As Long As You Love Me (Love Me Series Book 4)

by Jaime Russell

  “Not much, doing the manly things around here.” Shawn chuckles because he knows Nicarra is in ear shot.

  “Manly, I don’t see one.” She laughs. “What are you having tonight hon?” I look around the room to some blondes, brunettes, and redheads. I need to find someone to take care of this itch that I have that the blonde from the on-call room has left with me.

  “I’ll start out with a beer and then I may try my hand at that blonde over there.” I hand her my card to start my tab. “I’ll get Cash, Ryan, and Shawn’s too.” Nicarra looks around to see where I’m looking and nods.

  “Oh you don’t need to do that.” Cash remarks from behind me.

  “Hey you got it last time and I believe it’s my turn to pay but remember I have two to put through college at the same time.” I laugh.

  “I saw them when I dropped the boys off with Reagan and Max.” Shawn remarks as he takes a sip of his beer.

  “I can’t believe you guys take all the kids at once like that. How did I not know about this? I don’t know if I could do that. I have my handful with the two that belong to me.”

  “It’s great because they are all friends. The younger ones are difficult sometimes but we trained the older ones to play with them until they go to bed. Sally and Matt’s kids are there too so Jana always has girls.” Nicarra says as she wipes the counter in front of us to lay our beers and pretzels. “Do you want some food?”

  “Yes, a burger with everything, cheese sticks and fries.”

  “I wish I could eat like you and look like that.” Nicarra says as she punches the order in through point of sale computer. I look her up and down.

  “You know,” I look to Shawn, “from an unbiased male, you are mighty fine.” I hear Shawn growl which makes us all laugh.

  After some eating and doing shots with the guys, Cash heads home since Abby is out of town and will be Face Timing early in the morning. I scan the room to check out the talent for the night. Ryan and I decide to get up and move around the room when Shawn jumps up to play bouncer, to have some fun with the ladies. I see a table of three women, one blonde and two brunettes. I nudge Ryan so he can look over at the table. The blonde woman leans into her friends to say something before getting up and walking towards me. This blonde woman is making sure that I take notice of her hips as she moves them with such confidence.

  “Hi. I’m Lacy.” she whispers into my ear as she rubs her boobs along my arm.

  “Can I buy you a drink?” Lacy nods and we grab some drinks to head over to a table towards the back so we can be alone without our friends’ watchful eyes on me. “So Lacy, tell me about yourself.”

  “Oh I’m a college student. I’m working on getting my teaching degree. I live alone.” I lean into Lacy to see if she gives me the go ahead. She does and I start to kiss her lips. We spend the next twenty minutes kissing, making out like teenagers. Lacy starts rubbing my cock through my jeans. I’m about to come right then and there if she doesn’t stop.

  “Baby, let’s take this somewhere else before we get the cops called on us.” Lacy giggles and bites the bottom of her lip like women have been doing since the whole Christian Grey phenomenon hit. It’s one of the things that turns me off but I need to get laid. “Let’s go.” I walk over to the bar to close out my tab and say good night to the boys. “Your place or mine?” I ask and Lacy tells me that she doesn’t live that far from here that we could walk. I lock up my car and put my arm around her shoulders.

  I decide to tease her a little bit while we walk, I pull her into an alley way. Lacy leans up against the wall as I kiss her neck. Lacy is very vocal and I can’t wait to get her writhing and screaming from my hands. Lacy plays with my hair while I continue to kiss my way down to her breasts that are popping out of her tank top. It is very evident that she is turned on by her nipples hardening from my touch. My hands snake up her stomach underneath her blue tank top. My fingers find her nipples, squeezing hard and Lacy hips buckle forward.

  “I don’t know if I can wait until we get back to my place.” Lacy’s voice is husky.

  “Baby, we’re not having sex here in a dirty alley but I can’t keep my hands off you.” I step away from her trying to figure out something as I look around to see if someone is around. “Your pants, unbutton them. Don’t take them off. Slowly move the zipper down halfway.” Lacy follows my commands. “Good.” I look at her as Lacy’s eyes are filled lust. “Wet them.” I put my two fingers close to her lips and she didn’t disappointment me. Lacy’s tongue was all over my fingers like they were my cock, moving in and out, slowly. I remove my fingers and she makes a pop noise. “MMM, I like that.”

