Lex (Unconventional Hearts)

by S. K. Logsdon

  I can’t watch. This is too scary. My stomach is nervously twisting in knots. Swallowing hard, I hear him groan, as his fingers dip into the waistband of my panties. A quick tug and he rips one side and then other and discards them. I’m so exposed to him! He can see her now. I know she’s dripping for him. I can feel the warmth of my pre-come sliding down my hardened length.

  “So beautiful.” He mutters, and I feel his warm hands sensually gliding up the insides of my thighs.

  My body starts to quake. I can’t believe this is happening!

  “Angel, are you sure?” His tone is so small and gentle. I can feel the warmth and love encompassed in his words.

  “I…. I…don’t know...” I stutter, about to crawl out of my own skin.

  “I’ll go slowly. If you want me to stop, just tell me, and I will. This part of you is only mine from this day forward, Lex. No more Daniel. If you want pleasure, day or night, I will take care of you. You. Are. Mine. Lex. And that includes this beautiful−” lick inner thigh, “sexy−” kiss higher, “delicious−” lick just next to my sac and I breathe a shaky moan, white knuckling the sheets, “so delicious.”

  His hot breath bathes my sac and lady in erotic heat. Warm lips and velvety wet tongue suckle my sac fully into his mouth and he sweetly laves it with his tongue. Groaning in his throat as he gently sucks, applying pressure.

  A large hand encases lady’s shaft and he growls, my sac still encased in his sexy mouth. Sparking an abundance of pleasure to rack through my overwhelmed body, I never knew it could be this good!

  Kneading lady’s length in his hand, he slowly releases my sac from his moist heaven. “They tasted even better than I imagined.” He licks the underside of them from the bottom to the base of lady. I can feel the hot spurts of air skating across my skin. He’s panting. Breathing so hard, I can hear him gasping for air.

  “You turn me on so much, Lex.” He whispers, kissing the base of my shaft. “I knew this would be beautiful—” kiss “—I just never thought it would be this beautiful” lingering kiss and swirling tongue.

  “How long have you known?” I question, needing to know this answer. No man would just accept this if he just found out. I’m not that naïve.

  “Shhhh, Angel. I will tell you everything tomorrow. Just let me get my fill of you. I’ve been dreaming about tasting you forever. For so long I’ve fucked my fist, Lex, thinking of you. You are everything I’ve dreamed of in a woman.”

  As the last word lingers in the air, filling me with molten, lust filled joy, his mouth engulfs me in one swallow, and I come off the bed. Nearly losing myself, my stomach curling into itself with such intense pleasure. My skin sings and my eyes roll into the back of my head, I can’t catch my breath. Oh my God. His hot succulent mouth is sucking me. This is real. This is really happening. Gage, the man I’ve lusted after for weeks is accepting me. He’s touching me in the most intimate way.

  Groaning in his throat he sucks on me with such desire, and need as his hand massages my sac. His other hand comes up between my legs, his elbow resting on my thigh, his forearm across my stomach.

  Pulling my hardened rod from his mouth, just so he’s licking the tip, he whispers. “Hold my hand, let’s do this together.”

  I open my eyes to see that his hand is open, waiting for me. Retracting my hold on the sheet, I wrap both of my hands around his large one and choppily mutter. “Okay,”

  “Calm down sweetie, you’re shaking.” He says, giving my hand a gentle squeeze and lady a base to tip languid, velvety wet caress with his tongue. A feral smile turning at the corners of his mouth, he looks like he’s enjoying himself. Just watching him lick her, makes me want to come.

  “I don’t think I can.” I admit, unable to break the nervous twitches consuming me.

  Gage

  My brave sweetheart, she’s so scared. The insecure look on her face says it all. I knew this would be hard for her. I just thought a little alcohol and good food might loosen her up. I guess she’s still just as tense.

  “Does it feel good?”

  Nodding, she chews her lip. Oh…how I would love to have those lips wrapped around my painfully throbbing dick right now.

  “Tell me.” I carefully order, my eyes delving into hers. She needs to know I’m here to do this for her, for us. This is about us, and me finally getting to taste what I’ve vividly dreamt about for years.

