Pawn pulls me against his body. Our hips graze with every sway. Every ridged muscle I can feel against my back. His soft touch roaming from my hips to my waist. My body is a map he can’t stop himself from exploring. This time his hands have strength and purpose. Pawn nips at my neck, “I’m going to love you. I can’t have enough of you.” He nips more, “I’m going to hold you every night in my arms.”
My head falls back as he kisses up my neck, “I’ll never leave your side. I’m going to love you as if there is no tomorrow. I love you, angel.” Pawn rasps into my ear, “A love with no regrets.”
I snap my head up and gaze into the eyes that holds all the promises. All the doubts and outbursts have collided and evaporated, I can see the change behind his blue eyes.
My heart explodes like he unlocked some safe where my heart has been hidden away. And as scary as it is, I can’t seem to care. My hands dive for his face dragging his lips to me. The collision is a finale of the storm that has been brewing for years. Lightning has struck and I can’t help to feel like it is us right here in this bar, finally our love has become real.
There is no denying the passion that races through the twists of our tongues and our hands the tug at our clothing. I jump up onto his body, wrapping my legs around his waist. He holds onto my ass as we continue the kiss.
Off into the distance there is cat calls and whistles. “I love you, Pawn,” I whisper against his lips. The song ends, and slowly I let go, my feet hitting the floor, but I feel like my heart is soaring. Pawn, his handsome face, he smiles for me, a smile I have never seen. A genuine happy all-teeth smile. Tugging his hand, I start to back up towards the door and he follows along. This time his eyebrows rise, asking me, “Oh, really?”
I give him a coy smirk and mouth, “Oh, yes.”
We turn and race out the doors of the bar hand-in-hand. At some point, it started raining. A miracle in the desert and unlucky because we have his bike, but we take it anyway. He jumps on first as we are pelted with rain and drenching our clothes.
I swing a leg over, then we jet out of the parking lot. Every turn I hold on tight but on the strait away I touch him anyway I can. Not able to keep my hands to myself. Teasing him with every touch the whole way.
My fingers find his nipples under his shirt and I lightly tug and pinch them. He accelerates the gas and I laugh out loud, the excitement chasing us. Drunk on each other’s reactions. I run my palms down his legs and up and over the crotch of his pants a few times right before we take the turn to our house.
He slams on the brakes and I jump off as fast as I can, knowing that I taunted the beast, making a run for the door. My hair is glued to my face, and the rain runs into my eyes. I fumble with the keys and I shriek as he runs up the sidewalk. His feet splashing in the puddles on the way. Finally, I unlock the door. It slams open, hitting the wall when I run past with him just a hair behind me.
His iron fist tight grip on my arm tugs me back. Whipping me around, slamming my back into the wall behind me. Pawn is panting as he rips off his soaked shirt and I follow suit. Tearing away first my shirt and kicking off my boots. It’s now a race to who can undress the fastest. Clothes hit the floor with a splat from the rain.
Down to our underwear, we collide. Pawn picks me up by my thighs and he grunts, “Mine.”
“Yes,” I hiss. “Yours. Give me your all.” The feel of his strength under me, pushing me to take it further.
His nails dig into the meat of my ass and he takes off to our room, tossing me onto the bed. Pawn tears the thin black strips of my underwear away from my body and I reach behind my back to unsnap my bra. Throwing it away into the darkness.
Pawn covers my body with his and sucks on my nipple. His teeth scraping across the sensitive flesh, lighting my pussy on fire. I need more. He feels my hips grind, searching. His fingers run through my folds before pumping them in and out of my pussy. My hands dive into his short hair tugging the hair on his head.
He finds the other one and sucks hard before biting down slightly and pulling his teeth over my nipple. My body freezes and goosebumps ripple over my skin. Pawn kisses down the center of chest, reaching my pussy. He gives no mercy and dives in, his tongue laving my clit. Bringing me to indescribable pleasure and quickly licks and circles my clit. His finger slightly moves down and my heart pounds. Anticipating where he is going. Then he finds my virgin asshole.
