Obediently Yours
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DADDYDOM: SO EAGER, BABY GIRL? THAT’S FINE. I AM GLAD THAT YOU ARE EAGER AND ENGAGED IN THIS PROCESS. TO ANSWER YOUR QUESTION, I WILL SEND YOU AN EMAIL FOLLOWING OUR CHAT. I NEED MORE INFORMATION FROM YOU ABOUT YOUR INTERESTS AND LIMITS. I WILL EXPLAIN IN THE EMAIL. HAVE A GOOD NIGHT FOR NOW.
LITTLESIOBHAN: GOOD NIGHT, DADDY. THANKS. I WILL LOOK FORWARD TO YOUR EMAIL.
DADDYDOM: GOOD NIGHT, LITTLE ONE. SWEET DREAMS.
MESSAGE: DaddyDom has signed off.
I head for the kitchen to grab a drink and clear my head. My thoughts are swimming. Daddy Dom seems too good to be true. He has just the right balance of firmness, kindness, and kinkiness for me. If I did not know any better, I would think he was a complete figment of my imagination. I cannot wait to read his next email!
FROM: DADDY DOM
SUBJECT: NEGOTIATION
Dear Baby Girl,
Attached is a form that I have used to negotiate Age Play in the past to engage in real-life play. I want to give you a true sense of what my interests are, what turns me on, and the type of control I want.
Obviously, our play will be modified because it is online, but it will also give me a sense of your comfort zone. Our chat and previous emails have already given me a good picture of your interests, but I want to also try to understand your boundaries and limits. I need you to be completely honest with me regarding any aspect you find distasteful or uninteresting to you. I will not be offended in any way. Neither do I want to scare you away because something listed on this form is not compatible with your interests or comfort level. Please review it in the spirit intended and respond with your comments, good, bad, or indifferent. I look forward to receiving your email.
Until then, take care,
Daddy
AGEPLAY NEGOTIATION FORM: ANSWERING AS THE DOMINANT
Pre-determined and agreed upon safe-words put into place prior to any scene
Age Range Interests: Interested in ALL ages: Baby/Toddler/School Age/Teenage
Age Play Activities: Interested in ALL of the following:
▪Daddy in the role of care giver, disciplinarian, and nurturer
▪Dependent on Daddy for physical care, e.g.: baths, feedings
▪Use of bottles/sippy cups/pacifier/spoon feeding and bottle feeding
▪Use of childlike clothing such as dresses, stockings, plastic panties, barrettes in hair
▪Require crawling
▪Use of harness or leash
▪Use of childlike activities such as coloring, toys, bedtime stories
▪Use of a crib or bed with restraints/high chair/changing table
▪Medical procedures such as rectal temperatures and genital inspections
▪All aspects of use and changing of diapers
▪Use of rules and structure/discipline
Types of Scenes: Interested in ALL of the following:
▪Time-specific full immersion—Daddy fully in control
▪Put in diapers after an “accident”
▪Toilet training (observed use of toilet)
▪Diapering and changing rituals
▪ “Forced” age regression
▪Punishment sessions
▪Sexual scenes including intercourse
▪Bath time/bedtime rituals
▪Dealing with bratty behavior/tantrums
▪Medical scenes/caring for a sick baby
▪Private public play, e.g., buying a toy, getting a kid’s meal, holding hands
Discipline and Punishment: Use ALL of the following:
▪Scoldings/verbal humiliation/wearing “naughty girl” sign
▪Corner time/time-outs
▪Writing lines/essays
▪Wash mouth out with soap
▪Naptime/early bedtime/sent to room
▪Loss of privileges/being grounded
▪Orgasm control and denial
▪Use of anal plugs/dildos/gags/nipple clamps
▪Use of suppositories/enemas
▪Bondage/limitation of movement/blindfolded
▪Spankings—use of hand, hairbrush, paddle, belt, crop, flogger, cane
Body parts spanked: bottom, thighs, breasts, pussy (negotiated prior to scene)
Hard Limits: Will not engage in any of the following activities:
▪Breath control play
▪Cutting/drawing blood
▪Permanent marks
▪Public exposure,
▪Electricity
▪Sharing/swinging
▪Videotaping/photos,
▪Face slapping
▪Bestiality
Holy shit! Well, at least he is up front about what he likes. Some of this is beyond what I was thinking. Although I have to admit, nothing on here scares me too badly. Some things I just never thought of before. Here goes.
