Indestructible Desire

by Danielle Jamie

  Kayden has plans to go fishing all afternoon with Dixon and a few of their friends, so Brooklyn and Mya are going to spend the day with me. Kayden is having some women from my favorite salon in Houston coming to the house to do mani's and pedi’s for us. My toes and fingers are in major need of primping. I can’t bring myself to leave the house yet. Between being covered in bruises and knowing Zak is still out there, I feel safer just staying here.

  Walking downstairs to find something for breakfast, I am thrilled when I spot Brooklyn and Jax coming through the door with Dunn Bros iced coffees. After having their iced coffee I will never go back to Starbucks. They put them to shame; it’s like heaven in your freakin’ mouth!

  Bouncing across the foyer to me, Brooklyn wraps her arms around me, pulling me against her for a hug. “Am I not the bestest friend everrrrrr?! I went and got you the largest mocha iced coffee they had!”

  Grinning from ear to ear, I eagerly take the coffee from Jax. “Oh my God, you are the best! I am in desperate need of caffeine. I slept like shit again last night. I am dragging this morning.”

  We each grab a muffin and head outside to the patio area to eat and drink our coffee. “So...you and Jax? Back to hot and steamy again I see?” I say, popping another chunk of my blueberry muffin into my mouth.

  Rolling her eyes at me, Brooklyn takes a sip of her coffee.

  “What?! I am curious to know how you manage to juggle three men. How do you not scream out the wrong name as they are pile driving you? I’ve heard you enough times to know you are quite vocal in the bedroom, Brooklyn.”

  “Oh my gawd! You have no shame, do you?” She says, letting out a loud sigh. “I’m so confused. I go from having no guy in my life, to three in a matter of a few freakin' weeks! Xander I already know has no plans what so ever to settle down. He’s made that perfectly clear, going as far as telling me that he hopes I am not expecting him to not hook up with other women while touring!”

  No shocker there, Xander has bad-boy-man-whore written all over him. “Sooo, you already know he’s just a fun boy-toy that you can rely on for a good lay when he’s in town. What about Dixon and Jax? Have they said anything at all about wanting you all to themselves? I know Dixon is a player with a capital P, but I see the way he looks at you…and then Jax, he has it bad for you, I can tell.”

  Shoving her last bite of muffin in her mouth, Brooklyn looks up at the sky, and avoids eye contact with me. She sits there for a few minutes just sipping her coffee looking as if she’s contemplating what she wants to say. She finally turns and looks at me with turmoil written all over her face. “Neither has said anything to me. I haven’t kept it a secret that I’m spending time with both of them.”

  “Well, I just hope it doesn’t cause any issues between Jax and Dixon because it will put Kayden in a tough spot. Jax works for him and is a close friend. Dixon is his family and business partner.”

  Standing up quickly Brooklyn walks around to sit beside me. “You’re not mad at me are you? The last thing I want to do is cause trouble for Kayden.”

  Taking one last sip of my iced coffee I finish it off and turn back to Brooklyn to answer her question. “I don’t think Kayden cares, but we haven’t really talked about it, so it’s hard to say. He hasn’t mentioned anything to me, and he knows what a man whore Dixon can be. I think as long as things with you don’t affect his work or our lives he’s fine with it. He finds it kind of funny, actually.”

  Brooklyn raises an eye brow at me, “Funny? Like funny ha ha or weird funny? God, I don’t want your boyfriend thinking I am a nasty skank!”

  Letting out a laugh I push Brooklyn’s arm playfully. “Kayden doesn’t think you’re a skank! He just thinks you are biting off more than you can chew is all. Three hot guys and only one of you…it could get ugly.”

  “Well from the looks of things, I don’t see it turning ugly anytime soon. Dixon is so fuckin’ hot and cold. I can’t keep up with him! When we’re alone he is all over me, like he just can’t get enough. Then, when he’s around his friends and stuff, it’s like I’m invisible. Jax and I are just having fun. God, he is smoking hot! Just listening to him talk with that Aussie accent…I swear I could have an orgasm just by him talking to me!” This time we are both laughing hysterically.

