Spring Romance

by Bailey, Tessa

  I could not believe this conversation. All of a sudden, I found myself envying a fucking vibrator.

  Dude, you need to get a fucking grip, my skeptical voice chimed in.

  Damn straight, I needed to get a fucking grip, and that meant getting the hell out of here. Now.

  There was no graceful way to end this conversation, so I held Valentina’s gaze and winked. Then I said the craziest fucking thing ever.

  “Well, if you decide you need a man to help you out, let me know.”

  On the heels of that absolutely insane offer, I turned and left. I had enough sense to close the door behind me. In seconds, I was striding through the trees.

  I heard the door fling open again, and Valentina calling, “Lucas! What do you mean?”

  I kept walking, but I turned around to see her standing on the small porch, her red hair framing her face in the setting sun with her hands on her hips. Considering that what I’d just said was downright madness, I didn’t offer more and forced my feet to keep moving.

  Chapter Three

  Lucas

  I rolled my truck to a stop in front of my house. After Rylie’s mother died, I sold the place where we lived when Rylie was a baby and bought this place. I didn’t need memories stained with the mark Melissa left behind.

  Grief is fucked up. I had loved Melissa. We had Rylie, and Rylie owned my heart. Whenever I thought back to that first year after Rylie was born—whether I wanted to or not, I picked it apart in my mind time and again—I recalled how differently we handled it. Rylie didn’t sleep well for over a year due to colic, but once she got past that, she was the best little sleeper in the world. Melissa never knew because she died before she could find out.

  For that year, we were both tired all the damn time. Even if you don’t mind it, even if you love it because you love the reasons why, when you’re that tired, it wears on you. Don’t go thinking Melissa was getting up all night on her own. She wasn’t. In fact, it was more often me.

  After Melissa died, I tore that year to pieces mentally when I found out she’d been having an affair for most of it. Her affair actually started sooner, but it was that year that bothered me the most. I honestly didn’t care about the rest.

  An affair gave her something a lot more exciting than a few hours of sleep each night with a colicky baby and a husband who was run ragged between work and trying to hold his family together. That was me.

  A ruptured aneurysm killed Melissa. There I was, trying to raise my little girl while grieving the loss of the woman I loved, when I came across the text messages between her and Seth a week later. I wasn’t even looking for anything because I’d trusted her. I’d idly picked up her phone as I tried to decide if I should ever turn the damn thing off.

  I didn’t even know if I would’ve gone searching for the texts, but one was right there on the screen. They barely tried to cover their tracks. I couldn’t help but second-guess if she ever really loved me.

  Some people might’ve said I had baggage. You try being tangled up in grief over someone you thought had loved you, only to find out they’d been having an affair with one of your friends on the side. Yeah, you might say I had trust issues.

  I gave my head a hard shake. Rylie had recently turned six and would be starting first grade come autumn. The house we lived in now was tucked in the trees with a small river nearby and about fifteen minutes away from Stolen Hearts Lodge.

  Usually when I drove up, I didn’t think about anything other than seeing my little girl. Tonight, Valentina came strolling into my thoughts the moment I kicked Melissa out. I had an insane fucking train of thought, wondering how Valentina was with kids.

  I climbed out of my truck, shaking that crazy train loose off the tracks in my mind. I opened the front door quietly because it was close to Rylie’s bedtime, and sometimes she fell asleep early.

  Our house was a small ranch-style home built to blend into the surroundings. With cedar siding and a low-pitched roof, it faced the south to take advantage of the sun. The main entrance led into an open living room with windows running along the front and the kitchen off to the side. Jade waved from the couch with a smile, brushing her hair back from her face. My sister and I shared the same coloring—almost black hair and green eyes. Rylie was curled up beside her, tucked against Jade’s side and clearly asleep.

  Slipping my shoes off, I walked over to the couch, sinking down onto the cushion on the other side of Rylie.

  “Thought you might want to put her to bed,” Jade said softly.

  “Always.”

