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Poems From the Underground Volume 2

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by Robert C. Waggoner


  I know what I see

  Isn't she too beautiful for me

   

  Isn't she too beautiful for me

  So amazing, so sweet

  She makes me thank God for this

  That each time we kiss

  We'll both know what we've missed

  And what we want love to be

  But isn't she too beautiful for me

   

  I've got all I could want

  In her arms and that face

  All the love in the world

  With every time we embrace

  I know she may not agree

  Thinkin there's no way that she

  Is too beautiful for me

  But she makes me weak

  And unable to breathe

  Isn't she too beautiful for me

  Anything You Don’t Want Him to

  As the light slowly fades away

  Would you just let yourself lay...

  Right here with me

  This bed can be inviting

  So there is no use fighting

  What you feel here in the dark

  But just can't see

  I promise not to touch you

  So very much, you

  Are unsure of how I feel

  I'm only talkin gettin closer

  To someone who just might know your

  Every desire you have and will

  Do all he can to fulfill

  Every one of them until

  The night is through

  But only if you want me to

   

  You know

  No one will love you

  Like this man right here

  Who's only thinkin of you

  And wants every bit of you

  Not meanin to cause any problems

  If he goes too far, he'll stop it

  Because he just won't do...

  Anything you don't want him... to

   

  One day you may just wonder

  If this man who loves you always under...

  Stood everything you ever thought he could

  But he can only promise intention

  And for you to be the only extension

  Of the soul he knows is incomplete but still good

  Because until he has you forever

  In his arms, he should

  Spend every second wishin that he would

  Be the man you want him to

  And never let you go until time stops going

  Never failing but always knowing

  That every breath he takes is one

  More moment he can give to you

   

  You know

  No one will love you

  Like this man right here

  Who's only thinkin of you

  And wants every bit of you

  Not meanin to cause any problems

  If he goes too far, he'll stop it

  Because he just won't do...

  Anything you don't want him... to

   

  You could've had any other

  Found someone who might be better

  Or at least another

  Version of the man you have here with you

  But this man, he loves you

  And he will spend all of time

  Trying always to find

  Every way he can make you feel

  You could never want someone new

  Because he just won't do...

  Anything you don't want him... to

   

  You know

  No one will love you

  Like this man right here

  Who's only thinkin of you

  And wants every bit of you

  Not meanin to cause any problems

  If he goes too far, he'll stop it

  Because he just won't do...

  Anything you don't want him... to

  Just say the word, and it can all be through

  He won't do

  Anything... you... don't want him... to

  Nothing Left

  Can you see the lies within me

  Can you tell if time will tell

  If it's right or it's just not in me

  So much so, it leaves me cold

  Just as well

   

  I am nothing more to you

  Than someone empty for you to use

  A broken vessel, a shattered being

  Torn apart, so confused

   

  When will it all

  Be like it was before you

  All you people so ignorant

  That I ignore you

  I cannot be

  What you're wishing

  Nothing left but just existing

  Nothing left... nothing left... nothing left

   

  Before you knew me

  You couldn't use me

  You don't get that I was happy

  Now, you act like you outgrew me

  I see through you, you think you see through me

  How could the ones near me ever so clearly

  Be so bad to do this to me

   

  Wandering around this shallow world, it

  Gets so ugly, so absurd, so surely

  Vacant and strange, exchanging glances

  Caring so little but taking chances

  Of hurting everyone around you

  Then knowing you're alone because no one's found you

  Until nothing's left... nothing's left... nothing's left

   

  When will it all

  Be like it was before you

  All you people so ignorant

  That I ignore you

  I cannot be

  What you're wishing

  Nothing left but just existing

  Nothing left... nothing left... nothing left

   

  So pathetic, you don't detect it

  But you're so void and all you know is 

  You regret it

  Murky, dirty, filthy liars

  Hurting, unworthy, guilty whiners

   

  When will it all

  Be like it was before you

  All you people so ignorant

  That I ignore you

  I cannot be

  What you're wishing

  Nothing left but just existing

  Nothing left... nothing left... nothing left

  Nothing left... nothing's left... nothing left

   

