Forever & an Engine (The Austin Series)

by C. J. Fallowfield

  ‘And people have them all the time, it’s a common procedure.’

  ‘What if something goes wrong?’

  ‘Gabe, I think if anyone should be worried about that it’s me.’

  ‘I’m just so scared of losing you Mia,’ he said as he traced the edge of my face. ‘Mum went into hospital and she never came back out.’

  ‘O Gabe, what happened with her was tragic, but this is a routine procedure with relatively low risk, I’m just as likely to be run over by a bus on my way to Uni. You have to let me live my life, you can’t keep wrapping me in cotton wool.’

  ‘I can and I will. It’s my job to protect you Mia.’

  ‘Then if it means this much to you I’ll come and stay, but I’m only doing it to please you. I’d have been fine at mine.’

  ‘Thank you baby.’ He gave me a big smile of relief and kissed my forehead, stroking my cheeks with his thumbs. ‘So I’ll come over tomorrow night and help you pack and take you to the hospital in the morning. What time do we need to be there?’

  ‘8 a.m.’

  ‘Ok and what time do you need to be home tomorrow morning?’

  ‘By 7.30 sorry, I could go back tonight to save you having to take me in the morning.’

  ‘Mia, I’m usually awake at six anyway and I don’t want to spend the night away from you.’

  ‘You haven’t been awake at six the last couple of mornings.’

  ‘No, you’re a bad influence on me. Come on, let’s get to bed, fresh sheets and plumped up pillows and duvet await us.’

  After a very lengthy and enjoyable missionary love making session, I fell asleep in his arms. Something that seemed to be coming so naturally.

  Monday

  My alarm woke me at 6.30 and he was already missing. I put my hair up then pulled on a t-shirt and went downstairs. I headed into the kitchen and opened the fridge and found myself some orange juice and reached up in one of his cupboards for a glass.

  ‘Wow, reaching up like that with no knickers on, you’re just asking for trouble.’

  I spun around and he was leaning back on the kitchen door, a small towel around his waist looking all wet, delectable and hard. I ran over to him and flung my arms around his neck and kissed him passionately.

  ‘I missed you this morning, where were you?’

  ‘I went for a quick swim and had a shower over there. What time is it?’

  ‘6.35,’ I replied as I kissed his firm chest.

  ‘Great, time for a quickie then.’ He ripped off his towel, reached down and slid his hands under my t-shirt gripping my bare backside and lifted me up onto his hips and turned me around against the door. I gasped as I felt his erection graze my inner thigh and saw the desperate need for me in his eyes. ‘You’re ready for me,’ he smiled as he eased a finger into me.

  ‘I had nice dreams about you,’ I murmured in his ear. His eyes bore into me with lust and it ignited my desire for him as well and he saw it on my face. He pulled his finger out and sucked it as he watched my reaction, then pushed his hips firmly against mine, pinning me to the door. I wrapped my legs tightly around his waist and groaned as he pushed into me hard. There were no pleasantries, no teasing by kissing my lips, neck or breast and no touching or licking, he simply needed me right now, this minute and looking at his desperate, gorgeous face, god did I want him too. He let go of my hips and grabbed my hands from his shoulders and stretched them up the door until I was as straight as I could be as he started to thrust in and out of me and bit and sucked on my neck.

  ‘God it’s like I’ve not been inside you for days, I needed you,’ he moaned as I felt him move quickly inside me. He entwined his fingers with mine up against the top of the door frame and I squeezed them hard as I worked my hips back and forth flexing my pelvis and clenching my internal muscles as hard as I could. He started panting on my neck. ‘O god baby, yes like that, keep doing that. I’m so close, but I need you to come too.’

  ‘Gabe,’ I groaned and half closed my eyes. I could sense the urgency in him and when he removed his lips from my neck and looked at me, I felt my stomach contract. Instantly we released our hands and grasped each other’s hair as we tore into each other’s lips, our teeth clashing as we bit, sucked and groaned. I felt a hand reach under my bottom to hold me tighter as he increased the intensity of his thrusts. The roughness of it spurred me to a quick climax, and I cried out his name as my body fell apart around him.

  ‘Mia,’ I heard him groan as his body painted me into the door. His head pulled back and I felt him give himself up to me over and again. I draped my arms over his shoulders, which were still moist from his shower, and kissed his neck and throat again and again before lifting up my head as my breathing slowed to look into his satisfied eyes.

