Fix Me

by Aubry, A

  “I don’t know what to do if I am on top…” I whispered as I ran a hand through his hair.

  “I’ll guide you through it, if that would make you feel better about it,” he offered quietly.

  I nodded slowly before pursing my lips. Watching him return to the position he had started in, he sat up and held out his hands for me. I climbed up on the bed on my knees and took his hands as he guided me up his body, bringing me to a stop at his hips. Straddling him wasn’t anything new for me, since I had straddled him on his couch without really having any control over my body…it was just everything else that went with sex like this that I was naïve about. Once I was in position, Finn lifted his hardening cock up to me and found my entrance, slipping the head of it in.

  “Now all you have to do, is lower yourself onto me,” he said into my ear softly.

  I hooked an arm around his neck to hold me steady as I pushed his cock deeper into me, my body lowering down onto his. When he was all the way in, I could barely believe it. Seriously, he had to reassure me that he was all the way in when I asked him if he was lying. I felt like I had been lowering myself down to him for what had felt like forever. The feeling of fullness was way more than ever before, I felt like he was the deepest he had ever been in me. I stayed still, getting used to this new feeling of fullness as Finn rested his forehead against mine, taking a sharp breath when I shifted my body a fraction.

  “That’s it baby,” he whispered, “Now, I’m going to help you move. Whenever you feel comfortable, you can take over.”

  Yeah, easier said than done about being comfortable on top of you there, buddy. My brain retorted. Damn, I was sassy.

  His hands moved down to my hips as he looked into my eyes. He mouthed at me to breathe and I took a deep, calming breath. Carefully, his hands slid down to cup my ass as he lifted me up then brought me back down. My breathing shuttered as his cock slid in and out of me in this new position. After a few moments of him aiding me, I felt like I had the hang of it. It was simpler than I was thinking it was going to be. All I had to do was move my body up and down and his cock would stay there for me.

  “I think I’m ready,” I said softly, my arm leaving its place around his neck as my hands pushed gently against his chest, urging him to lie down.

  He followed my silent demand and moved his hands back to my hips as he reclined back, “Take it away, baby.”

  Taking another deep breath, I leaned forward and put my hands on either side of Finn’s head. He groaned at the adjustment, and for a second, I thought I hurt him. When his hands squeezed my hips, I knew I didn’t, that it was a pleasurable groan. Doing what he was leading me to do came easily, and soon I had established a good momentum of ups and downs. My brows furrowed as I concentrated at first, but my body quickly relaxed as my orgasm built up faster and faster.

  Finn leaned up to me, his lips capturing mine in a passionate kiss. The room filled with our moans and groans as we came closer and closer to our releases. All I wanted to do was yell out as my orgasm finally washed over me, slamming into me hard, but my lips never left Finn’s as I moaned loudly into our kiss. Who knew it could ever be like this?

  Finn’s hands held onto my hips tight as he thrust into me when I stilled and began his release. The second I felt his cum shoot into me as he emptied himself, I remembered we forgot the condom. It wasn’t as though it was the end of the world, I was on birth control which I took every single night for years. Then again, I didn’t think that Finn knew that, and I wasn’t sure how he was going to react.

  Out of exhaustion, I collapsed onto Finn. As my head rested on his chest, I could hear his heart pounding, its rhythm matching mine. His arms came around me as he kissed the top of my head.

  “I’m not crushing you, am I?” I asked reluctantly.

  He buried his nose in my hair, “No, Julianna. You aren’t crushing me. I’m going to kill that Michael guy for ever making you feel this way about yourself.”

  I raised my head to look at him, “He never said anything I didn’t already know, Finn. I grew up being bullied about my weight and how I looked.”

  “You are beautiful. Don’t let anybody tell you otherwise,” he affirmed as he took my face in his hands.

  Pursing my lips, I took his hands off my face and sat back gently in the position I had started in when I first got on him, “You won’t think that when I tell you something about us having sex right now…”

  He looked at me skeptically, “Why?”

