Yearning Absolution (Yearning Series)

by Rachael Orman

  “I heard your phone keep ringing. I thought you had gone to work after Ms. McKayla had left. Then I heard you shout something at the phone and something hit the wall. More shouting and then a very loud thump. I raced in here to find you lying on the ground.” Alina quickly recalled what she’d heard.

  “Shit. How long was I out for?” Gwen rubbed her head. It hurt like hell.

  “Only a few minutes. I did call Mr. Cole. He is on his way here with a call in for Dr. Pau to come check on you as well.” Alina shook her head when Gwen tried to get to her feet. “I think it would be best if we wait for Mr. Cole to get here.”

  “Oh, nonsense. I’m fine. I just want to move to the bed.” Gwen shook her off and curled her legs to the side so she could sit up on her knees. “I’m just upset after the fight with McKayla. Really.”

  “Ms. Gwen, please, I beg you to wait until someone that can actually catch you if you fall again. I would try but I know that I am not strong enough to catch you.” Alina spoke quickly. Gwen slipped onto her butt again at those words.

  “Fine. You win. Just because I don’t want any more fighting.” Gwen sighed. She rested her back against the wall. “Did he say how long he would be?”

  “I’m right here.” Cole spoke before Alina could say anything else. He moved in and scooped her up from the floor. “Thank you, Alina. I will take it from here.” Cole turned and walked toward his bedroom. “Now what the hell happened when I was at work? Apparently it was busy here.”

  Gwen took a deep breath and let it out on a sigh. “Well, I was just leaving for work when McKayla showed up. Tore through the house and my heart then left. I got sick and then passed out trying to get to my damn phone that wouldn’t stop ringing.”

  “Ok. Well, lets start with the easy. Where is your phone? See who was repeatedly calling you.” Cole pushed through the door of his room and sat Gwen up on his bed with her back against the headboard.

  “Sir, here is Ms. Gwen’s purse.” Alina spoke from the doorway. “It was in Ms. McKayla’s… room. Um, old room.”

  “Thank you.” Cole took the purse from her before digging out Gwen’s phone. He hit the button on the bottom to light up the screen, dropping the rest of the purse on the ground. There was seven missed calls. All from the same number, an unknown number and three voicemails. He looked up at Gwen. “What is your passcode?”

  She told him and he entered it into the phone. As he listened to the messages, his eyes bore into Gwen. After listening to all three messages, he slipped the phone into his pant pocket.

  “Who was it?” Gwen winced and rubbed her head again.

  “Don’t worry about it. Now lets talk about McKayla.” Cole sat on the edge of the bed. He took one of Gwen’s hands into both of his own. “I will speak with her if you’d like.”

  “I don’t think that’d help. She officially broke up with me and moved out. I don’t understand where this is all coming from. I’m so frustrated and it’s like she just won’t listen to me.” Gwen’s eyes filled with tears again. “I don’t know what to do without her in my life. Not because it is so comfortable, but because she is my life. You and her make up me. I am no one without the two of you here to give me a reason to be. She asked me to leave you to be with just her. I can’t. Just like I can’t leave her and be with just you. Maybe I’m just doomed to be miserable. Doomed to lose one of you no matter what I do.”

  “I won’t make you chose. If you want to do everything you can to get her back in your life, I’m behind you all the way. If you want to let go of me, I’ll do my best because it is what you wish. But I can’t say that I won’t give one hell of a fight because I too love you and need you in my life more than I need anything else.” Cole brushed the tears from her cheeks with his fingers.

  A knock sounded at the door, both of them looked towards the door to see Alina with Dr. Pau.

  “Please, come in.” Cole moved back from Gwen. Then quickly moved closer, cupped her face and landed a hard kiss against her lips. He then stepped back so the doctor had room to do as he needed.

  “I would like to take some blood samples. I brought an aide with me that will get them down to the lab immediately then we will have results within an hour. So let me start with the blood samples and then I will do the rest of the exam, okay?” Dr. Pau spoke direct and to the point, as usual.