  ‘I love you so much,’ I whispered as I planted a soft kiss on his lips and heard him groan. ‘Gabe what’s wrong?’

  ‘Nothing, I still can’t believe you love me. I ache when you say it.’

  ‘Have girls never told you that they loved you before?’

  ‘Yes, the few I was with for a while, but I just didn’t feel it, it meant nothing coming from them, but with you it’s like … I can’t describe how much it means to hear you say it and I’m just in awe that you do.’

  ‘You’re so amazing I can’t imagine anyone not loving you Gabe.’ I smiled at him softly as I ran my fingers through his hair. He leaned in and kissed me tenderly.

  ‘Much as I’d love to stay here with you, like this, we need to get you showered and back home.’ He pulled me back off the door with him and instructed me to get the handle and carried me up to the shower. He looked at me apologetically as he lifted me up off him and I felt that horrible cold sensation as he slid out of me before setting me down and turning on the water. He turned me around and carefully took my hair band off me, stroking my hair all the way down before spinning me back around, pulling me under the top shower head and gently washing my hair for me. I looked up at him, my arms pressed up against his chest and marvelled. How could someone be so strong and masculine, yet so gentle at the same time? He caught me looking at him and flashed me one of his amazing smiles and I felt my insides melt. I had it bad for him, seriously bad and I was gutted our weekend was over. I’d love nothing more than to spend a few more days with him, just lounging around, having sex whenever we felt like it. Once my hair was done he got out, dried himself and winked at me as he went to go and get dressed.

  I dried myself quickly, pulling my damp hair into a pony tail and pulled on some fresh knickers and my outfit from Friday, except for the tie which I shoved in my bag. I grabbed my phone and hurried down. It was nearly 7.30. and I should’ve already been home. He was waiting by the open front door and grabbed my bag off me and whistled and I looked down to see he was erect again.

  ‘Gabe, we don’t have time, I’ve got to get changed and catch the bus, Lexi and I have a lecture at 9 and I can’t miss it.’

  ‘I know baby, but if you could imagine the ideas that are running through my head right now.’

  ‘I can imagine pervert,’ I smiled as I walked out of the door and he smacked my bottom. He opened the car door for me and helped me in and groaned and shook his head as he got a flash of my knickers under my tiny skirt. I smiled as I watched him walk around to the front of the car, he grinned at me and handed me a banana as he started the engine.

  ‘Eat it. I was planning on cooking you a breakfast until you went all bare arsed on me and forced me to take you.’ He purred out of the drive as I peeled the banana and ate some as I watched him navigate.

  ‘No one forced you, you do have your own free will you know,’ I mumbled with my mouth full.

  ‘Not when you look like that, or anytime for that matter. You own me Mia, I’ve got no bloody control over my need for you and please don’t talk with your mouth full like that, it reminds me of blow jobs and makes me want to stop the car and fuck you right now.’ I smiled sweetly at him and finished eating, looking at him surprised when instead of p
ulling up outside my building, he continued to the car park. ‘I’m here anyway and I’ve got a free this morning so I’ll drop you and Lexi off. If we leave by 8.40 you’ll still get there on time. I can make you a coffee and some peanut butter and butter on toast,’ he smiled.

  ‘You remembered.’

  ‘I remember everything when it comes to you baby,’ he winked as he turned off the engine. I kept my head down as we walked around to the front door in my tiny skirt as the occasional car horn and lascivious yell came my way. ‘I don’t know why you’re embarrassed now Mia, you wore it on Friday night and you seemed to have no problem showing off your body then.’

  ‘That was different, it was dark and I was drunk. I shouldn’t be walking around like this in daylight, it’s indecent.’

  ‘At last something we agree on,’ he said, giving me one of his looks. He grabbed my hand and led me upstairs and as I put the key in the lock he spun me around and kissed me with his hands over my hips, his thumbs stroking my hip bones. ‘I’ve had such a good weekend with you, I wish it wasn’t over,’ he sighed as he came up for air.

  ‘So did I Gabe,’ I sighed, still reeling from his effect on me. ‘It was amazing, but it’s not like we’re not going to have more. I’m moving in for a whole week.’

