FEARLESS: Standalone

by Simone Elise

  “Where you are going?”

  “To crash in one of the dorm rooms.” I picked up my leather jacket. “Go home Tyler.” And if he was smart, he’d take my advice.

  12

  Alexis

  I rolled over, in a bed that had to be the most uncomfortable bed in the world. I couldn’t sleep, and it was really bugging me. Because there was one thing keeping me up— no one person; the thought of Tyler.

  Tyler was consuming all my thoughts and it was killing me— mentally killing me. Groaning I sat up in bed. Just as I was about to light a cigarette when my phone started buzzing. Who on earth would be awake at this time in the morning?

  Then I saw his name. Tyler.

  I gulped. He was up. He was awake. And he was messaging me- had he lost his mind? Without over thinking and acting like it was totally normal for him to be messaging me, I unlocked my phone.

  U awake?

  What a stupid question? Of course I was awake! I was horny as fuck and he had pissed off because I knew that no matter what I wanted he would never leave Bambi.

  But again this message was stupid because if I wasn’t awake- he would have woken me. Was that the point of the message?

  My fingers froze on the keyboard and then finally I sent back one word- yes. And I was awake because of him.

  My phone buzzed immediately back.

  I need you

  I wanted to scoff, he needed me? Well I’m sure Danielle could suck a cock, that was all he needed me for. So my reply was simple. Wake Danni. I lit my cigarette, and then within moments of doing that my phone buzzed again.

  I’m sorry Alexis

  He was sorry? For what? I wasn’t some teenager love sicked on the idea of him being mine. I knew better. Bikers belonged to the club the only one that had power over them, was the club.

  Then as I locked my phone, the door opened and I was quick to grab the blankets pulling them up, because I was basically naked. I had ditched my jeans and top, sleeping in my underwear. My panic was soothed when Tyler stood in the doorway.

  But as soon as that panic that some random wasn’t about to rape me, the real panic I should be feeling occurred- Tyler was here, in the room and as he closed the door I knew I was in trouble because I had been barely holding my shit together before, my emotions were raw and I needed him. Badly. It was the type of need that shouldn’t exist. It was unhealthy.

  Sad part?

  I had never had a dose of him, not fully, it was all built up need and now, as I stared at him. I knew I couldn’t keep myself off him or away from him.

  Fuck me.

  No actually.

  Come to think of it, that’s exactly what I wanted him to do to me.

  13

  Tyler

  “We need to talk.” Was the first words to come out of my mouth when in reality all I could see was her amazing figure shaped out from under that white sheet. While my eyes were taking in the view, and knowing she wasn’t wearing much under it- my mind was in over drive on how to get this conversation in the direction I wanted it to go.

  “About?” She stubbornly sat up and looked ready to have a war of words with me. “Danni is home waiting for you, I suggest you go talk to her.” She then placed that cigarette between her lips, and my mind relived her lips wrapping around me and how skilled she was.

  “I wanna fuck you.” There I said it. Out fucking loud. I said it. But I couldn’t stop myself from pointing a finger at her. “And it is your fucking fault. You caused me to feel like this.”

  Her lips twitched up. “I don’t know whether to be impressed that you are willingly owning up to it, or the fact that I am the cause of your throbbing need.” With an evil tint in her eyes she dropped the sheet and her bra was a welcome sight. “You know what I love about biker’s Tyler?”

  My eyes were locked on her half cupped bra, which her breasts were spilling over. I was so distracted by that I nearly missed the detailed tattoo on her side.

  She snapped her fingers and my eyes went to hers.

  “What?” I asked.

  “I love that they know what they want and they aren’t afraid to say it.”

  I frowned for a second not understanding what she was talking about but then reminded she was telling me what she loved about bikers. “That so.” I stepped more into the room, my eyes dropping again. “Are you telling me you like being told what to do Alexis?” The implication to her answer, spread desire through me and my need to know the answer to that question, even had my eyes off her spilling breasts and on to her eyes.

  Her head was slightly tilted but it was those eyes- those fucking sexy oval eyes that had me not being able to look away. She was acting like if I told her to strip, she would. She was acting like if I told her to suck my dick she would. No man would get that lucky. No man could have her at their beg and call.

  “Tell me what you want Tyler.” She alluring words were soft and sexual, she placed the cigarette in the ash tray. “Tell me what you want me to do…”

  “Get rid of the sheet.” To be honest I was testing to see if she was serious but my jaw clenched when she did as I said.

  Then her eyes were back on me, as if she was willing to do anything- anything I said. No way was I getting that lucky. No way she was really going to let me do what I wanted with her, when not guaranteeing her a future with me. I was hoping to fuck her, but what she was offering was more than tempting than forbidden fruit.

  Because that was what a woman like Alexis was. Forbidden.

  “You serious about this?” I stared at her, because I was waiting for her to destroy my sky rocketing hopes- this was basically a once in a life time opportunity.

  “If you’re good, I might beg you to stop.” She moved forward, her eyes locked with mine. “But don’t.” She couldn’t be serious. “I’ll do anything you say, take anything you give, but if the word blue comes from me. You stop. Understand?”

