Redemption Series, Book 2

by T. K. Leigh

  “And you are of the opinion that got her thinking about them again?”

  “It must have.”

  “Okay.” She blows out a long breath, absorbing this truncated version of my past with Carla. “I’ll reach out to the lawyer who represented you on your divorce and request the files he has, just so I have everything.” She flips to the back of the pleadings, analyzing photocopies of a birth certificate. “She never listed you on Charlotte’s birth certificate.” Deep lines appear on her brow as she lifts her eyes to mine. “Were you present at her birth?”

  I slowly shake my head. “I was in the hospital, but I was two floors below the maternity ward.”

  “And why’s that?” she asks, jotting down more notes on her pad.

  “My helmet flew off during a fight on the ice. I was knocked unconscious when some asshole on the other team slammed my head against the wall.”

  Realization washes over her. “I remember that.”

  “I was in ICU for a week. I had no idea Carla even went into labor or that Charlotte was born until the doctors were able to bring me out of the drug-induced coma they initiated in order to control the swelling in my brain.”

  “I’m sorry.” She holds my gaze for another moment before analyzing the papers in front of her. “Were you aware of her extra-marital affairs at any point during your relationship?”

  I pinch my lips together, contemplating, then sigh, digging my fingers through my hair. “No, but I probably should have been. We’d almost divorced a year before.”

  A sour taste fills my mouth as I mentally rewind to that night once more. I can’t remember much, despite trying to force the memories back to the surface. Everything about it is still fuzzy...everything until I woke up in Brooklyn’s bed the following morning to my phone ringing. It wasn’t until Carla learned where I was that she shared the news of her pregnancy. Now I wonder if she would have told me had I not been at Brooklyn’s. Carla always insisted Brooklyn had a thing for me, but I brushed it off. I didn’t see how she could after what I did to her. How could she still love me when I broke her heart?

  “But you didn’t?”

  “The following day, she learned she was pregnant, said she wanted to work things out for our daughter and the baby on the way.” I blow out a long breath. “I grew up without a mother. I hated the idea of my kids growing up in a divided household. Yes, Carla and I fought a lot, but we also had some good times together. I thought we’d be able to reconcile any differences we had for the sake of our kids, thought we’d both be mature enough to put their needs and well-being above everything else.”

  “Not to sound insensitive, but at any point did you question whether the baby was yours? If she filed for divorce, things must have been rocky between you two.”

  Pausing, I press my lips together. “I don’t know. Carla was always passionate, I suppose. She definitely had a temper. We only dated for a month before we got married...if you can call what we did dating. I knew she cheated on me later in our relationship, after my injury. I didn’t know she cheated on me before then. Maybe I just wanted to believe she’d remain devoted to me, that the party girl she was when we met left the instant she became a mother.”

  The pain in my throat is back and I swallow, trying to push my emotions down. How could Carla sleep at night the past six years knowing a man other than her daughter’s biological father was raising her? How could she be so selfish as to not tell me the truth? How could she watch me rock Charlotte to sleep those final days before she disappeared and not think it important to come clean? Maybe that’s why she left. Maybe she worried the truth would eventually be set free and didn’t want to be around for the fireworks.

  Returning my attention to Alice, I clear my throat. I can’t think about that right now. It won’t change anything. I need to focus on doing everything I can to keep my daughters with me, to protect them from the pain this woman caused me all those years ago, the pain she’s causing me all over again.

  “So with all this, with me not being on the birth certificate, what does that mean?”

  She sets down her pen, leaning back in her chair. “I don’t want to worry you with a thousand what-ifs, not until we know for sure.”

  “But I need to know,” I insist louder than I intend, but I can’t control it. Those girls are my life. I can’t lose either of them. Even the thought of walking by an empty bedroom guts me. “I need to know what I’m up against here.” My voice shakes as I struggle to blink back my tears, a hand gripping my heart and ripping it from my body.

