by K. T Fisher
RHYS: Hey man where r u? Max just rang asking if u were with me
I'm surprised he realized I left.
ME: Any other fucking party. Im just fucking about, cant deal
with there shit anymore
RHYS: Fucking hell man! How many they gona have? U can come
over if u want, gym tomorrow?
I reply back telling him I'm fine. I've been around his far too much lately and I don't want to take advantage. Plus Rhys just proposed to his girlfriend and there all happy and big smiles. The way I'm feeling now I think I would only spoil there mood. I do say yes to the gym though because lately the gym has been a good way to relieve stress and I have noticed the difference on my body. I have beefed up since Decoy has made the public eye because before I didn't really have the money to go. Another thing I think over as I walk is my best man speech, yep that's me, best man. Max and Leo have also been chosen as best men too and Rhys' older brother Rex. Only me and Rex are doing speeches because can you imagine what Leo and Max would say and Rhys doesn't want that in front of his family. I am happy for Rhys though, she's good for him and that's what you need when your living this life. A good woman on you arm not some slag. I didn't realize that I had come into the busier part of the town when I stop frozen on the path. There's a few couples spotted around here and there spending the night out together but one of those couples are two people I didn't think I would see again. I hoped I would see them again because they are the closest friends to the girl I loved, probably still do. Walking hand in hand across the road is Sam and Jessica, I am glad there still together. I look around and it looks like there on there own, I don't think they can see me, I'm in the shadows of the trees near the park on the other side of the street. Leo and Max had told me they saw Sam, Mark and James at the casino opening and I wish that I had gone with them so I could try to get more information than what they did. Which was fuck all! That's not Max and Leo's fault it Kendal's friends being too secretive and protective of her. I think about going over to Jessica but I don't think I can. Kendal must live in London still then if Jessica's here, they will never leave each other. They were always joined at the hip. I quietly watch Sam and Jessica enter a restaurant and I decide to go back home, I suddenly have the need to write down some lyrics.
Chapter 7
~Kendal~
One month later.....
Another month has passed in the usual way, me and Finley and our routine. Sophie has happily settled in with us all, she has finally met the guys and they love her. So she she officially our new bff sister and we love her. She has made her own presence in the group as our enforcer. Before we would all want to get together and never find the time but Sophie makes us all find the time and we love her for it because we see each other allot more now. We especially have allot more girl time which I cannot be more happy about
One weekend for example we decided to have a girly sleepover at Sophies because Reece was away for work one night and she didn't like the idea of being on her own. Yea I know were not teenagers anymore but were still girls. It was Finley's weekend at my parents so it was perfect and I needed a relaxing night. Sophie's house is finally finished and all I and say is wow, it just looks amazing. She gave us her tour of the garden and giving us great detail on what she wants her big day to look like and Maisy is helping make that a reality for her. Later on we had a takeaway and drank until we were giggling like school girls. Oh and not forgetting all about Tanya's steamy story all about her orgasmic nights with Vinny the vibrator. The scary thing though is that I was going to tell Sophie all about my past and who Finley's dad is but watching my friends all giggling and having a good time I couldn't tell her because I didn't want to ruin the mood so I made a deal with myself to tell her everything when she comes back from her honeymoon.
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Jessica grabs my hand tightly and looks at me dead serious eyes. She comes up close to my face and says in a low voice,
"Are you sure about this?"
I roll my eyes and sigh. Then push her away slightly.
"Jess, you know how long I've wanted to do this. Now move so I can get in."
I barge past her and enter Harleys Tattoos and Piercings, I'm immediately hit by the smell of tattoos. I won't lie and say I'm not nervous to come here but I am nervous, so fucking nervous and it's not because I'm having a new piercing. This is my ex's business of course and I wouldn't come here but this is the only place I trust to get anything done so I'm hoping Harley isn't at work today or at least in an appointment with someone else. I've always liked it in here, it's so modern and clean. It's really light in here considering the walls are black but the floor is a white laminate flooring. It's the same size as Bianca's, all the buildings on this street are. When we enter were greeted by the receptionist who looks like a pretty cool chick. Her hair is black with blue highlights, she has her right arm covered in a sleeve tattoo full of roses, she totally pulls it of and looks like a babe. She smiles at us, I smile back but Jessica is looking around like a bomb might go of any minute. I don't know it might because I don't think Harley knows I'm here and if he does see me I have no clue how his going to act.
"Hi, my names Kendal. I have a booking."
"OK hun, lets have a look."
She does a few clicks on her lick computer and then looks back up to me smiling again.
"OK no problem, take a seat and I'll let Harley know your here."