  “I need you to be inside me. I can wait.” Lacy whines. I stand in front of her and move my hands to the waist band of her thong. I start rubbing her clit through her thongs. Lacy moans out loud.

  “Don’t move.” I whisper into her ear as I start rubbing faster. I can feel her wanting to buck her hips. “I want your panties so drenched as we walk back to your place so everyone who passes by us can smell your arousal.” I feel Lacy clench her thighs together so I know two things, she loves dirty talk and she’s close. I suck on her neck and leave little bite marks.

  “Can I come?” Lacy asks in a husky voice.

  “Yes.” I growl into her ear as I move the thong over so there is nothing between my fingers and her clit. I slide my middle finger inside her to feel her wetness and knowing how wet she is, I start rubbing fast that my fingers are starting to go numb. Lacy is starting to thrash her head, “OH God. Yes.” She screams in ecstasy. I kiss her lips hard to keep her quiet and I feel her body tense then relax against me. “Let’s get you home, so I can be inside that soaking wet pussy.”

  “Yes, let’s go.” Lacy giggles as she adjusts her top and pants. She grabs my hand and sucks on my fingers that were just inside her. I moan with pleasure as we start walking faster so we can get to her place.

  We finally arrive at Lacy’s studio apartment with one couch that turns into a bed and we waste no time in getting undressed. Three orgasms later, Lacy is falling asleep and I need to leave.

  “Am I a onetime bang?” Lacy lays there with her arm behind her head with blonde hair laying across the pillow.

  “I can give you the line of I don’t do relationships, life is complicated, I’ll call you and never call. I have two kids who are teenagers, a job that keeps me busy and I get one weekend a month where I can be a man with no responsibilities. I can’t do a relationship because when my ex-wife left, I swore that I was done.”

  “So why don’t we keep each other on speed dial when we have a scratch that needs itched?”

  “I can try but don’t hold out hope for me, okay? Just so you know, I prefer sex to relationships.” I start to get dressed.

  “No staying over?” Lacy pouts.

  “Sorry, I’m hungry and I need to get home.” I toss my cell phone to Lacy to put her number into my phone. She sends a text so she has my number. I kiss her on the nose and I leave the apartment.

  I head back to the bar to get my car and I run into Ryan, Nicarra, and Shawn.

  “Yo!” Ryan yells.

  “Done so soon?” Nicarra remarks as she locks up the door.

  “You know me, I don’t do sleep overs. What are you guys up to?”

  “Heading home, I think.” Shawn looks to Nicarra. “What about you since you don’t have any kids?"

  “I’m heading to McDonalds to get some food then I’m heading home to crash. I get to sleep without interruption from arguing teenagers. Pure heaven.”

  “I’m right there with ya. Well not with you with you; but ah hell, never mind.” Nicarra stumbles over her words.

  “Hey I have a nice king size bed and I get awfully lonely.”

  “Oh really?” Nicarra leans in close to me, “then get a dog.” I laugh and kiss her on the cheek.

  “You’re breaking my heart.” I put my hand on my heart and stumble backwards.

  “You know what, I’m not tired yet and
I’m kinda hungry. Do you guys want to go to Rosie’s for some food?”

  “And this is why I love you. We’re heading there now.” I say as I unlock my car.

  “We’ll be there in like twenty minutes.”

  Ryan and I head out to the parking lot since we were standing around the front entrance to the bar and he’s stumbling with his keys. I grab them from his hands and tell him to get in to my car. Rosie’s is an all-night restaurant that Ryan and I found when we were studying for exams. The owner Sal, named it after his deceased wife and wasn’t sleeping at night so he decided to make it a twenty-four business even on holidays so no one is alone. My kids and I spend a lot of holidays here. Sal usually works the night shift and sleeps during the day. He said that the house feels more alive during the day and I couldn’t agree with him more.

  “Sal!” Ryan and I greet him. Sal is a 65-year-old 5’ 2” Italian man who talks so much and has been here so long that his accent comes and goes.

