Conflicted Love

by Hamford, Kacey

  “Now, where were we?” Pup nuzzled his face into my neck and I leant back against him and let out a sigh. “You ok?”

  “Yeah.” I turned in his arms, rose on my tiptoes and gave him a kiss. “I have lots of work to do.”

  “I’m here to help. What can I do?” He shrugged out of his leather cut and hung it up next to my leather jacket.

  “Where’s Cooper?”

  “He’s with Eden. Having a trial afternoon to see how they get on. Now, what needs fixing?”

  “Can you do an oil change?” I asked, pointing at the Honda.

  “That I can do.” He kissed me quickly before gathering everything he needed.

  “You sure you don’t need to be at the club?”

  “Nope, I’m helping out my girl, then getting all her shit packed up and finally moved in where she belongs.”

  “Love you.”

  “Love you too.” I couldn’t stop the smile that was covering my face. A calm had settled over me and I felt like everything was falling into their rightful place.

  “Do you need this babe?” Pup asked. I glanced over my shoulder to see that he was holding up a teddy bear.

  “Everything in this room needs to be packed.”

  “I don’t know where we are going to put it all.”

  “Are you changing your mind?” I stopped packing clothes into my suitcase to turn and face him.

  “Not at all.” He dropped my teddy bear into the box and strode across the room towards me. “I can’t wait to have you in my arms every single night. To be a proper family.”

  “I want that too.” I flung my arms around his neck and pressed my lips to his. “Now keep packing so you can take me home and have your wicked way with me.”

  “You don’t have to tell me twice.” He pulled my arms from around his neck and started throwing my belongings into random boxes.

  “Tyler, I need some sort of organisation,” I sighed.

  “To hell with that. I need to be balls deep inside you and fast.” He winked at me.

  “Start taking these out to the car then. I’m almost done.” I threw the last of my clothes into my suitcase before zipping it up.

  “Is that one ready to go?” Pup asked from the doorway.

  “Yep. What time are you getting Cooper?”

  “Eden is dropping him off, in…” he pulled his phone out of his pocket to check the time. “Shit, in five minutes.”

  “You can go ahead, I need to clean up before I leave and I need to bring my bike.”

  “Ok, but don’t be long.” Pup kissed me soundly before he left and I stood in the middle of the room. I didn’t know why I was feeling sentimental, I’d only been living here for about ten months. It was just nice to be around my family again. I missed mum and dad so much, I guess living with Evan made me feel closer to them again. I shook myself out of my daydream and started cleaning the bedroom.

  Once the hoovering and dusting were done, I re made the bed in case they had friends stay over. It took me longer than I thought it would. I flipped off the bedroom light and pulled the door closed. I hooked my bag across my body before leaving the key on the kitchen table. I strode through the room to the front door, opened it up and glanced around once more, making sure I hadn’t forgotten anything. I was good to go. I slipped through the door, making sure it was shut properly behind me. Now on to the next venture in my life, to my two men.

  I parked my bike next to Pups car. He very rarely had his bike here anymore, he only used it when he was at the club. I loved my bike and couldn’t ever imagine trading her in for a car. Though I guess I would have to one day, now I was a mum. Shit, a mum. If you had asked me a couple months ago where I saw my life going, it wasn’t here. I only had visions of working at my garage and having fun with my friends. Speaking of, I needed to contact Lizzy. I hadn’t seen her for a little while and her wedding was just around the corner. Though after seeing her brother, my ex on Saturday night I was a bit apprehensive about going and seeing him again. But she is my best friend and I wouldn’t let her down.

  I started climbing the steps to my new home, I pulled my phone out of my bag and realised that Pup had left me nearly two hours ago and I had five missed calls from him and two texts. I slid my thumb across the screen and pressed the message icon.

