Forbidden Shifters Complete Series (Books 1-6): A Wolf Shifter Paranormal Romance

by Selena Scott

  “But I also knew,” Ben said in a torn tone of voice, “that if you ever figured it out, you were much less likely to turn us in. Because of your brother.”

  Jackson’s mind spun. “What were you doing before me?”

  “Bringing them to vets all over the state. No one more than once. Using fake names and info so we couldn’t be tracked.”

  Jackson’s eyes settled on the goose who was hiding in plain sight in one corner of the room. “Can you understand me?” he asked gruffly.

  The goose nodded his head.

  “I take it you can shift at will?”

  The goose nodded again.

  “Fine.” Jackson turned his attention back to Ben. “I’m going to come by your farm tonight. I want to reexamine the patient in his other form. The medical care I’ve given for a year… it’s been for animals, Ben. Not for…”

  He couldn’t bring himself to say shifter.

  He brought a hand up to his face. “I want to reexamine every single patient you’ve brought me. I set bones in their animal forms. Given stitches. Small surgeries. Who knows how that would affect their human forms?”

  He felt sick knowing that things he’d done to shifters in their animal forms may have permanently impacted their human forms. The truth was, he just didn’t know how to medically treat shifters. It was a highly specialized training. A mixture of a medical degree and a veterinary degree and it required one to work within the shifter camps. Not something Jackson had ever wanted.

  But that information was highly guarded. The government didn’t want people to be able to google how to care medically for shifters because it would be just another way to keep shifters a secret from the government.

  “You did the best you could,” Ben said. “And so did we. We had to make a decision here, Jackson, every time. Is it better to have buckshot removed in your animal form? Or to go to ER and be reported as a shifter? The choices are really shitty, but you’re the best choice. Every time.”

  “I’ll be by after work. Around six.”

  Ben nodded, a rising hope in his eyes that was momentarily dimmed. “Jackson, we’re a way station more than anything. Most of the shift—patients that you’ve seen are long gone. Healed and moved on.”

  “I understand. Anyone who is still there, I want to examine again. No false pretenses this time.”

  CHAPTER TEN

  Race knew his mistake from before. He’d attempted to hunt the Durant brothers on the full moon, when he’d be able to catch them in their shifts. He’d wanted, more than anything, to see that vulnerable, disgusting moment when their human bodies shifted into wolves. He wondered what would happen if a creature like that got a bullet through the brain mid-shift. Would they fall dead just like that? Would they be forever frozen in that unnatural transition?

  Either way, he’d been greedy before. Gone for the money shot when really what he’d needed was the first date.

  So, he wasn’t tracking them on the full moon. He was tracking them in their everyday lives. It made sense to him as a hunter. He was getting to know his prey. He was getting to know their likes and dislikes. Honestly, he was kicking himself for not doing it earlier. It was so freaking obvious what was important to these people.

  Their little ridiculous unit was what was important. They barely did anything without one another! The twins had their pretty little wives. The mother had her sons. And Jackson had… well, Race wasn’t sure what Jackson had except for his veterinary business.

  Which was where Race was sitting in his car. The complex where Jackson worked had a large parking lot, so technically he wasn’t even violating his restraining order. He watched Jackson’s clinic. He watched as a pretty nurse in scrubs walked from one end of the complex and entered the clinic. He watched as, half an hour later, she stormed out, a frown on her face. There was something familiar about her.

  He leaned forward over the steering wheel. He’d definitely seen her before. Right. She was the sister of the one who was married to one of the twins. She spent more time with the family than Jackson did.

  He frowned as he watched her stride back into the wellness clinic where she apparently worked. That wasn’t the only reason she’d looked familiar to him. The fact was, there was something about her walk, the graceful stride, that reminded him of—

  “No,” he muttered to himself. He pushed all thoughts of Michelle out of his head. “Not today.”

  Thinking of Michelle was enough to have Race spiraling downward for days. He’d disappear into his own thoughts, his own memories, his own mistakes, and he wouldn’t surface. He couldn’t risk that now. He shoved those thoughts aside. He needed to focus on the here and now.

  The afternoon light changed while he waited for Jackson to emerge from the clinic. Clients came and went, people dragging dogs on leashes and carting cats in their arms, wincing as they got scratched to hell.

  Race had never understood why the hell people kept pets. Animals were meant to be wild, meant to live outdoors. And they were certainly not meant to be coddled. He was a true believer in natural selection. May the best man win. If a dachshund couldn’t survive a winter on its own in this terrain, then it shouldn’t be surviving a winter in front of its owner’s fireplace. What a waste.

  He waited a few more hours and was rewarded when Jackson emerged from his office and slid into his black Jeep. He didn’t have any qualms about following Jackson because he was in Bill’s green Subaru and the vehicle was not recognizably tied to Race in any way. He followed Jackson to the other side of town, away from the mountains. He frowned as Jackson pulled onto a dirt road from the two-lane highway they’d been traveling on. That wasn’t great. It would be much more suspicious if he followed him now.

