Helios

by Anja Fuerst

  I came to the company, owned by hatred. I called Paul and told her to meet me in my room. I needed to find out who had poisoned Mel, who had made it all fell apart. Paul was my first victim, but swore he had not even seen my desk in recent days and that no word was spoken to Nicole.

  Melissa away had to ask Alexa to help. She managed to find the documents and had to stop my research to start the meeting. It was impossible to contain the anger and still try to quell the pain in the chest by a lack she made me. Every time he looked at the table where Mel should be, my pain increased.

  The meeting ended quickly. All were eager to get away from my fury. However I would not give up using it with anyone else to find out what had really happened.

  Nicole came to my room at the end of the day. She had the hands Melissa's resignation letter and he was angry. I believed that I had done something to scare her. Nick could not imagine how much I had.

  Mel did not want to leave. I should want. It would be best for her, but I did not. My absurdly selfish side told me not to let her go. So I managed to terrorize Nicole, making it clear that she should find someone to the job in record time. Nicole hated pressure and was already more than mired in problems with the end of the year and all the company's obligations at this time. She came out determined to make my secretary back.

  Not really know what she did, but it worked. Two days later Melissa was back. However made it clear that as soon Abgail could take, would leave. I might be thrown into hell because of it, but only being able to see it made me feel a little better.

  A little.

  Mel was visibly dejected. He had lost weight and I could read in his actions the immense effort that was to be there with me. In fact, at no time did deign to look at me, even when we needed to talk about work. Not to scare her and also to be aware that it could not wrap it or she would break into a thousand pieces, kept me at a distance.

  Until that day.

  Twelve days had passed. Twelve days without merit your look without touching your skin without feeling its smell, hearing or see your smile. Twelve days just watching her walk, talk, eat ... everything mechanically. Mel did not react. I was so fragile that at various times thought it would not support more keep my scam.

  To make matters worse, Tanya began to appear more frequently. I could not stop. She was responsible for social participation of the company. It was through her that we did our social activities such as donations, charity events and participation in various social projects.

  This part was of utmost importance for the company, because with it we won notoriety in the world market and had the support of various government agencies for our business in various parts of the world. As we were at the end of the year, these commitments intensified. It was through her that we kept under control the World Social Forum.

  I could see, even without being able to do anything, as Melissa shuddered every time Tanya approached. Tanya. He suspected it had been her work, but until that moment no hint, no word. Cursed agreement. Damn promise. I curse every day of my life for what I did.

  That day, for good or bad luck, Tanya had to travel. I would spend a whole week off, to my relief. I hated living with her and her accusers eyes.

  It was Friday. A meeting was scheduled for Monday morning early and so I and Melissa were working until a little later. I asked her to take all the necessary paperwork and put on the coffee table in my living room, facing the couch.

  I wanted to spend more time analyzing the papers and on the couch would be more comfortable. As we were no longer working hours, let the tie and got rid of it. Also I poured myself some whiskey as he watched Melissa in and out with documents in hand. She was beautiful in her black dress billowing. Even so downcast, it was still my honey, beautiful and delicate.

  I was leaning against the glass wall while she was organizing the paperwork. Melissa was purposely back to me. I should keep my scam. I struggled to keep it up to find it was not as strong as thought. Twelve days was long. Twelve days without an explanation, without a word. I needed her. It was stronger than me.

  - Honey? - My voice was more hoarse than usual, due to the time I spent in silence fighting myself to avoid that moment.

  The movement of his hands stopped and she shuddered. It was the first time in twelve days I called her by name and not the formal way was doing. She did not turn, but his face fell slightly taking his gaze to the floor.

  - We can talk? - It took an even quiet time back to me. - Please!.

  - About what you want to talk, Mr. Carter? - She said without turning to me.

  - Honey, please!

  I felt both the lack of it! All those days stuck inside me, struggling to convince me that it was better so, that would only suffer more, and I was there, about to beg.

  - Look at me - I mention to touch her and even her back, she managed to pull away before I reached.

  - Do not touch me, Robert - growled. - If you do not have anything related to work to say, I'm leaving.

  - Honey, forgive me - she stopped where she was.

  I knew those words to disarm and felt like a fucking bastard for doing that to her. But I needed Melissa or else nothing would make sense.

  - I was very angry when I saw you that way. They were terrible days ... I expected to find in you the peace always, but when I got there, you were so destroyed and defeated. I hated myself for it and continue hating me. But my life has been hell and I can not find more sense in anything.

  - Because? - He turned to me, revealing the tears already falling from her eyes.

  Shit! I could not see her like that. Melissa could bring down all my barriers when he looked at me that way. I could not hide how I felt.

  - Because I love you. It should not, but love - the words hit Melissa as a shitload.

  We sat in silence. I, trying to figure out how she stared at the revelation of my love, and Melissa assimilating what I had just said.

  - Why are you doing this to me? - Sobbed. - Why so I decided to play with my feelings? Let me go, Robert!