  Rylie stirred. Her bedtime wasn’t for another half hour. She lifted her head slowly, rubbing at her eyes with two small fists. “Hey, Daddy,” she said as she blinked up at me.

  Just like Jade and me, Rylie had dark hair and green eyes. Except for her round button-nose, she was all Cole in her looks. I wondered how much of that would change as she grew up.

  “Hey, sweet pea,” I said, brushing her tangled hair away from her forehead. “You ready for bed?” Although I could let her stay up for that half hour, I’d learned it was never smart. Not once she was already sleepy. Right now, she’d fall back to sleep fast, but if she stayed up, she’d get her second wind, and bedtime would become a nightmare.

  For just a second, I thought she might put up a fight. But she didn’t. She nodded. “If you carry me.”

  I knew there would come a day when she wouldn’t want to be carried at all, and frankly, there were plenty of times even now, so I took what I could get. I tugged her onto my lap for a minute, holding her close and pressing a kiss against her hair on the top of her head. “Of course. How’d today go with JJ?”

  Ever since she could talk, Rylie had called Jade “JJ,” and the nickname just stuck.

  “Good. We went for a play date at the park, and then Grammy came over, and we baked cookies, and she made lunches for you for all week,” Rylie explained, her voice sleepy.

  “Did she now? I bet you were a big help,” I said as I stood with her in my arms.

  Jade stood with us and leaned over to press a kiss to Rylie’s cheek. “Good night, little one. I’ll see you tomorrow, okay?”

  “Night, night.” Rylie blew Jade a kiss as I turned, adjusting her in my arms.

  I walked down the short hallway. There were three bedrooms—Rylie’s, mine, and another that was a playroom for her.

  Jade, because she was that amazing, had already made sure Rylie changed into her pajamas. Even though I knew the answer, I still asked, “You brush your teeth?”

  Rylie’s chin bobbed against my chest as she nodded.

  “Wash your hands?”

  Another nod, this one a little more emphatic.

  “Then you’re ready for bed.”

  I eased her down onto her bed, throwing the covers back with one arm as I did. Rylie wiggled into the covers as I tucked them over her. Some nights I read to her, but I could tell tonight was not a book night. Her eyes were already drooping closed as I leaned forward to give her one more kiss. “Good night, sweet pea.”

  “Night, Daddy,” she mumbled.

  Sometimes I wondered if my heart would ever stop squeezing when she called me daddy. By the time I reached the door to flick the light off, Rylie’s breathing had settled into the steady, even rhythm of sleep. Her butterfly nightlight cast a soft glow in the room.

  I left the door open a crack and returned to the front of the house. Jade was rinsing dishes and putting them in the dishwasher. “You know you don’t have to do that,” I said, leaning my elbows on the counter.

  Jade closed the dishwasher and turned to face me as she rolled her eyes. “Lucas, you know me. I’m not gonna twiddle my thumbs. I like taking care of stuff. That took me maybe two minutes, tops.”

  “I know. But you do so much for me,” I said as I ran a hand through my hair.

  “And you pay me for it. Quite well,” she said. “Not that that’s entirely necessary, I might add.”

  “Jade, you gave up a full-time job to help me wi
th Rylie. Of course, I’m gonna pay you. If it weren’t for you and Mom, I don’t know what I’d do.”

  “I wouldn’t have it any other way. I love that little girl. Don’t start with this now, you hear me?” Jade’s eyes narrowed.

  “Fine, fine. Thank you,” I said for probably the thousandth time. Years of her helping me out gave me many chances to thank her.

  “Mom will be here tomorrow, okay?”

  “I know. Thanks, sis.”

  Jade picked up her purse off the counter and leaned up to press a kiss to my cheek, squeezing my shoulder as she passed by.

  She stopped when she reached the front door. “What?” I asked as she looked at me, her gaze considering.

  “Do me a favor,” she said.

  “Anything,” I replied without hesitation.

  The moment I saw the gleam in her eyes, I knew I had walked right into that one.

