His Unplanned Lesson

by Nickie Nalley Seidler

  “So, you’re separated from Tracy?” I pushed for more.

  “Yes. I’ve been separated from her the entire time she’s been pregnant pretty much. I’ve had to still deal with her for the club, but other than that, I haven’t had much to do with her. I can’t forgive her for what she did. I have to know if that baby is mine.”

  “Jake, what are you telling me?” I pushed the tears aside, while I was hoping this wasn’t the worst part I’d have to hear for the night.

  “I’m telling you that, I love you. I’ve loved you since the very first day I laid eyes on you. The moment I heard your laugh and the second your eyes stayed glued to mine. That was my moment with you. Ever since then, you scared me. You scared me because I was feeling things that I didn’t even feel with Tracy. You wracked my brain and tested my feelings. I knew when you were back in my life, that I never loved Tracy the way I was falling in love with you. But that night I saw you with Bobby on the beach, was my signal to move on. So I did and that’s how I met Tracy. The rest was just a mess and stupidity. I want you in my life, Sadie. I want you to be by my side through it all. I’m going to divorce her. Whether the kid is mine or not. I don’t want to lose you when I know we were made for one another.”

  “What if the baby is yours?” I frowned, trying to keep my cool. I wasn’t sure how I’d react if the baby was his. How would that be for us? I’d be helping raise a kid that wasn’t mine and having to deal with Tracy for the rest of my life. A woman who threatens me every chance she gets. Frankly, I’m not even sure that Jake knew what she did.

  “I’ll deal with that if and when it happens. But I want you to be with me. Would you be able to deal with that?”

  “I don’t know, Jake. It’s an awful lot to ask of someone. Someone you hurt greatly. Someone I thought I could trust blew that by keeping so much from me. There are so many things you need to do to prove I can trust you again.”

  I got up from his lap. Everything in my head was just mush. I had to let this sink in. What if that baby really was his? I didn’t know if I was ready to be a mom, let alone a stepmom. I wasn’t sure I could just trust Jake to know he’d never go back to Tracy either. How did I know this was the truth?

  He followed me over to the water. I placed my head in my hands and keeled over till my elbows hit my knees. I wanted to scream, cry, shout at the top of my lungs, “why me” but knew that wouldn’t help the situation.

  He wrapped his arms around me and pulled me into a hug while I unleashed the water gates again.

  “I love you, Sadie. I will do anything in my power to keep loving you for the rest of my life. I’ll do everything for you to keep loving me. Please forgive me. Please, I can’t live my life without you.” He kissed the top of my head, still squeezing me and not letting go. “I wished I would have told you what I meant to tell you when I had the chance. I fucked up, I did, but I want to make it up to you. I want to show you how much I love you. I want to try. You can see how fucked up and ruined this made me feel about my relationships. I wasn’t proud of where I was when I met you. Being married and quickly separated made me feel like I was a failure. Then you happened and took my breath away. It was the greatest surprise life could have thrown at me. I didn’t want to lose it or you. Because I love you.”

  I looked up at him, all teary eyed and shaky from admitting my feelings, but I did too. “I love you, too.” I kept my hair down long, covering the scar from Tracy. I didn’t know how to tell him that yet.

  Chapter 19

  Today has been a fantastic day. For one, I got promoted to manager this morning. Not even assistant manager, just went straight to manager with a huge pay increase and more responsibilities. I was so damn excited that I told Savannah I was taking her out to dinner soon. I couldn’t tonight, because Jake was taking me somewhere special for the weekend and I wasn’t sure where or what to expect. I was told to pack a small bag, and be prepared to be pampered. This guy has made an appearance every night at my house for the last week, making me feel like I was the only person in his life. He started coming over at normal hours and apparently gave Tracy the cold shoulder and he didn’t seem to care much about not being at the club. He told me he had priorities, and that was making sure I was sticking around because he didn’t dare want to lose me. I started feeling great and my moods started to ease up. I felt content with Bobby and I couldn’t be mad that his letter was turning out to be true, but I couldn’t help but wonder if it were to have held true if he was still around. That was what I didn’t want to think about. I couldn’t. All I had was Jake now. Bobby was gone and I had to accept it and move on with my life. I couldn’t allow silly letters and thoughts about him to drive me nuts, stuck in my head. I thought I was on the verge of checking myself into the hospital again till I realized I had to stop and take a deep breath. Life went on.

