Jeff burst into the kitchen adjusting his tie. He had two pieces of tissue stuck to his face where he’d cut himself shaving.

  “Have you been using my razor on your legs again? It’s blunt.”

  “No.” Jo wiped a buttery finger on her trouser leg. Well, it wasn’t strictly a lie. She had used the razor—but on her bikini line.

  Jeff looked businesslike in a dark-blue Jasper Conran suit and royal-blue shirt. His hair was still damp from the shower and combed back in the Gordon Gecko “lunch-is-for-wimps” look favored by the eighties yuppie. As soon as it dried it fell forward into a more attractive flop, making him look less like a solicitor, Jo thought. Jeff was a partner in a local practice that relied heavily on conveyancing work, divorces and legal aid cases. It wasn’t exactly Skadden, Arps, but it paid the bills.

  “Where’s my—”

  “Behind the door.” Jo answered him before he could complete the question he asked every morning.

  Grabbing his briefcase, he rushed up to each of the children and kissed the top of their heads.

  “Be good, you two,” Jo mouthed to herself.

  “Be good, you two.” Jeff’s voice was in perfect sync with her mime.

  “Daddy, look!” said Sophie excitedly, waving a scrap of paper at him as he headed out of the kitchen door. “This is for you.”

  Clearly irritated by this delay, Jeff stopped in his tracks and came back to the cluttered table where Sophie was brandishing her little drawing of a heart. “To daddy, lots of love, Sophie” was scribbled on it.

  “That’s a lovely apple, darling,” he said, glancing at it then leaving it on the table. Jo’s heart lurched as she saw the disappointment on her daughter’s face.

  “Silly daddy, it’s a heart, isn’t it, sweetie?” she said, picking up the drawing and holding it out to Jeff. “Here, take it to work and pin it on your wall.”

  With an ostentatious I’m-a-terribly-busy-person sigh, he threw his briefcase onto the table and flipped open the lid. Inside was a packet of photographs. “Oh here, I forgot. I got that film developed. There are some nice snaps of you and the kids from that weekend at your mum and dad’s.” He threw the packet on the table.

  “Thanks. What time will you be home tonight?” Jo tried desperately to sound casual. It was her greatest fear in life that she might turn into a nagging wife, but life with Mr. Slippery sometimes made this hard to avoid.

  “Not sure. Got a late meeting I think. Call you later.” And he was gone.

  She stood and stared down the hallway as the front door closed behind him, and wondered at what point they had stopped communicating with each other. He had stopped kissing her good-bye in the mornings some months ago, and it now seemed their lives were linked by little other than the children and a hefty mortgage.

  She sent the children upstairs for their morning ritual of washing faces and cleaning teeth, then wandered down the hallway to the large, sunny room at the front of their Victorian semi in leafy west London.

  She stood in the bay window and let other people’s lives wash over her for a moment. The block of flats opposite was always a good source of amusement, whether it was the gay couple in 4c having a loud row with all the windows open, or Mrs. Hobbs, the eighty-year-old woman who lived on the ground floor. Jo had made quite an effort to get to know her when they had first moved in, knowing she would be useful for keeping a curtain-twitching eye on the house whenever they were out. Then, one day, when they were chatting about the other residents in the block, Mrs. Hobbs had brought the subject round to the poetically-suited Derek and Eric in 4c.

  “They’re homosapiens you know,” she whispered conspiratorially, screwing up her deeply wrinkled face in disapproval.

  Jo laughed, and replied, “So am I.” Mrs. Hobbs had given her a wide berth ever since.

  This morning, a smartly dressed young couple came out of the communal doorway, both clutching briefcases and umbrellas. It was starting to drizzle slightly, and he took her umbrella from her, opened it out, and handed it back. It was a simple act of consideration, but one that reminded Jo of how detached her and Jeff’s lives had become. Those little gestures were so important. Someone pouring you a drink before you’d got around to
asking for one, running you a bath because you looked tired, or opening your umbrella before you even thought of doing it yourself. The last time Jeff had done anything for her had been about six months ago when she was struck down by food poisoning. And that was only because he had to, she thought ruefully. The young couple shared a tender kiss and went their separate ways.

  With a sigh, Jo walked back through to the kitchen, pausing briefly at the foot of the stairs. “Get a move on you two, your uniforms are on your beds.” She picked up the photographs from where they lay on the kitchen table, half-covering Sophie’s heart drawing which, after all that, Jeff had forgotten to take.