  I just gulped. This couldn’t be happening- nah no fucking way was this happening. “You really want me to dominant you?” I had never done it.

  “No Tyler. I want you to fuck me, the way you want to. Your sex dream, I want to fulfil it.” She was saying what every guy wanted to hear- she was really willing to live out my sex dream, my fantasy?

  “No matter what it is?” I tested the limits.

  “If I don’t say blue, then yes.”

  I inhaled sharply, suddenly I felt a whole lot of pressure. Could I live up to the men she had been with before? They might know how to please her. I didn’t. She was basically telling me to live out my sex dream, but I wanted to know what hers was.

  “Do you get off being told what to do?” I wanted to explore her skin that was on show for me, but first I had to know some basics. I wanted her to get something out of this. I fucked a lot of women before Danni, even with Danni in the picture- but I had never once considered pleasuring them.

  “I get off knowing you do to me, what you wouldn’t do to your fiancé.”

  “She isn’t my fiancé.”

  “Soon to be then.” She said that like she knew there was an engagement ring in my office draw. Then she opened her legs up, “Come on Tyler just tell me what you want.”

  What I wanted? I wanted her naked.

  “Stand up.”

  And she did.

  “Strip.” I reached into my vest pulling out my cigarettes. “You do drugs?”

  “Weed yes, everything else no.” she dropped her bra on the ground. “Drugs are a blue area. I won’t smoke crack or inject.”

  I wondered briefly if a man had asked those two things of her. Lighting up my joint I inhaled and exhaled quickly before handing it to her. “Just high class weed and tobacco.” I reassured her but she was hesitate for a second, which made me remember when it came to drugs- she wouldn’t even take pain relief I had offered her once.

  Before I could tell her she didn’t have to, she took it from me and inhaled. She had no idea how many times I had wanted to get high while having sex. Danni hate
d drugs and knew the smell of marijuana— so I couldn’t get away with it.

  I watched the smoke cloud come from her mouth and then as if it sparked the alpha male in me, I knew what I wanted from her. I knew what fantasy I was going to live out and that was- fucking the goddess that had me awake of a night. She had no idea that since she appeared in my life, she become the fantasy and the dream.

  I stepped to her, “Take another hit.” And she did. Then without her permission, I slipped my finger in her, she was wet and so fucking warm as she clenched around my finger. “Your tight sweetheart.” My mouth went to her ear. “You won’t be when I’m finished.” And that I could promise her that. I withdrew my finger from her, and turned her around. “Bend over.” And to my utter alpha male delight, she did, she perfect bare ass there for me. “Spread your legs and drop the joint.”

  She parted her legs and I watched as I stripped, my eyes admiring the perfect view.

  “You ever been told how flawless you are Alexis?” I couldn’t believe my eyes, the curve to her waist the roundness to her ass. My finger tips ran over her ass. “Turn around.”

  For too long I’ve been admiring and not being able to see what was underneath. And now— now I had an all access pass and I was using it.

  I stroked my hand down one of her breasts, her nipple standing to my attention.

  “How hard do you like it?”

  “As hard as you want to give it.” Her answer pleased me even more. “You look tense Tyler, want me to relax you?” Her words had a double edged meaning and I wasn’t sure if she was implying I would relax by pounding her but as that thought crossed my mind, she slightly pushed me back; positioning herself on top of me. Her hands going to my shoulders.

  It was skin on skin and I wanted inside her now.

  “I’m yours all night.” She whispered in my ear, while working on my shoulders, her breasts touching my chest. “You say, I do.”

  “Suck me.” I was basically throbbing now, with her breasts in my face. My hands ran down her back, as she lowered herself on me.

  I couldn’t believe my luck seeing her on her knees in front of me, then that warm delightful mouth of hers wrapped around me and I entered another zone of pleasure.

  14

  Alexis

  You get a feel for what a man likes, and I knew Tyler liked control- he just wasn’t used to getting any in the bedroom. So maybe it was a stupid idea to willingly hand myself over to him; or maybe it was the best thing I could do for him.

  His hands went into my hair when I took all of him in my mouth. This time though I doubt he was letting me finishing him with my mouth. I could tell by the tint in his eyes when I told him, I was his for the night- he wanted more from me than a blow job; and so did I.

  His hands were in my hair but within moments then were on my hips, lifting me up and with no permission and no warning, he thrusted into me, finally breaking the sexual tension between us; but not putting it out, enlightening it instead.

  “You like that?” He gripped my legs, spreading them open wider; going in deeper. “Fucking say you want more Alexis.”

  I was gripping the sheets, but him telling me what to do- sparked my turn on. “I want more.” And then as soon as the words left my lips, he angled himself to go in deeper to me.

  “Say you want it deeper.”

  “I want it deeper.” A moan and followed by gasp escaped my lips and then I clamped my lips shut.

  “Let it out. I want the whole club to know I’m fucking you.” His speed picked up to a pace, my body couldn’t keep up with, not without coming and I was already trembling. “Come on sweetheart, show me the face every man wants to see.” He planted a kiss on my neck. “I want to see you fall apart, I want you completely taken- completely mine.”

