To the Moon and Back

by Jill Mansell

  ‘Are you giving those to charity?’

  ‘Probably.’

  Ellie danced out of reach. ‘Good.’

  Chapter 30

  ‘Jamie? Are you there?’ She didn’t say it out loud, just in her head. But he heard her anyway.

  ‘I’m always here.’ He appeared in the living room, grinning and barefoot. ‘I’m like Lurch in The Addams Family. You rang?’

  ‘You’re better looking than Lurch.’ Ellie waited. ‘Which is your cue to tell me I’m looking pretty good too.’

  ‘You already know that. That’s my favorite dress.’

  They’d spotted it three years ago in the window of a little shop in Totnes. Simply styled in slippery, matte silk, it was peacock blue with swirls of emerald green and gold handprinted around the neckline and hem. It was a beautiful dress and she’d worn it when they’d gone out to dinner on his last birthday.

  ‘The main reason it’s your favorite is because you discovered you could undo the zip with one hand.’

  Jamie said good-naturedly, ‘Just as well I’m staying home tonight. Wouldn’t want your dress coming undone while you’re out at your fancy do with your boss.’

  Ellie pumped her tube of lip gloss. ‘I hate to break it to you but you aren’t really here. Your zip-unfastening days are over.’

  ‘I know.’ He watched her apply a layer of gloss to her lips. ‘Is that the one that tastes of apricots?’

  ‘Yes.’ Ellie’s throat tightened; he used to kiss it off her, deliberately getting it all over his own mouth.

  ‘Don’t cry. You’ll wreck your makeup.’

  Easier said than done. She threw the lip gloss into her evening bag and said, ‘I’m going now.’

  ‘Have fun.’ Jamie’s expression softened. ‘I mean it. I want you to enjoy yourself.’

  A glitzy dinner at Claridge’s in Mayfair. What wouldn’t she give for her and Jamie to be able to spend the evening there together? OK, stop this, don’t think about it now. ‘I will. Bye.’

  ***

  Zack wasn’t Jamie but he created quite an impression. As the taxi pulled away down Brook Street, Ellie glimpsed their reflection in the window of Vidal Sassoon opposite Claridge’s. She was looking like a better than usual version of herself and Zack, in his dark suit, was quite literally turning heads. One girl, too busy ogling him to look where she was going, slipped off the curb and almost toppled into the gutter.

  Zack, not realizing why she’d stumbled, rested a protective hand in the small of Ellie’s back and said, ‘Careful, these pavements aren’t great.’ He steered her across the street towards the hotel and she caught sight of them both in another window.

  Yee-ha, look at us, heading towards the entrance to Claridge’s like a proper glamorous couple in a Chanel ad, if girls in Chanel ads have ever worn emerald-green shoes from Topshop and jeweled hair combs from Primark. Well, you never know, they might.

  They reached the other side of the road. Ellie paused to gaze up at the row of flags hanging outside the hotel entrance. Heads of state stayed here. Royals stayed here. Think how many famous people had passed through those revolving doors and—

  ‘Oh, hello! It’s Ellie, isn’t it? How funny, I was just admiring your dress and then I recognized you from the salon! You came in with your friend the other week.’

  It was Yasmin Brookes. Time did that thing of simultaneously speeding up and going into slow motion as Ellie took stock of the situation. And she’d never met Niall but Roo had shown her a picture of him. The man with Yasmin was definitely Niall. Heavens, out with his own wife, what was he thinking of?

  ‘Oh yes, hi.’ Yasmin was glancing at Zack; hastily Ellie leapt in before she could come to embarrassing conclusions. ‘This is my boss; we’re off to a business event.’

  ‘At Claridge’s, how fab! I really do love your dress. This is Niall, my husband.’

  As Niall nodded affably at them, Yasmin said to him, ‘We had a lovely chat in the salon, the three of us. I told you about Ellie’s friend. She was the one who looked like that pop singer, Daisy Deeva. Remember from the Three Deevas, years ago? It wasn’t her, of course. But she was still nice!’

  Niall’s expression had frozen; his eyes darted from Yasmin to Ellie, a muscle tensed in his jaw, and his neck went blotchy as he realized who she was. Ellie smiled back at him, reveling in his discomfort. Was this schadenfreude? Excellent!

  Aloud she said, ‘She is nice,’ and saw Niall’s Adam’s apple bob up and down like a rubber duck in a choppy sea.

  ‘And is she looking after your baby while you’re out this evening?’