  “Do whatever you want.” Gwen rolled her arm over for him and looked out the window on the other side of the room.

  Chapter 19

  Dr. Pau drew her blood and sent it off with his assistant before doing a full check up on her. He asked Cole to wait outside while he did the exam. As he pressed down on her stomach in various spots asking her if it hurt, he stopped and looked at her.

  “Well, I can tell you something I don’t need blood work for.” Dr. Pau pressed gently again on her stomach.

  “And that would be?” Gwen had an idea of what he was going to say based on where his hands were, but she needed to hear him say it.

  “You are pregnant. We will get the results of the blood work soon enough and be able to guess about how many weeks. I would like to get an ultrasound appointment scheduled and you will need to go in to see your Gynecologist for further care.” Dr. Pau forced a smile. “Unless we need to talk about other options.”

  “NO.” Gwen spoke harsher than she intended. While she didn’t know what she was going to do or how she was going to handle the pregnancy, she would never terminate a pregnancy. No, that would not be the way she would handle this. “No. I will get in to see my doctor.”

  “Based on the size of your uterus, I am going to say you are quite far along in the pregnancy. Which doesn’t exactly consist with the symptoms you are having. But that is why it is all the more important that you immediately get to your doctor for an ultrasound to make sure everything is ok.” Dr. Pau spoke softly, patting her hand, “Now, I am not a liberty to discuss this with anyone so it will be up to you to break the news, unless you would rather I do it.”

  “I will do it. I just need a moment.” Gwen sat stunned. The word pregnant just bounced around her head.

  “I will step out. We are still waiting for the blood results anyway.” Dr. Pau stepped from the room.

  Gwen sat there with a hand on her belly. It wasn’t much larger than normal, but she supposed now that she knew, she could see a little pouch that wasn’t normally there.

  A baby. There was a baby in her belly. Cole’s baby. It had to be. There was no other man she had been with. They hadn’t been using protection. She didn’t think they’d needed to. What would Cole say when he found out? She had promised him multiple times that she couldn’t get pregnant.

  How had this happened? Gwen was so confused and frightened. She had just lost McKayla from her life, would she be losing Cole as well with this news?

  She couldn’t hide it. She was already starting to show, it wouldn’t take long before she couldn’t hide it. And then she’d have to explain why she hid it.

  There was a knock on the slightly open door again. Gwen looked up to see Cole looking at her. She quickly pulled her hand from her belly and told him to come in.

  “How are you?” Cole sat next to her on the bed, rubbing his hand up and down her thigh.

  “He said my head is probably just a little bump, he doesn’t think I hit it hard enough to get a concussion or anything serious.” Gwen swallowed hard.

  “Well, that’s good then. Is that all? He told me he was waiting for the blood work results and would discuss them with you before he left.”

  “Well, there is one other thing.” Gwen swallowed hard again. A knock on the door interrupted her before she could continue.

  “I have the results.” Dr. Pau held up a couple sheets of paper.

  Cole left so the doctor could give her the results. Dr. Pau said everything looked fine. Except she looked to be a bit anemic and of course, pregnant. From the blood test, he said it appeared that she was anywhere from eight to sixteen weeks pregnant. She would need an ultrasou
nd to get more specific timing.

  Cole returned to her side after seeing the doctor out. Gwen looked at him so handsome still in his business suit. He hadn’t even taken off his coat, obviously distracted since that was normally the first thing he did when he got home.

  “So, what else is going on? Did the blood work say anything useful?” Cole rubbed her thigh again.

  “Just that I’m anemic and need to take some iron.” Gwen could barely breathe, but she had to do it. “And, Cole, I’m pregnant.”

  “You are what?” Cole looked at her, shock apparent on every part of his face. “I didn’t think you could get pregnant.”

  “It shouldn’t have been possible. But somehow it happened.” Gwen’s hands were clammy. She bit down on her bottom lip as fear ratcheted up her heart rate.

  Cole stood and walked to the closet. He returned without his coat and tie. He was scratching his head as he walked towards the bathroom.