  Have you got lost? You know where we live, right? x

  Cooper wants to stay up to welcome you home x

  I turned the key Pup had given me last week in the lock and pushed the door open. It was quiet inside, I could just hear the faint sound of the TV. I hung my bag up on the hook by the door, slipped my boots off before heading into the open plan living area. It was empty, was Pup already in bed? I started heading towards the bedroom, as I passed the sofa something caught my eye and I glanced to my right. My heart skipped a beat as I saw Pup laying down on the sofa with Cooper sprawled out on his chest. A blue blanket was covering Cooper and his empty milk bottle was laying on its side on the floor. I tiptoed closer to them and sat on the coffee table. I loved how much Cooper looked like Pup, though I did wonder if he had any resemblance to his mum. Pups arms were holding Cooper close to him and his chin was resting on top of his head. I reached over for Cooper, I would put him to bed and then come and wake my man up nicely. As soon as I started moving Cooper, Pups arms tightened around him and his eyes shot open. A smile appeared on his face as soon as his eyes connected to mine.

  “Welcome home,” he whispered.

  “Thank you. I’m glad to be home. Sorry it took me so long.” I climbed to my feet and lifted Cooper off of Pups chest. “I’ll just put him down. Shall I meet you in bed?”

  “Um… We need to talk first.” Pup sat up and ran a hand over his face. My body went cold, I didn’t like the tone coming from him. I nodded my head before hurrying away.

  I laid Cooper in his cot and covered him with a blanket. I stroked the side of his face until his eyes started to close again.

  “Goodnight handsome boy.” It was calming watching him sleep, I could lose hours doing it.

  I gasped when a pair of hands clasped my hips.

  “What you doing, babe?” he whispered.

  “Just making sure he’s asleep.”

  “You’ve been in here for a little while. Come on, let’s talk.” My stomach jolted and worry started to creep up my body. Was I about to lose all of this? My family?

  “I love you.” I whispered to Cooper before kissing my fingers and then placing them on his head.

  “Come on.” Pup tugged on my hand and I followed him down the hallway, he released me and headed into the kitchen while I sat on the sofa and waited for him. “You want a beer? Or wine?”

  “Since when do you have wine?”

  “Since my Old Lady drinks wine and is now living with me.” He winked at me before popping the cork on the bottle and pouring some into a wine glass.

  “I’m not your Old Lady.”

  “Yet.”

  “Is that what this is about?” Shit, was he going to ask me to wear his patch? That’s almost like getting engaged. Surely it’s too soon for that.

  “Don’t look so worried.” Pup passed me my glass, as I was about to take a large sip he pushed the glass away and kissed me instead. When he bit my bottom lip and sucked it into his mouth I felt it travel all the way down and my clit throbbed under my piercing.

  “So, your brother is the president of the Devil Angels MC? That’s how you knew so much about how an MC works?” I stayed quiet and nodded my head. He leant back against the sofa and raised his right foot to rest on his opposite knee.

  “You know I’m going to have to bring this up at our next church meeting? I have to tell the Prez.”

  “Wait, what? Why? I have nothing to do with them. Only my brother.”

  “Do you go into the clubhouse?”

  “I haven’t been in there since my dad died, six years ago.”

  “I still have to tell the club.”

  “And what if they don’t like it? What if your brother
s don’t like it? I’m kicked to the curb?”

  “No. Shit, of course not.” I slammed back the rest of my drink and placed my empty glass on the coffee table. I didn’t realise my hands were shaking so much.

  “What if they tell you it’s me or the club?”

  “Then I’ll leave the club.”

  “No one ever just leaves a club, Pup. It doesn’t work like that and you know it.” I climbed to my feet and started pacing, biting down on my thumb nail. “I’m about to lose everything.”

  “Hey, you’re not about to lose everything.” Pup stated as he climbed to his feet and marched towards me. Shit, did I say that out loud?

  “I’m gonna go,” I quietly said as I dropped my chin to my chest and willed the tears to stay put until I could get out of the apartment.

  “You’re not leaving.”

  “I can’t be the reason you lose the club, your brothers, your life.”

  “It won’t come to that.” He pressed both of his hands onto my face and lifted my face until I was looking into his eyes. “I love you Stef, Cooper and I both love you.”

