The Dahlia Trilogy (The Gilded Flower Series)
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Slowly, Kai makes his way to her other ear, nibbling and sucking her neck, his hot breath warming her to her core. Dahlia tightens her arms around him as he wraps her legs around his waist, massaging her ass as his hard cock presses against her throbbing clit.
“You sure you want this?” Kai asks, as he moves his hand up to fondle and squeeze Dahlia’s right breast then the other.
Dahlia removes her bikini top in one fluid movement in response to his question. She arches her back so he can continue to play with her breasts, swollen from his touch and her desire.
Kai groans, tugging lightly on her rock hard nipple as he takes the other into his mouth, running his tongue around the soft flesh, slowly sucking and licking as he traces her nipple with his hot, wet tongue. Dahlia lets out a low gasp when he pulls the nipple into his mouth and bites down, an intense current of energy pulling at her in every direction.
Instinctively, she begins to rub his cock along her soaking cunt, trying to find release from the overwhelming rush of sensations coursing through her body.
“Allow me,” Kai whispers. Not taking his eyes off her face, he lays Dahlia back onto the towel and peels off her bikini bottom, leaving her completely exposed to him. Yet she’s never felt safer.
He runs his hands over her body as he continues to look into her eyes. She gazes up at him, knowing he wants this contact with her. Kai raises her right leg and rests her heel on his chest, massaging and kissing her foot as he sucks on her big toe. Dahlia wants to close her eyes, allowing the moment to be sealed in her memory, but she continues to hold his gaze, taking pleasure in watching him enjoy her.
He smiles at her as he draws up her other foot, kissing and sucking her toes, the sensation fueling her lust for him. He gazes down at her pussy and licks his lips.
Kai releases her legs and bends over Dahlia to kiss her, this time more passionately and intensely than before. This is a kiss with purpose, with need. He moves his mouth down the front of her neck, past her breasts, only giving a bit of attention to each, sucking and nibbling on her nipples before tugging so hard Dahlia has to bite back a scream. She lifts her hips in wanting, and reaches down to pull off his swimsuit.
“Not yet,” he mutters, looking up from her belly button. He dips his tongue into it, stirring Dahlia’s desire.
When he finally puts his hot, wet mouth on her clit, Dahlia’s about to come undone. Every part of her being is aflame. Not just with lust and desire, but with purpose. She wants this moment with Kai, because she knows that this is all that they have. Knowing this makes her want him all the more.
Dahlia’s legs open wider. She closes her eyes and fondles her breasts as Kai traces her pussy with a finger, lubricating her with her desire. He flicks his tongue over her cunt as he pushes two fingers inside of her. Then he replaces his fingers with his expert tongue, plunging in and out of her wet snatch.
Just when Dahlia can’t take anymore, he moves his tongue up to her hard clit, sucking and biting it. She continues to squeeze and pull on her tits, as she feels her release beginning to build inside of her. Kai is so attuned to her body that he increases his pace, his tongue alternating licking and kissing her pussy, moving in and out of her hole, finally driving her over the edge into sheer ecstasy.
Kai makes his way back up Dahlia’s body, kissing as he goes. She smiles, pulling his mouth to her, tasting her need, her desire on his lips. She holds her hands firmly at his neck.
He pulls back gently and smiles down at her.
“I think it’s time to reciprocate,” she says eagerly.
Kai shakes his head and kisses her tenderly on her swollen lips. “Later, babe. This was my gift to you. I wanted you to feel how much I adore you.”
Dahlia’s expression turns serious. “You can’t . . .I mean you shouldn’t.”
Kai sits back on his heels. “Why, because you have problems?”
“For starters.”
“We all have issues, Dahlia. Your story is no more tragic than anyone else’s. Everyone has tragedies. You can’t start comparing.”
Dahlia’s bliss begins to quickly wear off. How did they get here?
Kai stands up and offers her his hand. She takes it, and he pulls her into a sweet embrace. “Come, let’s go for a swim.”