  Mel begged. My heart broke. I should not do what I did, but I could not help myself and held her in my arms tightly. She struggled for a while, but finally stopped and stood leaning against my chest crying. When he finally began to calm down I let my hands caress her back. Play it again was a balm in my life so painful. I reacted totally and completely to it.

  - Honey, what happened? What made you act like that? I need to know - she was still in my arms. Melissa looked up staring at my eyes.

  - You do not know? - He said wryly, but by my confused face realized that I really did not know. Melissa took a deep breath. - Tanya told me everything, Robert - my first reaction was to let my arms let go.

  As Tanya could have told everything? As she would have had the courage to share with someone all the absurdities of our lives?

  - And now you hate me too - I found.

  That's what should happen. Melissa could not keep loving me knowing all the dirt I had ever done. Knowing all the lives I had in my back and miseries that made the lives of many people. She knew everything.

  - How not to hate? You played me, Robert. All this wedding story, want to be just me ... It was all a lie! You played with my feelings while resuming his marriage to Tanya. How can you say you love me? How long will make it last, Robert? Not tired? Not fun enough? - What she was talking about? What that had to do with what I hide it?

  - Honey, I do not understand. What do you reconcile me with Tanya?

  - She told me - absurdly, relief flooded my body. Melissa did not know anything. But then what? - Tanya told me on the day that you said you needed to go home, lying that he was tired, just not to go to my house. Tanya told me everything and Nicole confirmed - Nicole? What Nicole had to do with that shit?

  - Honey ... - ran my hands in hair shooing the confusion that was forming in my head. - I do not understand anything - she watched me looking for something that could be attached.

  - When we returned from the trip ... Tanya organized
a second honeymoon for you. An attempt at reconciliation - said angrily. Oh damn! So was it? Holy shit! - You had sex, Robert - accused. - You have restored or tried to resume the marriage - the tears continued to fall from her eyes. - And I worried that something bad had happened to you being so far away.

  Holy shit! I was ashamed of my actions. It was not exactly what happened, but still had reason to be ashamed.

  - Honey, it was not so ...

  - Do not lie, Robert. Do not try to convince me that you have not had sex. Tanya was so radiant. So happy and higher. And she's so ... Perfect! - Melissa was confused and suffering. I pressed increasingly my heart. I had destroyed everything in it.

  - Tanya is a snake cunning, Melissa - I was disgusted by all that could understand. - She found out about you

  I had provided Tanya evidence to find out my case with Melissa, just because I was afraid that she found out one of my more sensitive transactions. Damn it! Why did not I more clearly? How could I just believe that my wife would not act directly against my office? "And then Tanya is that was naive. You really are an idiot Robert. "

  Noting I immediately became more alert. Tanya was up to something. Melissa reacted exactly the same way, which was good. Maybe it was easier to convince her of my love before I was convinced that it was all a setup.

  - It does not change anything, Robert. It does not change the fact that you have sex with her - shot me the words. Shame hit me. - Saw? Is stamped on his face - Melissa turned again to leave the room. Instinctively I held. She could not leave.

  - I did not have sex with Tanya, Honey, believe me - she let out a snicker doubting my words. I needed to tell her, had no more back. - On the day we arrived in Dubai I planned to stay with you at night. When I got home, Tanya was waiting for me. She had prepared everything - the memories danced in my memory. - He made a point to dress sexy, desirable way. Prepared dinner, chose the wine, as it always did when we were near the end. I've waited for this attitude, so I was not surprised when I found that way. Tanya always tries to extend our deadline, that's why I said I did not know when the hell would end.

  - So when you are close to finishing the agreement between you it can take you to bed and then you decide that you can extend a little more? What nonsense, Robert - Melissa became even angrier and struggled so I let go.

  - I do not extend it because he had gone to bed with her, honey. Allowed to happen because he knew that if it were not so could not make Tanya fulfilled with part of it. Among other very important things ... - I sighed aware that not everything could be revealed. Not then. - Believe me, honey!

  - And this time was no different, is not it?

  - It was totally different. I'm not proud of what I did then facilitate things, okay?

  I needed her not condemn me to have the courage to tell what really happened that night. It was very likely that Melissa did not believe me. I took a deep breath to continue.

  - I was going to lie to you. It would break our agreement. Simply because I knew it was the only way to play with Tanya and I needed a last chance to finally see me free. It may seem absurd and dirty to you and do not blame you for thinking so, but I had to go to bed with her, honey.

  Melissa reacted worse than I expected. I was prepared for his anger by cursing and until it progressed on me to punish me for my mistake, however, let out a high-pitched whine and put her hands to heart crying desperately. Desperation it was mine. All the pain that Mel felt I could feel well.

  - Honey, I did not have sex with Tanya - spoke high for her to understand and took her face in my hands forcing her to look at me. - No sex with her.

  - But ...

