Sloth

by James, Ella

  His mouth sucks toward the collar of my shirt.

  I grip the solid muscle of his shoulder. “I—I can’t.”

  His thumb strokes the line of my lips. His fingers part them; he’s working his way inside, teasing against the fabric of my leggings.

  With the hand still between my legs, he wraps his other arm around me and he pulls me onto his lap. The arm that’s not across my belly, reaching between my legs, is around my chest, kneading my breast. His hard length presses against my backside.

  The cotton of my leggings is wet and pliant. The pressure of his fingers is just right, making me lift my hips. I swallow back a moan.

  “Kellan...I can’t—” If I do this with him, I’ll be snared. I can tell already, from the way I feel about him. He’s a dangerous temptation, in so many ways. I don’t need that. Don’t want that, I try to tell myself.

  “Tell me ‘no,’ Cleo.”

  He rocks himself against me, then peels down the waist of my leggings so he can reach inside. His palm brushes my mound as his fingers find their mark. He strokes down toward my center. His finger smears my slickness, making me quiver and pant.

  “It’s okay...” he rumbles. “Focus on my fingers.”

  He spreads my lips and glides down through my moisture... skating. Then he’s dipping down and curving. His fingertip is pushing into me. He adds another, shoves them deep.

  I groan and buck against him.

  “That’s right.”

  He shifts his hips, so his huge cock pushes harder against my ass.

  “Cleo... You’re so warm inside...so tight.” His fingers wriggle deeper. I let my legs fall open. I can’t help it. He pushes even deeper as he whispers filth into my ear and glides his thumb over my clit. My body catches fire.

  I feel the outline of him pressed against my ass: the long, thick shaft; the plump, round head.

  I feel his fingers curl inside me.

  “Ahhhhh.” I don’t mean to make a sound, but a moan spills out, turning the air around us into honey.

  “You like getting finger-fucked,” he growls. “You love it.”

  His thumb glides up and down my slit, then rolls around my swollen clit. I rock my hips, pushing my ass against his hardness.

  “What if I rub a little faster... here?” His thumb drags, heavy and slick, over my swollen nub. “What if I quit teasing you,” his low voice whispers, “and try something like this?”

  He bends his wrist a little, and I can feel another finger push inside. “I can feel how much I’m stretching you,” he whispers in my ear.

  “Oh.” He’s right. I’m full. So full. I feel both paralyzed and electrified. Like I’m gripping a live wire.

  He pumps his fingers, shoving them in, then dragging them slowly out. I arch my back. “Oh God, please...”

  His thumb, encircling my clit, is deft and slick. I rock mindlessly against him.

  “So full...”

  He pulls his fingers almost out, the tips of them only just inside... teasing. I clench, wanting him deeper.

  “Say my name,” he orders.

  “Kellan,” I pant.

  All three fingers thrust at once. My pleasure squirts against his expert hand.

  “Deeper.” My voice cracks.

  He slides out a little. Strokes back in.

  His thumb is playing in my moisture, painting my clit. My throbbing clit.

  His fingers stroke against my walls, making me dizzy.

  “You want my cock inside you. You can’t take much more. You’re so tight, Cleo. So greedy. Look how fat this clit is. Your cunt is so tight around my fingers, I can barely move them.”

  He demonstrates, and I groan and arch my back. I’m clutching his arm. Wrapping my feet around his calves. I throw my head back, panting.

  “I love you like this. So helpless. I bet you would do anything to keep my fingers inside you. Would you call me Master?”

  My mind struggles to think beyond the pleasure in between my legs.

  “Call me Master, Cleo.”

  I clutch his hand. I’m rocking against him, desperate to feel his fingers deeper. He’s right: I’m so needy I’m about to scream.

  He pulls one finger out. His thumb, stroking my clit, freezes in place. He pulls out a second finger, and I bark out, “Master!”

  “That’s right.”

  I’m aware of the pressure of his length against my backside. He draws his third finger out and I whimper. He huffs, a smoky sound, and eases me down to the floor.

  I’m on my knees, my shawl hanging around me, my leggings pushed down past my hips. I feel him join me on the carpet. His chest brushes my shoulders. His arms wrap around me and his fingers trace the band of my leggings. Goosebumps cover my back.