  Alice studies me for a moment, then relents with a sigh. In her line of work, I’m sure she deals with emotional parents daily. “Regardless of the outcome of the paternity test, I’ll file a motion contesting physical custody...of both girls. We start at the extreme and hope to settle somewhere in the middle. You have the law on your side here. You’ve been the sole caregiver for six years. You’re financially stable and have built a solid support system. Carla abandoned them with no communication for six years. Not a stellar track record.”

  “And if the paternity test comes back negative?” My voice catches. When Brooklyn’s hand rests on my thigh, I’m surrounded by comfort once more. In my life, I’ve done many things I’m not proud of, but I’m grateful she’s able to look past it all for now, to be my rock when I feel like I’m ready to crumble.

  “We’ll ask for an order of non-parental custody. It’s not easy—”

  “What’s required?”

  Her brows pull in as she assesses me, debating what to say. Then she tents her fingers in front of her. “First, you have to show a long-standing relationship with the child and that you’re able to care for her. Obviously, that won’t be difficult to prove. You also must show it’s not only in the child’s best interests, but it would be to her detriment if she’s taken from you. That one may be a little more difficult, but still not impossible. DCF will need to be involved, of course.” Her eyes briefly float to Brooklyn, then back to me as she leans forward. “If I get this in front of the right judge, we have a good chance of prevailing, especially since granting full physical custody to Carla would rip Charlotte away from not only you, but the only life she’s ever known, which could be extremely detrimental to her emotional development at such a young age.” She reaches for the motion, scrutinizing it once more. “Now, this man she claims is the biological father of Charlotte... Chase Gardner.” She perks up, looking at me from over the papers.

  “Yes. It’s that Chase Gardner.”

  “Do you know if he’s still in the picture?”

  I shake my head. “She was with a different man when I ran into her last month. I assumed it was her husband. She was wearing a ring and they had a little boy with them. Probably around three or so.”

  “Good. If the child’s biological parents are married at the time we petition for non-parental custody, that usually works against you. All of this may become a non-issue anyway if the paternity test establishes you as the biological father. No matter what that test reveals, I promise I will protect your rights as those little girls’ father, regardless of whether your blood runs through one, both, or neither of them. In my eyes, it doesn’t matter. You raised them. You’re their father. And I will work tirelessly to make the court see it that way, too.”

  “Thank you, Ms. DeMico. I can’t even tell you how much I appreciate this.”

  “No need to thank me. And please, call me Alice.” She jots down an address on the back of a business card and hands it to me, standing from her desk. “This is where you need to go for the paternity test. I’ll call over there right now and tell them to expect you. This isn’t something I’d put off. The sooner you all provide a sample, the better.”

  “How long does it take to get the results?” I raise myself from the chair, helping Brooklyn from hers. I place my hand on her lower back. I should be more conscious to keep my distance around her, but this feels right. Her warmth, her affection, her…love?

  “It can take upwards of
a month unless you request them to rush the results. In that case, it should only take about a week, depending on how busy the lab is.”

  “We’ll rush them. I don’t want to drag this out any longer than necessary.”

  “Of course. Once we get the results and know exactly what we’re up against, we’ll talk strategy. At this point, it’s all conjecture. But no matter the outcome, we’re going to fight this.”

  Briefly closing my eyes, I exhale. The weight that had been crushing me all morning seems to have lightened dramatically. I’m not out of the woods, but no matter what, I’m grateful to have someone promising to do everything to help me.

  “Thank you, Alice.”

  “Of course.”

  After we say our goodbyes and Alice promises to be in touch very soon with her opposition motion, Brooklyn and I leave the office. As we walk along the sidewalk, I drape my arm around her shoulders, surprised when she doesn’t shrug me off. I take that as a good sign and lean down, softly kissing her temple.

  “Thank you, Brooklyn.”

