Helios

by Anja Fuerst

  The rain insisted on punishing the night. Walked to access the pool door, I looked through the glass letting the time pass as he watched the void in front of me. It was as if they were my own tears being shed.

  Confused and helpless, I began to feel angry at myself. It could not be so weak. We had an agreement and this provided only intense moments where both were seeking only our sexual satisfaction. How foolish I was! Who I want to cheat? Robert dominated my thoughts since our first meeting.

  - Honey? - Heard Robert calling for me and turned to find him standing at the top of the stairs leading to the rooms. I thanked God for not be crying. I do not want him to see me this way. - Some problem?

  - Robert - beheld his stunning beauty as he went down toward me. He was wonderful with only his pajama bottoms. - No. Nothing.. Just can not sleep. I think it's too rested in the afternoon and now lost sleep - he seemed not to notice my apprehension.

  - You were not in bed. I thought something had happened.

  He caught me a kiss that allowed the meeting of our bodies. It was amazing how he could make all my thoughts and insecurities evaporate when held me that way, so protective and yet domineering and, above all, sexy.

  - Do not you tired? - I denied supporting my forehead on his chin. - I missed - a chill down my spine.

  I was also missing him. The way his hands opened and hugged me tight, enveloping me completely, made it clear how much and how he felt. I did not have to think to react.

  My hands flew to her hair and wrapped his lips to mine savoring the delights of his kiss. I could spend eternity kissing him. Robert picked me up and I held my legs around his waist. Encostamo us to the wall, where it impacted me like, running his hands down my thighs and taking them up my ass. I was without panties and it made him even more excited.

  Quickly he was inside me. All the void of his absence was filled immediately. When we were that way, Robert made me feel like a part of it and not as an individual. We were a single creature and such a finding hurt me. It made my heart bleed, because I knew I could not expect anything from him.

  My lover lunged hard, forcing me to drive all thought that was not what was happening. He had me and I moaned delivered to date. As I wanted. As I liked to be with him. To run away? Give up? There was no way. I already belonged to him.

  Our bodies moved at the same pace. I felt the cold wall on my back and the warmth of Robert in front of me. He was going deeper and deeper, reaching a more distant point of what had already been able to achieve. I closed my eyes not allowing me think more about anything, just him and how much was pleasant to have it fully inside me.

  His hands, mouth, teeth, tongue and danced sex on me in a perfectly rehearsed ballet. It was a harmonious and powerful whole. Which dominated me without a chance of escape. As if there was a chance of that happening.

  - I want you, Honey. I want only to me - moaned and spread kisses across my face.

  - You already have me. I am. Only. Your. Anyone else - I begged at that time, so it was just mine. But I knew it was a losing battle.

  - I'm crazy about you, girl - growled as I invaded with ease.

  I could not hear anything. Happiness spread through my veins in a breakneck race. My heart quickened as the body can no longer contain signaled the imminent pleasure.

  - Surrender - hoarsely unleashed a whirlwind of sensations. Robert came immediately. I moaned loudly, letting the orgasm consume me.

  Still panting from the effort of our position we were in, we escorremos the wall to reach the ground and we embraced. Robert, very slowly, distributing kisses on my face stroking my hair and back.

  - We need to be more careful with our emotions - her still pounding chest throbbed in my hand. - You leave me no reason, Melissa. Had sex without a condom again.

  The words hit me hard, especially because I know the reason for your concern. But he continued with strong arms around me and nuzzling into his chest. How to contain the mess that was formed in my thoughts that threatened already overflowing through my eyes?

  I needed to escape the guilt that tried to ravage me. She could wait until later, when I was alone and no one to see me cry.

  - It's your fault. I've never met anyone with such disposition - he laughed.

  - Let's go back to bed. We will have a full day and need to rest.

  The sadness for the end of our day was great. I could not just lie down beside her and wait for the end. So I decided to take a shower before I joined him, and when he finally went to bed, Robert already slept like an angel. My angel.