  “No ladies’ tonight boys?” We laugh. “Now, let me tell you how to get the ladies.” Nicarra walks in right now. “Ah a beautiful lady has entered the building let me demonstrate.” He walks up to Nicarra. “Welcome señora. My name is Sal.” He grabs her hand and kisses it. Nicarra blushes and smiles. “Your smile lights up the room. May I take you to the table?”

  “Why yes you can.” Sal holds his arm out for her and she loops her arm through it. He leads her to the table as we follow. He leans in and whispers something that makes her laugh and swat at him.

  “That’s how it’s done.” Sal smugly says walking away to greet someone else.

  “What did he say to you?” Ryan asks as he takes his seat across from Shawn.

  “He told me that he was trying to show you boys some real moves.” We all laugh. Shawn, Ryan, Nicarra and I are at Rosie’s until about six when Sal was leaving. He joined us and told us stories of how him and Rosie were the first years of being married.

  It’s about 7 a.m. when Ryan and I walked into my house. I still didn't want him driving home and since I had switched to water and soda long before leaving the bar. I’ve seen what driving under the influence can do to a person. Ryan falls on the couch and mumbles something about something. I climb the steps to my bedroom but not before looking into the rooms of Bennett and Jana. I sigh, “I don’t know who I am when you’re not here.” I close my bedroom door to head to bed.

  “Abby, I’m fine. Reagan is taking very good care of us. You rest up and enjoy the time with family. I know Cash is missing you like crazy.” I’m lying on my bed that Max, Jonathan and Bennett helped move. My stuff is down here so I would feel more at home so I’m looking at the sonogram picture that the doctor gave me. It’s so surreal to see this little peanut and it’s inside me.

  “I just hate that you find out that you’re pregnant and I’m not there to celebrate with you.”

  “Abby, what is there to celebrate?” I put Abby on speaker so I can start pacing my old room at Max and Reagan’s apartment. Since I am so accident prone and struggling with crutches Reagan wants to keep an eye on me.

  “You're going to be a mom.”

  “Abby.” I say her name sternly. This is one of the reasons I wanted to keep it a secret until I figured out what I was going to do with this baby but hearing Abby talking about Ethan and the excitement she has being a mom. I blurted it out and now I wish I didn’t. I can already see Abby’s mind is starting to race and I’m not ready for the conversation that is about to happen. I love Abby but sometimes she thinks the worst of me just by a few tones or words.

  “Sarah, you’re not thinking what I think you’re thinking are you?” Abby’s voice was high pitched that I had to pull the phone away from me.

  “Calm down. I haven’t decided anything but I am weighing my options. MY options, not yours, mine. My baby, my body. I’m scared, I don’t have a husband or even know how to contact the father.” I sit at the bottom of my bed and hang my head. I start crying. “Abby, I’m screwed up already, how can I be responsible for another human being?” I hear Ethan screaming in the background and Abby says she’ll call me back.

  “Umm, I’m sorry. I thought this was the guest room for me to put my stuff away.”

  “Oh,” I stand up wiping my face off, “I think Reagan was having you put everything into the office which is the door across from here.”

  “Are you okay?” This young girl with long brown hair and hazel eyes stares at me with so much concern in her body language. I stare at her eyes and they remind me of the man whose baby I am carrying. I shake my head to get his face out of my head; not everyone with brown hair and hazel eyes are him.

  “Yeah. I got some news today that I’m still trying to process.” I smile.

  “I hope it’s good news! Are you going to come out and party with us?”

  “I might do that.” She smiles and leaves.

  An hour later of surfing the television, I decide to come out of hiding. I look around at the scene before me. I see Reagan sitting at the table playing that Pie in the Face game with the girls and Nicarra’s younger boys. Max is in the game room playing with the boys while there is a Disney movie playing in the background. Laughter everywhere. Reagan looks up at me and smiles, “Are you hungry? The pizza should be here soon. I also ordered a salad in case your stomach couldn’t handle the sauce.”

  “Thanks. What are we playing?” For the next three hours we played board games, ate junk food, and the younger kids crashed so the older ones are all in the living room with Max, Reagan, and I watching some movies. I’m curled up in a recliner that could fit four of me. When I hear the girl, I met earlier whose name is Jana say, “Sarah, can I cuddle with you?” I moved over and she climbed in with me. She was asleep before the movie ended and was laying on my left shoulder, cuddled up. I played with her hair on instinct.