Chapter 26
“Do you ever think you’ll ever go back to Maui?” Dahlia asks one balmy evening. She rests her head on Kai’s chest, enjoying the breeze coming through the open windows off her balcony. For the past few days, since their time on the beach, he visits her in the evening as soon as the staff leaves. They rarely sleep, instead filling the nights with lovemaking and talking.
Kai shakes his head. “Not likely.”
“Does your family come here or do you go home?”
A sardonic laugh escapes him. “That will never happen. Besides, my home is here.”
Dahlia sits up, the sheet falling around her naked body, illuminated by the moonlight. Kai reaches his hands up to her face, tracing her lips with his long fingers. “You are an extraordinarily beautiful woman, Dahlia.”
She looks down and runs a finger along his bare chest.
“Don’t feel shy about your beauty. It’s a gift. Besides, I wasn’t talking about your looks.”
Dahlia meets his gaze. “Then what are you talking about?”
“You. The deep and profound person you are.”
“You are seriously bordering on cheesy right now.” She bends down and kisses his chest.
“Look at me for a moment. You don’t see what I do. There’s so much fire and passion inside you. It comes through in your art, which is incredible. It shows how you see the world. You find beauty in all of its fucked-up-ness.”
Dahlia laughs. “You’re saying that’s why I like you.”
Kai shrugs. “Perhaps.”
“Tell me, then,” Dahlia says, lying across his stomach, “What broke you?”
Kai sighs and looks away. After what feels like an interminable silence he says in a low voice, “I killed the woman I loved.”
Chapter 27
Dahlia sits up and wraps the sheet around her. “Please tell me this is some metaphor or whatever spiritual allegory or word you want to use for personal growth.”
Kai shakes his head. “I wish I could.” He runs his hand through his thick, dark hair and walks out onto the balcony.
She watches from bed, admiring his naked silhouette in the light. Could this same man, the one with a warm smile and whose attentive lovemaking takes her out of her body, be a murderer? “Was it an accident?”
He looks back at her, his face eclipsed by the moonlight. “Technically, yes.”
Dahlia resists the urge to pull him to her. He’s listened to her talk about Shane and the baby. Now it’s his turn to reveal his pain.
Her silence becomes his cue.
“Melia was my everything. Her father was my father’s best friend and business partner. They were local surf boys who did well and owned a few surf shops around the island. We were born only days apart, although my mom always said that Melia was born under a lucky star and I was born cursed.”
“My mom would probably say the same about me and Lil.”
Kai nods. “We were inseparable growing up. It seemed inevitable that we would fall in love. I swear, I think I was seven when I looked at her and just knew she would always be in my life.”
“So how did you kill her? I’m having trouble believing that you would hurt someone so precious to you.”
“We only have the power to hurt those we love.”
Dahlia swallows at the reminder of how much she and Shane hurt each other. Rodrigo as well. She closes her eyes, wishing away the painful thoughts.
“I was so jealous and possessive of her. I wanted to be with her all the time.”
“You were young. I think first love is so overpowering we don’t know how to handle the emotions.”
“Maybe . . . It’s just . . .” Kai hesitates. “I introduced her to drugs in high school. Growi
ng up on an island, sometimes you get bored, you start dabbling. I’m not trying to excuse it, I mean, she was really not into drugs anyway. My friends and I would sometimes smoke meth or whatever and surf. You know how it is.”
Dahlia nods. Drug use among surfers was not at all uncommon. Even Shane struggled for a while.
“But Melia was smart. Really smart. She got into Berkeley. It was her dream to go to California and get away from island life. She wanted to be a writer. Melia loved poetry. But I didn’t get in. I was lucky I even graduated high school with the grades I had.”
“And you couldn’t let her leave you, could you?”
Kai shakes his head. “I was afraid she’d outgrow me, us. She vowed it wouldn’t happen. Even asked me to move with her and get a job or go to community college. But I was afraid to leave my world, and I fully expected her to stay in it with me. So I did something terrible.” He turns his back on Dahlia and rests his hands on the balcony.