  I looked down at his sculpted torso, “We forgot to use a condom.”

  “Fuck!” Finn sat up quickly, his hands gripping my hips.

  “Finn, calm down. I’m on the pill, that is one of the medications I take every night. We still used protection…just protection you didn’t ask about,” I ran a hand through his hair calmingly.

  When his eyes met mine, the small traces of fear were dissipating, “Do you not want kids or something? Is that why you just freaked out?”

  Finn shook his head quickly as though he was trying to force thoughts out of his head, “I do want children. But I want to be married when I have them. I need to know that my partner will be in it for the long haul. After my dad abandoned my mother with me and my brothers, I vowed that when I would have kids, they would be with someone who wouldn’t ever leave me. Who wouldn’t put our children through that pain.”

  “Oh baby, that is the most beautiful thing I have ever heard,” I pulled him close to me and hugged him tight.

  He nuzzled my neck as he returned my hug. I could feel it that there was something else he wasn’t telling me. Whether it was about his family or something else, I didn’t know. But it was something I felt I should ask about, I didn’t want any secrets between us.

  “Finn…is there something else you aren’t telling me?” I wondered aloud.

  When he leaned back away from me, he was chewing on his lip nervously. He stayed silent.

  “Honey, you can tell me anything. You know that, right?”

  Finn took a deep breath before he nodded and divulged new information to me, “Around the time that Natalie started cheating on me, we got drunk when we were out with our friends. When we got home, we started going at it which we shouldn’t have been doing when we were that drunk, or at least, when I was that drunk. Natalie had sobered up mostly by the time we got home. I swore I grabbed a condom out of the drawer, the same way I always did the two years we were together and handed it off to her. When I woke up the next morning with a pounding headache, the condom was laying on the bed, still in its wrapper…unopened.”

  He paused, and I didn’t say anything, silently willing him to continue. Just when I opened my mouth to encourage him to keep going, he began to speak again.

  “I knew we had sex, even though I was drunk, I wasn’t that drunk to not know what it was like to fuck somebody. When Natalie woke up, I held the condom up and asked her why the fuck it wasn’t opened. She claimed she was drunk and thought she had put it on me. Natalie had a certain tick when she lied, her eyes would shift from side to side as if she was looking for something to focus on, someone to tell her what to say. She did that exact thing when she answered my question. Because she was cheating on me, she tried to trap me into staying with her, Julianna. Natalie knew that the second I found out about her and her guy on the side, it would be over.”

  Finn looked heartbroken. Someone tried to manipulate him into staying with them, even though they were in the wrong. Nobody should ever have to go through that.

  “Did she get pregnant?”

  “No, a few weeks later I made sure I took her to the doctor for a full-on blood test to see if she was because she was claiming she wasn’t feeling well. The test came back negative. Two weeks after that, I caught her and her friend Matt fucking in her bed when I surprised her by leaving practice early. A week later, I met you.”

  I brushed my lips against his lightly, “I would never try to trap you like that. I want you to be with me because you want to be with me, not
because you have to be.”

  “I know you wouldn’t do that to me. I guess I just got so caught up in the moment after you gave me that blowjob then the revelations about how you had never been on top of a guy before…I was distracted just as much as you were. But I do want to be with you, more than anything in the world…because I love you,” he gazed into my eyes, truthfulness behind every word.

  “I love you, too. Will you stay with me tonight?” I smiled shyly.

  He rolled us over on my bed, Finn pushing me down into the mattress as his lips met mine, “I thought you’d never ask.”

  Chapter Six

  A week and a half had passed, and Finn and I were doing great. The Minnesota United FC were practicing like crazy, their first game of the preseason taking place tomorrow in South Carolina. Since their preseason games were all within a few days of one another and they were all at the same location, Finn would be staying in South Carolina for a week.

