Agent Undone

by Cassidy Reyne

  “I’m sorry, I didn’t mean to scare you, but hearing what that motherfucker did to you makes me crazy.” He grimaced when he felt her quiet sobs under his hand. He was such an idiot! This wasn’t about him and his feelings. It was about Madison and everything she’d had to endure in the last six years. She’d been through hell and he was only making it worse. After a few minutes, her sobs lessened, and she sat up again. She put her hand over his and looked up at him from under tear drenched lashes. Her voice shook, but she forced the words out.

  “No, don’t worry, I’m the one who is sorry. I didn’t mean to freak out on you. I just don’t do very well with sudden movements and loud voices. I’ll get over it one day, I guess.”

  “Please, don’t apologize, sweetie. You had every right to freak out. I should have been more careful, but I don’t do very well with bastards who hurt women and pump drugs onto our streets.” Carter sighed. He put his arm around her again and was rewarded with her melding back into his side. She fit so fucking perfectly, it was hard to believe. He didn’t do relationships though, he had to remind himself as they sat in silence for a few minutes before Madison started talking again.

  “I didn’t know what to think when I saw you in the club that evening. I was terrified you’d tell Konrad you already knew me from Florida. He would have killed me if he knew. You played your role so perfectly, you almost had me convinced you really were a sleazy businessman. You definitely had Konrad fooled, though. You should have heard the things he was saying. He really believed he had found a goldmine in you and it was just the beginning of his empire. He was already looking at buying up a string of other nightclubs to expand his company and was planning to use your name and business contacts to become the biggest club owner in the Northwest. All with young girls being sold and drugs flooding through each one. It was a comment from Gary, the barman, that made me think the man I met here was the real you, not Marcus Henderson. It gave me hope, something I desperately needed. I had already tried to find other ways out.” Madison finished her story and fell silent. She seemed calmer and more at peace, somehow. Telling her story in full had done her good. Now he knew everything, he was ashamed for ever having thought she could have been involved with Konrad’s operations. He should have known better and felt disgusted with himself.

  “Don’t do that, please, Carter. I can hear your thoughts from here.”

  “I’m just so fucking sorry I didn’t believe you. I should have known, should have listened better. You tried to tell me, but I was just so caught up in what I thought was the truth I never bothered to stop and actually hear you out. I understand if you can’t forgive me for that, but I hope you will at least give me a chance to show you how sorry I am.”

  “I know you’re sorry, and I don’t blame you for thinking I was involved. Konrad treated me differently which is why the other women were afraid of me. They thought I would tell him everything they said if they talked to me. He kept me in a separate cage whenever he didn’t need me at the club or wanted me in the apartment, so I understood why they thought that way.”

  “Fuck. I can’t even begin to imagine what you had to endure. It was such shitty timing for me to have to leave when I did. I guess you’ve worked out by now I’m DEA and I have to go on assignments whenever my team is called in. It’s the nature of the job.” Carter kissed her head and breathed in the smell of her hair. He hadn’t realized till now how much he’d missed her scent. It invaded his nose and filled his lungs with its sweet perfume, and he couldn’t understand how he’d gone so long without it. Then he felt foolish for even thinking it. That was relationship stuff and he didn’t do those. Somehow, those words didn’t ring quite so true anymore, but he repeated them in his head until they were firmly back at the forefront of his mind again.

  “Come on, it’s a beautiful afternoon, let’s go for a walk on the beach like we used to.” Carter stood and offered his hand to her. Madison took it and let him pull her up from the sofa.

  The wind had dropped again, and the sun was peeking through the clouds every so often. They walked along the white sand towards the cape. Neither said much, Madison was all talked out, and Carter’s mind was swirling with trying to wrap his head around it all. They were both content with just being together for the time being. Slowly they meandered back towards Carter’s place. As they passed the cottage, they stopped and looked at the little property sitting by itself on the sand.

  ”I haven’t been inside yet. I wasn’t sure I wanted to stir up old memories, but I couldn’t bear anyone else living there either. That’s why I bought it.” She explained.

  “You can make new memories now. Don’t let that fucker ruin what you had here. You were happy in that house, and you can be happy there again, if you want to.”