  I must have hugged Savannah every chance I got and I felt so grateful for this pay increase. I knew college was put on hold for some time and this was my chance to try to go back and make something of myself. My life was starting to fall into place.

  After shift, I headed to the gym to get in a quick run before I headed home and grabbed my packed bag. Jake was picking me up in an hour. I made myself a quick sandwich to hold me over after not having eaten all day. I was so excited for this surprise weekend, but mainly to spend the time with Jake.

  Fall was settling in and in the south that didn’t really mean much other than it was a few degrees cooler. It wasn’t like we were to expect snow or frost or anything. That was for winter, and that could wait a little longer. I heard Jake’s truck pull into the driveway with his headlights flashing into the front window. I grabbed my bag, locked up the house and went outside to see him standing next to his truck waiting for me.

  “Hey, sexy lady.” He smirked, leaning down and pressing his lips to mine.

  “Where are we headed handsome?” I handed him my bag and he tossed it in the back of the truck.

  “Secret. Top secret, “he added. He opened my door and helped me in. By helping me, his hand might have touched my ass and gave it a push. I wasn’t complaining, just made me giggle.

  He hopped in and off we went into the night. After a few hours passed, we arrived to this dark but beautiful little cabin, still on the ocean. When I looked over out his window, I saw a cliff and a lighthouse. My mouth dropped and the excited little girl inside me came out, never having seen one before. The light at the very top was a spot light that went around in circles over the ocean.

  “Oh my God, babe! That’s incredible! I’ve never seen one up close.”

  “You will. But we just got here and it’s late, let’s light a fire and relax. We have the whole weekend ahead.”

  “Sound’s perfect.” I smiled brightly. The feeling in my stomach tingled as the butterflies released. A weekend away with Jake was just perfect. He still made me nervous, but he also still warmed my heart and made everything seem like a first date.

  He grabbed both our duffle bags and headed into the beautiful cabin. It was all wood and immaculately updated on the inside. The fireplace was huge and so pretty. Earthy decor, and beach pictures were all over the cabin. The kitchen was small, but updated with granite counter tops and stainless appliances. It was the greatest escape.

  “It’s so beautiful in here. How did you find this place?”

  “Google is your friend,” he laughed, while lighting up the fireplace to get it going. When the fire ignited, it sent a warm sensation onto my face. He stood next to me and wrapped one arm around me, bringing me in closely while we stared at the fire and watched the little sparks it gave off. I saw an afghan blanket on the sofa and grabbed it while I lay it down before the fireplace on the floor. Jake looked at me and smiled, keeping his eyes pinned to mine before dropping his hands down to my face. He gently slid his hands down, gripping under my chin and pointing my head towards his before he sank his lips into mine. Feeling his smooth touch melting to my lips sent my mind to a heavenly place.

 
He kept his lips sealed to mine. My arms wrapped around him and he slowly took his hands and lifted up my shirt, lifting it over my head and breaking the kiss. My lips wanted his back on mine. I craved him, I wanted him. He flung my shirt to the ground and took a step back to admire me. His eyes traced my body, taking me all in before smiling this sweet smile. Taking his hand and trailing it from my neck down to my bra line he removed the space in between us and pressed his lips slowly, gently to mine. I moaned into his kiss. He reached around the back and unsnapped my bra letting it fall to the ground. My hands went to his hair and ran my silky fingers through his rough shaggy hair that he’s let grow out. It gave me something to pull on.