  ‘You’d better order me a fucking chastity belt then as I don’t know how I’m going to keep my hands off you until you’re fit again.’ His smile had been replaced by a frown, a sulky teenagers frown and I laughed. ‘Mia it’s not funny, it’s going to be the hardest week of my life, in more ways than one.’

  ‘You’ve got your hand.’

  ‘My hand doesn’t even compare to what I feel with you and I told you it’s not just about the sex,’ he grumbled as I tiptoed up and kissed him.

  ‘I can still do things for you even if penetration’s out of the question.’

  ‘Mia get in before I take you again, up against this door.’

  I opened it and called for Lexi as Gabe went to put my bag in my room. She appeared from her bedroom looking pale and tired.

  ‘Hey slut,’ she grinned. ‘So how many fucks since Friday have you and Mr big cock made it up to now?’ I watched some colour suddenly came back to her cheeks and she opened her mouth in horror. ‘Fuck Mia you could’ve said he was here.’

  I turned to see him looking amused in my bedroom doorway and grimaced and mouthed ‘Sorry’ at him.

  ‘Well Lexi, I’m sure Mia will correct me if I’m wrong, or fill you in later as she seems to do with everything private we share, so I may as well tell you it was thirteen times and I’m flattered to know she’s reported that I’m big.’

  ‘Shit sorry Gabe, it’s just girl talk you know.’ She looked at me and I smiled at her. ‘I’m going to go and hide in my room until I’m less embarrassed, which could be another month from now.’

  ‘Lex, come into my room with me, I need to change and get my notes together. Gabe was going to make a coffee and some toast if you want any?’ I asked and she shook her head. ‘Gabe?’ I looked at him, nodding to the kitchen door and he smiled and walked past us, kissing me on the head as he went and I dragged Lexi into my bedroom and shut the door.

  ‘Lexi,’ I chastised.

  ‘I know, I’m sorry, how was I supposed to know he was there? Seriously thirteen times? Obviously not unlucky for some,’ she looked at me, impressed.

  ‘God Lex he’s unstoppable and I just want him all the time,’ I grinned as I dug out my tight blue jeans, white trainers and a white and navy stripped slouch top.

  ‘Well I need to hear all about it, but it’s already 8 o’clock.’

  ‘Gabe’s going to drive and drop us off so we don’t need to leave until twenty to. I can fill you in on me and my weekend of debauchery later. What’s going on with you? You look pale. Are you feeling better than yesterday?’ I got dressed as we talked.

  ‘I think so, I had really bad stomach cramps and sickness yesterday, but today I feel a bit better. I’ve started packing for our stay, were you really mad?’

  ‘Yes,’ I shot her a look to confirm that.

  ‘Sorry Mia but I agree. It’s no good for you eating just pizza when you’re trying to recover, plus if we don’t go there, you know he’s going to end up moving in here, so why not be in his big house with a cinema to entertain us?’

  ‘I know, he should’ve just spoken to me about it first, not you. I hate it when he makes decisions about me, without me. It’s maddening.’

  ‘Mia, I think where you’re concerned there’s nothing he wouldn’t do.’

  ‘I know. It just feels a bit much sometimes.’

  ‘Anyway it’s going to be pretty awesome having 24/7 access to a cinema and pool. O crap, tell me you’ve not had sex in the pool?’ she exclaimed. I grinned at her.

  ‘Cinema too Lex.’

  ‘No. You’ve put me right off now you slut.’

  We looked around as there was a knock at the door. ‘You can come in,’ I called and smiled when he arrived with a cup of coffee for us both and my toast.

  ‘I’ll wait in the lounge while you finish your discussion about my libido,’ he winked as he headed out.

  ‘So come on Lex, dish the dirt on you and Doug and your date Saturday?’

  We sat on the bed as I ate my toast and sipped my coffee.

  ‘It wasn’t a date, just a get together, but we had a good time, he’s a laugh. He’s asked me out on a formal date tonight, but I said no.’

  ‘Lex. Why? If you like him go.’

  ‘I can’t not in my state.’

  ‘Lex come on, he doesn’t know and doesn’t need to. Surely you can go a date without having sex if that’s what’s bothering you.’

  ‘I don’t know, you tell me Miss drops her drawers on the first date Page.’