  “We are something else; combine a hot body, gorgeous face, and an accent and we’re putty in their hands. I think the best thing for you with Dixon would be playing hard to get. Don’t call him, and if he calls you don’t call him back right away. Let him see that two can play the hot and cold game. Maybe then you will see his true colors. I actually think you both could be good together if you got over your own egos! I think you could actually tame each other; how screwed up does that sound?!”

  We cleaned up our plates, threw away our coffee cups, and headed upstairs to get ready. Mya will be here soon for our spa day. I had just turned on the shower when Kayden came into the bathroom all sweaty from his work out. Looking at him instantly takes my breath away. Kayden’s sculpted arms and chiseled torso glisten from his intense work out. His hair is drenched with sweat and sticking up all over from running his fingers through it. Even when he’s not trying to, he looks down right irresistible.

  “Mind if I join ya?” He asks, stalking towards me with his eyes locked onto mine, instantly making me weak in the knees.

  I let out a small whimper as he runs his fingers over my arms and pulls me into a passionate kiss. Me standing here completely naked, and him shirtless and in nothing but basketball shorts is so freakin’ hot. I can feel his erection growing, pushing into my stomach as he presses me against the cool glass.

  Pushing on his chest playfully I release my mouth from his. “Slow down there Casanova; Mya will be here any time now along with the girls from the salon. I can’t get sidetracked.”

  “Being naughty with me in the shower sounds a hell of a lot more fun, baby, than getting your toes painted.” Slipping his shorts off, his gorgeous cock bounces in front of me. I can’t help but lick my lips and gawk at it.

  “You’re so bad. Are you going to stand there looking all sexy or are you going to wash me? I have a day of pampering to get to.” I let out a loud giggle as Kayden wraps his arms around me and cups my ass in his hands.

  “Anything you want beautiful, I’ll give it to ya. Anytime…Anyplace.”

  His lips on my skin are scorching hot as they travel from my mouth to my breasts.

  “God, you’re evil, you know that right?” His lips and fingers on my body leave me breathless. I’m trying to regain my composure and stay focused, but failing miserably. Kayden can seduce me with just one touch.

  The warm water cascading over us, mixed with the feeling of Kayden’s mouth on my breast has my head spinning in ecstasy. I’ve been so hungry for his touch.

  Taking extra care to not hurt my bruised ribs, Kayden gently runs his fingers over my sides. Every time a moan escapes his mouth, the ache between my legs increases, begging to be touched. I love the fact that even as he’s bursting with desire for me, he’s still gentle and loving.

  Pulling away from my breast, Kayden stands up, towering over me and gently pressing my back against the cool tile wall. “You feeling okay, baby? If you’re too sore, I’ll stop.”

  “I’m feeling more than okay.”

  “God Savannah, seeing you naked and so ready for my cock...” He runs two fingers over my slick folds, sliding them into my pussy, making me almost lose it right then and there. “...it makes me want to fuck you along every inch of this shower.”

  I slowly take in small shallow breaths, as I try to find the words to speak. Kayden has me so worked up I can barely think straight. “I’m sore, but I need your cock inside me before I lose my mind.” Wrapping my arms around his neck, I pull his mouth back down to mine. I moaned into his mouth as his tongue slides between my lips and caresses mine. I can taste his spearmint gum he must’ve been chewing in the gym. It’s making my mouth tingle.

  I know I’m breaking all kinds of be
d rest rules right now, but I don’t give a flyin’ fuck at the moment. All I want and all I need are Kayden’s arms around me. When I’m with him, I feel whole again, safe and…alive.