  Making a mental note of where he’d pulled off, Race just kept right on driving back to Bill’s house. He didn’t want to drive the Subaru to his own house because he wanted to keep it unassociated with him. Besides, Bill’s lonely ass was sure to have dinner there. It was an annoying price to pay, Bill’s friendship, but it was necessary. Bill was pliable and easily convinced into almost anything. Race pulled into the parking lot of Bill’s apartment complex and sat behind the wheel for a long minute. He closed his eyes. In his mind’s eye, a pure white wolf lay on its side, a scarlet pool leaking into the snow beneath it.

  ***

  By the time Jackson got home that night, his life was good and truly flipped on its head. He’d gone to Ben and Shelly’s farm and seen everything through new eyes. A shifter haven. A place for shifters to come and receive medical care. It had both energized and depressed him. The level of secrecy that his kind were forced to live their lives in was devastating.

  Even then, meeting with Shelly face to face, knowing that she, too, was a shifter, Jackson didn’t admit anything about who he was. It was a secret he left their farm with still intact.

  He stayed for a few hours, providing medical care and examinations for each of the shifters housed there. In their animal forms or in their human forms, whichever they were most comfortable in.

  He’d promised to come back.

  And then he’d gotten in his car and driven home, realizing that from now on, his life was going to be completely different. He felt a duty rising up in him. He could actually make a difference for shifters. He could actually change their worlds. If he was working with Ben and Shelly in his spare time, he could go from impotently hiding, cut off from the shifter world, just like the government wanted him to be, to being an active, helpful participant in a community of people who needed him. Who were just like him.

  What had struck him the most was that almost all of the shifters at Ben and Shelly’s farm were traveling alone. Jackson had always thought of himself as cursed. But now he could see, with startling clarity, that he was part of a pack. His family would always, always be there for him. He couldn’t think of a greater gift than that.

  And Bauer would be there, too. And so would Natalie. And so would Sarah. And so would Kaya.

  It was th
e last name that cracked his heart in two as he trudged into his dark house and stripped his clothes off for a shower. Because for a long time he’d gotten a sick kind of comfort out of the fact that she’d rejected him. He knew she was safe from him. But now he could feel the tides shifting within her. He knew that she wasn’t going to hold him back forever. At some point, she would understand what he’d said about them being mates. At some point, she’d want to be with him the way he wanted to be with her. He knew it was arrogant and mansplain-y to have these thoughts, but he couldn’t stop them. He knew it in his gut.

  Only, if they were together now, she wouldn’t just be implicated in keeping Jackson’s shifter secret, and Raph’s and Seth’s and Bauer’s. No, now she would be implicated in Jackson’s role in a ring of shifter medical care. If they were together now, he’d essentially be burdening her with the potential of life in prison.

  Could he possibly do that?

  Could he live with himself and do that?

  No. The answer was an unequivocal no.

  Jackson sagged against the shower wall until the water ran cold. He was going to have to push her away again. He’d had her for a few brilliant, high-def, full-color days. The best days of his entire life. No question. But he couldn’t keep her. What he’d always suspected was finally coming true. She was too good for him. Too special. Too perfect.

  He dragged his ass into some joggers and a sweatshirt, knowing he should eat but not feeling anything resembling hunger. He was standing in his dark kitchen, staring into the abyss of the open fridge, when someone nearly banged his front door off its hinges.

  Startled, he flipped on his porch light and almost laughed when he saw the expression of pure ire on Kaya’s face. He hadn’t expected her to show up at his door at all. And he certainly hadn’t expected her to show up looking like she was attempting to burn his house into matchsticks using nothing but the power of her own anger.

  “Kaya,” he said in surprise as he pulled the door open.

  She pushed into his house, kicking off her shoes and tossing her bag on the floor. Next came her coat, which Jackson caught before she laid it over her bag and took a minute to put everything in his hall closet. When he turned back to her, it was to see her stalking through his house, her arms crossed over her chest and a sour expression on her face. She wore jeggings, socks almost to her knee, and a huge, oversized sweater. Her hair was piled on top of her head in those two buns that always reminded Jackson of cat ears.

  He had to fight back a choppy breath at the sight of her inside his home. She’d never been here before.

  “To what do I owe this honor?” he asked her.

  She finished her queen-like survey of the first floor of his house before she rounded on him. Her eyes flashed brighter than he’d ever seen them before, her temper clear in every tiny movement she made. “You’re not seeing anyone else right now.”

  He felt his eyebrows shoot up into his hairline. Her words instantly catapulted Jackson into some of the highest, giddiest clouds he’d ever known. Never in his life had he imagined that Kaya Chalk would be in his house at night, jealous as a cat and making demands about their relationship.

  He wasn’t the most experienced at relationships but he knew better than to let on that this interaction was making him extremely, wildly happy. He kept his face as neutral as possible and slid his hands into the pockets of his joggers. “Are you asking for a rundown of my dating status?”

  She re-crossed her arms over her chest in the other direction, jutting her hip out to one side. “I’m not asking.”

  He bit his bottom lip to keep from outright laughing. She was so unbelievably desirable when she was making demands.

  “Are you hungry? I was about to figure out dinner.”

  She didn’t answer, just eyed him as he stepped around her toward the kitchen. She followed him in there. He took her silence as a yes that she didn’t want to give.