  - I was going to have sex. You can hate me for this, but I would. Just could not - she closed her eyes. - Look at me - I commanded feeling anger everything that had happened and dirty way that Tanya had used to hurt Melissa. She looked at me already totally weakened. - I could not touch it, honey. I tried. I forced myself to continue to try, but I could not - his watchful eyes stared at me. - I could not stop thinking about you. I kept making comparisons and not to feel a cad to be cheating on you. I just do not get. You overwhelmed me completely.

  She smiled slightly, lovely even, but the battle was not yet won. I had to admit that I intended to betray her. Melissa was not fragile at this point, to get back to me just because I could not go on.

  - Honey, I love you. Please get it over with.

  She was very close and I was emotionally shaken, fighting against all odds to have the right to live with her all that my soul craved. Melissa seemed lost. I could not resist and let my lips would cover her.

  Those lips that soft way to kiss, that incomparable flavor. Kiss he brought life to my body again. It was what I needed and more. Melissa I was full.

  Mel kissed him indulging as usual. Time ceased to exist, nothing else mattered. She was with me, saving me from myself. He was the only person with the power to make me reborn. I was the only one who could I reach out and get me the hell that was my life.

  I knew then that I was not being punished. I was rather being presented to a path. The only way that would allow me to move on, leaving all my past behind. Mel was my start.

  With its delivery did not have the strength to be indifferent. I wanted her. I had dreamed every day with our times. I pressed it to my body and she let out a small, low moan that served as the impetus to deepen our kiss. In seconds my tongue was in her mouth and she gave me passage.

  I spent my hands in her hair lifting them neck and held my lover in our kiss. Her small hands roamed my chest and my skin burned inside his shirt. Her touch was causing electric currents to spread through my body. It had been so from the first day we played.

  Carefully to lead to the couch and laid her down on it. She did not open her eyes, perhaps afraid to not be true. I could not judge her. I had the same fear. The terrified to discover that it was all a dream made me go hands down her body lying below my. Mel moaned again with the contact. Damn it! I worshiped.

  I loved the way she moaned as he closed his eyes and tilted his head so that I had access to his neck, as touched me pressing your fingers on my skin, like me increasingly pulling for her, as she ran her hands through my hair twining his fingers between them.

  It was very easy to get rid of the clothes. I can not even say how I got started or how I finished, but I describe exactly the moment my lips touched her bare skin. The same indescribable flavor that accompanied every part of his body was received by me with praise.

  Melissa was too perfect. I would not change anything in it. He loved her breasts or small or large, but the ideal size to stir my imagination. Its thin waist belly and lean were even more perfect when panted with the touch of my lips and my hands. Mel was usually goose bumps when we were well and that made your skin even more delicious. She was unique.

  - Open your eyes, honey - I asked before entering her. And so we loved us, without taking our eyes. I needed it for her to understand that I was not lying. So that you could see me the same as I could see it. The true love. The only love.

  We embraced on the couch while our bodies recovered ecstasy. I traced light kisses down her face, breasts ... The desire to prolong our night was immense, but could not. Mel knew it and for this reason soon the reality surrounded by pulling it away from me. Melissa said nothing, just closed his eyes and bit his lip.

  - Do not think more - wanted to beg that she did not think to leave me again, however, could not. What could I offer her different?

  If it was just my will certainly drop everything to be with her, but unfortunately it was not. There was the damn promise would have to meet and also my great need to prove to myself that nothing had been in vain. Did you know that in me all my ghosts would only be exorcised if I fulfilled the promise because it was through her that my worst nightmares started and I needed it to be able to again have peace.

  - Nothing has changed Robert. Are you still with Tanya and I still have nothing. I live in ignorance of the facts and because of that e
ach and every person can reach me. Your secrets keep me fragile. Because of them I'm always breaking me. I'm tired. The last few days have been bad and I would be absurd to say that not missed you. I know that in me. I know it's true, but completely unaware of what is inside you. It is difficult, but still prefer to gather my pieces and remake me than to continue allowing you to break me into a thousand pieces.

  I could say nothing more. I saw Mel wear your clothes and leave. She was determined. Nothing in it would say otherwise. Not even the revelation of my love made her reconsider her decision. He could not condemn her. I even felt broken into a thousand pieces and knew the most correct was that I break even and not she, after all, I teased all.

  I did not dare go home. I spent the night in the company and the next day tried to take each of my thoughts with the work, as it did every day of my life. It was an almost impossible task. Especially after my night with Melissa. My eyes from time to time took me back to the couch and got lost in the memories of our times.

  I could not stay away from her. I could not do without our times. I could not even breathe right knowing she was determined to erase me from time of your life. There was only one way out. I would have to tell Melissa the truth.

  But how do without it thought me a horrible person? There was a huge risk of it simply do not want to be with me when he learned I both hid.

  In the late afternoon could no longer hesitate. The decision was made. I knew it was the only way out for both of us. But I would have to do the right way. I would have to show her why there is no more hope for me and Tanya. Needed to make it safe it. I tell the truth Melissa.