  CHAPTER 24

  I could see him. I could see every bit of it. Robert was standing, using one of his perfect jackets that were glorious in it. Her hair was tidy with all its formality. He was leaning against the table of your living room, holding her with his hands on either side of your body. The gray eyes had disappeared leaving the place dark, cold and unforgiving eyes. I was afraid of the way he looked at me still wanted to touch it. I am beside you, tell him that I was there.

  I walked toward him, but something kept me in place. I tried again and nothing happened. I was advancing and something held me, preventing me from reaching it. Robert did not move. Just looked at me analyzing the situation.

  Desperation took hold of me. I did not want it that way. That was not my Robert, was just Mr. Carter articulating a negotiation where he needed to be careful not to lose.

  I struggled again to reach it and something pulled me harder. Robert looked at me more closely leaning his body towards me as if to better observe what was beyond me. It was when I looked back and saw what pulled me.

  Tanya.

  Linda with her perfect face, wonderful hair and proper attire for a woman in her position. She held me by the arms and his eyes were lethal. His mouth was curved in a bestial angle. Would kill me. I was sure.

  I tried to extricate myself and her, without much effort, kept me in place. I pulled my successive times and no arms. I looked at Robert it was still standing. Then I understood. I never reach. Tanya would not allow. I felt weakened and tears overcame me as my body sank.

  - Honey? - His voice was calling me, but his mouth did not move. - Wake up! Wake up, honey! - I was more urgent. - Wake up.

  I opened my eyes and the light was warning me that it was day. As? I had not fallen asleep long ago. I remember having stayed in bed watching Robert sleep until the first rays of sunlight appear on the horizon.

  - You awake? - Only then I realized leaning over me. His confused expression. - Were you having a nightmare? - Seemed stunned. - I was crying.

  I looked for my voice and she was not there. His fingers ran through my damp face. I got a bit trying to adapt to reality and had a broader view of my lover.

  - You're dressed - my voice was hoarse and failure. I scratched in my throat. Robert was sitting next to me, wearing a jacket, as in my dream. I got the heart racing. His eyes probed me.

  - Yes. I was coming to wake her and found her like that. It is day, we must turn.

  Oh damn! We needed to go back. Tanya. She never let me reach it. I nodded in agreement and put my legs out of bed. I was very bad. Trembling. Certainly I had not slept more than half an hour and on top of the nightmare ... I sighed.

  - Are you alright? - Robert was still worried.

  - Yes I just need a few more minutes and I'll be ready. - He agreed and, after looking at me carefully checking that really was all right, she left the room.

  I went to the bathroom and found a new brush beside the one thought to be his. "Always thinking at all." I sighed. It would be perfect if it were not so wrong. Robert was the prince who turned sapo.

  I brushed my teeth, combed her hair and went back to the room. I needed to look for my clothes. They were the ones that I had, especially underwear. But I was surprised.

  On the bed was a green dress with square neckline, suitable for those who go to work and not to a nightclub and a set of white lingerie. Another point to Robert. Maybe he had not fully transformed into sapo. Maybe I s
hould not be the "sapa" hopeful and deluded, believing that a prince's kiss would be delighted enough to change my whole life. I dressed and used the basic makeup that thank God he had in the bag. Nicole would not let go.

  I went to the room where I met with a toast in one hand and a cup of coffee in the other. Robert was standing, watching the local news. I spent going straight to the table and took only a cup of black coffee. I sat back to him taking sips as he looked out of the house.

  The access to the pool door was open. Outside, it was as beautiful as inside. I was delighted, but the dream was over. We were back to our reality, and it, Tanya acted in the lead role.

  - Are not you hungry? - Robert caught my eye sitting in front of me.

  -. No, I'm too tired to think about food - he smiled slightly.

  - Not interested in news - I noticed my apathy.

  - Anything interesting? - I tried to maintain a normal conversation.