  His fingers sweep back into my leggings; he peels them down further. He pauses when he gets them to my knees, and his fingertips dance over my ass. His dick is a velvet sword, brandished against my backside as he pulls my boots off, then slides the leggings off my feet. I hear a whoosh as he tosses them behind us.

  His hands grasp my shoulders. “Get down on your hands and knees and show me that ass.”

  He reaches between my thighs, stroking through my wetness as I hear a rip, and then a snap of latex.

  I press my palms against the carpet and thrust my ass into the air. I no longer remember why I thought this was a bad idea. I’m so wet, I’m gushing on his fingers. He pushes two of them inside me and then starts to pump, delicious pressure given and removed at his will.

  My clit throbs with my heartbeat, and he strokes it sometimes, gliding mercilessly over me while he rubs his huge, condom-sheathed cock against my ass. I center on how stiff and long he is, the head of him rubbing up and down my crack.

  He draws his fingers from my folds, then plays at my clit with practiced grace. I sag down on my elbows as my knees tremble.

  “That’s right,” he murmurs, rubbing his length along my ass. “Open those legs for me.”

  His voice is so smooth. Hypnotizing. I obey him frantically, spreading my legs a little more. He hooks two thick fingers into my pussy, finding my G-spot and rubbing slowly.

  “Kellan...”

  His fingers writhe inside me, moving all at once in slightly different directions. With the small part of my brain that isn’t drugged numb by the writhing of his hand, I can feel pressure against my asshole.

  “God!”

  He rubs his thumb in a warm, wet circle, making my muddled mind race with want. With fear.

  “Relax,” he purrs. “You’re going to like this.”

  And then, at the same time the pressure gives and his thumb invades my virgin hole, he stuffs his big, thick dick into my cunt.

  Stars explode behind my eyes.

  I slide down to the floor.

  He twines an arm around my hips, pinning me against him as he thrusts so hard and deep my eyes roll back into my head—then drags out slowly, inch by hard, thick inch, then punches in. I screech, because I’m not sure I can take him...but I am. Thrust in—my toes curl—slow draw out. I clench around the head of him.

  “More,” I whimper.

  “Told you.” The words are warm and husky on my nape.

  He thrusts again—and my legs quiver. I’ve never felt so full: as if I’m stretched around him. He’s so deep... When he moves in and out, my body melts around him.

  “Oh my God...”

  “You’re tight,” he rasps. “You’re like a fucking...virgin.” And it kills me, how his voice shakes on the word.

  I clench around him and he moans. He pushes deeper, freezing there for a long moment. I feel him trembling behind me—feel him take a deep, slow breath—and then he drags his cock back out and slams in hard.

  I gasp, he groans—a symphony of sin.

  The arm that’s holding me against him tightens and he starts to fuck like a machine. His cock is a piston, pumping in and out with so much grace and force my body can’t withstand it. I’d be in a puddle on the carpet were he not holding me again
st him.

  I can feel myself shaking... sweating; hear my own moans rise up in the room. They mingle with his loud breathing, the moans he makes when I clamp down around him.

  His finger, buried in my backside, jerks with every thrust. Finally accustomed to his length and girth, I’m hungry for him: clamping as he draws out, pushing back against him as he plunges in. It’s never been like this...

  “You’re...a fucking...slut,” he groans. “Tight cunt... Cleo. Goddamn...ah, Cleo...”

  “Fuck me,” I whisper.

  “Yes...oh fuck.”

  My palms graze the carpet as I sag forward. The arm around my hips tightens, his hand gripping my hipbone. His cock batters me... and it’s incredible; it’s merciless; it’s terrible. I’m getting sensitive—so sensitive. I can feel my clit throbbing... my pussy roaring as he uses it so hard tears pop into my eyes.

  Somewhere far away, I hear his low breaths turn to mostly groans... I feel him strain against his pleasure: sweating, shaking. He shoves his thumb deeper and pounds so hard and fast I feel a drop of sweat land on my back. I try to clamp my thighs around him...anything. Fuck—anything to get him... just a little deeper.

  “Fuck!”