  “I… I…” She stutters and I engulf her pretty dick in my mouth to stop her from thinking too much. It’s smooth and soft, and as it reaches the back of my throat, I hum. I hope it’s the same for her. I’m new at this. I’ve never practiced before. I’ve not even tried to suck a dildo. Been playing this moment over and over in my head, hoping I wouldn’t fuck up pleasing her when I finally got the chance to taste her, to make her come in my mouth. The only thing I have practiced and stuck with since I began falling for Lex, all those years ago, was — I stopped fucking pussy. Only a few times did I fuck my ex-wife in her pussy. Anal was all I would do after that. And since my divorce, every woman I’ve had afterward, I’ve fucked hard in the ass. The thought of screwing a pussy makes me ill. Lex, doesn’t have one. She has something so much better than that. Every single woman for the past six years that I’ve slid my cock into, I closed my eyes and pictured Lex being the woman I was busting my nut for. That’s the only way I can get off. My counselor said I compartmentalize my feelings for her and that includes sexually. And because of that, my body won’t allow me to orgasm without her being the source of stimulation. It took a lot of years for me to understand his psychobabble. Now, it’s all crystal-clear.

  Sucking harder, faster, up and down her girl dick, I savor the flavor of her pre-come oozing like a waterfall coating my throat in her sweet taste. Closing my eyes, I feel her. I truly revel in this significant moment. Her body is writhing under me, her hands holding on so tight her pink nails painfully claw into my palm. It sets me off like a wildfire. I suck relentlessly, her hips undulating, bucking into my mouth with quick swallow jerks. I can hear her breathing so rapidly, and moaning as her delicious dick fills my needy mouth.

  “I’m… I’m.” She cries out, her body arches, and lady jerks as I feel the hot jets of her come shooting in thick streams into my throat. I swallow her down, every bit. I can’t miss a drop.

  Opening my eyes, I watch her collapse like a ragdoll on the bed, arms spread wide. A perfect sated smile curls at the corners of her lips, as I hold her rock hard shaft in my mouth. Swirling my tongue around the head I apply pressure to the head with my tongue and pull upward, drawing any last bit of her come out. A dribble drops onto my tongue and I pull away, stand, and crawl up between her legs. Looming over her, my hand briefly squeezes her hardened sex, and I hold her essence on my tongue.

  “Open.” I order and she complies immediately, like we’ve been doing this for years.

  Dipping my tongue into her mouth, I swirl it inside, making her taste how sexy and delicious she is. A groan escapes her as she sucks my tongue like she’s done this a hundred times before. My aching dick grinds against her in my suit pants. Wrapping legs around my waist, she edges me forward and my chest rests down atop hers.

  “So sexy.” I mutter at her lips, extracting my sensitive tongue.

  “I… I…”

  “Shhhh, Angel.” I coax, running my fingers through her sex mussed hair. Reaching behind her head, she leans it up and I tug the bun out. Combing my fingers through her rich locks, I fan them out around her head, pull a strand up, and smell it. She always smells divine. Like soap, perfume and Lex, a delicate combination of raw purity and sexuality, a scent that drives me insane with lust. I’m surprised I’m being such a gentleman as it is.

  Searching her tired, yet, satisfied face with my eyes, I know she needs to rest. So I wrap my arms around her butt, and I lift her, transferring her noodle like body to the top of the bed, resting her head on a pillow.

  “Thanks.” She whispers.

  “Get some rest, my Angel.” I kiss her
cheek and she smiles.

  Lifting off her, I rake my gaze appreciatively up and down her resting body. Taking in the suppleness of her milky white skin, the slight curves of her femininity, the peeks of her perky breasts and the light pink of the sexiest dick I’ve ever seen. She’s not very large. Her lady is long, sleek, soft, and everything I’ve ever wanted. It’s a lot smaller than mine; it takes on a strange feminine quality. Even her sac is small, delicate even. Every bit of her screams woman and supple sweetness. My heart aches, watching the woman I love. The woman that I will spend the rest of my life convincing she is for me. Even if she’s too scared to admit it to herself, I will show her the way. This is the first step. A step I’ve been planning for months. Months of agonizing torture to feed the years of relentless need to be with her. I just pray she lets me.