FROM: BABY GIRL
SUBJECT: OH MY GOODNESS!
Hello Daddy,
Well, thank you for sending me your negotiation list. My initial thought was, “holy shit,” just to give you an idea. First thing I have to say, I am very glad and completely agree with all of your hard limits. Enough said on that.
I think the thing that makes me most nervous is the use of diapers. While I love wearing them, I have never used them and I am not sure how comfortable I am with it. So I would like to ease into that activity in time. With regard to using “props” such as bottles, pacifiers, and childlike toys and clothes, I have never gone to that level of thinking in terms of my interests in age play. On the other hand, all of this is online role-playing, so I do want to be flexible and let you take the lead on things. Well, that’s the point too, isn’t it? What interests me the most is being nurtured, relinquishing control, and being held accountable for my actions and obeying the rules. I am sure that this stems from my turbulent childhood. I will spare you the details because they are not pretty.
So the idea of orgasm control and denial, yeah, not so much a fan of that punishment. This is, after all, a means to an orgasm and sexual gratification. It certainly would be an effective punishment for me. Maybe I should not tell you that now that I think of it!
Hope this helps you, Daddy.
Respectfully Yours,
Your Baby Girl Siobhan
Well, this is the most fun I have had in a very long time. I am loving this whole process. Maybe a little too much! The side effect from it all is how utterly horny I am all of the time. Even at work. It’s not good being horny at work. I head into the bathroom to get ready for bed. I look at myself in the mirror. My eyes are shining bright and I have a smile on my face. I begin to think about how this is a better relationship than any I have had in the past and I have never even met the guy. At least I hope he is a guy. You never know who it really is on the other end of the computer. No, it has to be a man. I picture a tall, dark, and very handsome Daddy Dom. I bet he has a dominant stance all of the time and the women where he works all swoon over him. I wonder what he does for work. We have never gotten into personal information other than first names and age. It’s for both of our protection.
My mind wanders further and I start to think about meeting him. Even though we agreed this would strictly be an online relationship, I cannot help but imagine having a man like him in my life. A real man who can be dominant, assertive, nurturing, and loving. I’ve never had that before. Certainly not all of those characteristics in one person. Greg was loving and nurturing, but to the extreme. I got very tired of being the man in that relationship. Greg was just too passive and too willing to let me take the lead. All of the time. It was exhausting after a while. I just could not imagine a lifelong commitment to him. It was nice, but no passion, no spark, no spank! It never would have worked. Although, there are times that I miss him.
Then there was James. No, don’t think about him anymore. All bad memories. Think about Richard. Meeting Richard. I can’t believe I am even thinking about meeting him. I have never wanted to meet anyone I have chatted with online before. Of course, there were only a few interactions. I
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The next night, I eagerly log onto my computer in hopes that Daddy Dom will be around for a chat. I don’t see any messages, so I bounce around on a few kinky websites, reading stories. By the time the instant chat message pops up, I am horny as hell.
DADDYDOM: HELLO, LITTLE ONE. HOW ARE YOU TONIGHT?
LITTLESIOBHAN: I AM DOING WELL, DADDY. HOW ARE YOU THIS EVENING?
DADDYDOM: VERY WELL TOO, THANKS FOR ASKING. SO YOU LIKED THE NEGOTIATION FORM? ORGASM CONTROL AND DENIAL WILL BE A CHALLENGE FOR YOU, HUH?
LITTLESIOBHAN: YES, VERY MUCH SO! THAT’S JUST HARSH.
DADDYDOM: HARSHER THAN BEING SPANKED WITH IMPLEMENTS?
LITTLESIOBHAN: YES, DADDY, HARSHER THAN THAT. I WOULD TAKE A CANING OVER ORGASM DENIAL. WELL, I’M NOT SURE IF THAT IS REALLY TRUE, SINCE I HAVE NEVER BEEN CANED BEFORE. WE CAN NEGOTIATE THAT, RIGHT?