  He’s so hard now... I gasp each time he fills me up, momentum building like an ocean wave... I want him deeper... need him deeper. I push back against him, and the world goes white and hot. I’m almost there. My clit is pounding like its own heartbeat.

  His cock is like a punch. “I want it...”

  “Yes...fuck. Ohh God.” He pounds so hard I fumble forward and his hand on my hip slides down to my thigh.

  He snarls and grabs me back against him, in and out...another in...he shoves so hard I feel my eyes roll back.

  And then I feel him twitch inside me. It’s the most erotic thing I’ve ever felt: the way his cock pulses, then swells as he comes, panting and clutching my hip.

  “Oh God.” His voice is hoarse: delicious.

  I come in the rush of a tsunami overtaking islands.

  As I pulse around him, I feel his thighs tremble. “Oh fuck...”

  His chest pumps against my backside, and then his forehead drops down to my back. He’s shaking hard—his legs, his hips. He’s like an animal, spent and ravaged by adrenaline. His forehead nuzzles me, digging into my back in time with his ragged breaths. And I’m surprised to find: I love it. That I did this to him. That I made him as crazy as he made me.

  The feeling spreads through me like melting butter. I feel warm and sleepy. Kind of—no, not kind of—GOOD.

  My head begins to whirl...the room is tilting. I can’t breathe. I feel the weight of him move off me and I feel him sliding out.

  He says, “fuck.” He sounds surprised, I think as I blink wet eyelashes in the dark.

  He clears his throat, and when he speaks, his voice sounds stronger than I thought it would. “Press down against me, Cleo.” I’m so dazed, at first I’m not sure what he means. “My finger. Bear down against it.” I do what he asks, and seconds later, I am startlingly empty.

  I can hear him rustling behind me. I push up on my elbows, turn myself around, toward the little bench...but I can’t seem to move. I lie there on the carpet like a turtle in its shell. My heart is beating way too hard. My eyes cast up, I clutch my shawl around myself. I can see the outline of his body, darker than the dark. He’s bending down, combing the floor—for his clothes? Mine?

  I imagine Kellan pulling my leggings back over my feet... tugging them up my calves. The way his long-lashed eyes would crinkle slightly as he stretched the fabric over my thighs, the way his lips would curve into that perfect, cocky smile. The smile morphs: gentler. His hands are warm and kind. As if he wants me, more than just my body.

  I’m insane. Obviously, he’s driven me insane with sex. I mean... my God above, his dick is something else. I feel deflowered. My lips curl into a mad little smile. I shake my head. I just got my brains fucked out. By Kellan Walsh. I blink at his moving form and wonder who the fuck is he? Why did I react this way?

  The sex was just intense. That’s what I tell myself as I get to my feet. My cheeks and neck are hot, my body is unsteady, but the sex we had was so intense, of course I would react differently. I’ve been with other guys. Kellan’s more intense. It’s messing with my head.

  I step over to the wall beside the door and drag my palm along it, feeling for a light switch. When the room lights up, I draw my first deep breath since being pulled atop his lap.

  See? I’m totally good now. When I turn around, things will be just the way they were while we were studying. Just business. Okay—maybe some occasional heart-thumping... but definitely nothing serious. These squishy-wishy feelings I’ve been having in the last few minutes: they’ll be gone. Because I don’t even know him. And what I do know, I don’t like. There’s no reason I should feel drawn to him in any way.

  I stand there facing the wall, breathing slowly, and allow myself to admit that I’ve been lonely. Really lonely. The kind of lonely that always feels like after Olive died, when Mom and Grans were never home and I would find Mary Claire standing in the street “on accident,” and I would curl up in my bed at night and pray for someone to come take me to another house. Any time life gets quiet, the image of that sharpens in my memory. I start needing things I can’t get. Things I think maybe no one ever gets. Things that don’t have names.

  So maybe I’ve been a little like that lately.

  So his hands on me felt good. No big deal.

  Deep breath... blow it out my nose... five, four, three, two, one...

  I turn slowly and it’s almost a shock to see him there. My nerves spark as I look him over: Kellan in his unzipped slacks. He’s freaking beautiful. And perfect. Those wide shoulders, and his heavy chest—that look is one I love. The way his abs are dusted with gold-brown hair, trailing down...

