Worthy of Me

by Ramnath, Yajna

  Soon we were a mass of tangled limbs as we fought to get our clothes off. Once naked, Aiden lay me flat on my back and kissed me deeply, his lips fluttering at the spot below my ear. He bit the fleshy skin were my pulse was reminding me of a vampire. I moaned loudly as his cool lips finally closed around my nipple and his other hand massage the bereft nipple he wasn’t latched onto.

  My fingers threaded through his hair and I pulled. I was so sure I may have been left with a few strands stuck between my fingers. He finally kissed, licked and sucked his way down to my belly button laving at the indent there.

  He pulled back and looked down at me. I must have been a sight with my naked body sprawled across the bed, my dark hair across the white pillows with my legs spread and the most gorgeous man kneeling between them.

  “You are beautiful,” he murmured.

  Then he bent his head to the juncture between my thighs. He spread me open with his thumbs and took my most intimate flesh into his mouth. He paid careful attention to fluttering his tongue over the bundle of nerves making the liquid of passion race down to that very part of me that wept for him. Aiden licked between my folds and sucked onto my clit, leaving me begging for something, anything.

  “Come for me, Mia,” he growled.

  I took one glance at the moisture around his lips and his dark blonde head peaking up from between my thighs and let go. This was the first proper climax I’ve had, every other one was self-inflicted. But this was earth-shattering.

  Aiden crawled on top of me and produced a foil packet. I bit my lip in preparation. This was it. After two years of no sex, I was finally going to have it with a person who loved me. I watched as he rolled on the condom and then braced his hands on either side of my head.

  He kissed me slowly, so slowly that I felt as if he was savouring every moment our tongues collided and our lips touched. I felt him enter me, stretching me, filling me. I broke the kiss to throw my head back and shut my eyes in pleasure. It hurt a little because it had been long and also because of Aiden’s size but soon all of that was forgotten when he started to move. He kept a slow steady pace, thrusting in and out in short shallow strokes. That was until I clutched his ass and screamed for him to go harder and faster. My hands let go of him and wrapped around the wrought iron of the bed frame. Aiden held my writs against it and powered into me, grunting and moaning with abandon. Finally we felt our climax at the same time.

  Aiden collapsed onto me, his weight a welcome feeling. Too soon he rolled off the bed to dispose of the condom and slid back between the sheets and spooned me.

  “I love you, sunshine,” he murmured. His breathing deepened and his hold loosened. I shifted and watched him sleep. His lips parted and his long lashes resting against his cheeks.

  “I love you too, handsome,” I whispered.

  Chapter Eleven

  Aiden and I became hermits for a whole weekend. We shut off our phones, locked the doors and stuffed his car in the garage. We spent the entire weekend getting to know each other, from our favourite foods to our most embarrassing moments in highschool. Aiden told me about his ex-girlfriend who used him for his money and connections, it was the reason Allison was so protective of him. I still wasn’t able to tell him about my parents and I think somehow he knew they were a sore topic for me because he never asked about them, ever.

  The Christmas season was upon us and here, people celebrated Thanksgiving. The Kingston family made a big deal about it so there were preparations happening in the mansion. I only visited Aiden’s mom when I knew Allison was at school or when she had a sleepover with a friend. Once I was leaving when she came in, she tried to stare me down but I guess that’s hard to do when the person you’re trying to stare down is looking straight ahead and ignoring your presence. I noticed her trying to catch Aiden’s attention too, but he would just throw his arm around me and walk.

  I felt bad that I was the cause of their spat. Aiden seems to think it would help her learn to watch her mouth. He felt she needed to learn consequences since she always got away with everything. Deep down I knew he missed his sister, and yet I was selfish enough that instead of taking a step back I clung to him with my all.

  I never fought fair I guess.