  “Yeah, I guess. I’ll keep it for now, anyway, I don’t have anywhere else to go so I don’t have much choice.”

  “I’m sure my buddy, Nate, would let you stay in his house, the one I’m staying in, rent free for as long as you wanted to.”

  “Oh, yes, I’d forgotten it wasn’t your house. He must be a good friend of yours.”

  “Yeah, we’ve been best friends for years. You know him as Kyle Townsend, though.” Carter realized there was no way she could have made that connection.

  “That’s Nate? I always thought Kyle seemed so nice. He used to smile at me whenever Konrad wasn’t looking. I’m glad you two are friends, he’s clearly a really good guy.”

  “He is. I trust him with my life, and he’s saved my ass so many times I’ve lost count. He’s the one who told me you weren’t under suspicion by the Feds and that I was an idiot for even thinking you had anything to do with Peeters’ operation.”

  “Remind me to thank him if I ever see him again.”

  They’d reached the beach house and paused on the sand. The whole stretch of beach was deserted in both directions and the only noise was the water flowing back and forth across the shore. Carter took both her hands in his and turned to face her. She had to arch her neck to look up at him as he stood head and shoulders above her. He hadn’t realized quite how much taller than her he was but somehow, she filled the space she was in with her presence. Physically, she was petite, but her personality could fill a room. He found her eyes with his and felt drawn in like a magnet. His body responded to her closeness and he leaned in to kiss her. A small voice in the back of his mind told him not to fuck it up. He slanted his mouth over hers and brushed his lips against its softness. His tongue dipped in and when hers followed back and swept across the inside of his mouth he nearly groaned out loud. She tasted amazing and he soon deepened the kiss. She kissed him back, a small moan escaping her mouth, and Carter could no longer hold himself back. He swept her up in his arms, never breaking the kiss, and strode up to the house.

  He kicked open the door and headed straight for the bedroom and placed her gently on top of the covers, bracing himself on his arms over her. His eyes got lost in hers and he found so much trust, desire and passion in those emerald green wells his heart clenched, and he wanted to drown in them. He lowered to her and dropped another soft, lingering kiss on her plump lips. He could feel her shiver. Supporting his body on his arms and knees over her, he stayed like that, watching her face. This beautiful, brave and gorgeous woman was his… if only for one night. And he would make the most of it.

  Madison tugged her bottom lip between her teeth, and again Carter thought it was the single most erotic thing he’d ever seen. His cock was so hard it was throbbing painfully, but he wasn’t going to rush this. It was sweet agony and he’d happily endure it. She deserved to be worshipped and pleasured for as long as he could manage.

  With nimble fingers he pulled the oversized sweatshirt up and over her head, followed swiftly by the jogging pants. At last, she lay bare in front of him. He felt lost for words at the beauty of her body. He’d already seen her in her bra and matching panties when he brought her in the night before from the rain but had deliberately tried to not look too clos
ely. Now, he could look as much as he wanted.

  He rolled to his side and slipped a hand behind her back to unfasten the hooks of the bra. He wanted to feast his eyes on her naked breasts. The strap fell over her arms and she pulled the lacy garment off and let it fall on the floor. Carter felt his heart hammering in his chest as her full, rounded and perfect breasts were exposed. The nipples hardened before his eyes and he couldn’t stop himself from giving first one a kiss and a lick, and then the other. Madison moaned softly and tugged at his t-shirt. He sat up and pulled it off in one quick move before removing his pants and boxers. His cock stood proudly out from his body and twitched as he let his eyes sweep over the beauty in front of him. He sank back down and kissed her deeply. Then trailed a path of burning kisses from her jaw, down her neck, and only paused to lave attention to her nipples that puckered and turned a rosy color.

  “Oh, god, Carter. Don’t stop. Please, don’t stop,” she whimpered.

  “I’m not stopping. Not until I’ve discovered every little secret your body is hiding. I want it all.” He smiled at the sexy little noises she made and felt pretty fucking fantastic that he was the one that brought them out of her.

  Her hands fisted the sheets as he switched from one breast to another and her body quivered with lust and need.