  He winced when he looked in his pantry. “Yikes. Maybe we should order in. I pretty much only have ramen.”

  Her face was still rigid with some sharp emotion and she didn’t answer.

  “I’ll order in from Costello’s,” he decided. “That way we can have salad with our sandwiches.”

  She frowned even harder. “You’re not going to even get one order of fries? You’re insane. They have the best fries on this side of town.”

  His phone already in hand, he blinked up at her. “You know, I never noticed before, but for a nutritionist, you kind of eat like crap.”

  “Yeah, well, I’m a nutritionist who’s still paying off her college debt. Crappy food is cheaper. I’ll eat healthier when I don’t cry at the sight of my bank statements.”

  She’d already turned away from him to inspect his kitchen and the adjoining dining room. So she didn’t see Jackson absolutely wilt. He’d never been rich, but he’d grown up never having to worry about money, which he knew meant he’d been unbelievably lucky. He’d gotten a full ride to undergrad and had taken loans out to pay for vet school, but he’d lived in California long enough to qualify for in-state tuition and with his vet’s salary, he’d been debt-free for the last few years.

  Even when he’d had debt, he’d never had to make sacrifices like whether or not he could afford to eat healthy food. It killed him that Kaya had to.

  He called in four sandwiches, four salads, and two orders of fries.

  “Lot of food,” she said as she came back in from the dining room.

  He shrugged and tried to look nonchalant. “I figure we’ll both need lunch tomorrow.”

  She frowned, as if she could sniff out his game from a mile away, but she didn’t comment on his charity.

  He noticed her hands had migrated from crossed over her chest to sitting on her hips. God, she was cute.

  “What the heck is up with your house?”

  He frowned. “What do you mean?”

  “Are you moving soon or something?”

  He frowned again, fearful that he knew exactly what she was getting at. “No.”

  “Well, it looks like a model home. Or like a display in an Ikea showroom or something. Where do you live?”

  His stomach sunk. He knew exactly what she was referring to. He sagged backward onto the counter. “Yeah. I know what you mean. Seth and Raph say the same thing. I don’t know. I would have been better off, happier, in a studio like yours. But I just thought of buying a house as like a status symbol or something. A way to show everybody that I was on the right track and that there was nothing to worry about.”

  She looked around. “But then you made everyone worry because your house is so depressing?”

  He laughed. “Yup. I guess so. I’m not naturally neat like Seth. I mean, I’m not a total slob like Raph and Natalie either.”

  Kaya laughed and Jackson continued. “But I knew that I wanted my house to seem like an adult’s house. So I hired a decorator and tried not to screw up what she did.”

  “So, you never really go in those rooms?”

  She pointed back toward the living room and dining room.

  He shook his head. “Not really. You asked where in my house I actually live? Well, yeah. I work out in the garage, go for runs in the neighborhood, use the bathroom, obviously, eat dinner over my sink most nights, and I sleep in my bedroom. The end.”

  “Where do you watch television?”

  “I don’t, really.”

  She frowned at him. “Where do you read?”

  “In my bed.”

  She scowled at him. “When the food gets here, we’re going to eat it on your humongous couch in your sterile living room in front of your TV. Like normal people.”

  He laughed. But he immediately sobered as an enormous wave of tenderness and affection rose up within him. He liked this irritated, prickly side of her. He liked ordering her extra sandwiches and he liked her bossing him around about the proper way to live in his own house. This was what it would feel like to have her in his life in a real way.

  His
heart crumpled like a cereal box that had just been stomped on. Because this was going to be his last night of having her in his life. He’d feed her, send her on her way with lunch for tomorrow, and firmly kick her out of his life again.

  “Are you still mad at me?” he asked softly.

  She was leaning against the opposite counter, her arms crossed again. She scowled. “I was never mad. I was simply informing you that as long as this is happening,” she pointed between the two of them, “then none of that is happening.” She pointed outside.

  “That? What’s ‘that?’”

  She scowled harder and took a step toward him. “Other women. I… don’t know what your habits have been.” She said the word ‘habits’ like it was something disgusting she’d found on the bottom of her shoe. “But for as long as this is going on, I’m the only woman in your life.”

  At this point, she was just a few feet away from him and even though his hands had been fisted in his pockets, he couldn’t resist swiping out with one arm and dragging her into him. He knew it ran counter to his ultimate goal for tonight, but he couldn’t stop himself from telling her the truth. “Kaya, you’ve been the only woman in my life for a very long time.”

  She rolled her eyes.

  “That’s not a line!” he insisted.

  “I don’t expect you to have been celibate, Jackson. I’m just saying, I don’t share very well. It’s a deal breaker for me.”

  He suddenly, desperately, needed her to understand. He tightened his arms around her waist. “Kaya, I’ve hooked up here and there over the years. But I’m dead serious when I say that being faithful to you would not be an issue for me in the least.” The wolf inside of him wanted her to tell him the same thing. He wanted her fidelity, her focus, her time. But he knew how unfair that would be when he was going to kick her out of his life after dinner.

  She pursed her lips more.

  “What brought this on, Kaya?”