Defying Fate

by Lis, Heidi

  “I know babe, Sparkplug we will get through this. No matter what happens. You hear me. Please believe me, I will protect you.”

  “Brax,” I whisper.

  “Yeah babe.” He says softer.

  “You love me?” It’s not a question, just merely a statement.

  “Bet your ass, I do.” He smirks.

  He asks me then. “You love me, Iz?”

  “Bet your ass, I do.” I sigh, so he smacks my ass.

  “Braxton.”

  Moaning a bit. “Oh no, you’re back to calling me Braxton.”

  “I like Braxton, you idiot.”

  “Yeah, I know.”

  “Braxton?”

  “Yeah babe, you got a question or what?” He says, then laughs all while holding me to him tightly.

  “Just a statement. Get me out of here, show me how much you love me. Make me forget. Make me forget the picture I saw just now.” I lean back, so we’re once again face to face and nose to nose.

  “Show me I’m yours,” I say searching his big brown eyes.

  “With pleasure.” He says and takes my lips in a panty melting kiss. Long, hard and profound.

  My moan escapes my lips as his tongue, lips and hands are now exploring my body. Not caring we are in a room with others. I no longer can hear their conversations.

  “Well shit, that was easier than I thought it would go,” Liam relinquishes a deep sigh.

  “Shut up, my girl got hurt again. It’s not over, not by a long shot.” Kara takes a swing at him as he makes an ‘umph’ sound.

  “Can you all just please leave my bar? This is too much for me. For the life of me Brax, she’s too good for you.” Sam throws the rag he was using to wipe the bar down.

  “Yeah, don’t I know it Sam? But I’ll spend my days thanking her for being mine. Just know if I ever find out you pull a stunt like this again, I will fuck you up.”

  Sam rolls his eyes, saying, “Don’t pull any stupid shit, and I won’t have to.”

  “Enough. Keep it in your pants Braxton, and he won’t have any ammunition to use against you.” I only state the obvious.

  That earned me another slap on my ass. I squeal as we leave the bar. Our happy foursome, God, knows I love them to pieces, but this is not over. I still have to find out if I am free and clear of any diseases, and yet to see if an unexpected bundle of joy is in Braxton’s future.

  I’ll hold my breath and cross my fingers!

  WE ALL MADE IT BACK to my place, it’s quiet, and I was in no mood to have to face Eve at the moment. I hated her momma even more now. To think she got her greedy little hands on Braxton just pisses me off. Tiffany better hope I never find her, hell hath no fury like a woman scorned, yeah that pretty much sums it up for me.

  I do everything I can to forget what she did, but it’s hard. Braxton tries his best with seducing my mind. As soon as we came home, he took me hard and fast; then he was slow and seductively sweet, which proved most helpful because she never entered my mind. To my surprise, Braxton bared his soul to me, each word of adoration unleashed my endless stream of tears. I believe him; I do. God help me, his pain and regret comes out in every word and every touch. He is desperately trying to make things right with me, to somehow make it up to me. No matter how hard he tries, he can’t erase the visual in my mind. That will forever be a mental image I hate.

  I even received a call from Emma, Braxton’s mom. She learned of the mess with Tiffany and nearly had a heart attack. She demanded she needed to talk to me, against Braxton’s better judgment she won that conversation. Oddly enough, it was this single phone call that puts my mind at ease. She helped me more than anyone else.

  For the first five minutes, she ranted about how no good Tiffany was a worthless excuse of a woman and a mother. She is not one to speak ill of another, but Tiffany was not an excellent mother to Emma’s granddaughter, and she hurt her son, a double reason to hate her and like me. I guess she had a very stern talk with her son as well, telling him he would never find a better woman for him than me. I have no idea why she thinks I am so great after Braxton told her all about my very unpleasant past.

  When she finally decided to take a breath, she asked me to sit somewhere quiet away from the others so I could talk freely to her. To my surprise, that woman is a genius. Who would have known? I recall her question.

  “Izzy, why do you like my son?” Emma asks me softly.