  Shadows shape everything near you

  Haunting you, wanting you

  Til you scream and no one hears you

  I don't care because you know that we're through

  Putting up with each other another day

  It appears you

  Haven't accepted the way I am

  Feeling forgotten, trodden down around you

  Hoping to help you get away

  So I can't see you, so rotten, so decayed

  Flesh corrupted, stinking wish every word you say

   

  When will it all

  Be like it was before you

  All you people so ignorant

  That I ignore you

  I cannot be

  What you're wishing

  Nothing left but just existing

  Nothing left... nothing left... nothing left

  When will I be whole forever

  You and I... aren't good to be friends, no, never

  And nothing's left... nothing left... you're all that's left

   

  When will it all

  Be like it was before you

  All you people so ignorant

  That I ignore you

  I cannot be

  What you're wishing

  Nothing left but just existing

  Nothing left... nothing left... nothing left

  Awaiting death, no hope for breath, nothing's left

  Nothing left... nothing's left... nothing left

 
Nothing left... nothing left... nothing left

   

  You're all that's left

  All I have is flesh

  Nothing left... nothing left... nothing left

  The Best

  I almost thought you hated me

  I didn't know

  Just what I did wrong

  Because everything has seemed

  To bring both of us down lately

  Emptiness around us

  All the happiness seemed gone

   

  When darkness comes back in

  Taking away all that's good

  I feel like there's no chance

  No chance for it to be back the way it should

  Creeping death creepin up on me

  No breath to take, no choice to make

  But keep depressed, distressed in misery

   

  Do you look at me

  And see everything you need

  Do I feel

  Like I'm all you ever dreamed would come true

  Am I really the best

  The best there is for you

   

  If I'm the best

  You're the best

  That's the best it will ever be

  And that's fine with me

  These tests take the rest

  Of anything left of me

  But the test of time

  Will tell if I'm really yours, if you're really mine

  And I know I could never find

  Anyone else as good

  Anyone close to what you are

  So much everything I want

  So much closer to perfect by far

   

  Do you look at me

  And see everything you need

  Do I feel

  Like I'm all you ever dreamed would come true

  Am I really the best

  The best there is for you

   

  When you look my way

  Do I seem as if I'd say

  That I can promise perfect to you

  Every brand new day

  Do you wake up knowin you can stay

  Do you wonder if it's worth it, too

   

  Do you look at me

  And see everything you need

  Do I feel

  Like I'm all you ever dreamed would come true

  Am I really the best

  The best there is for you

  The best you could get

  I know you are for me

  I just hope I'm the best you've ever met

  And you don't regret

  The Drug

  Did I make a mistake

  To make you fake

  What you say you feel

  Do we need a break

  Or can you take it

  And make it somethin really real

  Sometimes I think

  That you're just goin along with

  What you think that I want

  And you know it's wrong

  Maybe you never did 

  Get everything you thought you found

  All along, I have tried to be

  Everything you need

  But eventually, it breaks you down

  And it makes you drown

   

  I couldn't be

  Everything you think you could ever need

  Because you don't let me in

  You just tear me down

  All I do is fiend

  For the drug you've addicted me to

  You know what I mean

  You know it's you

   

  I have withdrawal

  Every second you're not around

  I can barely breathe

  I can only stumble and then fall

  But I'm the only one

  That ever hears a sound

  I feel you in my heart

  I feel you swim in my veins

  But no matter how hard I try

  Nothin I ever do

  Can ever make things feel the same

  And I don't know why

  But I know I

  Am somehow the only one to blame

  I have no idea what I did wrong

  But I can't go on

  Living like I am, feeling dead, not a man

  I know you're only pretending, the ending is here

  You brought the beginning, so it's fitting you end it

  It's so clear

   

  I couldn't be

  Everything you think you could ever need

  Because you don't let me in

  You just tear me down

  All I do is fiend

  For the drug you've addicted me to

  You know what I mean

  You know it's you

   

  Feelin so uneasy

  Feelin so unopened

  Wishin you could need me

  No longer so broken

   

  I couldn't be

  Everything you think you could ever need

  Because you don't let me in

  You just tear me down

  All I do is fiend

  For the drug you've addicted me to

  You know what I mean

  You know it's you

   

  I could never be

  Everything you think you could ever need

  Because you don't wanna let me in

  You just tear me down

  Before I even begin

  All I do is fiend

  For the drug you've addicted me to

  You know what I mean

  You know it's you, always you

   