  Yeek, this was schadenfreude coming back to bite you on the bum. Ellie said quickly, ‘Yes, yes she is. So where are you off to tonight?’

  ‘Oh, just meeting up with friends in a bar on South Molton Street. It’s a treat, isn’t it, getting out in the evening? Ellie has a girl,’ Yasmin explained to Niall. She turned back to Ellie. ‘I’m so sorry, I’ve forgotten her name…?’

  Oh bugger bugger bugger… Ellie’s heart began to gallop, she couldn’t remember, she had no idea and Zack was now giving her a quizzical look… oh help, for crying out loud, what was her baby’s name?

  ‘Got it! Alice!’ Yasmin mimed relief that didn’t begin to compare with Ellie’s. ‘Honestly, I hate it when that happens. This is what having babies does to us, isn’t it? Gives us nappy brain!’

  The narrow escape had left Ellie feeling sick. Alice, that was it, thank heavens one of them had remembered. She managed a smile and said gaily, ‘Tell me about it. I can’t remember my own name sometimes!’ She pointed to Zack. ‘Or thingamajig’s.’

  ***

  Once inside, Zack said, ‘So I take it your friend Roo isn’t baby-sitting tonight.’

  ‘No, she isn’t.’ Could he hear her heart, still clattering away in her chest like a monkey trying to get out?

  ‘I hope that doesn’t mean you’ve left Alice home alone.’

  ‘Oh, she’ll be all right. As long as she’s got a bottle of rum and the TV remote in her hand, she’s happy. She’s very advanced for her age.’ Ellie looked over her shoulder, double-checking that Yasmin and Niall hadn’t followed them through the revolving doors. No, it was safe. She exhaled and said, ‘Thanks for getting me away from them.’

  ‘Don’t mention it.’ Zack had skillfully intervened, explaining that they were late and needed to get inside. ‘Although I have to say, for a few seconds you had me there. I was starting to wonder if this was another family member you hadn’t told me about.’

  ‘I don’t have a baby. I promise.’

  ‘I gathered that, when you couldn’t remember its name.’

  ‘Oh God.’ Ellie winced. ‘Was it obvious?’

  ‘Only to someone who was fairly certain you didn’t have a baby. I don’t think they noticed.’

  ‘Phew. Anyway, I’m never going to see them again.’ She checked her watch. ‘Are we late? Shall we go up now?’

  ‘We have a few minutes.’

  ‘You mean you want to hear all about how I managed to acquire an imaginary child?’

  ‘Want,’ said Zack, ‘would be an understatement.’

  ‘OK, I’ll tell you, but it’s not pretty.’ Ellie took a deep breath. ‘Niall’s the married man Roo was having an affair with. She found out where his wife worked and made me go along with her to see if Yasmin was the nightmare Niall said she was. At the time it seemed like a good idea if I had a baby, so we’d have something to talk about. Which was great until it got to discussing childbirth.’

  Zack said gravely, ‘I hear it hurts a bit.’

  ‘It does, but I was very brave. Anyway, you’ve just met her. Yasmin was lovely. But Roo couldn’t bring herself to admit it. Except last week she found out she wasn’t the only mistress. So she’s dumped Niall and now she’s busy turning herself into a nun.’

  ‘And he’s one of those men who isn’t happy unless he’s cheating on his partner. Nice.’ Zack’s expression made his feelings on the subject clear. �
�I hope your chap’s not like that.’

  ‘No, he isn’t.’ Since she still hadn’t come clean about Todd, she could hardly tell him about the Todd-and-Roo fiasco.

  ‘He doesn’t mind you coming here this evening with me?’

  ‘He really doesn’t mind.’ This much was true at least.

  ‘Good. Well, we’d better head on up there.’ As Zack ushered her towards the lift, his hand brushed against her arm and Ellie’s skin tingled. Weird; she’d never noticed that happen before. The next moment, the lift doors glided open and he tilted his head, indicating with a brief smile she should go in ahead of him. For a split second she felt a squiggly response in the pit of her stomach. Oh God, stop it, she was hopelessly out of practice on the man front and her first attempt at a comeback had been a disaster. Don’t say she was about to launch into a desperate rebound crush on—of all people—her own boss. How embarrassing. How pathetic. How completely, humiliatingly inappropriate.

  Right, this wasn’t going to happen. Mind over matter. She was going to put a stop to it before it could take hold.

  Just… don’t let it start.