Tension fills the space between Kai and Dahlia. When he doesn’t turn around, she gets up and walks out to the balcony. “What did you do, Kai?”
“I convinced her father not to let her go. It was easy because her parents were hesitant about Melia living so far away since she was an only child. It became a big decision that involved both of our families, our fathers agreeing to our future and taking on the surf business, which she never wanted. But no one gave her a say.”
“And even though I loved her,” he continues, “I was blind to her needs. Not once did I put her dreams before mine. What I felt was love was something distorted by my own fears. It made me a monster in our relationship. After that, she began to change.”
“How?”
“It sounds cliché, but in taking away her dreams, she lost her way. Melia was so brilliant, her energy and smile could fill a room. I wanted to believe that I could be her reason for living like she was mine.”
“Did she break up with you?”
“Maybe she’d still be alive if she had, but she just lost her will to live. She dropped out of community college. Melia was dying before my eyes, and it was my fault.”
“It was too late to reverse the decision?”
Kai swallows. “At some point I got clean, although it wasn’t difficult because it was just recreational. But she got in so deep, and I couldn’t see it. I only saw what I wanted. Besides, Melia didn’t trust me anymore when she found out I supported her parents’ decision. She felt I had betrayed her so she had been pulling away from me for a while. What’s worse than living without someone you love is living with her indifference. Her drug use just kept getting worse.”
“Is that why you say you killed her?”
Kai nods, tears beginning to stream down his face. “One day, she just didn’t wake up. She was a strong woman in a little body. Her heart couldn’t handle all the drugs. I got her using, and I denied Melia her dreams. Her death taught me that a person not living her passion is already dead.”
Chapter 28
Dahlia glances over at Kai sleeping peacefully. It took a long time to get him to come to bed, the memory of Melia clearly still haunting him. She finally understood what he meant when he said you don’t get over someone’s death, but you become strong enough to endure and accept the sadness and pain their memory brings.
Being with Shane helped her develop the strength to finally face the death of their daughter. She no longer had to bury the experience of loss through constant partying and one-night stands. Now, Dahlia realizes she doesn’t have to do that in order to cope with losing Shane either. Rather, she can keep him alive in her memory and in her heart. Hopefully one day she’ll feel strong enough to accept that he’s gone.
Kai’s stirring distracts Dahlia from her thoughts.
“Good morning,” he says sleepily.
Dahlia smiles sweetly at him. She can’t bring herself to judge him for what he did. He’s clearly not the same person he was then. As much as he can accept his role in her death, it seems he’ll never forgive himself. That’s his perpetual punishment.
“Sleep well?” She asks.
“Very,” he nods, his mouth curling into a seductive smile.
“You had me rather worried. You were pretty upset.”
Kai sits up and leans against the pillows. “Talking about what happened with Melia will always bother me. No matter how much I’ve changed, I can’t change who I was then or what happened.”
“You seem like a different person than the one you described. It’s hard to believe you were ever like that.”
“But I was. The Old Woman helped me see that my anger and fears were misdirected. We can be afraid and be angry. They’re powerful emotions that are meant to be experienced and can be used in positive ways.”
Dahlia leans in and kisses Kai at the nape of his neck.
“What was that for?” He asks smiling, his hand gliding up her thigh and over her ass.
“For sharing.”
“Sharing what?” Kai raises an eyebrow and flashes a wide smile.
Dahlia straddles him and holds his gaze. “You. Your story. You know what it’s like to lose somebody you loved. I feel like even if I didn’t cause Shane’s death, if I wasn’t in his life, he’d probably still be alive. Maybe he would’ve ended up with someone who didn’t fight with him all the time and make him miserable.” She traces a finger around his left nipple then bends down and flicks it with her tongue.
Kai palms her ass with his hands and squeezes. Dahlia lets out a low groan as she feels his cock stirring beneath her.