  “Stop planning to spend the rest your life alone. You’re a good man. You should give some woman a shot.”

  “Oh, for fuck’s sake, Jade. I don’t have time for romance.”

  “I’m not asking you to find time. I’m asking you to be open to the possibility. I’m not deaf, you know. We live in a small town, and people talk. I know you get your needs met, and you manage to find time for that. I guess what I’m saying is I hate seeing you alone. You’re one of the best men I know. I know what Melissa did sucked, but it doesn’t mean you should block out other options.”

  She didn’t even give me a chance to reply. With a wink and a warm smile, my sister spun away and left, closing the door quietly behind her.

  The moment she left, Valentina entered my mind. But I barely knew Valentina. Shaking my head, I forced those thoughts away.

  I had one priority. Rylie.

  Chapter Four

  Valentina

  The day of the vibrator incident became known in my mind as Lucas-might-want-me Day.

  After spending days mulling over our surreal encounter, I was still pretty mortified. I wasn’t particularly a prude, but I did have some sense of privacy. Not only was it bad enough that he knew I had ordered a sex toy for myself, but then I also had to blabber on about why. I had a big mouth when I was nervous. It was like verbal diarrhea.

  I didn’t see him again, but that wasn’t unusual because working at the lodge kept me busy. Even though I loved my primary job as the accountant and bookkeeper, I also covered shifts at the restaurant when needed. Once a working farm, Stolen Hearts Lodge had morphed into a high-end adventure resort where guests could trek out on various outdoor adventures in the Blue Ridge Mountains while staying here. The lodge also ran a rescue program for animals in the old portion of the farm with a veterinary clinic on site.

  Although I had a sheltered childhood, my parents encouraged me to get a college education. We lived close to one of the state colleges, so I was able to live at home while I attended. My love for numbers led to a degree in accounting, and then I was fortunate enough to have Wade Ellis’s mother hook me up with this job. I sensed she was worried about me living at home after graduation. I’d been worried about it too.

  I loved my parents, but sometimes they drove me nuts. They were hardcore into Jesus. I believed in God, but I just didn’t think God wanted life to be boring. My mother had been wild when she was a teenager, and somewhere along the way, she met my birth father. Everything I knew about him was that he was a rather bumbling and sweet guy. He also liked to party. Hard.

  He died in a car accident when he was drunk while my mom was pregnant with me. There my mother was, pregnant with no college degree and no real way to support herself as a single mother.

  She made up for her youthful indiscretions by becoming a polite, kind-hearted pastor’s wife. The pastor in question adopted me when I was only one year old. I loved my parents dearly even if I chafed against their worries. My mother had been determined not to let history repeat itself.

  I wasn’t even allowed to date in high school. In fact, I was quite certain if my mother could have her way, I would get married and have a family somehow without ever having sex. My mother even hoped I’d read the freaking Bible she sent me in my spare time. Not that there was anything wrong with the Bible, but I’d already read it cover to cover several times in Bible study.

  After the poor Bible ended up on the floor beside my vibrator that fateful afternoon with Lucas, I’d made sure to tuck it away in the bottom drawer of my dresser, safe from accidentally inappropriate moments. Sigh. My life was sometimes ridiculous.

  I might be naïve when it came to things like men and sex. However, I was anything but naïve in other ways. With a funny mix of devout and free love in their approach to religion, my parents were about the least judgmental people I knew. They had a variety of people coming in and out of the house—the homeless, criminals, addicts, and more. Once I got older and understood life a bit better, sometimes I wanted to laugh.

  They gave everyone a chance even after they’d been burned. My little sister Faith and I had grown up quite savvy. Case in point, we accidentally learned how to cut pills for drug dealing from one visitor to our home. Not that I ever planned to deal drugs.

  After college, I started to feel stuck because I had no interest in marrying a pastor or anything like that. I wanted to move on with life.

  When Wade’s mother pulled me aside after Sunday school one weekend—yes, I helped run the Sunday school daycare because it made my parents happy—and suggested that I take a job here at Stolen Hearts Lodge, I almost squealed right there in the vestibule of the church.