  We stop walking and she peers into my eyes. Her expression is unreadable, so I brace myself for her rejection. Then a soft smile lights up her face. “Thank you, Drew.”

  I don’t ask why she’s thanking me. It doesn’t matter. After everything, I feel like she’s slowly coming back to me, just like she always does. This time, I have no intention of letting her go.

  Chapter Four

  Brooklyn

  “Where are we going?” Drew asks as I order him back into my car after stopping by Kelly’s, the aroma of the comfort food of our younger years surrounding us. “Aren’t we going to sit on the beach and eat like we used to?”

  I shrug, turning the key in the ignition. “I thought about it, but I figured I’d combine our two favorite pastimes into one. Grab Kelly’s and sit on the roof of the café while we eat it.” I lower my voice. “Like we used to with your dad. Figured you could use a little familiarity today.”

  “Don’t you need to get back to work? You’ve already wasted so much of your time taking me to see Alice, then to get the DNA swab. I don’t want to take up the rest of your day.”

  “There’s no such thing as wasted time when it comes to you.” I keep my eyes glued to the road as I steer toward downtown. The truth is, I have no desire to leave Drew’s side. Not right now. Not after this. “I wouldn’t be able to concentrate if I went back to work. All I’d be thinking about is...” A tightness in my throat prevents me from continuing.

  When I saw him standing in the doorway to my office this morning, I assumed he was there to confront me about the bomb I dropped on him this past Sunday. Never would I have imagined it was to ask for my help so he could maintain custody of his girls. In an instant, nothing else mattered. All my other concerns and fears became insignificant and inconsequential. I wonder if it’s the universe’s way of leading me down the road I should have taken...toward Drew instead of away from him.

  “What a vile bitch Carla is?” he finishes with a slight laugh, one that still makes my heart skip a beat.

  A tiny part of me wishes I no longer reacted this way to his endearing voice, husky laugh, woodsy scent, but the truth remains, I do react this way. I always have. He’s the only person who’s made me feel things I didn’t think were real, that I thought only existed in books or movies. This man has brought me to the highest of highs and lowest of lows, but at least it was something. And isn’t something better than nothing? Do I really want to sacrifice that passion for security?

  I shift my eyes to his, staring into dark pools of admiration and respect. It’s so deep and poignant, it sends a shiver through me. Goosebumps pimple my skin, his gaze saying more than Wes ever has with words. Isn’t that what I’ve always wanted? To physically feel someone’s love, instead of just taking their word for it? If it weren’t for our disjointed history, the decision would be easy. I thought Drew’s inability to ever notice me was the nail in the coffin of our future. Now I’m not so sure.

  “No,” I say, concentrating on the road once more. “I need to be here for you.” I grip the steering wheel a little tighter. I’m worried my words may give him too much hope. Then again, maybe that’s not a bad thing. Maybe hope is exactly what he needs right now. “Just like I know you’d be here for me if I were going through something similar.”

  “You know I would, Brooklyn, despite what my past behavior may lead you to believe.” He reaches for my hand and I willingly remove it from the wheel. The instant his fingers wrap around mine, a shiver rolls down my spine. It’s subtle, but there’s no denying how my body reacts to him. It’s just as strong as it was when we were teenagers.

  I keep my hand joined with his as I drive into downtown, a blush blooming on my cheeks whenever he steals a glimpse at me. I like to believe I don’t pull away so he’ll feel the comfort he needs, but that’s not entirely true. Ever since I first linked hands with him earlier today, I’ve craved the warmth of his skin on mine, regardless of how innocent the touch is. As much as reason tells me to keep my distance, my heart seems to be the one calling the shots today.

  “And we’re all going through this,” he adds after a long silence.

  “But they’re your girls.”

  “You helped raise them, too. You changed diapers, gave them bottles, sang them to sleep, dealt with meltdowns, wiped their tears. They’re your kids, too, Auntie Brook.”