  The first two pictures were of her dad, Jim, peering around the door of his potting shed at her parents’ Oxford home, where he did more pottering than potting. It was his refuge from Jo’s mother, Pam, and he would spend his time reading old crime novels or trying to have a crafty fag without being nagged to death. Jo often wondered why they were still together as they seemed to have so little in common. A couple of years earlier she had asked her father that exact question and he’d replied, rather bitterly she thought, “Saves spoiling another couple.”

  The next few photographs showed her mother, pinched and uptight, standing with the children on the small patio area at the back of the house. She was not a naturally affectionate woman and obviously found it difficult having them to stay. Thomas hated going there because his grandparents’ television was too old to accommodate his PlayStation—a blessed relief as far as Jo was concerned. The thought of her mother catching sight of “Mortal Kombat” was right up there with another Status Quo comeback concert on the list of things you don’t want to see. And as for Sophie, Jo lived in constant fear of her breaking one of the hideous but plentiful ornaments that adorned the neat little bungalow with its ruched lace curtains and latticed windows.

  Adding to the stress of staying with her parents was the fact that Jo worked as an interior designer, and had been itching to get her hands on their dreadful decor for years.

  “Don’t come here with your fancy ideas,” her mother said sharply when Jo once dared to suggest redecorating. “We like it this way.”

  The rest of the photographs were taken up with Sophie’s sixth birthday party at the house, a couple of weeks after their Oxford visit.

  Jo and Jeff had invited fifteen of Sophie’s friends along and booked a children’s entertainer to keep them occupied. But on the morning of the party “Jolly Jake” had rung to say he had flu and couldn’t make it, so Jeff got out his old guitar and tried to amuse the children with his appalling rendition of “Smoke on the Water.” Within seconds of one of Sophie’s more forward friends declaring, “Your dad’s crap,” he had resorted to putting on the Spice Girls CD and took several photographs of all the children high-kicking their way around the room to the torturous strains of “Wannabe.”

  Jo’s brow furrowed as she patted the photographs into a neat pile to place back in the packet. There didn’t seem to be enough. She counted them. Nineteen prints out of a possible twenty-four. Strange, she thought. The film had been developed digitally so there were no negatives, just a small plastic cassette. The contact sheet that usually came with them was nowhere to be seen.

  “Can I see, mum?” Thomas had come back downstairs and was looking over her shoulder. Sophie stood in the doorway picking her nose, with her school skirt tucked into the back of her knickers.

  “No, we haven’t got time now. You can both see them when you get back from school. Come on.” Jo stuffed the photographs into her overflowing handbag and they all headed out of the door.

  It was still niggling her as she walked to the local shops after dropping off the children. Only nineteen prints and no contact sheet. Maybe the shop had cocked up the developing and were trying to pull a fast one. Most people would have let it go, but Jo could be obsessive about detail. Her best friend Rosie called her an anal retentive.

  So, fifteen minutes later, she walked through Boots to the photographic counter at the back. The place was quiet except for a confused pensioner with a problem she couldn’t quite get to grips with. The assistant was speaking in loud, deliberate tones.

  “You’ve used the same film twice, madam,” she bellowed, showing the woman a picture of herself in ghostly form standing over some bougainvillea.

  A bored second assistant came out from a back room. Silently, she extended a hand in Jo’s direction.

  “Hello, could I have another set of prints and a contact sheet off this please?” Jo handed over the little cassette.

  “When d’ya want ’em for?” She had six gold studs in one ear and a necklace which spelled out the name “Cheyenne.”

  “Um, is one hour OK?”

  “Cost ya.”

  “That’s fine. I’ll be back at about ten-thirty then.”

  She headed for a little French café just down the road, stopping briefly to buy a copy of the Sun. Heaven was a child-free time slot in which to read a newspaper from cover to cover.

  Before Thomas and Sophie came along, she and Jeff had always enjoyed the same Sunday routine. They would sleep in late, then one or other would go downstairs and make a breakfast of fresh coffee, warm croissants, and scrambled eggs with smoked salmon. Then they would sit and eat in silence, each reading a different section of the Sunday Times and only conversing when a particular article prompted discussion.

  Last Sunday, Thomas and Sophie had come into their room at 7 A.M., bickering about the ownership of a Cyberpet. Jo confiscated it from both of them and left Jeff to have a lie-in while she went downstairs and threw cereal into two bowls. As the children wolfed it down, she tried to read a three-day-old paper which had been left lying on the sideboard, but gave up after the fifth interruption from Sophie whining about her brother’s teasing.

