Poems From the Underground Volume 2
Page 5
This is why so many people just stay single.
At least they focus on themselves and don't get hurt.
They don't have to be all
Of somethin somebody says they're wantin.
When they're really lyin like always and they don't want nothin.
Can You Take It
You're all I could need
And I mean it
Don't ever question my words
Cuz everything is
The truest I can say
Cuz there's no other way
I can describe it
How I feel and it's real
Outside and inside, it
Always feels like I'm about to explode
Going over the limit to be in it
With you, knowin the road
To where we wanna be is
So long and hard to go down, it
Feels like the weight of this world is drownin
All on me, makin me wonder if that moment
When we no longer have to hunger and be lonely
Will ever get here or if it only
Makes us wait so long to hurt us
I don't know why it's like this
But I know I don't deserve this
Missin you ever single second
Even when we're talkin
Every word you say, I'm hangin on for the next one
Thinkin how nobody else ever made
Anything like this
I know I love you
But bein here without you, I don't like it
So please tell me you want this as bad as I do
Cuz if you don't, then I won't bother
Because any other person can't be anything like you
So there won't be any chance to ever feel as I do right now
And nobody will come close to makin me whole again
Or even try as much as how
You keep on doin every day we're together
Makin me hope and wish that the forever
That we talk about is really comin
So I don't have to sit here any longer and wonder
And wait and hate that we're separated
I know I'm goin crazy. Are you, too? Can you take it?
Tears of Life
Maybe my life
Isn't worth living anymore
And some day,
I'll be
What I could've
Never been before
If there really is a Heaven
Up above
And it is now
My time to go
Hopefully,
I'll be there waiting
Looking down on you
With more love
Than you could ever know
Right now
My eyes
Are drowning me
In a thousand tears
Like the raging waters
Of the sea
It's so hard to bare the thought
Of you having to go on
Living all alone
Without me
But I know that one day
We will be together again
At least that is what
I've heard some say
I want to believe in it
That our love
Will never
Have to end
Refrain
How do you
Do the things you do
You make me love you
And hate you
At the same time
Some days,
I wanna kill you
And other days,
I'm so glad you're mine
I try not
To take you for granted
I try to show you
Just how much you mean
It's hard to feel
Just the love
Or just the hate
I'm always
Somewhere in between
I’m Lovin’ You Just Because
We've been together
So long it seems
Like sometimes
It ain't no good
Some days
You don't wanna
Keep on tryin
But hey, Baby,
Don't ya think we should
I wish I could give my all
Not a day goes by
I don't wish I could change
Maybe I don't show you
Everything you're worth
But I try
And it's strange
But I...
Find myself
Lovin you all over again
Fallin so deep
I can't dig my way out
But I wouldn't want to
And I...
Can't keep
From never wantin it to end
You do so many things
To make me mad at you
But I remember
How we felt
Years ago
I know I love you
With all I have
There's no way to know
The reasons why I do
But I have to ask
What made me
Fall in love with you
I can't figure out
Why I do
All I can tell
Is I'm lovin you
Just because
Final Goodbyes
When you told me
It was over,
I lost my mind
You took
The air from my lungs
You left me
Deaf, dumb, and blind
I'm trying
To learn to breathe again
I've been crying
So much
There's an ocean
On the floor
Right where
My heart has been
I know deep down
To the very
Core of my soul
That we'll never
Be together
I'm crushed
I'm a wreck
I don't believe
That all of time
Can make me whole
It doesn't matter
Where you go
You won't tell me
And I don't need
To know
All of the moments
We've had in our lives
Have been leading
Up to these
Final goodbyes
One thing
That you have
To always know is true
However long
Eternity is
It won't be enough
For me to stop loving you
You've been
Everything
There is to me
And now,
You've taken away
All my energy
Maybe I can
Go on for a while
But I will never forget
Your face or your smile
Your touch or your breath
Attempting this life
Without you in it
Is an unending death
It doesn't matter
Where you go
You won't tell me
And I don't need
To know
All of the moments
We've had in our lives
Have been leading
Up to these
Final goodbyes
I'm calling your name
Inside of me
But it doesn't help
For me to see
What happened
For so long
That I wasn't aware
And I don't have
Any strength to be strong
Maybe this is for...
The best
You too
k what
Was left of
A broken heart
Kept what you wanted
And gave back the rest
It doesn't matter
Where you go
You won't tell me
And I don't need
To know
All of the moments
We've had in our lives
Have been leading
Up to these
Final goodbyes
Maybe I can
Go on for a while
But I will never forget
Your face or your smile!