  - Ah! I guess nothing new. The advancement of research with nuclear power and the wonders that can be achieved with it. But that we can hear and read almost every day - nodded in agreement and then fell silent.

  - We need to go - spoke softly, as if this fact bother him as well.

  I looked up and saw him with his head down, staring at the contents of the cup. The way he was acting was telling me that something more worried. Something that could take away your peace. The fact that I use or not contraceptive. Of course!

  - Ah! OK. I need only two minutes - looked back at me. - I need to take my pill.

  The informed like a banality. I grabbed my purse and took from there the pill back to the table and picking up a glass of juice to eat it. He looked at me intently.

  - Contraceptive?

  - Yes - his shoulders were visibly more relaxed and my heart sank chest. Damn it!

  - Good - looked away. Yet there was something else. But what could it be? He said nothing.

  Back in the car, Robert talked little. His face told me that there was a problem and I was almost convinced it was me. However I did not want to be. If it was, he could stay carefree. I would never try to impose myself in his life, as he had done with me. I knew exactly what was my place and was not at his side, as he was making it clear.

  - Will not you tell me what you dreamed?

  - I'm not very good at it - he looked at me quickly and then turned his attention to the road. He was waiting in silence. - I do not usually remember my dreams - I lied. He shook his head as if in agreement with what I had said.

  - I'd really like to not remember.

  It was like going to confession, because I could see the shadow of sadness that hung on his face. Robert was not the style "regret life", so maybe it has managed to recover quickly. Before long, estacionávamos in front of my building. I had not even realized he was going in that direction.

  - It is better that you go in your own car - nodded and grabbed my purse. Robert grabbed me by the arm. - Melissa? - His eyes were low. - I do not know how to deal with what is happening between us - her lips parted and he choked on his own words. I watched him fight himself trying to tell me what so desired. - I wish I could be more for you, unfortunately I can not. What I have to offer you now is just that and know it's not enough - my heart raced, he was going to give me away?

  - I think I'm mature enough to understand, and be responsible for my choices - I fought against my own chest desperately caught my heart. My will was to hold on my knees and wrap them in my body preventing it from estraçalhasse completely.

  - Yes you are. I'm sure.

  Robert dropped my arm and turned his hands to the steering wheel. It was my time to leave. I opened the door and slipped out. Unsteadily walked toward my car, stopped in the same place I left the day before, when he took me to live the most amazing day of my life.

  - Honey ?! - I turned to watch him.

  Robert was out of the car, coming towards me. Reaching me very quickly. Nervous and feline. A combination of more than aphrodisiac. My heart felt like a samba school.

  - Not like that. Not this way.

  And he took me in his arms, kissing me passionately. Our bodies react to farewell. I could feel the tip of the tongue the taste of our despair. But he left me too soon. I had to support me in the car to regain balance. Robert walked away slowly. Even away, I could still hear it.

  - I'll be right behind you.

  Holy shit! What man was that?

  I got into the car without knowing it would be able to drive. My legs were shaking. It took a long minute, his hands on the steering wheel, breathing hard to recover. What was that? What did he say? It was so antagonistic.

  I looked in the rearview mirror and realized he was still waiting for me. I pushed the thoughts and concentrated on giving the match, taking the car in the direction of the company. Robert stood behind me all the time, at a safe distance, not to draw attention. My eyes ran the road to the rear view mirror and the road at all times.

  He went to the parking lot of the gods as I continued looking for a spot in the deadly car. When I could get to the elevator I had lost fifteen minutes. He certainly had risen. I took to reorder my thoughts. I was very tired and had a long day ahead.

  When the doors opened and took the first steps before they even get to my desk, I could see her. Tanya. Sitting in front of Robert he looked at her blankly as she said something. I thought I could not stand. The burden of guilt hit me completely. I was the lover and recently was kissing her husband. Settling with her husband. I. The usurper, feigned, betrayed ... The lover.