  “Sarah, you need to take your medicine.” Reagan whispers and I try to move Jana without waking her, she squirms and makes a sigh. “Let me help you. Shh Jana, Sarah needs to move.” She curls back up on the recliner after I got up.

  “She’s a sweetheart.” I mention to Reagan as she helps me to the bedroom.

  “Jonathan likes her but don’t say anything.”

  “Oh young love, are you ready for it?”

  “Hell no.”

  Reagan and I sit down on the bed, “Reagan, I know this is weird but will you lay with me until I fall asleep? Abby and I always did this when one of us was having a bad night or something.”

  “Of course, I hope by now that you know I am here for you. I consider you family.” Reagan keeps trying to get into my head that we are family.

  “I do and thanks for everything today.” We lay down on my bed and we start talking, and really talking about our childhoods and raising Jonathan to stories about Abby, Max and me. I don’t know what time we fell asleep.

  I’m startled awake by the kids laughing as I stretch my body and apparently, my leg doesn’t like that too much. “Fuck!” The pain pill wore off and now I’m in so much pain. I look over to see Reagan still sleeping so I slowly move off the bed to head to out with the kids.

  “Morning.”

  “Hey sleepyhead. You look like hell.” Max comes up behind me as I walk to the kitchen.

  “Well shithead, I feel like hell. Can you make me some breakfast?” I bat my eye lashes.

  “Pancakes and eggs?” I nod and watch as he cracks the eggs and I see the yoke hit the bowl to scramble and head to the bathroom where I throw up. I feel someone grab my hair to hold it back. I throw up for the next couple of minutes until there is nothing left. Jonathan hands me a wet washcloth.

  “Thanks.”

  “You okay Aunt Sarah?”

  “I will be buddy. Why did you come in here to hold my hair back?”

  “When Aunt Reagan got the flu, it was the two of us. She would rub my back and I hold her hair. Do you want some water?” I nod. Jonathan gets up and leaves me in the bathroom alone. I start crying which gets me to dry heaving
again. Reagan comes in looking a hot mess too.

  “Hey.” She sits on the floor and crosses her legs then pats them so I can put my head on her lap. Reagan strokes my hair, “It’s going to be okay. We will get over this hump together. If we can’t find the father, that’s okay. I can be a great Lamaze partner.”

  “We do make a hot lesbian couple.” We both laugh out loud. “This broken leg is killing me.” We get off the floor and I clean myself up and head back to the kitchen. I eat a few crackers and ginger ale. “So, what’s on the agenda for today?” I ask the kids who are still eating breakfast.

  “I don’t know.” Leah; Sally’s oldest answers. “What should we do?”

  “Max was talking about doing something with the boys and Aunt Reagan had to run downstairs to check the store.” Annie pops up.

  “I got it!” I smile at the girls and wink at Reagan, “Let me call a couple of people to see if we can do it.” I get up from the table to hobble into my room to grab my phone. I make a few calls and come back out smiling seeing Reagan standing there washing the dishes. The boys were gone. “Alright, girl’s today is a day of pampering. I called a few places and a limo will be picking us up in thirty minutes to take us shopping and pampering. Everyone gets a new outfit, head to toe with manicures and pedicures.”

  “Um Sarah,” Reagan looks worried and pulls me aside so the girls don’t hear, “They didn’t bring any money to pay for this. We could go to the store to buy the stuff to do the nails.”

  “Reagan, I have money in my account that sits there. Let me do this for the girls. Please.” I whine then start pouting with the girls with the bottom lips out with those puppy dog eyes, and Reagan sighs because she knows that she is out numbered. The girls scream and head to the office to get dressed. “Thanks. Now can you help me get dressed?”

  “Ugh do you want me to pee for you too?” Reagan laughs.

  “Could you? I mean that would be so helpful.” Reagan and I joke back and forth with each other. I hate to admit this but I’m glad that Abby is out of town and I have Reagan to be the one helping me through these first few days because it’s easy with her. Now I know why everyone loves her so much. We come out of the bedroom a few minutes later and hear Leah, Annie, and Jana talking. “I wish Sarah was my mom.” Jana says.