  “Cole?” Gwen spoke softly, looking down at her lap. She picked at the hem of her dress.

  “Yes?” Cole’s voice carried from the bathroom.

  “I’m sorry.” Gwen wiped away the silent tears that were rolling down her cheeks. “I didn’t mean for it to happen.”

  Cole walked over and placed a finger under her chin, lifting her head so he could look in her eyes. “I’m not. I’m surprised. I’m thrilled that you are carrying a baby I never thought I would have. I had told myself that I’d be happy to never have children because you couldn’t. That was about the last thing I expected you to say. I was getting ready to crawl here in this bed and cuddle to the mother of my child.”

  Gwen only let out a loud sob. She quickly moved to kneel on the bed and wrap her arms around his neck tightly as she cried into this shoulder. “I love you.”

  “I love you too. I love this baby. I can’t wait to start making preparations for it.” Cole kissed the side of her face.

  When Gwen raised her tear filled eyes to meet his, he lowered his head to softly press a kiss to her lips. He wiped away her tears with his thumbs before kissing up the tracks where they’d been.

  “Make love to me, Cole.” Gwen whispered into his ear. Cole leaned back and looked down at her for a moment before stepping out of his shoes. He moved back from the bed and quickly unbuttoned his shirt and pulled it off, followed by his socks and pants.

  Gwen pulled her dress over her head and lay back on the bed in just her satin panties and bra. Cole crawled onto the bed next to her in just his boxer briefs. He softly trailed his finger across her forehead, down her nose, over her cheekbone before sinking his whole hand into her hair and leaning down to press his lips to her hot needy lips. Her lips separated, welcoming his warm tongue to her mouth. As their tongues touched and slipped around each other, his hand continued down her body. Across her collarbone, over the side of her breast before coming to rest lightly against her lower belly.

  Breaking the kiss, Cole kissed down the soft, fragrant skin of her neck. His kisses followed a similar path as his hand, to stop at her small belly. He pressed a kiss there, while his hands rested on either side of her waist, framing where the small baby would be. He rested his face against her belly for a moment longer before kissing back up the center of her body. This time his body was on top of hers, instead of next to her. He cupped her face in his hands and once again brought his lips to hers.

  Gwen let her fingers dance down his back while they kissed until they found the band of his underwear. She slipped her fingers under them and pushed them down as far as she could. Cole took the message and wiggled them off. He slipped his hands behind Gwen’s back and easily unclasped her bra before drawing the straps down her arms and flinging it from the bed.

  Moving to suck and nuzzle her bare breast, his hands found her panties. Following her lead, he pushed them over her hips and down as far as he could, where she could get them off herself. Finally, they were both completely bare and exposed.

  Unexpectedly, Cole rolled off her. Before Gwen could say anything, he slipped his arm under her and rolled her onto of him. Gwen rested her hands on his chest as she sat up. She positioned herself over him and sank slowly down onto his erection. She was so ready for him, he slipped in deep right away. She threw her head back and moaned at the deep penetration. Her fingers digging into his chest slightly.

  She slid her hands down his arms until she found his hands, where she threaded both her hands with his. She held his hands tightly as she slowly rocked over him.

  “Damn, you are so freaking beautiful. Especially when you are on top and I get to see those perfect tits.” Cole spoke as his hips pressed up against her in rhythm with her slow rise and fall on him. Gwen let go of his hands so that she could run her hands through his hair, grabbing onto the back of his head. She lowered herself so that she could kiss him. As they kissed deeply, she speed up moving faster over him. Her nipples rubbing against his chest as she moved. His hands were holding her ass, helping her keep rhythm with his upward thrusts.

  “Oh, Cole.” Gwen moaned and sat up again, once again pressing her hands into his chest. His hand slipped down between her legs to carefully press against her clit. Gwen tossed all of her hair over one shoulder to keep it out of her way as she continue to ride him. With the quick rhythm and his strums on her clit, she was getting close to an orgasm.