  I pause, I’m nervous having this conversation with his mother. Emma intimidates me like no other woman ever could, trying to gain some courage I tug on strands of my hair thankful this conversation is not in person. It’s hard enough on the phone explaining to my man’s mother why I like him.

  “Ah, well. To be honest Emma, the first time I saw him, he took my breath away. I had already met Eve and fell in love with her almost instantly.” The smile that takes shape is no doubt from me thinking of easier times.

  “He made me laugh, he, to be honest, was a big flirt.” I laugh reliving some of our colorful conversations.

  “Do you feel it in your gut with him? Do you feel it all the way to your toes when you're around him?” She asks very matter of fact.

  Okay, how the hell!

  “Ah Emma, how do you know this? I mean the man makes me weak at the knees.” I’m so in awe of her I have to hold my phone down just to stare at it wondering if this woman is for real?

  “Oh, sweet girl, I know because that is the way his dad made me feel, and another reason you are perfect for my son.” Her pause gives way to a gentle sigh. “You need to know I am aware of what Tiffany did and am disgusted by it. Brax was beside himself over it, he came to me and we talked for a long time, mostly all about you and how much you mean to him. The moment he saw you, it was lights out for any other woman. Make no mistake the love he has for you, that goes for my granddaughter as well. You all make a wonderful family, hopefully, someday your daughter can be a part of it as well.”

  I’m holding back my tears. This woman just took any doubts I had and blew them out of the water. All bad memories that had Tiffany in them now seem so insignificant. She confirmed how much her son loved me as well as little Eve. The realization hits me hard. I found love, true love at that. It took me to break finally, to be able to find the love that was waiting on the other side.

  I finished my phone call and sat outside on my porch just staring up at the moon. A bright, full moon was on display as it casts its light all around the neighborhood. The slight chill in the air causes me to shiver every so often. July in Washington was nice, but it still had a slight chill to it. My front door opened, and Kara comes walking out. Sitting down next to me, she puts her arm around my shoulder, pulling me into a side hug.

  “Hey sweets, how was Emma? That woman is not one to mess with.” Raising her eyebrow, she says laughing.

  Letting out a loud chuckle, I nod in agreement. “You got that right.”

  She’s watching my face carefully like she is waiting for me to say something.

  Leaning into me, Kara asks, “What did she say to you, you seem quiet?”

  Sitting here I take a moment to look around at the evening sky, recalling my conversation with Emma. Contemplating what she said her son felt for me and given the way I feel for him, it’s confusing as hell. Should I feel this strongly for a man I hardly know, is this even the right time to pursue a relationship with anyone this soon after the Dominic situation? I just don’t know. The only thing I do know is I’m in deep when it comes to Braxton.

  Turning so I can look at her, I can’t help but smile. “Well, first she vented about hating Tiffany, and then she went into how much her son loves me, as well as her granddaughter. She asked me why I liked her son?”

  Kara whistles out. “Wow, I bet that was a conversation. Did you happen to tell her he gives you incredible orgasms and the wildest sex you’ve ever had?” Laughing so hard, she leaned over me saying, “Shit, Liam and I have heard you all.”

  “No, oh gosh could you imagine.” Talk about m
ortifying.

  “She most likely already knows it, can’t fool that lady. Spent a lot of time with her when you were gone, she kept us all sane, her son was another thing though. She saw firsthand how much her son ached for you my dear. That is why we all knew the disaster with Tiffany was just a dog and pony show. He would never intentionally hurt you. That boy is one hundred percent in love with you.” She says this pointing a finger at my heart.

  I blush.

  “Thanks, Kara for helping me.” My smile slowly turns into a grimace, I have to admit. “I want to rip Tiffany’s eyeballs out.”

  Kara says ‘ugh’ appearing angry. “Don’t worry, get in line I get her first.”

  No mistaking the anger in her voice. I’ve had something on my mind in regards to Liam and her, so I had to ask.

  “Liam okay with that? By the way, what is going on with you two?” Narrowing my eyes, I ask with the slight curl of my lip.

  “Oh, it’s just great sex, he’s like sex on a stick.” She says without having to think about it.

  Oh God, really?