  His mouth continued down the center of her stomach while worshipping every inch of her soft body and snickered when he found a spot on her hipbone that made her squirm under him. He nipped, licked and nibbled down each side, getting nearer her warm, inviting center each time. The prospect of tasting her sweet nectar made his mouth water. Her legs opened and made room for him to settle between them. A gasp escaped her mouth, hands grasped his hair, the only part of him she could touch, as he dipped for his first taste of her core. Her scent and her taste were everything he’d imagined and so much more. So much more. His tongue dipped in and out, swirled around and suckled on the bud at the top.

  “Aaaaahhhhh!” Madison cried out.

  The sound spurred him on, and he suckled harder, alternating with his tongue lapping up the wetness flooding from her center. He was relentless in his assault and suddenly her body bowed, and deep tremors shook her limbs as she came in his mouth. He glanced up at her face and watched as her eyes rolled back in her head and a scream released from her throat.

  He eagerly sucked up the moisture from her sex and kept her riding the crest of the orgasm for as long as he could. Not until she chanted his name did he let up and allowed her to slowly come down from her lust-filled high. She tugged at his hair and pleaded for him to give her more.

  “Carter, please, I need you. I need…” Her words floated down to him and he lifted his head at her hands grasping and pulling. Her words brought him up to her lips and his mouth crashed down on hers. His hand shot out towards the bedside table where he’d had the foresight to stash his condoms.

  “No, you don’t need it. I promise I’m clean and on the pill. I want you. Bare. All of you. Please.” Her words were breathy and short. He looked at her carefully before giving a short nod. Inside, his heart was jubilant. This woman was willing to give her all to him. He wasn’t sure what he’d done to deserve her trust, but he was sure as hell not going to break it. He told her he was clean, too, they were always tested through work after every mission abroad and sometimes after domestic ops as well, like Seattle.

  “Are you sure?” He had to ask, needed to be certain. She nodded mutely and he saw her eyes darken with lust. He centered himself over her and held his cock just outside her moist heat. He fought to not ram home in one big push like he would normally have done. Not with Madison. Never with her.

  He lifted one of her legs and she wrapped it around his hip. Their eyes met as he slowly entered her. He needed to see her face, the emotions displayed there, as he slid through to her very center. He stroked in as far as her body would allow. She was so tiny, and he was well beyond average. Much, much bigger than average. He’d learned a long time ago that very few women were able to take even most of his length. To his surprise and utter amazement, he found himself buried to the hilt when the tip of his cock had entered as far as it would go. Never before had a woman been able to take all of him. It left him reeling and his mind spun in every direction all at once. The sensation was incredible, it infused every cell in his body with sheer desire and ecstasy. Fused with the vision of the beautiful woman underneath him, his heart was filled with wonder and recognition. After so many years of feeling angry, empty, and lost, he had finally found his way back. He’d found his way home.

  “Maddie..” He gritted out between clenched teeth. “This… you… I never thought…”

  “Shhh. Don’t talk. Just feel. Feel me — us. It’s…” Her mouth made a perfect “o” as he adjusted his hips and slid even further inside her.

  He held himself still before pulling out and then pushing back in again. Each of his thrusts was met with a thrust of her hips and her tight heat held him in a firm grip. He never wanted her to let go. The familiar heat and tingling started to gather at the bottom of his spine, and it made him slow down. He wasn’t ready to unleash just yet. Her body was like heaven, something he hadn’t even known he’d wished for. His head lowered for a kiss but stopped when he noticed tears trickling down her cheeks.

  “Am I hurting you? Please, tell me what’s wrong?” He kept himself still inside her, fear sending ice to his chest. He’d tried to be so careful, but not even that helped with his large cock sometimes. The ten inches and thick girth had always been both a blessing and a curse throughout his adult life.

  Madison shook her head. “No, nothing is wrong. I’m just feeling a bit overwhelmed. Please, don’t stop. Never stop.”

  Relief flooded through his body, and he stroked out only to thrust back in again.