  Cole rose up onto his arms so he too was sitting up, changing his angle within her. She gasped. She felt an entirely different feeling rush through her as they continued to slide against each other. This time she felt like a firework when her release exploded within her. She felt a huge rush of liquid between her legs. As she continued to moan and ride out her release, Cole too found his release deep in her.

  “Wow.” Gwen moaned as she tried to catch her breath. “I believe, sir, that you found my g-spot. Only time I’ve ever heard of that happening.”

  “I’ll make sure to find it again too.” Cole smirked at her. “That was so sexy.”

  Chapter 20

  Gwen tried not to hold her breath as she sat tapping her foot in the reception area of an Obstetrician’s office a few days later. It made her antsy to be around so many pregnant. She still hadn’t quite comes to terms with the fact that she would fit right in with all of them soon enough. Most had big round bellies that Gwen tried not to stare at. While she knew how being pregnant went, it was a whole different story to apply it to herself. She had been pregnant multiple times but never long enough to even get past the very early stages. She wondered what it felt like to have a huge, moving, living thing in your stomach.

  Cole squeezed her hand making her turn to look at him. “It’ll be ok.” He leaned over and spoke quietly into her ear, before kissing her softly on the cheek.

  Before Gwen could respond, she was being called back into the room. Once in the private room, she didn’t have to wait long before the doctor joined her and Cole. Gwen quickly caught the doctor up with her numerous pregnancies and the abusive environment she had been in years ago. She also informed the doctor of the fact that she had her tubes tied, which lead to her complete confusion as to how she was now pregnant.

  “Well, sometimes, over time, your body can heal and reconnect the fallopian tubes again. Which would then allow an egg to pass through, therefor opening the possibility for a pregnancy. I would really like to get an ultrasound so we can really see what we are dealing with and make sure that this is indeed a viable pregnancy with the proper placement in the uterus.” The short female doctor, whom Gwen couldn’t remember the name of, informed them. She stood and motioned for them to follow her. “We will just move a few doors down to where the ultrasound machine is located.”

  “Well, here comes the fun part.” Gwen let out a deep breath before slowly following the doctor. Cole rubbed her shoulders as they walked down the hall.

  “Please, be seated.” The doctor pointed at a table in a dimmed room. “Pull your pants and panties down to your hip bones. Normally, I would do a transvaginal ultrasound first, but since yo
ur blood work is showing you are further along, we should be able to do an abdominal ultrasound.”

  “Okay.” Gwen had no idea what she was talking about but simply slipped her pants down her hips a bit, pulled up her shirt and laid back on the table. Cole stood next to her, holding her hand.

  The doctor squirted warm jelly on her belly before placing a wand on her lower stomach. Almost immediately a fast whooshing sound filled the room.

  “It appears your little one is ready for their first picture, didn’t even have to look at all.” The doctor smiled and turned the screen to show a little black circle filled with a whitish blob in the middle of it. “Well, how exciting. There appears there is another baby right here.” She pointed to a second circle. “Congratulations, you are having twins.”

  “Excuse me?” Gwen had to clear her throat twice before she could actually speak the words. “There is two babies?”

  “Yes. See here is baby number one.” The doctor pointed to the screen and a black circle. Then moved the wand slightly to show a second black circle “And here is baby number two.”

  Gwen just stared at the screen completely dumbfounded. She literally had no words at all. She wasn’t sure how to react to the news. She could barely wrap her head around one baby let alone two.

  “It looks like both babies are doing good and in the correct placement in the uterus and not a fallopian tube pregnancy or anything. I will now take a few measurements of them so we can keep track of them as they grow and it’ll also give us a better idea how far along you are.” The doctor was speaking but Gwen could barely comprehend what she was saying. Gwen’s eyes were still locked on the screen looking at the two little creatures moving around in her belly. She couldn’t feel them moving, but she could see them moving on the screen.

  Gwen knew she should look at Cole or try to speak to him to see how he was feeling about this news, but she couldn’t force her eyes to leave the screen.