  “Pfft, please tell me something I don’t already know. I can hear you two as well remember, thin walls and all.” I say laughing so hard we both end up cracking up and boy, it feels so good to laugh.

  “Oh honey, he makes me laugh and he keeps me satisfied. It’s a win-win.”

  “Well, I’m happy for you and I’m happy for me as well,” Looking from her to the sky above, I think we both are on cloud nine.

  “You did good Izzy.” She whispers to me.

  Holding back my impending laugh, I chuckle, “Yeah, he’s not so bad is he?”

  “Not so bad, are you kidding me? He is like one hundred percent alpha male sex God. Watch out ladies your panties are going to melt or at least be soaking wet with this man. Jesus Izzy!”

  Oh my God, I am laughing so hard I have tears in my eyes.

  I admit wiping my tears. “Seriously, I am so screwed.”

  Giving me a look of ‘duh’, Kara says, “Well, that goes without saying, look at the man.”

  “No, no I mean I am so completely in love with him. I never knew this kind of love, never thought I would find it after everything with Dominic, you know?” Sadness creeps back into my voice before I feel the smack from her hand. Ouch!

  “Hey,” Kara snaps her fingers at me. “No more sadness, he is G.O.N.E. Never to return, you deserve all the happiness and orgasms a woman can have with your man, a man whom any woman would love to lick from head to toe. You got him honey, now enjoy him.” Her sideways glance shows me a hint of her Cheshire cat smile.

  “Yeah, you’re right. Braxton is like my personal Popsicle. I swear I get lost in those eyes of his. I’m a lucky, lucky lady. Don’t even get me started on his most favorite body part.” I sigh as my mental image of a naked Braxton takes over my mind, and I’m not only panty melting wet, I realize how bad I got it for him.

  She is interrupting my daydream, with her snickering. “Get your mind out of the gutter, or at least share the monumental image you have going on. Not fair not to share with your best friend here.”

  I pucker my lips and blow her a kiss.

  “Bitch,” She says, jokingly rolling her eyes.

  “Hey, you got your own piece of eye-candy. I got you your motorcycle man, one with an MC even. You should owe me.” I shrug towards her.

  “Yeah, yeah I suppose you’re right.”

  She pauses showing a more serious expression.

  “You know, in your absence we all had some late night talks. I told the guys some things from your past so they could comprehend the hell you were living. It was hard, but Brax needed to hear it. He needed to know no matter what happened that you didn’t want it, you had no choice.” She says as her eyes tear up.

  Reaching out, I hug her as we talk about what I did experience. She mostly cries, as I relive those moments that are better off forgotten. So much has happened, so many things I never thought I would have to feel again. My family is a lost battle I know, for now I won’t try to make it right if ever. They decided to cut me loose, granted they did not know they were being manipulated by Dominic. The cold facts are they washed their hands of me.

  At some point, Braxton and Liam walk out as we all sit on my porch. Cold beers in our hands, we try to find some lighter topics to discuss. Braxton has me curled in his lap. Liam is sitting with Kara laying in-between his legs. This is nice, having my best friend here with me like this, is awesome.

  “You know Izzy,” Liam says lightheartedly. “Emma has non-stop talked about you. She threatened Brax within an inch of his life if he didn’t make things right with you.” With a slap to Braxton’s shoulder, Liam laughs and says, “Fucking loved every minute of it.”

  “Shut it fucker,” Braxton grumbles are felt as he’s holding me tighter against him.

  “Smart woman,” I say, snuggling into his chest.

  “I would pay to watch her beat his ass.” Kara laughs so hard she chokes on her beer.

  Liam can hardly contain his laughing. “Jesus can’t take you anywhere girl,” He says, inspecting his legs for any spilled beer.

  Slapping his knee, Braxton jokingly laughs. “Don’t need to take her out, strip her naked and have your fun.”

  “Amen brother.” Liam gleams at Braxton with a twinkle in his eyes.

  They high five one another, I laugh while Kara shrugs it off and goes back to snuggling in-between his legs.

  Braxton inches closer to whisper in my ear. “Hey Sparkplug, how’s my girl doing?” He pauses to kiss me just under my ear as I giggle. “My mom called me after her talk with you. She’s making sure I mind my p’s and q’s.”