  “You’re so beautiful,” he whispered in between kisses. I sunk down to the floor and brought him with me his body towering over mine. I took that as an opportunity to get his shirt off so I could admire him, with his beautiful six pack of abs and toned upper body. My hands reached up under the warm muscle shirt that he was wearing and pulled it up towards his head, watching his grin spread wider on his face.

  “Tonight is about me making it up to you.” He took the rest of his shirt off and pinned my hands above my head. “No more touching.” He pointed his finger at me playfully.

  His lips tasted sweet and I couldn’t get enough of them. His lips moved down my body, giving each breast the attention they deserved. He tugged one nipple in his mouth, teasing me. The heat pooled below and my body trembled beneath him. “Relax.” He smiled up at me before returning to roaming his hands down my body. He carefully removed my pants and panties while I laid completely naked. The fireplace let out just enough heat to keep us warm. Not that I needed any more heat between my legs. Feeling his thick erection pressing through his jeans turned me on more than I thought it would. I imagined him inside me and it made my skin tingle with more desire and impatience, wanting it now.

  He slowly let his hips meet mine and slid inside me, filling me whole. As he slid in and out of me and perfectly choreographed movements, I matched his movements thrust for thrust and we were in perfect sync with one another. The heat built up and I didn’t want this night to end.

  “Don’t stop.” I moaned while he kept pumping in and out of me, grunting as he went. He sounded so sexy, so real, so amazingly mine. The sweat trickled down from his forehead and I reached up, tugging my hands through his hair, feeling so deeply about him. The fire illuminated his body with a glow that made him look beautiful. As if he wasn’t already, it just made him shine. It highlighted all the right features.

  I reached up, crushing my mouth to his, not letting go of his hair. He picked up the speed and ground into me.

  Our bodies danced together on the floor, our hips thrusting, our moans loud, and the pleasure was through the roof. I felt so emotionally connected to Jake. The mold our bodies made together fit perfectly. It was like a puzzle piece that fit just right. Not only fit just right, but felt just right. This weekend was going to be the best one yet.

  After a while of a purely blissful state of mind it was so euphoric, we couldn’t get enough. I wrapped my legs around his, making the connection even tighter while I let the pumps slow down and him dig deeper into me. After a few minutes, we released.

  He looked into my eyes and that glisten was there that was oh so familiar to me. It was the same glisten I remembered from when I first met him. It was all coming back to me.

  “I love you, Sadie. So much. You’re so gorgeous.” He kissed my lips in the gentlest of ways. He savored every moment with me and I finally saw it. He truly cherished everything about us and was terrified to lose it.

  “I love you, too, Jake.”

  “Be my Queen, Sadie. Let me take care of you. Let me love you like I can’t live without you. Because I can’t. You’re truly a blessing in my life and I can never envision my life without you.”

  I grinned widely, I couldn’t slap the stupid goofy grin from my crimson red cheeks. “I’ll be your Queen, if you’ll be my King. You already show me every day how much you love me. I’m all yours. No matter what.”

  “No matter what.” He added.

  “No matter what.” I reassured him. As much as I knew that I hoped the kid wouldn’t be his, we still didn’t know that.

  We lay together on the floor for a while curled up in each other’s arms, enjoying the fire. He grabbed some pillows to be more comfortable but it was just a nice setting. Even though I wasn’t used to being naked in front of someone like I was Jake oddly, I didn’t mind. I was completely comfortable around him and that made my heart warm inside.

  We talked about things going on with setting up paperwork with his lawyer for the divorce. He had to decide what he thought she would fight him on. He suspected everything but he was willing to walk away from it all. He didn’t care and that made me sad. To see everything he worked for go out the window because of a hasty soon to be ex-wife. I had to be strong for him, I knew it couldn’t be easy going through a divorce. Let alone a nasty one as I could only imagine how much she’d make it hell for him. She was trying to make my life hell when I didn’t even know her.