  Chapter 31

  This evening’s dinner was more pleasure than business. Bob Nix was a big, brash, Texan billionaire financier with whom Zack had done deals in the past. Looking to extend his circle of contacts, he had invited a dozen business people plus their partners along for drinks and dinner in the Clarence Room, one of the sixth floor’s private suites.

  The atmosphere was noisy and relaxed. If you took J. R. Ewing and pumped him full of air with a bicycle pump, you’d end up with Bob. Red-faced and looking about to burst at the seams, he was as loud and jolly as you’d expect of a Texan billionaire. In his late fifties, six foot five without his Stetson, and with glow-in-the-dark veneers, he towered over his wife Bibi, who was young and super-glamorous in a Dolly Partonish way. But she was as welcoming as Bob. Within minutes of complimenting Ellie on her hair combs, she’d discovered they were exactly the same age; in no time they were chatting away about fashion, music, shoes, and makeup.

  ‘So are y’all a couple?’

  ‘No, no, I just work for Zack.’ Luckily Zack was deep in conversation with someone else by the fireplace.

  ‘Hey, you can work together and still be a couple.’ Bibi’s eyes sparkled. ‘That’s how I met Bob! I was his personal trainer.’

  Ellie wiped the mental picture of Bob in tight shorts doing grunty sit-ups from her mind. ‘Well, that’s not going to happen. Zack only hired me because he knew it wouldn’t. Plus I have a boyfriend.’

  ‘Oh right. Sorry. Zack’s pretty cute though.’

  I know he is. Aloud Ellie said, ‘So’s my boyfriend.’

  Bibi laughed. ‘Hey, don’t mind me, I’m just a hopeless romantic! Bob and I are so happy together I spend all my time trying to fix other couples up.’ She caught the glimmer of surprise in Ellie’s eyes. ‘Ah, see? Y’all thought I was a gold-digger, didn’t you! But I’m not. He’s the love of my life. And I’ve signed a prenup. If we break up,I walk away with nothing but my pride.’

  ‘Good for you.’ Inexplicably, Ellie’s eyes began to prickle. Oh God, she was a hopeless case.

  ‘And the keys to the safe, obviously. Joke!’

  Over dinner, another businessman’s wife asked Ellie if she could recommend a good Botox doctor in Harley Street.

  Ellie said, ‘Sorry, I’ve never had Botox.’

  The wife, whose name was Kara, said, ‘Oh my God, why not?’

  ‘I’m twenty-nine.’

  ‘Jesus, you’re leaving it late! I started when I was twenty!’ Kara, who had a face like a boa constrictor, leaned forward and flared her nostrils with difficulty. ‘By the time I was your age I’d had six procedures… eyes, ears, plus a full face-lift!’

  ‘And you had your knees done,’ her husband chimed in. ‘What is it you always say? Nothing worse than a woman with pudgy knees.’

  ‘You’re telling me.’ Kara mimed gagging. ‘I mean, we were in Tuscany with the Mainwarings over Easter and you should have seen Kizzy’s knees. So pudgy and gross, I felt nauseous every time I looked at them!’

  ‘OK, darling, calm down,’ said her husband. ‘Some people prefer the natural look.’

  ‘Well, they shouldn’t.’ Kara shuddered. ‘It’s just wrong. They should have more consideration for others.’

  She actually meant it. Ellie longed to ask Kara’s husband if he’d had his knees done too. Across the table she caught Zack’s eye and struggled to keep a straight face.

  The conversation turned to Tuscany, where everyone else appeared to have holidayed. Several of them owned villas there. Bob said, ‘How about you, Ellie? Where d’you like to vacation?’

  ‘Has everyone visited San Gimignano?’ Kara was on a roll now, her snake eyes with their barely-there lids flickering around the table. ‘It’s fifty kilometers from Florence, a completely feudal medieval village with this massive wall around it. We stayed at a farmhouse nearby and just did nothing for a month. Totally idyllic.’

  ‘Ellie?’ repeated Bob.

  She smiled at him. ‘I like Cornwall best.’

  ‘Corn-waaaall?’ He made it sound like a wall made of corn. Mystified, he shook his head. ‘Bottom left-hand corner of England, am I right? Can’t say I’ve ever been there.’

  ‘Oh, you should.’ Ellie put down her wine glass. ‘It’s beautiful. My favorite place is Looe, it’s just—’

  ‘Loo?’ Bibi clapped her hands in delight. ‘You mean like the toilet? Oh, wow!’