  “Harder. Faster. Please, Carter. Take me hard. I need to feel all of you.” Her words lit a fuse in his brain, and he grabbed her leg and started stroking in and out at a relentless pace. Each thrust rocked her body, but still she asked for more. He angled his hips to hit that bundle of nerves inside her warm channel and she cried out. It wasn’t long before her cries increased, and her body started to spasm around him. Her sex milked his cock in a viselike grip and with a roar he followed her and emptied himself in long, jet like bursts of hot, silky fluid. He never stopped thrusting and drew out both their orgasms to what felt like an eternity. When she finally stilled under him with a whimper, he collapsed on top of her and rolled to his side, taking her with him. He didn’t want to withdraw from her velvety heat just yet. It was too much like paradise and he had no desire to leave. Ever.

  After what felt like hours, he finally pulled out, much to Madison’s displeasure. He smiled at her disappointed murmur and kissed her fully. His tongue explored, dueled, and danced with hers in an intricate pattern. He only pulled away to breathe, but she wouldn’t let him go far. Neither wanted any separation between them. They stared into each other’s eyes as if seeing them for the first time. They lay like that for hours. Touching, stroking, kissing, licking. Making love in every position conceivable until exhaustion drove them both to close their eyes. Wrapped up in each other’s arms, they both fell asleep listening to the other’s breathing. Carter was the last to enter the dreamworld. His final thoughts before darkness overtook him was of sheer bliss and contentment. He was undone.

  Chapter Thirty-Two

  Sunlight danced across Carter’s face as he woke to the sound of the surf rushing against the sand. It was Christmas Eve and hopefully the best one he’d ever had. A satisfied smile spread across his lips as memories of Madison’s soft body against his filled his consciousness. He soon realized the space beside him was cold and empty and in the blink of an eye the smile disappeared. He sat up and looked around the room. The sweatshirt and pants Maddie had worn the day before were still on the floor, but the bra and panties were gone. So were the clothes he’d stripped off her body after the shower the day before. A huge pang of disappointment spread through his che
st. She was gone. She must have woken up in the night or early hours of the morning and snuck out without saying goodbye. Fuck, fuck, fuck! How could she have done that after everything that had happened the previous day? She’d bared her soul to him, and he didn’t think he’d disappointed her. The sex had been out of this world and he was sure she’d been into it as much as he had been. She certainly hadn’t complained. Or had she? He remembered the tears. Shit, fuck and dammit all to hell! Had he hurt her? Had she tried to stop him, and he hadn’t listened? Maybe he’d lost control and been too rough and hard? Carter shook his head. He’d been so sure he’d been careful, considerate and loving even, in his pleasuring of her body. He’d certainly put all his soul into making it as wonderful for her as it had been for him.

  No, no, please. How the hell had he fucked up so badly she’d felt the need to escape while he slept? Carter didn’t understand. He pulled on a pair of boxers and stormed out into the lounge and onto the porch, but Madison was nowhere to be found. With heavy steps he went back inside and slumped down on the sofa. What the hell had happened? What had he done wrong? The questions whirled around in his head, but there were no answers. Only Maddie could provide them, and she had left without a word. A loud growl of frustration, anger and helplessness rose from his chest and reverberated around the small house. It was Christmas Eve. He needed to leave, to get out of there. If he left now, he could get back to Virginia and spend Christmas Day with his parents and siblings. With his chest heaving and his eyes staring blindly, he marched back into the bedroom and started throwing all his belongings into the duffel bag he pulled from the back of the closet. He went through every room and checked he hadn’t left anything behind. The house was still reasonably tidy, and he’d call the cleaners to come in as soon as he was back in Virginia Beach. He couldn’t stay there a minute longer — it was too painful. He had to leave right away and never come back. Why hadn’t he remembered his mantra? Fuck ‘em and leave ‘em. Hit ‘em and quit ‘em. No-strings-attached-sex only. Never again would he let those words slip out of his mind. Relationships. He didn’t do them. Ever. He only got his heart stomped on and his dreams crushed, but this was the last time he’d allow it to happen. Why the hell had he let Maddie sneak under his carefully constructed armor and into his heart? He knew better and still she’d managed it. Women. He’d never understand how they did it, but he wouldn’t let it happen again. Madison Ward was a finished chapter and he was going back to his old life, his safe and comfortable ways, and he’d keep his heart safely locked up where it belonged. In a steel vault without a key.