  Standing next to the bed, I allow myself one last glimpse and I tug the dress down to her knees and lift the blankets over her, tucking her into bed for the night. I’m not leaving. I don’t have to pick Emma up until tomorrow. Tasha took her tonight so I could do what I needed to. I should have done this long ago.

  “Hello, Gage. Or should I say Suit Master?” Roni laughs and comes stumbling in the back door of Lex’s house. I’m sitting here at the table, drinking a glass of orange juice. That’s all she has in the fridge other than water. I don’t want to drink any alcohol that will just impair my joyous memories of this spectacular evening.

  I smile at her. “Hello to you too, Roni. Care to join me?” I gesture toward the seat across from me. I’m sitting in Lex’s chair.

  “In a minute.” She riffles through some cupboards, steals the juice from the table and fills her own cup. Then sits down across from me.

  “So… How’d tonight go?”

  I smile wider. I can’t help it.

  “That good huh?”

  I nod and take a sip. “Yes, that good. It wouldn’t have gone this well if it hadn’t been for your help though.”

  Drinking, she stops with the cup at her mouth, her eyes thoughtfully staring off into a distance. “Lex needs a person who really loves her and wants to care for her, Gage. I’ve told you that from day one, and I will do anything to help her get over her own insecurities to be happy. Lex thinks she doesn’t need anyone but herself. She’s wrong; she has so much love to give. It’s a damn shame to waste it. That’s why when you and Bob approached me about this whole set up months ago, I agreed.”

  No, she didn’t actually.

  “No…”

  Dropping her cup with a loud thud, she huffs, leaning back in her chair, tossing her hands over her blue t-shirt covered chest. “Fine, okay, I was an overprotective bitch. I thought you were full of shit. What kind of man seriously fawns over a woman for six years? And…has a tattoo and knows all about her. It seemed creepy and well… Fucked up.”

  I nod. She’s right; it is both of those things, creepy and fucked up. Two things I tried to rid myself of in counseling. No such luck.

  “Don’t you think I know that?” I realize we’ve already had this important redundant talk about ten times already. Roni loves Lex deeply. Their bond is like no friendship I’ve ever had. Except maybe the one I have with Tank. So when I approached Roni months ago about me being ready to take the next step in securing Lex’s and I’s future, she thought I was a raving madman. There was no way, that woman was going to let me get near Lex without her blessing. Three weeks I schmoozed and won Roni over. It was no easy task. I groveled, a time or even two. I’m not afraid to admit it. At the end of everything and revealing to her all that I do know about Lex, and all that I’ve done to try to not feel this way. Then, all that I have done to finally accept my feelings couldn’t change. She eventually relented and decided to help me on my quest.

  First, we created an online dating profile. Then she convinced Lex to get one herself. That’s how it all started. I hadn’t planned on pushing myself into her life outside of online dating. Not until I had stupid fuckin’ Corey in my office going over divorce shit and he was rambling on about going on a date. Then I find out who it was with from him, and where they were going to go from Roni. I couldn’t help myself; I had to ruin the date. At the same time, I was already in negotiations with Saks, and it gave me a perfect way to deter her thoughts away from Corey. Fuckin’ Corey.

  Then as I played the Suit Master and Gage, I was scared to have both of them collide. So, I kept them both up and made the Suit Master seem more chivalrous and myself a tad bit more of a dick, to throw her off my scent. Even though both of them are me, I’m not always a nice guy. I proved that when that asshole tried to rape my damn woman. He’s lucky I didn’t kill him. I wanted to. I just couldn’t bring myself to do it in front of Lex. If it hadn’t been for Auto, I probably would have put that sick fuck in a coma, where he belongs.

  “So…last night… You watched her eat, didn’t you?” Roni asks, snatching me from my musings.

  “Yea, I had a camera installed in the vase.”

  “You’re one slick mo-fo. Do you think she’s going to forgive you for the depression you dropped her into this week because of Emma?”

  I nod my head. “I think she already has.” I grin.

  “Did you see lady?” Her eyes widen.