  ‘Well yes, but I started out intending it to be only about sex so that’s completely different. You agreed to try and date and go steady without rushing the sex, so why not try with Doug?’

  ‘I don’t know,’ she sighed. ‘There’s just loads of pressure.’

  ‘What pressure?’

  ‘Ermmm I’m pregnant, I like him, he’s your boyfriends best mate and I don’t do relationships. Anything else you think we could throw into the mix to make it extra complicated?’

  ‘Lex look at me. I didn’t want a relationship or sex, I tried something new and I’m so happy. I never thought I’d feel like this with a guy, let alone so quickly. Please just try, go out with him tonight and see how it goes. For me,’ I gave her my best pout and big blue eyed look and she laughed and covered her eyes.

  ‘Stop it, you know you have some hypnotic control over people with those big pleading eyes, that’s not fair. I’ll think about it ok?’

  ‘Please Lexi, the pregnancy isn’t an issue so what’s holding you back.’ I wasn’t going to let this go, I just had a feeling Doug was perfect for her and I wanted her to be as happy as I was. She deserved to be loved and taken care of as well.

  ‘He’s Gabe’s best friend. What if I can’t hack a relationship and it gets ugly?’ she asked as she lowered her hand and bit her lip.

  ‘Then it gets ugly, that’s what happens sometimes, but it would be nice if you could try and end it nicely and stay friends if it did come to that. Please don’t worry about it affecting my relationship with Gabe, I’m perfectly capable of screwing that up all on my own. Please go out with Doug Lex.’

  ‘I promise to think about it ok?’

  ‘Fine,’ I sighed. ‘Have you had your results or appointment yet?’

  ‘Before you whinge at me I checked the box when I got back Saturday ok and nothing.’

  ‘Well hopefully you’ll have your appointment soon and it will be all done and dusted.’

  ‘Yeah, guess so,’ she sighed. I looked at her, I knew her well enough to detect something was wrong.

  ‘What is it?’

  ‘Nothing,’ she shrugged.

  ‘You told me it would be a shitty friendship if you had to lie to me Lexi, don’
t start now.’

  ‘I’m having second thoughts about the termination,’ she said quietly, her eyes down.

  ‘You are?’

  ‘I don’t know Mia. One minute I’m convinced it’s the right thing to do, the next I can’t believe I’m even thinking about it, I mean it’s got fingers and toes and eyes and ears, I’m just not sure I can do it.’

  ‘O Lex.’ I shuffled up next to her on the bed and put my arm around her. ‘You’ve been reading up on the different stages?’

  ‘Yeah and I wish I hadn’t, I mean if I didn’t know it looked like a baby at this stage I probably wouldn’t be bothered, but … ’ she let out a deep sigh and covered her face with her hands.

  ‘Let’s skip History, we can just sit and talk it out.’

  ‘No.’ She dropped her hands and shook her head firmly as she looked at me. ‘You need to get sorted for tomorrow. Let’s just take one crisis at a time as it’s all I can manage. You’re having your op tomorrow and we’ll be together at Gabe’s house, we can find some time to talk about me and my problems then ok?’

  ‘You’re not just saying that as a means of avoiding us talking at all are you?’

  ‘No of course not. I want to talk to you about it Mia, honestly I do. You’re the only one who can help me decide what to do, but there’s no pressing deadline on my problems and there is on yours, you’re having surgery tomorrow so I want to focus on you for the next few days ok?’

  ‘Ok,’ I sighed. ‘But I’m still here for you surgery or not, you know that right?’

  ‘You’re always there for me Mia, that’s why I want to forget about me and just look after you until you’re back on your feet. Right we’d better get your stuff together for today and we can get you packed up tonight. How are you feeling? Any nerves?’

  ‘Weirdly not about the op no,’ I sighed as she brought me back to the here and now, the bliss of my weekend of fun and denial was well and truly over. She knew me as well as I did her and instantly picked up on my unease.

  ‘What else are you nervous about?’

  ‘It’s Gabe, he was asking me if I could be infertile. He was really upset when I said I wasn’t interested in having kids, he tried to hide it, but I saw his face. He’s already thinking about the future Lexi, saying he sees us married with a family. You know how I feel, I’ve never wanted kids. And marriage? Jesus it’s my worst nightmare.’