  “I love you too.” We both stood there staring into each other’s eyes. I hadn’t known him for long but I knew that he was my future. His hands fell to my waist and I launched myself at him, wrapping my arms and legs around him and capturing his lips with mine. His hands automatically squeezed my bum and the sensation was consuming. My head was dizzy and I couldn’t get enough of him. His light stubble scratched at my skin as his lips explored my neck and I dropped my head to the side to give him better access. His hard body was hot underneath mine and I needed to feel him skin on skin. I unwound my legs to climb down but he kept a firm grip on me.

  “Tyler, bedroom. Now!” I demanded.

  “Are we getting a little bossy?” he chuckled, raising his eyebrows as his feet started moving.

  “I want you to welcome me home properly and I recall you saying something about being balls deep?”

  “Fuck!” he swore. “If you keep talking like that I’ll come in my boxers.” He stepped into the bedroom and positioned me on the bed before closing the door behind us.

  “No, just in me. I want you to come in me.”

  “Shit, hearing you say that makes me want to rip all the clothes from your body, hold you down and pound into you over and over again.”

  “Yes, yes. Let’s do that.” The blood was humming in my veins and I clutched fistfuls of his t-shirt in my hand and dragged him closer to me. His hands fell onto the bed either side of my head and he lowered his lips closer to mine, slowly. His tongue skimmed over my trembling lips and before I knew it his tongue dipped and was swirling with mine. He was stoking a fire within me and my underwear was soaked. I wrapped my legs around his hips and pushed my clothed body up into his. He broke the kiss and pulled back slightly, tugging on my jeans enough to get his hand closer to me. He flicked my piercing with his finger and I couldn’t stop the loud cry, I relentlessly moved my hips, wanting more friction. He was prolonging the pleasure, his fingers trailed up and down through my wet heat. I kicked at my jeans needing to get rid of them. He plunged two fingers into me and I shot up into a sitting positioned and yanked at his belt and button on his jeans. I needed him inside me and fast. I dipped my hand into his jeans and grabbed a hold of him, he was rock hard but the more I pumped him in my hand the more rigid and engorged he became.

  His husky voice whispered want and need into my ear which ignited a hunger deep inside that I couldn’t wait any longer.

  “Now, Tyler. I need you in me now.” I pleaded. He climbed onto the bed as he wrapped his cock in protection. He loomed over me as he pushed, nudging against my entrance. I angled my hips, pushing them off the bed, joining our heated flesh.

  “Take your top off, show me your tits.” I quickly tugged my top off and unclipped my bra. He grabbed the material and pulled it off my arms, before his head dipped and his tongue was grazing over my pebbled nipple. I wrapped my legs and arms around him again and could feel the flexing of his muscles in his back and legs. I was absorbed in the feel of him as I admired the full length of his powerful physique.

  The driving of his hips had my eyes closing in ecstasy as he filled me completely. We were in a frenzied race to fulfilment, my knees clamped his naked hips as I cried out my release. He picked up his rhythm to prolong my pleasure as he spilled his seed. The arms holding him up began to shake, he rolled to his side, bringing me with him. We were both dazed and mellow, my brain wouldn’t focus. I draped my arm over his stomach as my eyes started to close.

  “I love you.” I mumbled.

  “I love you too, babe.” His fingers were drawing circles on my back as I fell to sleep, satiated and happy.

  Pup

  Cooper sat in his high chair as I fed him porridge, breakfast was always his favourite meal of the day.

  “Good boy,” I praised as he took the last mouthful. He pointed to something behind me, I glanced over my shoulder to see what it was. He was pointing at the fruit bowl. “You want a banana?” He frantically nodded his head, showing me a toothy smile. I peeled it, broke it in half and handed it to him. He squealed in delight before shoving it in his mouth.

  “Morning,” Stef sung as she swished into the kitchen. She stopped to give Cooper a kiss on the top of his head before making her way towards me.

  “Morning gorgeous.” I smiled at her, drawing her body in close to mine. She wound her arms around my neck and stood on her tiptoes trying to get closer to my lips.