  I could try to be

  Everything you need

  But we know it's so true

  That all the effort in me

  Is never gonna give you forever

  The night is closin in, blocking out the sun

  Because of you

  Never givin yourself up, givin in to anyone

  I will never be

  Anything more than what you let me be

  Anything you want, anything you need

   

  I couldn't be

  Everything you think you could ever need

  Because you don't let me in

  You just tear me down

  All I do is fiend

  For the drug you've addicted me to

  You know what I mean

  You know it's you

  You know it's you

  You know it to be true

  You know it's you

  Miss Perfect

  If she wants to leave

  I can only let her

  What can I do to fight it

  But only say

  Whatever

  She's my angel 

  And I know that I'm afraid

  But I would beg her to stay if I could

   

  Her face is such beauty

  Such perfection

  I stare til I'm almost blind

  But all of my affection

  May not be doin me

  Any good

  And I know I can't hold on

  Like I should

   

  She's miss perfect

  Perfect for me in every way

  But I'm so concerned

  That I no longer hear her say

  She wants me anymore

  And I don't know what for

  I'm afraid

   

  Usually when I'm lonely

  She has the greatest timing

  Telling me she loves me

  She always reminds me

  Of everything I could ever want

  Or need

   

  But now, oh now

  She's holding out

  And I can't figure what went wrong

  All the doubts are comin back

  And stayin so strong

  And it's hard to help it

  And maybe it's selfish

  But I've been wonderin
g so long

  If everything she needs is right here with me

   

  She's miss perfect

  Perfect for me in every way

  But I'm so concerned

  That I no longer hear her say

  She wants me anymore

  And I don't know what for

  I'm afraid

   

  Every time I say her name

  I feel like I've found Heaven

  And I don't want that to change

  But if she's unhappy

  I have to let her go

  And I know

   

  She's miss perfect

  Perfect for me in every way

  But I'm so concerned

  That I no longer hear her say

  She wants me anymore

  And I don't know what for

  I'm afraid

  Afraid afraid afraid

  She's leavin again

  Afraid afraid afraid

  She won't want me and then

  I will have to move on

  And be alone

   

  Oh, Miss Perfect

  Doesn't think I'm worth it

  I am maybe now... on my own

  Last

  How long will I last this time

  Til you finally decide to lie

  And then I come to find

  That I really wasn't the only one

  But maybe number four

  So what do you do this for

  Just to hurt me more?

   

  It's ok

  I don't need the truth

  Cuz I ain't worth that

  And neither are you

  So maybe I can learn to lie

  So you'll see how much it hurts

  And every time that I make you cry

  I'll just say you should've been true to me first

   

  Maybe it helps if you tell yourself

  That no matter what, someone else

  Is always better as long as 

  All the others don't find out

  That they're bein used, and that's

  What you're all about

   

  Your words are like daggers, stabbin me

  And I can't believe what's happenin, we

  Need to just say goodbye

  Cuz every single word that comes out of that mouth

  Is one big lie

   

  Do you ever care that you're usin me

  Do you wish that it could actually be

  What I used to think it used to be

  Naw, it can't cuz the reason we

  Ever got this far is lies only come to the surface

  To hurt us when we start to believe

  Thoughts

  So this whole time we were together

  You had somebody else?

  At least two others

  And I'm not good enough?

  Even good enough for myself?

  So long cryin, tryin to do anything at all

  Unable to take it, only able to punch the wall.

  Then you came back, and my mind was fine

  For a few moments, til I realized the lies

  Never stopped, still comin at me. Why?

  Why can't you be honest for once?

  The only one I want, still playin games.

  Why can't you grow up?

  Your lies are why I can't decide

  If I can trust you. And if you must, you

  Can place the blame on the one who shamed me.

  I've been through enough, so much you

  Can't understand it, so don't try me.

  You say one thing, do another, probably deny me.

  So why me?  Why not one of the others?

  Do they get the real you? Who really cares? Ok, I do.

  But one more time of bein lied to, and I'm gone for good.

  You're always makin me think I know you down deep inside you

  Or at least that I should.

  But I don't know no one, not really even me.

  I can't be free, free from you, free to see

  What people are really doin, usin. I'm losin out.

  I can only go so long before I know somethin's wrong, and I'm in doubt.

 

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