  Aiden was putting me first and for the first time, I was happy. My calls back home were short. Mom wouldn’t speak for longer than ten minutes mostly because she would remind me that I left her there. I knew she was goading me into saying something, anything, so she could cry and maybe pin it on me. But I powered through, I just answered her questions and avoiding any arguments. Sometimes I would make an excuse about call minutes and other times I would just cut the call and text her saying the phone battery life was exhausted.

  My father didn’t call as usual. He texted now and then, I replied now and then. But as I watched Aiden and Dianna mess around in the bar, I realised I was happy. I was finally getting to live and that was more important than anything else.

  ***

  I was walking towards the exit after my classes were over. Exams were almost done, and I had just come out of a good paper. I felt good. That was definitely an easy A.

  “Hey, Mia!” Thomas Brody shouted for me.

  Thomas was a strapping man with broad shoulders and an impeccable fashion sense. He was one of my really good friends. We often studied together and I knew aide hated it, but he had mellowed somewhat.

  “Hey, Tom,” I smiled and leaned against the brick building. I thought I could catch up with him a bit before going to Kingston.

  Thomas reached me and bounced on his feet. “Okay, how easy was that paper?”

  I laughed at his reaction. “Too easy, I have this insane feeling that they’re going to call us back and say ‘we have another paper we would like for you to write, this one will definitely be harder’”

  Thomas chuckled with me and reached out to push my hair behind my ears. My smile dropped immediately. “Tom, I already told you…”

  “Yeah,” he whispered. “You have a boyfriend, but I can’t…”

  The rest of his sentence was cut off because his mouth met mine. I froze for about two seconds and then tried to bring my knee up to his balls but the asshole knew I’d do that. He caught my thigh and pressed in closer. His disgusting hard-on pressed against my centre. There was nothing else I could do besides let him kiss me until he was done. That is until I remembered something from a self-defence class I took once. I opened my mouth and granted him access; as soon as his tongue slid in I bit down on it, hard.

  Thomas yelped and jumped away from me, he wasn’t fast enough to react so I finally slapped him and followed that up with a knee to the balls. He rolled around on the ground and tears streamed down his face.

  “You don’t ever do that again,” I said through clenched teeth. “You were my friend and I trusted you as one. You took advantage of that.”

  I walked off, leaving him to writhe around the ground. I heard a rustling and then the sound of running feet. I glanced around to find the culprits but I couldn’t see anyone. I looked back at Thomas and wondered at the apologetic look on his face.

  ***

  It was just a little bit after midnight, the bar empty save for the rest of us cleaning up while Aiden locked up the cash in the safe.

  “So tell me what you and the boss get up to after hours,” Veronica winked at me.

  My mouth dropped opened as I took my apron off. “I—what?”

  “Don’t play coy, we know the two of you are much more than boss and employee,” Jennifer chuckled.

  “Hah, you would know all about that wouldn’t you, Jennifer?” Lena teased.

  I frowned and glanced between Lena and Jennifer, Dianna looked uncomfortable. Silence bore down on all of us.

  “Okay, so Jennifer slept with Aiden, big deal,” I rolled my eyes and said. “I get it. I didn’t expect him to be a saint.”

  “Yeah, but working with the girl he slept with?” Abigail raised her brows. “You got guts.”

  “Guys, it w
as a long time ago, let’s drop it,” I grumbled, sliding on my jacket and reaching for my bag.

  “Mia, this happened almost four months ago,” Dianna told me once all the girls filed out.

  I looked at my redheaded friend who came to mean so much to me in the last six months that I’ve lived here in Michigan. Her face was apologetic and worry coloured her every feature. From her reaction I could guess that Jennifer was probably one of the girls he snuck into the house when he thought I had no idea. The thing is, I could stand here and be heartbroken about it or I could accept the fact that he is a good guy to me now and loves me.

  I shrugged. “Shit happens. I’ve been with a lot of guys and he knows that. I would be a hypocrite to judge him.”

  Dianna gave me a hug. “I’m proud of you. For a girl that had no trust what-so-ever… you’ve come a long way, Mia.”

  I smiled. “Let’s hope the past doesn’t slap me in the face by rearing its ugly head.”