  “I played with lady.” My grin turns into a full on ear-to-ear shit-eating grin. I can’t help it. I’m already hard thinking about my Angel’s lady. It’s perfect, just like her.

  Mouth nearly dropping to the table Roni chokes, and clears her throat a few times. I laugh at her expression.

  “I… I never thought she’d…”

  “That she’d let me, let her, make love to my mouth?” I cut her off.

  Still gaping wide-eyed, she nods repeatedly. “She did?”

  “Yes, but she doesn’t know I’m the Suit Master, yet, or how I knew about lady. I know she wants me just as much as I want her. That’s how I knew when I threw myself in her way outside of Vino’s tonight, I could convince her, to let me take her home. I couldn’t not try, six years is a long time to want somebody, Roni, to dream about them. I took my chances and they paid off big time.”

  “You didn’t force her did you?” Her stunned expression changes to one of hard protective concern and I growl at her.

  “Don’t fuckin’ look at me that way. I love that woman. I would never force her into a God dammed thing. I’m not Brian. I will get her off a hundred times before I even let her touch me. She has to know this isn’t about me. It’s about her and her needs.”

  “What about Emma? You want to sexually satisfy Lex, but what about Emma? That bond with that little girl satisfies more in her than you’ll ever know.”

  Roni is hard and to the point and damn, I respect the hell out of her for that.

  “I never expected Emma and Lex to meet this early. I didn’t want that. I wanted her to want me first, and then meet Emma, but shit happened and I can’t deny either one of my girls. Emma needs Lex. Her mother is a shitty one and Lex can, if she wants to, maybe fill that role. But only if she can accept me and us as a couple. I can’t put Emma through another heartbreak like me finally having to divorce her mother. Lex is it for me and has been for a long time. If she doesn’t choose me in the end, I will be lonely and stay single for the rest of my life.”

  “You’re a love sick puppy.” She almost feels sorry for me, I can see it on her face.

  “Yeah tell me about it! A horny one with the worst case of blue balls.” I grab my stomach.

  She laughs. “Poor Gage, love sick puppy got a taste of a real woman.”

  “Fuck off, Roni.” I bark playfully and we both break into a fit of laughter. I can see why Lex, and Roni are best friends. Roni’s one hell of a woman. Tomboy to the core, and perfect for Bob.

  We chat a bit longer, mostly about Lex and how hard this might be for her to overcome. Especially when she finds out, I’m not only me but the Suit Master as well. She told him a lot of things I know she’d never have admitted to me. That might break her trust a bit, not that I blame
her.

  “Well, I think I’m heading to bed.” I stand, place my glass in the sink and wave Roni goodbye.

  “Sleep in her room.”

  I stop at the kitchen door and crinkle my brow. Sleep in her room?

  “Come again?”

  “There are blankets in the hall closet. Sleep on the floor in her room. This way when she wakes up and freaks out about what happened, you are there to talk her down. It’ll happen. She flipped out the morning after you kissed her. This is going to be the motherload of freakin’ the fuck out.”

  “Thanks for the tip.”

  Solemnly, I climb the stairs, hanging my head. She’s going to freak out. Why in the hell didn’t I think of that? Of course she will. Am I am idiot or what? It’s a damn good thing Roni and I are rooting for the same team. It’s a godsend she’s on my side. I couldn’t have done any of this without her help.

  Chapter Nineteen

  Sunday

  Lex

  Opening my eyes, the sun from my opened drapes fills my bedroom. What time is it?

  Rolling onto my side, I freeze and look down. I’m in the white dress. I. Am. In. The. White. Dress!

  Gage! He…he…oh my God… Oh my God… I came in his mouth… It happened didn’t it? … Oh my God!!

  I screech aloud, flop back onto my back and slap my hand over my mouth. My eyes are wide with panic. Inhaling a deep calming breath to relax my sizzling nerves, I can still smell him. His scent and the smell of sex is surrounding me. No, my come, my arousal. I. Came. In. His. Mouth. He drank me down, like I was a fine wine. I remember it all. He groaned and swallowed me. All of me. That was the sexiest damn thing a man has ever done.

  “Lex.”

  I jump, startled. Where is he at?

  “Lex?”