I pant, “Oh God, yes.” Everything I have ever fantasized right here, right now.
He hums and with the sensation of that and him slowly entering me there I arch my back. Gently, he finger-fucks my asshole while his tongue is relentless and brings me to orgasm so hard, my pussy is convulsing with the orgasm as my body contracts.
Pawn spreads my legs apart even further and pushes himself into my once recovering body. He holds my knees while fucking me with all his strength. I reach out and clench onto the sheets holding on.
Quickly, he pulls out and has me flipped over on my hands and knees when he re-enters me from behind. Pawn grabs and then pulls the hair at the back of my head, arching me into him.
It’s brutal, raw, and love all wrapped up into one perfect fuck. One love. He doesn’t slowdown or loosen the fierce hold he has on me and the angle soon has me panting and begging for more. And more.
My legs seize and I come a second time around his dick. He moans from the pressure of me squeezing him. He lets go of my hair and hammers into my pussy. Taking what is his. Pawn releases what has been a long time coming. He gives me what I always wanted, him. Who he really is. Dirty, raw, passionate, and beautiful.
Never apart, never again.
Us.
Chapter 27
Pawn
Tami lies on her stomach completely naked from the night before. The sheet on an angle doesn’t cover much. Her blonde hair now awry and a mess. My gaze memorizes this moment, every inch of her. My dirty angel.
She has one knee bent and her arms are up around the pillow supporting her snoring. Chuckling, I watch a few more moments, but lust wins out and I need her. My tongue snakes out and I lick up her side from her hip to the flesh that pokes out from her breast.
She giggles and swats me away, but the awkward angle prevents her from hitting my face. Capturing her wrist, I place it gently behind her back and dive back in teasing her some more. I run the scruff of my beard over the same spot.
I’m surprised by her reaction when she moans. My angel has a little kink in her that is begging to be unlocked. That makes my dick rock hard within seconds. We began a little play to test this idea. Taking her other wrist, I pin it with the other one and torture her the same way on the other side. Again, she moans, and I know she’s ready for more.
But this morning, I know she needs more. My girl needs to feel me, to hear me say the words. I know this because I need them from her too. Kissing the middle of her back, I release my hold and she turns over on her back.
Tami reaches for me, “Your eyes have more wrinkles.” Soft fingers lightly run over my skin. She glances at my body and does the same as me and explores the changes. “You’ve packed on more muscles.”
I don’t want to tell her that was all from lifting in prison or go down that road. Her fingers feather over the angel tattoo on my chest for her. Bending forward, I lay a tender kiss above her heart.
“I want you, Tami, all to myself.” I move to position myself between her legs and hover above her. “I want us to live together and be a family.”
She gasps, “I don’t want you to leave. I want you here, always, with me and Cash.”
“I want that too. A love with no regrets.” Tasting her lips, I rasp, “I love you.”
She trembles slightly, “I love you too,” before wrapping her legs around my body and pulls me inside of her. Fucking perfect, heaven and hell, my woman, my universe.
Tami takes me to places I never even dreamed could ever be possible. We take our time together this morning before we decide we need to pick up Cash. We take my bike over to Emi
lia and Cuervo’s house. It’s very close to the bar, where Tami left her car parked last night. As soon as I park the bike, Tami jumps off and then sways a bit on her feet. She holds onto my shoulder a moment to steady herself.
Taking off my helmet, I get off and help her with hers. Holding her face into my hands I ask, “Are you okay, angel?”
She pulls me into her body and takes a breath, “Yeah, maybe just too much fun last night. I just felt a little dizzy and nauseous for a second.”
“Grab Cash, and we’ll go get you some food.” Kissing the top of her head, my arms possessively encase her into me. It’s probably nothing, but the fear is there, and that new feeling is a learning curve, one I have never experienced before.
Tami stands up on her tip toes, plants a quick kiss on my cheek, and leaves her keys with me before going in to grab our son. I turn on the car and open the back door as they come down the steps. She hands me his bag and a toy pops out, hitting the ground.