  “You know that house I brought you to, it was in my Mother’s name. I’m going to sell it and she’s going to give me the money for it. I don’t care if the club is gone, let her have it.”

  “I just hate to see you throw everything away that you’ve worked so hard for.”

  “I’d rather not have memories of a person stuck in my head that’s been so horrible to me.”

  I bit my bottom lip tight almost to the point where I was breaking the skin. I was nervous. I still hadn’t told Jake about our little spat. I didn’t know how he would react and what he’d do but I’m pretty sure I had to tell him.

  “You know I had a little run in with Tracy.”

  His eyes darted straight into mine, searching for the story that I haven’t told yet. He narrowed in on me, giving all his focus to me. “What do you mean?” A sense of worry washed over his beautiful face. I sat up holding the blanket around me, the fire illuminating my skin.

  “I didn’t know how to tell you this because frankly, it was before we were talking. Tracy followed me home one night from Ava’s and almost ran me off the road except I was pulling into my driveway. I’m pretty sure she didn’t know that’s where I lived because I don’t think she would have waited till I was practically in my driveway to slam the rear end of my car to get me to swerve. I parked it and she got out and started threatening me like she knew who I was. Saying that you told her you were at Ava’s and warning me to stay away from you, that she’d bury me into the ground if I kept coming around. When Luke showed up to step into the madness, I walked away because I was so sickened by it all. That was when she came after me, knocked my head on the ground and tried to do it again before Luke tore her off me. Once again threatening she wasn’t done.” His hands immediately fled to my face, touching me like he was making sure I was okay. His eyes searched mine, not even knowing what to say to me. A stray tear trickled down my face remembering that night and how upset I was.

  “I’m so sorry baby. I can’t believe she did that.” The anger started to course through his veins while one popped on his forehead. “I can’t believe she hurt you. I can’t believe I wasn’t there. She’s going to get hell the next time I see her. Absolute, fucking, hell.”

  I grabbed his hand, squeezing it. “Stop. What happened, is done and over with. You’re going to be there to protect me from now on. There’s nothing to worry about. Just focus on the divorce and it’ll all pan out.”

  “She assaulted you!” He yelled, standing up and putting his clothes on quickly while he paced the cabin. I reached for my shirt and pants and did the same. I sat on the couch while I watched him have his moment. I didn’t know what to do or say.

  “But I’m okay.” I added.

  “No, you may be okay, but it’s not okay for someone to do that and get away with it. She’s fucking pregnant for crying out loud! What does that say about a person?” He sat on the other
edge of the couch from me. “We’re pressing charges.”

  “Nope.” I shook my head.

  “Why not?” He asked, scooting closer to me on the couch.

  “Why not? Because I don’t seek revenge. It’s only going to add more fuel to her fire, and I’m done fighting. If she comes around again, 911 is on my speed dial. But I’m not doing anything about it now.”

  His hands tousled through his hair, roughing it up. “You know sometimes Sadie, I want to shake you to make you see sense, but I’ll respect your decision even if I don’t like it.”

  We ended it at that. The night was exhausting and I didn’t want to ruin what we just had, so I took him to bed and made everything right again. I didn’t want him so stressed out on this trip that he surprised me with. I wanted it to be nice, to be perfect. After all, we drove a few hours to another state to just spend time with one another.

  Chapter 20

  In the morning it seemed like all his memory of the talk last night had faded. I woke up, got dressed, and cooked him breakfast. It was awesome opening the fridge to see it was fully stocked. Must have been an extra perk he paid for booking the cabin. I set the plate in bed and woke him up so he could eat. He loved the sweet gesture I did for him while we ate in bed together. He talked about some plans he had made for us today and that he was so excited that he was taking me to the lighthouse. Apparently, at the top of this lighthouse, if you paid extra you could have warm coffee served to you and a place to sit for just a short while. It was an extremely long way up to the top, but I was ready. So ready to see and do something that I’ve never done.