  “Morning handsome,” she whispered. Her tongue traced my bottom lip and I opened up for her. One kiss from her always made me hard, I wondered if it would always be that way. I hoped it would.

  “Shit, sorry.” I pulled away as I felt my phone vibrate in my pocket. I swiped my thumb over the screen to see a text from Toes.

  Church, 30 mins. Toes

  I’ll be there. Pup

  “Who was that?” Stef asked as she wiped Coopers face clean.

  “Toes. I got church in half hour. Are you working today?”

  “Nope. I got the last bike finished early and they aren’t collecting it until tomorrow.” She turned back to Cooper, unclipped him from his seat and placed him on her hip. “What shall we do today, handsome little man?” She was answered with chatter that didn’t make any sense.

  “Are you sure you’re ok to look after him? I can take him with me.”

  “Tyler, we’re a family now, right?”

  “We were a family as soon as I had you in my bed.”

  “Then you don’t need to ask if I’ll look after…” she paused as her phone started ringing. She picked it up from the kitchen worktop and smiled when she saw who was calling. I glanced over her should, it was Lizzy.

  “Hi,” she sung into the phone. “No, of course I haven’t forgotten.” ‘Shit’ she mouthed at me. I couldn’t help but laugh, she was forgetful at the best of times. “I’m leaving in five minutes. I’ll see you soon.”

  “What did you forget?” I asked as she tucked her phone into the back pocket of her jeans.

  “I’m meeting Lizzy, Becca, Lydia and Stacy for coffee this morning.”

  “I can take Coop with me to the clubhouse.”

  “Don’t be silly. He can come with me. The girls will love it and he will get all of the attention.”

  “You take the car, but I’ll need to borrow your bike.”

  “I’m just going to walk, we’re only meeting at the Whitsand Bay hotel.” She sat Cooper into his pushchair and gave him a toy to play with while she slid her feet into some shoes.

  “How come you’re meeting there?” I wasn’t sure how I felt about her and my son going to the place my parents owned. They wouldn’t know her, they’ve never met Cooper so it wasn’t a big deal.

  “We’re booked in for a pamper day there the week before the wedding. Lizzy wants to check it out.”

  “She won’t be disappointed.” Her head snapped up as if she had just realised where she was going.


  “Oh, I’m sorry. I didn’t think. Do you mind us going there?”

  “No, babe. I’m sure you won’t even see my parents.” Stef stuffed Cooper’s changing bag in the bottom of the pushchair.

  “I gotta go, else I’ll be late.” She kissed me quickly before heading towards the door.

  “Let me help you down the stairs with that.” I strode towards her and grabbed the bottom of the pushchair and we lifted it together. Cooper was getting heavier each day.

  “I’ll see you later,” she said before kissing me again.

  “Babe, where’s your keys?”

  “You can take the car. Love you,” she called out over her shoulder as she waltzed away.

  * * *

  Stef

  I puffed and panted as I pushed Cooper up the long driveway to the hotel. I was surprised how busy it was, there were cars parked on both sides of the hotel. I turned his pushchair around to bump him up the steps.

  “Let me help you with that.” I looked over my shoulder to see a man hurrying down the steps to help me. He looked like he was in his late forties, he had blonde hair and blue eyes and was dressed in a crisp navy suit.

  “Are you sure?”

  “Of course.” He smiled and something about it seemed familiar, did I know this man? He picked up the bottom of the pushchair and I walked backwards up the steps and into the reception.

  “Thanks so much, Mr…”

  “Mr. Green. Welcome to my hotel. Have you been here before?” Shit, Mr. Green? This man was Tyler’s dad. No wonder his smile seemed familiar.

  “Um… No, I’m meeting my friends. We are booked in for a pamper day soon, before her wedding.”

  “Ah, the Stoke hen pamper day?” I nodded. “It was nice meeting you, Miss…”

  “Stef, Stef Masters.” He glanced into the pushchair and my body froze. Would he see himself in Cooper? All the Green men had the same qualities.

  “Who’s this little man? Having a day out with mummy?” He cooed at him. Cooper showed off his few teeth and waved his arms in the air.