  I had my first job outside my parents’ church and my own place to live. Being over an hour away from where my parents were was heaven. Although not the kind of heaven I imagined my parents hoped for.

  Aside from getting over my guilt for swearing, and that did seem to be sliding off my shoulders, the heaviest baggage I carried related to my complete lack of experience with men. It was beyond ridiculous.

  Hence, my decision to buy that crazy hot pink vibrator. I hadn’t even used it yet! I was in a bit of a funk. I wished I’d had a boyfriend, or girlfriend, or something in high school. Specifically, someone who wouldn’t have expected me to have experience. I wished I’d had something other than the two kisses in my lifetime, both of them sadly disappointing. The worst of the two was from the son of a pastor a few towns over. Not only was he terrible at kissing, but he also pawed at me.

  Just thinking about it now caused a little shiver to run through me, and not the good kind of shiver.

  Obviously, I’d never kissed Lucas. Yet somehow, I knew beyond a doubt he was good at it. I recalled the flare of heat I saw in his eyes and how my skin prickled with awareness. He was nowhere near me, yet his presence was so potent the mere memory of it managed to send my pulse skittering.

  “Hey, Valentina!” Dani Love called from the kitchen.

  With a start, I realized I’d been wiping the same table for several minutes. Looking over my shoulder, I saw Dani standing in the doorway at the back of the restaurant. She gave me a little wave.

  “Be right there,” I called in return as I hurried to straighten the salt and pepper shakers and folded a new set of cloth napkins for the table. By the time I turned back, Dani was out of sight, and the only evidence she’d even been there was the swinging door.

  The lodge restaurant occupied roughly half of the ground level of an old barn at Stolen Hearts. Needless to say, it had been renovated to within an inch of its life. Wide plank hardwood flooring ran the length of the restaurant with the windows offering a view of Stolen Hearts Valley. The sun was still high in the sky this afternoon.

  Smack in the middle of August, it was so hot I could see the heat shimmering in the air outside. It was air-conditioned in here, and I actually sent up a true prayer of thanks to God for it.

  I couldn’t even contemplate what summers had been like before air conditioning. If you’ve never been to the South in the summer, you have no idea how damn hot it can get. It’s fry-an-
egg-on-the-pavement hot.

  Twenty full-time staff worked here, and the ranch could house up to forty guests total, so we stayed busy. After spending most of my life yearning to get out of the Blue Ridge Mountains, I found it only took being an hour away from my hometown to relax. I’d learned it wasn’t the Blue Ridge Mountains specifically that I wanted to escape, but rather the tidy, circumscribed life created by my parents.

  Weaving my way around the tables, I headed to see what Dani wanted. With glossy wide plank flooring and square wooden tables, I supposed this décor was considered country chic. I didn’t know what else to call it. There was a bar running along the back, and I didn’t mind helping myself to it at the end of a long day.

  The usual cacophony of noise came at me. The line cooks joked around as they rapidly assembled orders, and another waitress hurried by me with a tray. I gave a wave to the cooks before pushing through another door into the other part of the kitchen. I tended to think of this space as Dani’s domain. She was the chef and managed the restaurant.

  “Hey, Dani, did you need something?” I asked as I approached her.

  She was standing in front of a stainless steel table, staring down at a ball of dough. She glanced up, brushing a stray brown curl away from her forehead with the back of her wrist. “Oh yes, I was hoping you could help me inventory this order we just got in.”

  “Of course,” I replied as I paused beside her. “I don’t imagine the order is that ball of dough.”

  Dani’s green eyes brightened with her smile. “Uh, no. The yeast is off in this batch. I thought maybe if I stared hard enough, it would magically rise.” With a shrug, she rolled the dough to the end of the table.

  Dusting her floured hands on her apron, she nudged her chin to the side. “Come on back here.”

  Dani was short, like me, and curvy. Her hips swayed as she walked swiftly across the kitchen to a stack of boxes outside the pantry.