Bending over, I reach for the toy and notice a piece broke off the corner. “Is this new?” It doesn’t look like one I’ve seen him playing with it before.
“Oh, I don’t know. Maybe Emilia got the toys mixed up with one of the other kids that she watches? I’ll take it back inside. It also could have been a toy he got on his birthday.” Tami is about to exchange Cash with me for the toy, but I shake my head no and hold onto it. Looking closer, I realize there is a small device inside the toy. I need to get this over to the MC as soon as possible without her knowing so she won’t worry.
“Nah, the corner broke. I’ll ask her who it belongs to and buy them a new one if we need to. Jump in the car and let’s go eat.” I keep my voice as even as possible. Worry snakes up my spine and it all could be for nothing. My gut tells me otherwise and I can’t afford anything to go wrong. Not now, not when I got everything back.
Purposely, I place the bags in the trunk, “I need to make a quick call.” I walk a few steps away and glance over to see that she’s buckling him, and I wave when Blade picks up. Tami’s face doesn’t look convinced that everything is okay, but allows me some privacy.
“We may have a problem.” I fill in the Prez on what I found, and he instructs me to go to the diner. He’ll have the prospects pick up the toy without Tami knowing and get the brothers over to Cuervo’s STAT for a sweep.
Thank fuck, I release the breath I was holding. I couldn’t take it, if something bad happened to Tami or Cash. Feeling a little more relaxed, I take them out for breakfast like promised, but I do keep my focus more on the surroundings than I normally would have.
Even though I don’t think they are in any danger after I drop them off, a prospect keeps an eye on the house when I leave to work at the clubhouse. If I am away it at least makes me feel better that someone has eyes on them until I return. Shortly after arriving, Blade announces we are having Church and we follow him into the room. The whole time I’m waiting and expecting to hear the worst. What could they have found though?
The door is shut and a tense Prez addresses the group. “A bug and tracker were found this morning.” Blade fills them in on the toy from earlier. “We didn’t find anything in Cuervo’s house. Someone is tracking or targeting us or Pawn through the kids. No one knows for certain where the toy came from. I’m guessing not long if it was just noticed. Just because it was found in a toy, I’m not limiting anything or anyone. Everyone start digging and looking into any possibilities. It could be one of others planted.”
Spider tosses in his part to update the brothers. “I get the job of scanning all the shit’s toys,” he explains, exasperated. “Everyone needs to go home and sweep their houses and vehicles. Report back ASAP if you find anything out of the ordinary.”
“Keep surveillance on high alert until we have more.” Tank adds in, “Kat can help Spider.”
Blade nods a confirmation and finishes, “Don’t ever think that you are not the one targeted, odds are, you are the one. Think about who it could be in your life. Every single one of us. As our family has grown, so has our enemies.” He lets out a puff of smoke and sits back in his chair then dismisses us all.
Tami wouldn’t have any enemies. I have a whole lifetime of people to comb through and start at the most recent. It scares the shit out of me that they could be after me and doing it through them. How did they get so close and a plant a toy that we never knew about it? I can’t let my past touch them or anyone else’s not when the world I’ve wanted just appeared.
Chapter 28
Tami
The nausea rolls through me and has been getting progressively worse the last few weeks. It hasn’t been terrible but even brushing my teeth some mornings has been a challenge not to gag. I thought that maybe I grabbed a bug from one of the kids or just nervous maybe from all the changes lately. But I don’t think that is it.
Pawn moved out of his own house and we have been doing great. So that’s how I find myself here at the urgent family care. What if I have a terminal illness and something happens to me and Cash doesn’t have a mom? Who will take care of him? I’m about to bawl my eyes out with all these crazy possibilities when the nurse calls my name.
Blinking away the hysteria, I walk back with her. “Hello, I’m Teagan. Let’s get started and have you stand on the scale.” She smiles brightly and helps by taking my purse while I stand there. Teagan then takes me to an exam room. She jots down a few notes on her iPad and asks me a few questions about my symptoms.