Your touch or your breath
Attempting this life
Without you in it
Is an unending death
I can't live
Here without you
I'm falling so hard
I can't pull through
It doesn't matter
Where you go
You won't tell me
And I don't need
To know
All of the moments
We've had in our lives
Have been leading
Up to these
Final goodbyes
Dying
Am I dying
Am I alive
Am I crying
For something inside
I will never have
The broken
Emptyness
Is a constant reminder
That I will never be
Anything
I am trying
To live
I am lying to you
To me
Telling us both
That I've given everything
When I know I haven't
My pain
Is irrelevant
The fact that
I'm going insane
Is evident
I know
I can't kill my pain
It haunts me
It owns me
It tells me
What I'm allowed to be
Nothing but a wretch
A shadow of a being
Blindly walking
In a hollow shell
Never seeing
What's out there
Or what's inside
No Name
In another time
And another place
I might once again
See her face
But the memory
Is running a race
Against my sanity
Keeping me
From being free
Making me lose my mind
Everything I try to love
Is an unpleasant taste
Of the world I've made
Without the only one
That cared for me
I could ever find
Cursed
There's a place
No one knows
Where easy come
Is easy go
And it is
So hard to get there
It's so unfair
No one cares
In this place
I go through Hell
Every day
That I am living
I've had a lot more
Than my share
Of everything that can't compare
To what others have
And are never giving
The torments that I've faced
Never end
In this place
It is bitter
It ain't sweet
Life drops
Disasters at my feet
So much has been
Taken away
Lost forever
Or gone astray
Because this place
Is cursed for me
I keep trying
To forget my loss
Enjoy this life
And say damn the costs
But it all adds up so fast
I can't cope
With the hurt
With the pain
With the constant
Agonizing strain
That it sends my way
Destroying any hope
That I had
Leaving me broken
And so sad
I've lost so much
There's no more
That I can gain
I am dying
A million times a day
The torments that I've faced
Never end
In this place
It is bitter
It ain't sweet
Life drops
Disasters at my feet
So much has been
Taken away
Lost forever
Or gone astray
Because this place
Is cursed for me
Heaven has no room
For someone like me
I've already been through Hell
It tried to blind me
But I still see
Though I don't want to go on
Remembering
It all sickens me
That nothing is
Ever free
I can't be left alone
I can never be
Anything I wanted
I can't find
Deliverance
I have no patience
To fight temptation
To end it all
My salvation
Is a void
It is the wall
That is in this place
It is the memory
Of her face
It is the struggles
That I can't
Seem to chase away
I can't accept
The separation
The torments that I've faced
Never end
In this place
It is bitter
It ain't sweet
Life drops
Disasters at my feet
So much has been
Taken away
Lost forever
Or gone astray
Because this place
Is cursed for me
The horrors that I've seen
Have been my reality
And my dreams
Nothing ever seems
To get any better
The comfort
In between
All the misery
And the means
To carrying on
Is that I know
I will never in all my life
Forget her
The torments that I've faced
Never end
In this place
It is bitter
It ain't sweet
Life drops
Disasters at my feet
So much has been
Taken away
Lost forever
Or gone astray
Because this place
Is cursed for me
It is cursed for me
It is too dreadful
To leave me be
Anything but
Unforgiving
Of myself
I can't believe
I'll never see
My love again
Death has taken
All I thought I could need
And left me with
A heart to bleed
But it won't give me what I want
And kill me
I Thought It Was
I thought that we
Would always be
Livin this life
Together,
Hand in hand
It took me by surprise
That that wasn't
her plan
She didn't really need
A guy like me
She didn't wanna see
What we could've become
It's all over now
It all went down
The drain I didn't know was there
Though I knew
It was her nature to run
But she flew away
And she's gone
Another day
Another day,
She might come back home
Wherever she went
She had to go
Her time, it never was spent
Well enough to know
What we ever could've been
How I really felt
What she always meant to me
That I didn't wanna
Start my life over again
That I didn't wanna be
In this place alone
All on my own
My heart was part of hers
At least I thought it was
Time slips on by
Flowin like a stream
I can't figure out why
She had to kill my dream
I'm down the creek
Without a paddle to row
Gettin knocked around
Not knowin where I'll go
Not feelin a thing
And I can never grow old
With anyone else
Since I loved her
And wanted her all to myself
But that wasn't her idea
Of how to live this life
She was given the chance
To leave me
Without sayin goodbye
She slipped away
Out my door
It's been so many days
I can't tell
What I'm holdin on for
But she flew away
And she's gone
Another day
Another day,
She might come back home
Wherever she went
She had to go
Her time, it never was spent
Well enough to know
What we ever could've been
How I really felt
What she always meant to me
That I didn't wanna
Start my life over again
That I didn't wanna be
In this place alone
All on my own
My heart was part of hers
At least I thought it was
I thought it was
I thought it was
I guess I did because
She told me so many times
That I was hers
And she was mine
That she'd always be
Around for me
She'd never leave
She'd never go
She'd stick by me
Through thick and thin
Through all of the worst
When really she knew
She would never stay
Since the first
Day we met
Now all the moments we shared
Are too much to forget
But she flew away
And she's gone
Another day
Another day,
She might come back home
Wherever she went
She had to go
Her time, it never was spent
Well enough to know
What we ever could've been
How I really felt
What she always meant to me
That I didn't wanna
Start my life over again
That I didn't wanna be
In this place alone
All on my own
My heart was part of hers
At least I thought it was
How can I go on
How can I sleep
How can I eat
I'm a wreck
I can barely speak
I'm so weak
I'm so scared
I'm so hurt
I'm unaware
Of what I'll do
Or how I'll live
Or if someone else comes along
How I'll ever give
Myself to them
Any heart that I might have left
Is scarred and torn
And weighed down with regret
But she flew away
And she's gone
Another day
Another day,
She might come back home
Wherever she went
She had to go
Her time, it never was spent
Well enough to know
What we ever could've been