  Because of that, I signed up to telecommute for the first half of my Friday before I went into the office. That way Finn could spend the night with me at my apartment, and we could say goodbye this morning before he went off to practice. I was falling more in love with him by the minute, everything was perfect.

  I walked through my living room towards my kitchen when an incessant buzzing came from the couch. Confused, I walked over in search of what in the world could be making that noise. Lifting one of my decorative pillows, I saw Finn’s phone lying there on the couch. He had just missed a call from his mother, that was what made the phone buzz. Flashbacks of us getting a little too carried away on the couch last night flashed through my mind.

  I laid back against the decorative pillows that lined the arm of the chaise. My hands fervently pushing down Finn’s jeans and boxers as he opened the condom wrapper. He quickly sheathed his hard cock and thrust it into me, causing me to scream out.

  “Shit, do that again,” I groaned.

  “Anything for you,” he grinned as he thrust hard into me again, stilling once his cock was all the way in.

  “Finn, keep going,” I demanded, trying to pull him down to me for a kiss.

  “What’s the magic word?” Finn teased, running his nose along mine.

  “Fuck you.”

  “Say the magic word and I will indeed fuck you.” The playfulness in his voice made me giggle.

  “Ugh, fine. Please keep going.” I rolled my eyes.

  He chuckled as his lips covered mine, his hips starting to thrust into me over and over. This was going to be over all too soon at this rate.

  Fuck, just the flashback made me wet and wanting. My neighbors were probably thankful for the nights that I spent away at Finn’s apartment. They would get a break from all my screaming and moaning. Picking up his phone, I checked the clock. I had more than enough time to drive up to Blaine where the team practiced.

  His team was supposed to catch a bus to the airport after his practice and I already hated the thought of him leaving. A part of me wanted to offer to take him to the airport tonight, the team flew commercial like every other normal person in the world. It shouldn’t be a problem if I wanted to take him to the airport, right?

  Deciding to just pick up lunch on my way into the office, I quickly changed into a black flowy skirt with gray dress shirt and my flats. My legs were still a little sore from being on top of Finn for a while this morning, so comfortable flats sounded amazing. The Minnesota weather had started to take us out of winter a little earlier than normal, surprising the state with highs of almost fifty degrees. Because of that wonderful heat wave, I chose to throw on my black blazer rather than an actual jacket.

  Telecommuting this morning was a plus because by the time that I got on the road, most of the traffic had cleared away. The drive to the National Sports Center only took me thirty-five minutes, poor Finn had to drive up here in rush hour. I parked my car in the lot next to the large state-of-the-art building that had just been renovated the previous year to make it the perfect place for the Minnesota United to practice.

  Grabbing Finn’s phone off my passenger seat along with my purse, I tried not to skip with the excitement of seeing him again as I walked into the building. Almost as soon as I walked in through the glass doors, a security guard stopped me.

  “Do you have your badge, Miss?” He said as he walked over to me.

  “No, I don’t work here. I am actually here for Finn…McAllister?” I meant it as more of a statement but the way he intimidated me it came out as a question.

  He looked at me like I was an obsessed fan trying to seek out the team. Did that happen a lot? The security guard stood at over six feet tall and was a heavier set guy but definitely muscular. He looked like he could carry me out of here easily. His nametag said Vincent. Was that his first name or his last? Just as he was about to tell me to leave, Bo walked across the lobby area, heading for a door on the side of the building that led outside.

  “Bo!” I called out, just loud enough for him to hear me.

  His head turned towards the sound of my voice before he smiled at me knowingly and walked over to where me and this Vincent character stood in the lobby.

  “It’s cool, Vin. She’s Finn’s girlfriend,” he patted Vincent on the shoulder.

  “Finn’s got himself a new girl?” Vincent asked as he looked over at Bo.

  Uh, yeah, he did, and she was standing right in front of you. I hated when people talked about you like you weren’t there.