I describe in detail for her how I have been feeling. “The nausea and dizziness comes and goes, depending on how busy you are?” Teagan is very sweet and understanding. I feel comfortable right away.
When she asks about my last period, I feel a little embarrassed and probably explain too much. “It has been a little while since I’ve kept track of it.” I stumble with the correct words. How do I say that my boyfriend died, and I am the mother of my now boyfriend’s kid but he’s not my kid? On paper I gave birth to him, but I didn’t. After a few failed attempts, I just rush out, “My world has been upside down and I don’t know.”
Teagan reads clearly the distress I am under and places a hand on my arm, “It will be okay. Could you pee in this cup for me?”
She leads me across the hall to the bathroom and gives me the instructions. She then lets me know that she and the doctor will be in after a few minutes. It startles me to my core that at my age, I haven’t seen a doctor, except in emergencies and that’s been only a few times in my life. I don’t know my weight or keep track of anything. If you asked me about Cash, I could tell you everything. He’s gone to the doctor at least five times since he’s been born.
I promise myself to find a regular doctor after today. After I have done as instructed, I go back into the room and wait. Thankfully, it doesn’t take too long and an older short male doctor walks in with all gray hair.
He’s very pleasant and checks my eyes, ears, and heartbeat. After a few more questions, Teagan knocks, coming back into the room and hands the doctor a report.
“Tami, there is nothing physically wrong with you. But there is something we need to address.” He scans the paper and then addresses me.
I gulp back the tears, scared it will change my world.
“You are having a baby. Congratulations, mom.” He smiles and shakes my hand. “Teagan will give you some information and set you up with a doctor for care.” He smiles happily and leaves us alone.
I blink, oh my God, I blink again. Breathe in and breathe out, don’t freak out, Tami. I try to coach myself for several seconds, but it’s not helping, not one bit. I am freaking the fuck out. My mind races so swiftly I can’t even land on a spot, except I am carrying Pawn’s baby. Oh my God, does he even want kids? I don’t know…
“Go ahead, girl, you’re freaking out and I get it. Let it out, so when you leave here I won’t worry.” Teagan rests a hip against the counter and waits patiently.
“I-I just moved in with my baby’s daddy. We weren’t together long. How far along am
I? I-I don’t get it?” Holding my hands out to her, I look to her to help me piece this together.
"Without knowing specific dates, we can only estimate how far along you are. However, your OB/Gyn will be able to tell you after they run some blood work and do an ultrasound. Having said that, morning sickness usually appears around the sixth week," she explains easily.
I’m about to tell her that we just had sex for the first time when I freeze and realization smacks me in the face, “We had sex about a month and a half ago.” I let out a long exhale, “God. What am I going to tell him?”
Teagan sits in the stool across from me. She looks me sternly in the eye, “You are going to realize that a baby is a gift. You are happy and excited and can’t wait to tell your baby’s daddy the good news. Make it special for him and celebrate girl! As for the rest of it, you’ll have a lot of doctor appointments and feel a little miserable.” She laughs at herself, “But it will be the best damn thing to happen in your life.”
She waits for me to let that sink in a moment and butterflies do start to flutter around the idea. I do grow a little excitement at the idea of us and another baby. Cash will have a sibling. I get to feel what it is like to carry a baby. Pawn gets to see it all and he can experience the good things from it.
“Now, I’ll give you a few cards for doctors. You can pick whichever or find your own. But make your appointment this week.” She stands and gives me a few pamphlets on pregnancy and orders me to drive straight to the store and buy vitamins.
First, I run to the drugstore and buy the vitamins. Then I text Vegas that I need to talk to her right away and where she is at. She confirms within seconds that she is at the brewery working. I need to ask her about how she told Blade. My girl will know what to do. In the very least she will understand what I’m dealing with and the crazy that won’t seem to calm down inside.
I’m not even sure how I managed to get here. It seemed like all the streets blurred and only took seconds. When in reality, it took me at least thirty minutes to get here.
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