“Any man would be lucky to have you, Dahlia. You are a blessing, not a curse.”
“What am I to you?” She asks.
Not hesitating, Kai replies, “Both. I’m blessed to have you here with me, but you will leave soon, and that day for me will be one of the saddest I’ll have experienced in a long time.”
Dahlia searches his face and runs her hands through his soft hair. “I think this time with you was the best gift I could’ve ever been given.”
Chapter 29
Dahlia wraps a hand around the back of Kai’s neck and pulls him in for a kiss. Their kiss becomes deeper as his hands, already familiar with every sensitive area, begin to explore her body.
Dahlia throws her head back and gasps as he tugs on her erect nipples, the pain and pleasure filling her with desire.
“I can feel how wet you are for me,” he says in a low voice, his steaming lips making their way down her neck and back up to her chin, before continuing the scorching kiss.
Kai pulls up one hand and begins to fondle her breast, kneading and massaging as his mouth works over the other. He tugs and teases her nipple until it hurts so much she wants to cry, but the sheer joy of having the other sucked and licked makes her only want it more. His tongue finally gives up its assault on her hard nipple and moves over the other breast, licking the skin all around from the bottom to the side.
He continues to work over her tits slowly, allowing the excitement to build up just enough without overwhelming Dahlia.
Dahlia reaches down to massage his throbbing cock beneath her wet love tunnel.
“Not yet, babe,” he whispers. “I don’t want to come yet. I still haven’t had breakfast.” He smiles mischievously.
Kai’s hand eventually finds her soaking cunt. “Damn, I’m going to miss this.”
He pushes her gently onto her back and wraps her legs around his neck while he dives in to smell her.
“The most fragrant flower on the island is right here.”
Dahlia closes her eyes as she feels his hot lips kiss and suck her clit. He invades her with two fingers as he continues to lick and suck and kiss her pussy. She grabs hold of her breasts and pushes them up to her mouth, flicking and kissing her nipples.
Kai’s fingers continue thrusting in and out, making Dahlia wild. She can feel her muscles begin to tense around his fingers while his tongue works its magic over her swollen clit.
“We’re not even close to being finished, ba
be,” Kai says, kissing the inside of Dahlia’s thigh. He moves his mouth up her body, licking and kissing as he goes, stopping briefly on each breast before planting a passionate kiss on her lips.
He dips his tongue into her mouth, probing and licking her tongue before sucking it into his mouth. The feeling sends an electrical current throughout Dahlia, making her even wetter.
She returns the deep kiss, and just as she draws his tongue into her mouth, he pushes his thick cock into her pussy. Dahlia moans as he slowly fills her. She arches her back reflexively, pressing her tits up against his chest, her nipples craving his touch.
Kai pushes himself even deeper until he’s all she can feel, then pulls out completely, teasing Dahlia’s clit with the head of his cock, rubbing it gently, before pushing himself once again inside her. This time even deeper. He does this a few more times, Dahlia losing herself in the overwhelming sensations of his hands on her tits and his cock plunging inside of her.
She runs her nails along his back and digs them into his muscular ass, barely able to withstand the intensity of the moment. Her lips find his and together they dance, passionately, each biting the other’s lips. Dahlia resists the urge to scream, trying to contain the pleasure that’s building inside her.
Just as Dahlia feels her release begin to build, Kai pulls out of her and lays on his back, taking her with him. Dahlia sits up and turns around, his hard shaft lined up with her stretched cunt.
He thrusts his cock back into her flaming hole. Kai grabs hold of her hips as she begins to lift herself off him, coming off his cock completely before slamming back down over it. The feeling of being stretched over and over again begins to take Dahlia to the edge. Kai reaches around and rubs her clit with one hand, while he pulls and kneads her tit with the other.
Dahlia can’t hold herself back anymore. She can feel longing at her core as Kai works her over. All at once, just as her muscles tighten around his engorged cock, he explodes inside of her, her orgasm going on and on, pulling at him until she collapses onto his chest, completely spent.