DADDYDOM: LOL. WELL, LITTLE ONE, HERE IS THE THING. YOU HAVE AGREED TO BE THE SUBMISSIVE IN THIS RELATIONSHIP AND I AM THE DOMINANT. THAT MEANS WHAT I SAY GOES. IF I SAY NO ORGASM, I EXPECT YOU TO OBEY ME. YES, WE CAN NEGOTIATE THINGS THAT ARE CONCERNING TO YOU, BUT REMEMBER THAT, SINCE THIS IS ONLINE, I ONLY HAVE SO MANY PUNISHMENTS AT MY DISPOSAL. ORGASM CONTROL AND DENIAL IS ONE OF THEM. I LOVE TO USE TEASING TO BRING A NAUGHTY BABY GIRL TO THE EDGE AND THEN…NO CLIMAX FOR HER!
LITTLESIOBHAN: WELL, THAT WILL BE A HARD ONE, BUT YOU ARE RIGHT, I DID AGREE TO THIS.
DADDYDOM: SINCE WE ARE TALKING ABOUT PUNISHMENT, LET’S TALK ABOUT THE RULES. YOU WILL HAVE RULES TO OBEY AND YOU WILL DOCUMENT THEM AND YOUR ADHERENCE TO THEM IN A JOURNAL. I WILL GIVE YOU THE PARAMETERS FOR YOUR JOURNAL IN A SEPARATE EMAIL AFTER WE CHAT. THE JOURNAL WILL BE THE BASIS OF YOUR ACCOUNTABILITY TO ME. YOU CAN SET IT UP ANY WAY YOU WANT USING A WORD DOCUMENT. YOU MUST INCLUDE ALL AREAS I REQUIRE IN IT THOUGH. OKAY?
LITTLESIOBHAN: I UNDERSTAND, DADDY. THIS IS SIMILAR TO A DOMINANT HAVING HIS SUBMISSIVE KEEP A JOURNAL IN A BDSM RELATIONSHIP, RIGHT?
DADDYDOM: YES, LITTLE ONE, BUT THIS WILL HAVE SPECIFIC SECTIONS THAT YOU WILL KEEP UPDATED. WE WILL REVIEW YOUR PROGRESS REGULARLY. DOES THAT ANSWER YOUR QUESTION?
LITTLESIOBHAN: YES, I THINK SO. I CANNOT BELIEVE HOW MUCH FUN THIS IS.
DADDYDOM: THAT’S THE POINT OF IT ALL, BABY GIRL. ONE LAST THING BEFORE WE SIGN OFF. I WANT YOU TO CHANGE YOUR HANDLE FROM LITTLE SIOBHAN TO BABY GIRL. THAT’S YOU. YOU ARE MY BABY GIRL! DO IT BEFORE THE NEXT TIME WE CHAT.
LITTLESIOBHAN: OKAY, DADDY. I WILL DO WHAT YOU ASK.
DADDYDOM: GOOD GIRL. THAT’S MY LITTLE ONE. I HAVE TO GO NOW. SAME TIME TOMORROW TO CHAT AGAIN?
LITTLESIOBHAN: OKAY, DADDY, THAT SOUNDS GOOD. I WILL WATCH FOR YOUR EMAIL.
DADDYDOM: GREAT. I WILL SEND IT LATER TONIGHT. UNTIL TOMORROW. BYE.
LITTLESIOBHAN: GOOD NIGHT, DADDY. THANKS.
MESSAGE: DaddyDom has signed off.
This is so awesome! I go into my settings and change my handle to “Baby girl” just like Daddy asked. I think I will send him an email before heading to bed.
FROM: BABY GIRL
SUBJECT: NICE CHAT
Dear Daddy,
I wanted to send a quick email to thank you for the nice chat tonight. It was great to talk to you live and in person finally. I feel we had a good rapport that will only continue with time. I can’t wait to see your requirements for my journal. The thought of keeping a journal just for you is very thrilling. It gives me butterflies in my stomach. More important, it’s a great idea. I assume you have done this with the other baby girls you have had? Maybe you can tell me more about your interactions in the past with them? I’m just curious. This is all very new to me so you will have to excuse my over-eagerness and incessant questions. I hope you have a lovely day.
Respectfully Yours,
Your Baby Girl Siobhan
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The next morning before heading to work, I check my email to see if Daddy responded and, sure enough, he did.
FROM: DADDY DOM
SUBJECT: PAST INTERACTIONS
Dear Baby Girl,
You asked me to tell you more about my interactions in the past with other baby girls. I will share this with you in this email. As my ad mentioned, I am an experienced Dominant in the BDSM community and I have engaged in both real-life and online role-playing for over fifteen years. I believe in the BDSM mantra of safe, sane, and consensual playing. It has been a while since I have had real-life submissive play. I have taken a break from it and prefer to engage online for now.