  My breathing was accelerated, and my sweaty hands, but I had to present myself in the best possible way or else she would suspect and that was unwanted or for me, it would be shameful to see me in this position, not for Robert, which he had much to lose.

  I took my purse Iphone keeping it in one of the drawers. I accessed my task list by checking the various meetings of the day. I picked up the phone and called his office. My heart out through your mouth. Robert answered on speaker methodically. We returned to the formalities. What irony!

  - Mr. Carter, good morning - I felt ridiculous to act this way.

  - Good morning, Miss. Simon - he showed no embarrassment. - Miss is delayed.

  I snorted! "Fuck the time, shit!". I tried to keep calm.

  - I had some problems on the way to here, and also with the car, sir. Excuse me!

  - Do not apologize - I took a deep breath. Why was he being so stupid? "OK! It is always like that. " I rolled my eyes. - We need to align agendas. Come to my room, please.

  My blood ran cold. I could not face Tanya as if he had not slept with her husband all night. Holy shit! Holy shit!

  Calm, Melissa, you can. You have to get, shit! Who sent accept it in your life? Why did not run away when there was still time? Oh my God! I had this option? Do not.

  I forced my legs to obey the command. Valentia was not one of the strong aspects of my personality. It normally. I was a born coward. I entered his office with the speculative look. How would it be? Robert looked at me without transmitting anything to me. It was just my boss again.

  - Sit down, Miss. Simon - ordered and I obeyed sitting down next to Tanya.

  - Good morning, Mrs. Carter - I avoided my eyes would last long in it.

  - Good morning, Melissa - she looked at me and I swerved. - You're a bad aspect. Night too hectic?

  Oh, shit!

  His voice was soft and somewhat polite. But for me it was like an accusation. A slap in the face. My face flushed and my mouth went dry. I looked cowardly to Robert, however, he looked closely at your computer.

  My boss was a professional in the art of disguise. Acted in such a natural way that no one could accuse him of things that I knew he did. How could? I barely controlled mismatching breath and sweat that soaked my hands. I suffered to see that he was used to situations like this. How many times? How many different women?

  - Insomnia - briefly replied to realize that it took me longer than the conventional answer to a straightfo
rward question. - Mr. Carter ... - I turned my attention to Robert. - We will have meetings all day with various sectors and with customers and suppliers.

  - Yes - he made some notes on her agenda. - The documents are ready?

  - For the first two meetings, yes, sir. The others will arrange during the day - nodded.

  - I need spreadsheets and graphics.

  - Send to your email immediately, sir - I sent through my phone, which left him visibly pleased.

  - Thank you, Miss. Simon. That is all.

  I got up, grateful to be able to leave the presence of the two, and went back to my desk doing my best to get back to them. Print all the documents requested. After I arranged what was necessary for the boardroom. When I left, the first group arrived.

  Robert and Tanya went to the meeting room and stayed there for nearly two hours. Strangely, her participation, but he had said that his wife was a major shareholder, so it was justifiable.

  The process was repeated twice more in the morning. I participated in part of the two meetings, at his request, to annotate or provide some information, for he knew the contracts very well, due to my immense curiosity. When he finished the third meeting, Robert came out with Tanya for lunch, hand in hand, as if nothing had happened between us. They were married and seemed happy. It was very difficult that finding.

  I had lunch with Nicole. Alexa had gone to lunch with Robert, Tanya and Bruno, as a happy family. Nick did not want to go and did not tell me why. We were together rehashing our anxieties. I understand my friend seemed to have some kind of problem with Tanya, but it was not always so.

  - We were best friends. Inseparable, but our family was shaken by a series of terrible events and Tanya did not react very well. I understand her side and respect the distance imposed. At first it was difficult, but today, I can be indifferent. What we, and what they went through, should get closer, however, instead of strengthening the weakened us in many ways. See their relationship ... - she made a motion with his hands as if they were in front of us. - All structures were shaken. Robert has always venerated Tanya, but after all ... I do not know what to think.