  “Sit on the floor.” I command, my mouth still pressed against his. Without skipping a beat, Kayden is sitting under the shower head, on the floor waiting for me. Seeing desire burning in his eyes, with his dick hard and ready for me is the sexiest thing ever. Straddling him, I slide on top of his cock. Filling me completely, I can’t control the moans of pleasure pouring out of my mouth. His dick is so hard and pushing me to my limits, making my core clench.

  Kayden lets out a low growl as he grips my hips, possessing my body. Moving his hands, he guides my body, slowly rotating my hips we find the perfect rhythm.

  “You okay, baby?” Kayden asks as he trails delicious kisses along my sensitive skin.

  “Yes…better then okay.”

  ***

  Chapter 4

  ***

  Taking my pain medicine quickly, I swallow it down and make my way out to the living room where the women from the salon are set up. Hemsworth brought trays of sweet tea in for us all to drink, along with bowls of mixed fruit to snack on. I think I over did it the last twenty-four hours being home because my ribs are throbbing.

  I can’t control myself when I’m around Kayden. No matter how much pain I’m in I just can’t say no. He definitely looked as satisfied as I felt after our quickie in the shower. He was sporting a big ass grin the entire time he got ready for his fishing trip.

  Jax and Jerome are here hovering over us, and Alec went with Kayden and his friends. After a lot of protesting, he finally gave in and said Alec could come. I convinced him that I wouldn’t be able to relax knowing he could be in danger. I was able to breathe a sigh of relief when he said okay. I just hope the police find Zak soon so I can stop stressing out every second of the day.

  They are watching his and Jacob’s places in California in case he tries to return there. They think he’s still in the Houston area, though; the entire area was on lockdown after my accident.

  I have to go Monday for a checkup at the hospital and meet with a psychiatrist the same day. The doctor suggested seeing one for a few weeks to help me cope with the tragic ordeal I went through. I’ll do anything to feel normal again. I've put on this 'I’m dealing with everything okay' act for Kayden and Brooklyn. I don’t want them hovering over me every second of the day.

  But in reality, I feel like a fraction of myself. My nerves are shot, I can’t sleep...I still can’t get over the fact that I actually shot someone, taking their life away from them. I don’t think Zak or Jacob would have ever hurt me if things had played out as they had planned. I know they did it for selfish reasons; maybe I'm naive, but I believe the friendship we made was real. I’m just afraid me killing Jacob pushed Zak over the edge. I know if someone hurt Kayden, I would want to seek revenge and not stop until I succeeded. That’s what terrifies me the most. I’m scared Zak won’t come after me, but instead go for Kayden so he can punish me.

  Sipping on her sweet tea and popping a chunk of cantaloupe in her mouth, Mya sat staring at me with curiosity twinkling in her eyes. “You look a lot better today. Was that big ass smile on your face when you walked in here from you and Kayden breaking the doctor’s orders and bow-chicka-bow-wow?”

  My mouth falls open at her straightforward question, which makes her and Brooklyn burst into a giggling fit. I slap my hand over my face, knowing I am redder than Brooklyn’s nail polish.

  Brooklyn screams out at me, “Oh my God! You little slut! You so fucked Kayden, I can see it written all over your face!”

  “Geesh! Kayden must be an animal in the sack if you’d risk hurting yourself.” I can’t look Mya in the eyes. It’s so embarrassing, talking about my sex life in front of three beauticians I don’t even know.

  Shooting them both a look and motioning my eyes towards the three women working hard at pampering our toes. I finally muster up the courage to speak. “You two are unbelievable!”

  After two hours of pampering the beauticians packed up their things and we thanked them for an amazing job. My fingers and toes look bright and cheerful now with my neon yellow and hot pink polka dots. Now if these damn bruises would go away I would actually feel good about myself again.

  We all slipped into our bikinis and made our way out to the hot tub. My body is aching all over, so a nice long soak in the hot tub sounds amazing right now. Plugging my iPod to the stereo system, I set it to play outside on the patio. Hemsworth brings us all glasses of white wine to drink. I’m not supposed to drink while on my pain pills, but right now I need a glass of wine to calm my nerves.