  “I’m doing okay. Believe it, or not your mom made up my mind for me.” I peer over my shoulder to look into his gazing eyes.

  He looks slightly confused, cocking his head. “How so?”

  I reach up and stroke his cheek. “She told me how much you love me and how miserable you have been. She made me see things in a different light. It’s all crystal clear to me now.” My heart spills over as my eyes never leave his not for one second.

  Those big warm, sparkling orbs are gently closing as he brings his face closer to mine. His tongue darts out to lick his lower lip right before they make contact. The softness of his touch restricts my ability to take another breath. I will my eyes to stay open not daring to miss a second of this moment. Like always, as soon as his lips touch mine, it's all over. I’m internally begging him to strip me naked. It’s insane how much I crave the feel of him inside of me.

  “Oh, here they go again,” Liam clears his throat, saying, “I will take this as our cue to leave.”

  Oh shit, I got so into Braxton no one else mattered, I simply forgot we had company with us. Yep, embarrassing.

  “Take care of her Brax.”

  Walking inside the house with Kara holds his hand, Liam stops and winks looking back over his shoulder.

  “Well,” Braxton says jokingly, “we know how to clear a room don’t we?”

  “Sure do,” I laugh so hard I snort. “If this is all it takes, we are golden honey.”

  “God, I love it when you call me honey, never had a woman do that before.” His eyes glaze over appearing more serious, more loving. ”With you, everything is better. Love you Izzy.”

  Sweetly caressing my hands with his thumbs he grips them pulling me toward him. Falling onto him, I squeal as he lies back on the porch floor. Lying in his arms, it's his most breathtakingly beautiful smile that reaches deep into my soul. It’s the moment, the single moment I know he’s the one.

  Holding his hand to my heart, I shake with every breath I take. “I feel it, you know. Your mom explained it to me and boy oh boy, was she right. I feel you all the way from the top of my head down to the tip of my toes. I’m hopelessly in love with you Braxton.”

  “Remind me to buy my mom flowers tomorrow, she just saved the girl of my dreams. Never thought of my mom as my ace in my pocket but hey, I’m not complaining.”
Tracing his finger down my cheek, he whispers, his hot breaths sizzle against my lips. “I fucking love you; you have taken hold of my heart and own it. Don’t ever want it back either, it’s yours to keep.”

  Sitting up, I straddle him, wrapping my arms around his shoulders, pulling him closer to my face. I’m kissing him starting at one ear to the other and everywhere in between. His gasps and muscle spasms spring to life his erection that is now hard as stone. Being naughty, I marvel at the feeling of his body and slowly twist my hips to grind against him.

  I’m wearing a maxi skirt, so it’s pretty easy access for him. Or should I say for me to get what I want. I fumble with his jeans, using both of my hands to pop his button. Slowly I unzip him and slide my hand down his pants. Getting his boxers out of my way, I grasp him tightly.

  Moaning as I stroke him from root to tip. I caress the bead of pre-cum with my thumb to glide it across his slit. His erratic breathing and sexy moans that escape his throat not only let me know he’s turned on but I swear I might combust from hearing them.

  Braxton reaches under my skirt with each hand running along my thighs, inching very slowly up and inside until they reach the lace of my panties. My moans are not only loud they are sexy as hell. Between the two of us, I hope the neighbors have their windows closed because I am not stopping and from the looks of things neither is Braxton.

  “Oh baby, you feel so good.” His thumbs find their way stroking under the elastic of my panties. “Feel how wet you are, Jesus, you’re drenched for me baby.”

  His blazing touch feels incredible. I’m barely able to control my breathing, let alone keep my body still, I’m ready for takeoff.

  “Hmmm… touch me,” I say softly, rocking my hips. “Touch me Braxton.” My body sings as he continues to play it like an instrument. His touch is ever so soft like velvet as I keep stroking him. Tracing his vein underneath it’s not only protruding, it’s throbbing. Every pulse is making my mouth water aching to lick him, yearning to feel him slide against my tongue. My desire to feel him deep in my throat as I hug every delectable inch of him excites me even more.