  His words and then the string of his teeth clamping on one of my nipples had me coming apart, just like he wanted. I melted, I weakened and I collapsed back on the bed. He stilled for a heart beat and then he continued.

  “I can’t take anymore.” I was trembling and then his hands went to mine, placing my hands on his neck.

  “We aren’t even nearly finished. You’re mine for a whole night and I’m going to come on you, and in you, by the end of the night.” With those words said, he then picked up his speed- he was rough, he was hard; and I loved it.

  15

  Alexis

  I woke up to a kiss on my shoulder, my eyes slowly opening just as he planted another kiss on my shoulder. For a second I was startled- because I never slept with anyone, expect Vex. But then I recalled Tyler’s claiming me session last night. And I knew it was him, planting soft kisses on my shoulder, as if I was a fragile doll.

  I turned onto my back, my hand going to his cheek.

  “Morning sweetheart.” He then kissed my lips, and it was too incredibly sweet, too gentle and for those two reason I pulled back and my guards went up.

  “You should leave.” I was direct and I couldn’t stop the coldness from creeping into my voice.

  A frown captured his face, and as handsome and confused looked- he had to know, last night was a once off.

  “I’m not that girl Tyler.” I pulled away from him got up. I wasn’t the girl you left your wife for. I was the girl you fuck and regret. Hell I wasn’t even really that girl- cause I didn’t sleep around but I needed to kill the sexual tension between Tyler and I.

  “Stop it.”I turned, my eyes widening when I saw the determination in his eyes. “Don’t act like last night was nothing. I saw it in your eyes when you fell asleep,” he sat up, “in my arms too, if you forgot.”

  No I hadn’t forgotten. I always made a point to leave as soon as they fell asleep and normally I never saw them again. But that wasn’t the case for Vex and I knew, deep down- it wasn’t going to be the case for Tyler.

  “You need to go.” I repeated my warning for him. “Before someone sees us.” It was time to give him a punch of reality. “Do you really want to lose Danni over a causal fuck?”

  He scoffed. “So that’s what you call last night?”

  No. No. No. My heart was pounding. Fuck it. He had me by the heart! How the hell did that happen! How the hell did he get in my heart! I picked up my clothes and started to thread them on.

  “What you said last night,” He threw the blankets back and got up, stopping me from putting on my jeans and blotting. “about being the woman that will build me up and not pull me down.”

  I exhaled sharply— god I wished I had kept my lips shut. I nodded my head knowing exactly what he was talking about.

  “You really meant all that?” he was saying that like I would lie! “Would you really stand by my every decision, would you really be at the prison every Sunday? Would you really love me, vest or not?”

  All the things we could be…he wanted an honest answer. “I’d love you for the man you are and the man you will be.” And then I suddenly closed my eyes, exhaling sharply. “But we won’t work out for the better.” Opening my eyes, I saw his confusion. “You love her, not me.”

  A man like Tyler didn’t handle feelings well, but I saw the debate in his eyes. I didn’t really know who he loved, but I knew he was with her for a reason.

  “Consider me the end of your bachelor lifestyle.” I forced a smile and while it fucking hurt to think of him with her, I kept that smile on my face. “Move forward with her Tyler, stop doubting what you are feeling. You’re with her because you clearly love her.”

  He just stared at me, blankly. “I don’t know what love is.”

  Now that did cause a smile on my face. “It’s a suffocating feeling,” and then I sighed. “when you love them and they don’t love you back. But in your case, she loves you- so you have nothing to fear.”

  “And who do you love?”

  “Loved.” I corrected his mistake. But as I stared at him I knew I lied because I was in love again, with him and again it wasn’t going to end well. “And no one of importance.” As if on cue his phone started ringing and I saw her na
me. I took my jeans from him. “She’s really lucky to have you.” And it was my honest opinion. Everyone might think Tyler was lucky to have a girl like her- but reality was, she was lucky to have him because I knew before last night, I’d do basically anything to have him look at me, the way he looks at her.

  16

  Tyler

  Danni was busy giving me a lecture on how her fuckhead of a father considered my actions to be rude and I couldn’t give a fuck about it. But I was sitting here in the recliner as she let me have it. To be honest I deserved it after sleeping with Alexis but I knew even if I was honest with Danni— it wouldn’t change a thing because Danni was no angel that people think she was.

  I put up with her having a flings with her colleagues. If anything I was waiting on the day she would stay in a relationship with the doctor she was fucking. Instead she always came home and we both had an agreement, the day that ring goes on her finger is the same day it all stops. Her sleeping around stops.

  My mind went back to a thought I had earlier when I was staring at the engagement ring in my drawer. If that ring was for Alexis, it would be on her finger now because I wouldn’t want her sleeping with any other man and I sure as fuck would never be tempted.

  I’d make sure that ring was glued to her finger. But most of all, I’d never want another male looking at her the way I look at her and what she did last night, for me…..

  “Tyler!”

  She let me do whatever I wanted with her which had to mean she trusted me.