  I inhale a shaky breath when he calls me that. How much longer will I hear sweet, innocent Charlotte say those two words? I’ve tried to remain positive all morning for Drew’s sake, but my hope of this being smoke and mirrors is nonexistent. I remember the woman Carla was during their marriage. Drew may have been happy to ignore it, since he’d landed a trophy wife, but I saw it. We all did. There’s a strong likelihood Charlotte, and possibly even Alyssa, isn’t Drew’s.

  “You’ve always been a permanent fixture in their lives. They don’t remember a time you weren’t there to play with them, or sneak them a chocolate chip muffin, or read them a story before bed. This affects all of us.” He pauses. Our gazes lock briefly before I refocus on the road. “How are you doing?”

  I pinch my lips into a tight line, fighting against the emotions that have been coursing through me since I read the pleading earlier. I’ve done everything to remain strong and levelheaded for Drew’s sake. Those girls are his weakness...and his strength, just like Drew’s always been my weakness and my strength.

  “I’m trying not to think about it too much, but it’s hard.” Tears form in the corners of my eyes and I blink them away. “Since the moment you walked into my office—”

  “I’m not sure walk is the right word for what I did,” he jokes, trying to lighten the mood.

  “No.” I smile, playfully rolling my eyes. “That’s certainly true. You pretty much barged right in. But as I read those papers, all I could think was what if she wins? Did I waste the little time I could have spent with Charlotte by keeping my distance from you over the past month? Am I really that selfish?”

  “Don’t say that. You’re the most selfless person I know. You’ve made a career out of putting others’ needs before yours. There’s no way of knowing exactly what’s going to happen, but you’ll always be part of Charlotte’s life. We all will be. I don’t care if I’m forced to mortgage my damn house to pay for the legal fees. I’ll do it just to fight for her. At least she’ll know I did everything I could to keep her mine.”

  “You’re a good man, Drew.” I pause, then add, “I’m sorry.”

  “I’m sorry, too,” he replies. “More than you know.”

  I float my eyes to his, holding his gaze. The tone of his voice makes it apparent he’s no longer talking about his current predicament but the past we share. For the first time since he learned the truth about that night, a part of me believes he truly does regret how things transpired between us. Shouldn’t that count for something?

  We sit in comfortable silence the remainder of our short drive to the North End.
Once we reach the café, I pull my car behind the building. Our grease-laden bags in hand, Drew jumps out and rushes toward the driver’s side to help me out. We walk toward the rickety fire escape, about to climb up the scaffolding, when he stops, his eyes zeroing in on my heels.

  “Are you sure you’ll be okay in those?”

  I shrug. “They’re not optimal, but I’ll be fine.”

  “Says the girl who threw a fit when I tried to get you into a pair of skates several weeks ago. Yet you’re happy to climb a fire escape in a pair of fuck-me heels?”

  I inhale a sharp breath, my face heating and insides tingling. His fervent voice saying those words brings back memories of that one night together, the things he whispered as his hands roamed all over my body. My mouth waters at the thought of experiencing that again.

  “I mean...” He averts his gaze.

  Emboldened, I step toward him, ensuring my shoes are in his line of sight. I have to admit, they are hot. As much as I loathed the dress my future mother-in-law chose for me to wear at my bridal shower this past weekend, the beige Christian Louboutin pumps were a rather pleasant surprise, and a very nice addition to my shoe collection.

  “You think these are fuck-me shoes?” I ask in a sultry voice.

  This isn’t fair to either one of us, but we need something to take our minds off our problems. For a few minutes, I want to pretend I’m not engaged to another man. I want to pretend Drew may not lose his daughters. I want to pretend he did show up at my house the morning he left for college and this is part of the happily ever after I’ve fantasized about for so long.

  When he returns his eyes to mine, they’re dark, full of need. It sets those butterflies in my stomach into overdrive. He licks his lips, bringing his body within a whisper of mine. “Will you be upset if I say no?”