  Kayden texts me off and on all day, which eases my mind. I’ve tried hard not to think about Zak and damper my girls day. It’s just so hard, especially with Kayden not here. I will feel better once he’s back home and in my arms again.

  Lying against the wall of the hot tub, I let my legs float on top of the bubbly water. The jet flowing into my back is like heaven to my sore muscles. Brooklyn and Mya are already onto their second glasses of wine. I’m savoring my one glass I’m permitting myself to have.

  I’m snapped out of my thought when water hits me in the face. Brooklyn splashes me again. “Stop stressing, Savannah. Relax girlfriend! You’re safe here. Kayden has this place so freakin’ guarded you’d think the goddamn Queen of England lived here!”

  “Oh my God, I know!” Mya says dramatically. “I thought they were going to frisk me when I got here earlier. Not that I would mind it, because damn, some of those guards are hot!”

  “I appreciate all the security, but seeing what he was able to do to Beaumont Industries security system, it scares the shit out of me! Who’s to say he can’t find a way around all of this?” I wave my hand around, pointing to the house and surrounding miles of land.

  “Kayden has done everything to keep you safe. Why don’t you talk to him about maybe getting away once you feel better? Maybe a trip a few thousand miles away, some place warm and tropical is exactly what you need to truly be able to relax and heal?” Mya has a point. Maybe getting away is exactly what I need.

  Brooklyn is bursting with excitement next to me, splashing water all over. Her eyes are sparkling as she grips my arm and grins mischievously at me. “That is a kickass idea. You and I lying on a white sand beach, basking in the sun! Perfect!!”

  I can’t help but laugh at her excitement, and smile right along with her. “I couldn’t agree more bestie. I’ll bring it up to Kayden when he gets back tonight. A week away sounds fan-freakin-tastic right about now.”

  ***

  The remainder of the weekend went by quickly. On one hand, I’m happy it’s flown by because its one day closer to me being finally healed up; I can get back to my life. On the other hand, I wish it would have gone by slower. The longer it took to get to Monday morning the better. I am dreading leaving Kayden’s house and going to Houston for my appointments.

  While here in the house or outside on the grounds I feel safe because of the security system and all of the guards we have monitoring everything. Just the thought of leaving the house puts me into a full blown panic attack.

  I have a doctor’s appointment this morning and then a meeting with Dr. Wilcott, my new psychiatrist. My doctor suggested her to me and thinks she’ll be able to help me with my issues that I’ve had since the accident.

  Kayden had to head into work at six this morning to try and finish getting caught up on work. He took a few days off to be with me at the hospital. So I can just imagine the work load he’s tackling today. Jax went to work with him to watch over things, which makes me feel better.

  I won’t be able to truly relax until I know they’ve caught Zak. Only then can I start the process of dealing with everything. After a long soak in the Jacuzzi tub, my ribs are feeling a little better. I put on some jeans, sneakers, tank top, and zip up hoodie. Tossing my hair into a messy bun, I brush my teeth and head downstairs. I find
Brooklyn in the foyer handing her bags to Jerome. He’s taking her to the airport this morning. She’s flying out to Vancouver for her last week of filming.

  “I hate that you have to leave; it’s going to be lonely around here without you.” I say, pulling her in for a small hug. Every little move I make is excruciating. I cannot wait for my ribs to heal. I just took another pain pill an hour ago, but it doesn’t feel like it’s helping much.

  “You would be sick of me within a few days, and you know it! I’ll text you when I land, then you can tell me all about your appointments today.”

  Letting out a sigh, I roll my eyes at her. “I cannot stand the idea of going to my appointments. What if something happens? I hated the idea of Kayden going to work. I keep having these awful nightmares that Zak attacks him at work and me at the hospital.”