I feel Jessica's hand quickly grab my hand and squeeze and I let her guide me to the red leather chairs in the waiting area. There's a door in front of us, black like the walls and two more on the wall to the right. There named Room 1, Room 2 and Room 3, from Room 1 across from us there's a corridor at the end of it. I know that room leads to Harleys room, where he works and from that there's his office. Room 2 has it's door slightly open and I can hear the buzzing of the needle as someone gets a new tattoo. I watch the cool chick disappear into the corridor and to Harley. Oh no it's finally setting in, I'm going to see Harley! If I wasn't freaking out so fucking much right now I would probably be checking her cool hair out more, I mean that do out does mine!
Harley assured me by his last texts after we finished that everything will be cool between us but I can't help but fight the need to run out of here. It's really a shame that I couldn't have moved on with Harley, women around the world will think I'm a mad woman. I probably am to be honest. Wherever he goes women check him out, how could you not? Harley is one of those men that doesn't need to work out to get a fit body, but he does anyway. He screams sexy with his muscled arms, tattoos and not forgetting that sinful V shape that leads to his delightful package. But Jax has ruined me for all men, Harley may scream sex but Jax is sex and much much much more! Plus there's the minor detail that I loved him and I think I still do as crazy as that sounds. I mean how can you get over an amazing man who you see on the TV, hear on the radio and see in magazines and papers. Jax knew how to treat me inside and out, he definitely knew how to treat my body, we had a raw connection that I know I will never have will anyone else. It was a huge bonus that his body looked like the body of a sculptured God. His arms, stomach and thighs were so toned they didn't look anything like a boy, he was all 100% man and that mouthwatering V was an open invitation to his rather large present in hiding. Although when we were alone it was never hidden, I spent allot of time with that part of his body it was practically my best friend and I loved it very very very much.
I have to break my thoughts before I drive myself crazy. You see? How can I be with any man when I only have to think of Jax like that to make me tingle everywhere. That's why I had to end it with Harley, I didn't realize he got so serious. My hearts breaking enough, I don't want to put anyone else through that pain.
"How you feeling?"
I look to Jessica who looks very concerned for me. I give her a smile I hope erases her concern but I don't think it helps at all.
"Why don't you ask for someone else?"
"I think it's too late. He wil
l know somethings up if he hears me asking to have someone else."
Although that does sound good right now. A total stranger. I sit back and try to calm my nerves, thank god I already have my nipple done. Could you imagine that situation right now? My attempt at trying to relax is disrupted by the song that starts over the speakers, it's Decoys new song. Why do I need to be tortured today? I lean further back in the chair and look up to the ceiling.
"It's a good sign that for almost two months we haven't seen them."
Jessica leans in close so she can mumer quietly into my ear. She obviously can't tell I don't want to think about Decoy and Jax especially seeing as we are sat in Harleys! I suppose that's not going to happen.
"Yep"
I hear a door open, I snap my head up and see the cool reception chick walking back to her desk with a folder and a pile of paperwork balancing on top. I hear her huff as she sits down and begins on her work. As I'm still looking at her I don't see that Harley followed her out a couple of minutes later.
"Kendal?"
I snap my head to his direction, his standing in the way of the little hallway. Oh no he looks edible, not good. His wearing slim black jeans and a tight black short sleeve top with is studio's logo on the front. He has his black biker boots on of course because God forbid he doesn't already look sexy enough. I can see the shape of his muscles under his top and I ask myself again why I couldn't move on with Harley but the heart wants what it wants.
"Hi Harley."
He smiles that boyish smile that makes me return one of mine. His sandy brown hair is cut shorter than the last time I saw him. You can see his left arm is covered in roses and skulls and I know it continues all over onto his left peck. Finley used to love that tattoo. I look at his piercings that I used to love playing with, he has his ears, lip and eyebrow done. Harley breaks my staring by stepping closer, this is slightly awkward. I stand because I felt like I should and I watch as his eyes drink me in from head to toes. I came here straight from my morning at work so I'm still in my uniform and seeing as today is another hot day I have my black shorts on with my purples work vest and my hair is down and in loose curls. He asks is Finley's OK and my heart warms, he and Finley had a really good relationship. I reply and ask how he is doing and he gives me a nod with a lift of his eyebrow
"Better now I've seen you."
We stand there in silence I don't know what to do. Thankfully Jessica stands and says hi to Harley. Thankyou Jessica. After they have spoken he turns his attention back to me.
"Right Kendal, follow me."