  “Yep and she’s a smart one too. Writes for the Star Tribune,” Bo nodded.

  “Guys…I’m literally standing right here. I can hear everything you say,” I pointed out.

  “Oh, yeah, sorry about that. Bo can take you to Finn,” Vincent said with a bright smile on his face that wasn’t there before.

  He took off down the hallway, no doubt to go do his rounds.

  “So, what brings you to our neck of the woods?” Bo grinned, crossing his arms over his chest.

  I held up Finn’s phone, “Finn left this at my place. Thought I’d come and return it before I went into the office.”

  “He’s been looking all over for that fucking thing,” he rolled his eyes as he turned around and waved me to follow him through the door he had been walking to before I interrupted him.

  We walked outside and down a small concrete staircase that led down to a large soccer field. The team was spread out running drills. Instantly I spotted Finn, dribbling the ball with his feet toward the goal. I had never seen Finn in his jersey before and fuck was it hot. The gray coloring with a light blue stripe across the front and down the sides, a small white target in the middle of his chest.

  The team logo was printed up towards his left shoulder and McAllister was printed in large bold letters on his back with his number 3 below it. His legs and ass looked great in the matching gray shorts for his uniform. Damn, my man was fine. The knee-high socks did make me giggle a bit, but I just never pictured him wearing knee high socks before. I played with my hair nervously. Why? I didn’t know. Probably to make sure it looked good for him, even though he just saw it all mussed up this morning.

  Finn passed the ball to someone whose last name was Jensen before Bo yelled out from beside me.

  “Yo, McAllister. You got a visitor,” his words echoed across the field.

  Finn’s attention quickly turned over to where Bo and I stood and even from where he stood on the other side of the field, I could see his large smile. He jogged towards us, quickly enveloping me in his arms as he spun me around. An unexpected squeal escaped at the sudden sensation of being lifted off the ground. When he put me down, he finally gave me a kiss. Who knew that someone could miss another person’s lips so much?

  “What are you doing here, baby? I thought you were heading into the office,” he ran a hand through his damp, sweaty hair.

  Fuck. I wanted to do that now.

  I got myself under control and held up his phone for him to see, “Been looking for something?”

  “Holy
shit. Where was it?” He carefully took it from me, tapping the home button and lighting up the screen.

  “It was on the couch, it must have fallen out when we uh…” I looked over at Bo who just stood there staring at us with a cheesy grin on his face, “…were watching TV.”

  “You do know we are all grown adults here. Everybody on the team knows you’ve fucked,” Bo pointed out like it was no big deal.

  My mouth dropped open as Finn smacked him upside the head, “Dude, what the hell? You said there was a bro code.”

  He told his friends that we’d been having sex? I mean, yeah, I told a few of my friends that we had sex, but that was after I showed up at work doing the walk of shame wearing the same outfit as the day before. I shook my head as Finn protectively hooked an arm around my waist.

  “I’m sorry, Julianna. I didn’t know that this asshole was going to sing like a canary,” he tilted his head towards Bo.

  “Maybe you shouldn’t wear it so plainly on your face, Finn,” Bo teased before he jogged back to practice.

  “What, was our sex so good this morning that you couldn’t wipe the smile off your face?” I laughed as I wrapped my arms around his neck.

  Who cared if he was sweaty from running up and down the field? I just wanted to be close to him.

  “All of our sex makes me smile as big as I was this morning,” he said, leaning into me.

  I pouted, “I wish there was time to have more before you leave tonight.”

  Finn’s hands covered my ass and I was thankful that my back was facing a hill and not his team, “Me too. It’s gonna be torture for the next week.”

  “All that time and no sex. You will be one frustrated man,” my lips turned into a seductive smile.

  “So fucking frustrated,” he quietly growled as his lips moved closer to mine.

  “How are you going to survive?” I whispered, my mouth hovering over his.

  “Not a clue,” he replied before his lips hungrily covered mine.