  “If it does, I’ll help you snap its neck,” Dianna giggled.

  Chapter Twelve

  I woke with the feeling of soft, wet lips moving over my lower belly. I moaned out loud and felt Aiden’s chuckle against my skin. I opened my mouth to say something but snapped it shut when I felt his tongue snake out and run along the seam of my sex. I gasped and ran my fingers through his silky hair, gripping it tightly. His two fingers entered my channel and moved in and out in a rhythm that had me writhing and trying to keep up with him. My climax approached with the speed of a tidal wave and hit me like one; I was gasping and panting when Aiden looked down at me with a sparkle in his blue eyes.

  “Good morning, sunshine,” he grinned.

  I smiled back and gave him a chaste kiss on his cheek. “Morning, handsome.”

  “So what are we doing today?” he asked, rolling onto his side and looking down at me.

  I ran my fingers through his hair and pushed it back behind his ears. “I have to go to school today, and after that I’ll stop by Kingston and we can do something?”

  Aiden nodded. “Dress warm. I’ve got something in mind.”

  “You mean you are capable of something other than sex,” I asked in mock surprise.

  Aiden clutched his chest in a wounded soldier’s way. “Do you want me only for my prowess?”

  “Of course,” I frowned. “What else is there to want form you?”

  “I think Allison can make a list of things,” Aiden rolled his eyes.

  My smile fell immediately as I thought about my least favourite Kingston. Allison still had her issues and had even bigger ones since Aiden stopped talking to her.

  I felt warm arms around me and then a hard muscled chest against my cheek.

  “Hey,” Aiden whispered in a deep husky voice. “I love you, and that is all that matters okay?”

  I nodded, loving the feeling of his skin rubbing against mine.

  “Allison will come around eventually, but for now? This is our time.”

  ***

  In honour of the upcoming Christmas holiday, Houghton played host to its own Winter Wonderland kind of setup. The fact that it was almost always cold all year round helped with the whole event. It was beautiful, the fake snow that fell over my cheeks made me laugh while the tender look in Aiden’s eyes while he watched me flit form place to place made me feel so damned loved, it was almost painful.

  Aiden and I built snowmen, okay, we tried to.

  “For a guy who lives in the snow town, you really suck at this,” I chuckled.

  “You are none the better,” he grumbled when the carrot nose continued to fall off. After another three attempts he threw it onto the floor and walked away.

  I ran and jumped on his back, locking my legs around his waist and my arms around his shoulders. Aiden’s laugh filled the snowman room. Older and younger couples looked at us with indulgent smiles, and little children giggled at the two grown-ups who had a mentality switch with a pair of five-year-olds.

  “You want to grab something to eat?” Aiden asked as we passed an Italian restaurant.

  “Yes, I am starving for something that is not sugar coated,” I grinned.

  “You say that like it was such a chore to eat all that candy-floss,” he rolled his eyes.

  “I think I enjoyed it most when I was sucking it off your lips,” I said huskily.

  I watched in satisfaction as his eyes blazed with intense lust and love all mixed into one. We sat at a corner table where we could watch the street and the rain that God decided to bless us with. The table was round with a red table-cloth and plates and cutlery set up already. Aiden ordered hot chocolate and lasagne.

  “The waitress is probably wondering whether we have a screw loose for having hot chocolate with lasagne,” Aiden chuckled.

  “Nah, she’s busy hyperventilating in the back room because she had to serve you,” I countered and watched him reach over for my hands.

  “Well, good for her, there’s only one girl that does it for me now,” Aiden raised a brow at me, daring me to say something against him.

  I just smiled back and took in our surroundings.

  “So how come your parents allowed you to come here?” Aiden asked.

  My body stiffened, I didn’t want to talk about my parents. I didn’t want to talk about anything relating to my past. I really didn’t. Looking at Aiden, though, I knew I had to. I had to tell him everything if I expected to move on with my life and find a better one for myself.