  I jerk my eyes up to his face and find his mouth curved into a gentle, sideways smile. His eyes seem to twinkle. Is that a smug look? Happy? His smile widens and I realize that it’s both. He’s pleased with himself, and he looks also pleased with me. I had you, and I liked you. Yeah, you. That’s what his face says.

  My leggings are draped around one of his forearms; there’s a tissue in his hand. He steps to me. I tell myself to look down at my feet, but my eyes look to his eyes. Low-lidded. He looks satiated. His hand, clutching the tissue, raises.

  “I would have cleaned you up.” He trails the tissue along my chin, the motion soft and teasing. And he smirks. It’s...intimate, that smirk. As if he knows me.

  “I’ll take care of you while you’re with me. You’ll like it,” he says. He drops a light kiss on my forehead, and I take a step back.

  “When I’m with you, my ass.” I hold my hands out, as if his tissue will hurt me. “I’m not going with you! I’m not going to your house. I can’t do this. This.” I wave wildly at the room, then snatch my leggings from his arm. “I’m not a crazy person, Kellan Walsh, you make me feel crazy!”

  When my eyes return to his face, I’m surprised to find he looks thoughtful—almost relaxed; the bastard. “You’re a person who likes pleasure,” he says, reaching for my shoulder. I step back, though it doesn’t get his eyes off mine. “What’s so crazy about that?”

  I blink at him, because it’s too hard to explain. “I know guys like you,” I stammer. Guys like Kellan Walsh are bad for girls like me. It’s a cliché, even. “Doing this in here—” having wild sex in the library—“it’s not my thing. I’m not that kind of girl. I know you’ve been with tons of them. You’ve got the wrong girl, Kellan.”

  He chuckles, tilting his head a little to one side. He folds his arms. “Oh, Cleo. You have no idea what kind of girl I like. You are my kind of girl. And you know what I think?” His sea blue eyes look through me. “I think you’re surprised how much you liked what we just did.”

  It’s true. There is nothing I can say to deny that, and I’m too strung out to lie. I shake my head. “I told you, I don’t like surprises.�
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  “I thought surprises were okay as long as they’re good,” he says. His face is hung between emotions, totally unreadable to me. So I’m honest. I turn slightly away and yank my leggings on as I say, “Maybe they aren’t. Maybe they’re never okay.”

  I turn back around to face him just as his face tightens, unreadable to gravely serious. “Someone hurt you,” he says, low. “Tell me who. Did you lose someone, Cleo?”

  “What are you talking about?” My voice rises, then cracks.

  He blinks, and stares right through me. Right down to my bones. “It was a surprise, wasn’t it? Was it your dad?”

  My throat knots as my pulse goes haywire. “How...do you know that?”

  “The poem in the painting.” His eyes blink again. “That Plath poem. A Post It note from ‘Mom’ was in your textbook, so I know she’s still around.” His gaze pulls at mine as his lips fold down, apologetic now, remorseful. “It was just a guess.”

  Uncanny. I push the thought away and focus on his chest. His stupid, gorgeous chest. “I don’t like you guessing.”

  “Why not?”

  “I don’t like you.”

  He steps closer to me, moving cautiously, as if he knows I’m a flight risk. “I don’t think that’s true.” He wraps an arm around my back and spreads his hand over my shoulder blade. He brings me gently against him, so my breasts press against his warm, hard abs, and then—before I can move away—he smooths his thumb along my jaw, tipping my head up. His mouth finds mine. He kisses me so gently I drift toward the ceiling. I grab onto him, his elbow, and pull away panting.

  His thumb brushes my lips. “Three weeks, Cleo.” His eyes burn. “Three weeks you’re mine. We’ll start tomorrow.”

  I whirl away from him and push through the door, spin back around to grab my bag. He stands there, fastening his pants, although his eyes are stuck to mine. My mouth flails as I throw my bag over my shoulder; tell him “no” again. But I can’t breathe. I’ve got no moves, no words—but I can feel his eyes on my back as I flee.

  I jog the whole way to the Tri Gam house, pulling all my leg muscles and making my chest over-tight. When I reach the top of the stairs, I find Milasy holding the brick.