As I mentioned in a previous email to you, I am experienced in a wide variety of BDSM scenes including medical play and Master/slave. My interest in age play has been more recent. That type of play is right in line with my need to have complete control, but also to nurture and guide. I have a deep need to take care of someone. Very much along the lines of what you do for your human services occupation—caring for others. I find that age play really allows me to fulfill that role on a much deeper level than other types of BDSM play that I have engaged in.
I have had two other baby girls online, but for various reasons, those relationships ended. I had taken a break from all of it for a while when I decided to get back in the saddle, as they say. The day I posted the ad was my first attempt to come back into the fray and on the very same day, you responded. I consider myself very fortunate that you did.
I hope this answers your question, little one. Until later.
Hugs,
Daddy
I love his email. I cannot help but wonder more about him and what he may look like. I picture Daddy as a tall, strong man with piercing eyes, stern forehead, and kind smile. A perfect mixture of loving Daddy, strict Daddy, disappointed Daddy, and concerned Daddy. The different personalities melding into the one perfect Daddy. The more he controls me, the more I want him to take control.
Chapter Four
After a few back-and-forth emails over the next couple of days, Daddy sent me an email with an assignment to complete. On my way home, I pull my car into a parking space at the pharmacy, anxious and eager to please him. I look at the printed email to make sure I follow his directions exactly.
FROM: DADDY DOM
SUBJECT: ASSIGNMENT
Dear Baby Girl,
I have an assignment for you. Over the next week, I want you to put together your own diaper bag. Your diaper bag must include your diapers and plastic panties, baby powder and baby oil, baby wipes, diaper rash cream, baby bowl and spoon, bib, a pacifier, baby bottle, and sippy cup. You will need to purchase the items if you do not already have them.
I hope we can talk tonight.
Hugs,
Daddy
Walking up and down the aisles, I have this irrational fear that people know why I am here. It is impossible, but my deeply rooted submission is palpable and I am convinced it is written all over my face. Do these people know that I am buying baby items for myself? Thoughts of Daddy overtake and consume me. Going to pick up tampons off the shelf, I instantly think about telling Daddy that my period is coming soon. I pass by the adult incontinence section and look at the various packages of diapers. That familiar clenching deep down reminds me of our emails and his promise to punish me if I am naughty. Wearing my diapers as ordered by my Daddy. Spanked like the naughty girl I was for failing to obey him.
I continue up and down the aisles, gathering the items for my diaper bag. The requirement to purchase real baby items, like the pacifier and baby bottle, is something I initially struggled with. It stretches beyond my interest in age play. This type of play runs the full spectrum range from adults who truly act, talk, and dress like infants to diaper lovers who simply enjoy the feeling of wearing them. The idea of using these items sort of freaks me out. It is a higher level of submission and shame than I feel by simply wearing diapers.
Will he really expect me to suck on a pacifier or baby bottle? Fear creeps into my mind. Even though he won’t see me, it still feels so deviant. Far beyond the deviance I have already engaged in thus far. Using the powder and baby oil won’t be so bad. I wonder how it would feel to rub baby oil over my smooth pussy lips before sealing myself up in a tight and secure diaper.
I get to the area with the bottles and sippy cups. Looking over the selection, I cannot help but smile when I see a bottle covered in Disney princesses. How I love the Disney movies! I never did get to indulge in playing with dolls when I was young. My childhood was stolen by a cruel mother who made demands on me as a child that no child should have to endure. I essentially became the mother to my brothers and was expected to keep the house clean. While I did this, my mother indulged in her favorite pastime, listening to melancholy music in her room while drinking too much alcohol. I was never able to be a normal little girl and enjoy all of the things that little girls enjoy, such as dressing up like a princess or playing with dolls. As I think of this, I reach out and pull the princess bottle off of the shelf. I also see a small spoon and fork set with my favorite Disney princess and put those in my carriage too.
I take my purchases home and lay them all out on my bed. My heart pounds as I place each item in my diaper bag. My diaper bag. The diaper bag Daddy ordered me to obtain. Having a hard time wrapping my head around it, I finish the task and move on to making dinner and being ready by seven for my chat with Daddy.
FROM: DADDY DOM
SUBJECT: BABY GIRL SIOBHAN’S JOURNAL
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