  “They didn’t,” I swallowed. “Uh, they, uh, they didn’t know I left until I landed here.”

  Aiden watched me, he held on to my hands when I tried to pull it out from under his.

  “Hey, relax. You don’t have to speak about it if you don’t want to. I’m sorry I asked.”

  Dinner passed by in silence. The only sounds came from the clinking of dishes around us, the hum of conversation and the rush of the heavy rain that poured outside. Aiden and I ate and cleaned out our plates, probably to avoid each other. I knew he felt bad about the fact that I didn’t tell him more about myself. I knew I owed him that much, I needed to trust him with everything if I expected him to do the same for me.

  After paying the bill, Aiden held my hand and we stepped out. I expected him to rush us into the parking lot but instead he walked slowly. He let the rain pelt down on us, soaking into my knee-length black dress and his button shirt and jeans. He held me close to his body in the middle of the parking lot, his lips trembling from the cold rested against my temple. Both his hands wrapped around my waist and rested at the small of my back. My hands lay flat against his shirt. I looked up at him as he looked down at me; we swayed to a song in the rain that only we could hear. He slowly inched forward. His soft lips lay against my own, none of us move. We just stood there swaying and resting our trembling lips against each others’.

  I moved my palms up and around his neck twisting my fingers into his wet hair and tugged hard. Aiden gasped and I took control of the kiss he was afraid to give me. We battled. Our warm tongues touching then retreating, the passion burning its way up our bodies. Aiden’s hands touched my thighs, without breaking the kiss he hefted me up and I immediately wrapped my legs around his waist.

  I felt us moving but had no care as to whether anyone could see us or how sick we would probably be the next day. I felt the cold hard surface of the Volvo hood beneath me and I could feel the material of my dress being lifted. If Aiden didn’t have a tight grasp of my thighs I would’ve slipped off the car, I was sure of it. He broke the kiss and trailed his lips across my jaw and down my neck to the tops of my breasts. He sucked on my skin while I tugged desperately at his shirt. He slid of my panties while I tugged at his belt and jean zipper. Finally, after what seemed like forever—I felt the hot hard length of him enter me. He pulled my hands away from where they rested on his hips and laid them flat on the hood, entwining our fingers together. He thrust hard drawing moans and gasps from me. His own gasps were loud and erotic, especially the way he didn’t close his eyes
or look away from me. His blue eyes were locked on my green ones as the pleasure built deep in our bodies. I could feel the chaffing of his jeans on the inside of my thighs, I could feel the metal of the hood bite into the back of my hands and I could feel each hard thrust—I knew tomorrow I would be very sore.

  Aiden and I reached our climax with shouts and finally we lay there, on the hood of his Volvo with the rain pelting down on us. Aiden looked at me the promise of forever in his eyes. The promise that he would always be there in the way his gaze tracked every feature of my face.

  The silent words were spoken. Three simple words I thought hadn’t ever existed for me now hung in the air between us; I love you.

  Chapter Thirteen

  I spent the entire weekend with the cold and so did Aiden. Luckily Lucas took over for Aiden and all he had to do was go in to lock up the cash. My exams were done and some of the girls from my study group wanted to have a party. They felt we needed to work off the stress by partying. I asked Aiden to come with me but he said he had some stuff to sort out at the bar. We were closer than anything else now. Allison was uncharacteristically sweet to me, she apologised for everything she had done to make me feel unwelcome and everything seemed right in the world.

  I dressed in a red dress that reached just above my knees, a black jacket and boots. I left my hair in a ponytail and I was ready to go. Dianna was coming with me, something about finding some younger meat for herself. The party was in full swing at the frat house which belonged to some dude named Brian.

  I stood to the corner with Dianna as she flirted with a freshman who was definitely five years younger than her, when Thomas came up to me. He offered me a drink.

  “I’m really sorry about the other week. I was just… I really like you and I…”

  “Tried to force yourself on me to make a good impression?” I asked with a raised brow.