Harley turns and walks off not even looking to see if I'm following. I quickly look back to Jessica and she's silently giggling and me so I give her a quick scowl and hurry after Harley. I follow him down the hallway which has an open door at the end, when I enter he shuts it behind me. Harley's room has white walls and a black floor, he has a huge black leather chair in the corner facing the door with a smaller black leather chair in front. There's a black stool near too and across the room is a black doctor type lounge bed/chair. He see me eyeing it weirdly.
"Don't worry that's for more intimate piercings and tattoos babe, I just need you to sit down on that little chair there."
Intimate piercing and tattoos? Geesh and I thought my nipple was intimate. I try and ignore that he called me 'babe' and head over to the little black simple leather chair he pointed at.
"So you get the nice big comfy chair huh?"
He chuckles deep in his throat.
"Well I am the boss."
I nod and watch as he gathers everything he needs. He puts them all beside me on a high silver tray and sits opposite me on his big boss man chair. His resting a clip board and a form on his lap.
"So, tongue piercing?"
"Yea, I've wanted it done for years."
He smiles down at his form as he fills it out.
"Yea I remember you telling me. Finally brave enough to have it done?"
I shrug, I don't want to go onto flirting territory. His ticking away boxes and filling out some of my basic information. We was sort of together for about a year so I guess he knows nearly everything he needs for his form.
"Now I know about your other piercings."
I feel my cheeks heating up a little. Yes he sure does know about my other tattoos, he was the one who did my nipple and it was definitely his favourite. I also have my tragus, nose and belly button pierced. I guess if you was to look at me I look like a girly rock chick but if I was to change my clothing I would definitely look like a punk. He goes through all the safety and care for the new piercing and the risks. The usual stuff they have to say and I sign a form. I pick a simple gold bar for my tongue and he gets to work unpacking the new equipment.
"So I see you just came from work."
I look down at my uniform and scrunch up my nose.
"Yea, I didn't have time to go change if I wanted to get Finley in time."
"I don't mind, I've always like your little uniform."
My little uniform? He makes it sound like I've dressed in some sexy little nurses outfit for him.
"So did you do the tanning course?"
I'm surprised he remembers. Round about the time I ended things with Finley Bianca asked me if I minded doing a tanning course for her. I of course accepted.
"Yep, so now I do everything."
Meaning work wise but by the sparkle in is eyes and the little lift on the corner of his mouth his thinking of something else entirely. He always did have a dirty mind. He grabs my chair which makes me jump a little and pulls it towards him so my knees are touching his chair. He leans forwards and his dangerously close.
"Right lets get started shall we?"
I swallow hard and I'm sure he heard it because I'm sure I saw him smirk before he turns away. He gets to work and not long after I have a new piercing. When everything's all done he stands and hands me some cleaning solution and heads towards the door. He places his big hand on the handle and turns towards me.
"I'm sorry I fucked it all up Kendal."
I frown, does he really think that? Well, I didn't really go into detail when I called it quits.
"No it wasn't you Harley. I'm just not in the right place at minute."
Oh that felt weird talking, I can really feel the tongue bar. I guess because it's new. I can see him thinking.
"So one day you might be?"
I really don't want to get his hopes up. I don't know maybe I will manage to get over Jax but I really don't know.
"I don't know Harley. It's hard, I'm sorry."
He reaches up and places his hand on my jaw and rubs my cheek bone with his thumb.
"I want to wait for you, I miss you Kendal."
Oh no I can't have him waiting. He misses me? I feel guilty as shit.
"No Harley. Please don't wait. I'd hate myself if you did."
I look down at my shoes and feel awkward. I want to get out here now. I feel his finger under my chin and he lifts my head so I'm looking right at him.
"Fine I won't wait. But I do miss you."
He envelopes me in a hug and I welcome it. It feels so nice to be hugged by a big strong sexy man but I pull back and give him a smile I hope looks like I'm OK. I walk out on my own and see Jessica looking though a black folder of tattoos.
"Thinking of having one?"
"Just browsing."
Before she can ask about Harley I go to the receptionist and pay. When the door closes behind us and were in the fresh air she pounces.
"So how was it?"
"OK, didn't really feel it. It feels a bit sore now though."
She lightly swats me on the side with the back of her hand.
"That's not what I asked and you know it."
"He was flirting a little but before I came out he ruined it. He told me he will wait for me and he misses me! I told him not to. God, I'm an awful person."
"No your not Kendal, what's not to miss about you? At least you were truthful and told him not to. It's not your fau
lt."
I let her words calm me a little, I guess she's right. We walk to my work car park and hug near my car. I have some time left over so before I fetch Finley I go home to change and do some housework.
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