  Ordering a caffe latte, she settled down in a quiet corner of the café and lost herself in the day’s news.

  By the time she lifted her head and checked the time, it was 10:20. Leaving payment and a generous tip, she left and crossed the road to Marks & Spencer to stock up on food for the next couple of days.

  It was the rule rather than the exception these days that she never knew when Jeff would walk in the door each night, so she’d pretty much given up any attempt at home-cooking. Instead she would buy a variety of precooked meals, and when she heard the key in the lock she’d take one out of the freezer, peel off the plastic film and stick it in the microwave. Frozen meal, frozen relationship.

  It was 10:45 by the time she found herself back at Boots’ photographic counter. Handing over the paper slip, she decided she’d look at the pictures there and then so she could point out any discrepancies immediately. Ripping open the packet, which definitely felt chunkier than the first one, she started sifting through the photos. Dad and his potting shed, mum and the kids, Sophie dancing to the Spice Girls. Nestling halfway through the pile, between the Oxford visit and Sophie’s birthday party, were the five missing photographs.

  She looked in her early twenties, with hazel eyes and blond curly hair down to her shoulders. In the first three pictures, she was lying on a brass bed that was covered in a thick white cotton throw. On the wall behind her head was a framed print of a Degas nude. Propped up by her elbow on two square white pillowcases, the girl was wearing a thin-strapped, green, floral dress, her long legs outstretched. There was nothing on her feet but pastel-pink varnish, and her laughing face reached out toward the camera. By the fourth picture, one of the straps had fallen down her arm, revealing the firm, round top of a young breast. Her eyes were fixed on the lens, her mouth slightly open in a provocative fashion. This picture was at a slightly different angle and her bedside table was visible. Lying on it was the Tag Heuer watch Jo had bought Jeff for his thirtieth birthday. In the final shot she was naked, her legs modestly tucked to one side. Her arms were stretched above her head, making her full breasts look perfectly shaped, and her eyes were full of mischief. A small area of pubic hair was just visible—enough to r
egister she was not a natural blond.

  She had absolutely no idea who the woman was, but Jo was sure of one thing. This picture was taken just seconds before she had passionate sex with whoever was behind the camera.

  She knew she had stumbled across something she shouldn’t have but, clutching at straws, she toyed with the idea that there had been some kind of mistake. It was what she needed to believe. She would go back to the counter and Cheyenne would tell her there had been a terrible mix-up.

  “Don’t worry, madam. Someone else’s pictures have been muddled up with your own,” she’d say, “so your husband hasn’t been having sex with someone else after all. Have a nice day.”

  Then she remembered the contact sheet that had been missing from the first packet Jeff had given her. Her fingers fumbling with nerves, she reopened the new batch and pulled out the small contact sheet tucked inside. Taking a deep breath, her eyes ran along the tiny images in front of her. The five pictures were there, right in the middle.

  Jo closed her eyes and started to sway unsteadily on her feet.

  “You alright?” The assistant’s voice startled her and she opened her eyes to find a concerned Cheyenne and her colleague staring at her.

  “F-f-fine thanks.” She had to get out of here.

  Tucking the pictures under her arm, she ran from the shop and didn’t stop until she reached the busy junction at the end of the main street.

  She had no idea how long she stood on the corner with cars speeding past her. It was as though the world had suddenly become a place she was no longer part of. Other shoppers looked curious as they walked past her, standing frozen, a carrier bag in each hand. Jo hardly registered them.

  God knows, she tried to come up with an explanation, but there was no doubt about it.

  Jeff was having an affair.

  She got through the next few hours on automatic pilot. The children were picked up from school, given tea, bathed, and finally—at 8:30—they were asleep.

  There was no sign of Jeff. He hadn’t even called. He used to call up and bluster about some “damn late meeting,” but now he’d stopped bothering. It was taken as read that he’d be late home most nights, and she was generally too exhausted to care. There was a repetitive pattern to their evenings that made one completely indistinguishable from another. The only variant was the TV schedules. If Jeff got home before Jo had collapsed, exhausted, into bed, they would exchange a cursory, “Hello, how was your day?” “Fine thanks,” conversation, then sit in silence watching the television. Inevitably, about an hour after getting home, Jeff would fall asleep on the sofa, his mouth open, emitting loud snores. Jo would sigh, turn down the volume on the TV, then go upstairs and leave him to it. Most of the time he would wake up in the early hours and creep in beside her. Some mornings she came down to find him still scrunched up on the sofa.