  ‘That’s exactly how I’d describe it,’ Kara drawled. ‘We were invited down there once. What a nightmare. The place was full of oiks.’

  The fork in Ellie’s hand was loaded with seafood in a saffron sauce. The temptation was enormous. ‘I go there.’

  ‘So you’ll have seen them. Wearing knotted hankies on their heads and drinking cans of lager on the beach. Screaming babies, kids dropping ice creams, souvenir shops…’ Kara’s upper lip did its best to curl.

  ‘Well, I’ve never been to Italy.’ Ellie looked at Zack, wondering if she should be saying this. ‘But I’m fairly sure they have souvenir shops in Florence. And babies that cry.’

  ‘Oh well, we’re all different.’ A thin smile of satisfaction stretched itself across Kara’s face. ‘Some of us are probably just suited to Tuscany more than others.’

  Bibi said, ‘We tried it once, Bob, didn’t we? Bored the backside off us. Give me Disney World any day.’

  Ellie could have hugged her. Kara looked as if she’d been bitten by a mongoose. The waiter arrived to refill their glasses. Across the table, Zack’s mouth was twitching.

  Hopefully this meant she wasn’t about to be sacked on the spot.

  At the end of the evening Bibi hugged her goodbye. On impulse Ellie stepped back and removed the jeweled combs Bibi had admired earlier. ‘Here, you said how much you liked them. I want you to have these.’

  ‘Oh God, I can’t believe it, that’s so kind of you! Hang on…’ Bibi said, ‘let me give you something too.’

  Hastily Ellie stopped her. ‘No, you can’t do that.’

  Well, she could, but the item Bibi was struggling to unfasten was a multicarat diamond tennis bracelet, which was a slightly embarrassing exchange for a couple of combs from Primark that had cost one pound fifty each.

  ***

  They left the hotel at eleven fifteen. In the taxi Ellie said, ‘Sorry about the thing with Kara. I hope I haven’t got you into trouble.’

  Zack was finding it almost impossible to tear his gaze away from her. In this light her eyes were huge. Her hair, no longer fastened up in a semichignon, now framed her face and her chin was tilted at a determined angle. Her expression was unrepentant; she was apologizing for possibly causing problems in the business sense but not for saying what she’d said.

  ‘Doesn’t matter a bit. She’s a crashing snob, and I wasn’t wild about her husband either. I didn’t know you were such a fan of Cornwall.’

 
‘Oh God, I love it. Ever since we started going down there when I was a kid. We used to stay on a caravan site between Looe and Polperro. Then after that it was camping holidays with friends, sometimes on the south coast, sometimes in Newquay. Other people were flying to Spain and Greece, but I still preferred Cornwall.’ The cab swung around a sharp corner and Ellie clutched the door handle to stop herself sliding against him.

  Zack wished she would. ‘And then you met Jamie.’

  ‘I did. And he loved Cornwall too. We used to get down there three or four times a year. It’s where we spent our honeymoon, in this brilliant little hotel in St Ives. We used to talk about moving down there one day. It was our dream.’ She paused for a moment. ‘But that didn’t happen.’

  More than anything, Zack wanted to comfort her. Never mind that problem-solving was his thing; this wasn’t a problem he could magic away. For a second, as Ellie shook back her hair and he breathed in her now-faded perfume, he wondered what she’d do if he kissed her.

  Jump out of the cab, probably.

  OK, better not try it.

  Aloud he said, ‘Anyway, you were right about Florence. It might be a beautiful city but it’s boiling hot and crawling with tourists.’

  ‘Is it?’

  ‘Oh yes. And you get hassled by beggars. Really smelly ones.’

  They were heading along Portland Place now. He’d managed to make her smile again. Thank goodness he’d taken control of himself and hadn’t gone for the kiss. That would have ruined everything.

  Ellie tilted her head. ‘So how about you? Ever been to Cornwall?’

  ‘I have.’

  ‘OK, silly question, everyone has at one time or another. Did you like it?’ She waved a hand in apology. ‘Sorry, bit abrupt. It just drives me demented, people like Kara criticizing the place whenI love it so much.’

  ‘I did like it. I still do. It’s where I grew up.’ He saw her expression change, her mouth fall open.

  ‘Seriously? You never told me that!’

  ‘I didn’t know I had to.’ Something relaxed inside him; at last, a connection, and it had been there all along. ‘My family still live there. I head down whenever I can.’