To John

by Kim Itae

  Half of tortellini was still hanging in his mouth.

  "Hell, no."

  He had to say that.

  "Kate, sorry, no way. Finito, no?"

  When he saw that sad, greedy, betrayed and beutifually arranged face, he felt he said something right. His heart got lightened. He has no obligation to her. He likes to find someone younger, fresher and more independent. Kate will sort out her life or time to time come to him and cry, complain and sleep. It was bright, crispy and chilly autumn day. They walked together. Sulking...

  "My husband went to a countryside with that consultant bitch. Home alone tonight, Ana."

  "Unless I am too drunk as a depressed wife, of course, I will join you for half of an hour or so. Would that be ok with you, John?"

  "I will play with you because I am deadly lonely. Ha ha..."

  "Still I have to go out for a drink with my husband's ex-girlfriend. The enemy of my enemy is my friend. Will let you know how drunk I will be..."

  "I do not apologize to a phycho, who tried to turn me into a phycho. Is this clear?"

  "More details can be followed when we get bored."

  The following ranting texts are on the old one, which John can use back.

  "Well... a woman who never had a boyfriend before the age of 37. Is she normal or is she a liar? If she is abnormal, in what way? If she is a liar, why did she lie?"

  "I know, very silly. But when I woke up from my Sunday nap, my husband shouted at me that I have to apologize to that American phycho."

  "4 years ago, she told us that she was 36. Now she is 46. The skin age of her hands are over 60. She had a baby 3 yrs ago. No one saw her bump."

  "I had to shout back to my husband that I do not deal with that kind as she wanted some treatments from me. I can not handle that case as she attacked me."

  "Ana, can I take my turn?"

  "What?"

  "My girlfriend of 10 yrs had my brother's baby."

  "I know that."

  "She had a abortion."

  "Yes?"

  "She wanted to start with me again."

  "You're jotking..."

  "Tanks."

  "What shall I do?"

  "What?"

  "Apologize thingi."

  "Forget it."

  "Tanks."

  ============

  "Synchronization interval changed into 2min. Still testing... get it light. Too much shaffling at the moment..."

  "No way to use this tonight. Back to 4min. 10min or so."

  "She tried to seduce my husband. Do I have to apologize to her? Full stop."

  "In this case, we will try 2 min."

  "Got a reply from West Khan & Eight Monkey Nuts. They want to have a go."

  "YAP."

  An hour later.

  "I drank too much. Thank to that bitch."

  "Do you want to stay at mine again?"

  "Ho ho, no. I promised, remember?"

  "Where are you?"

  "In my kitchen."

  "Will you play tonight?"

  "God knows. But, John, you know, it will not make any difference whether I play or not. Almost everything is set now. So, things are beyond me. But something is missing here. I will try to figure out. And then I will go to bed. Basically I know what is missing. Too embarassing to say. What is missing is your gut. I do not want to embarass you. But this is a war. And you are missing is a gut. Russian roulette, tonight? I would like to see a British roulette. What would that be like? No such a thing? Well... if you are just a step ahead of the second credit crunch, you had better try one. I do not like that Canadian in your bank. He seems reasonable but deeply has been fucking you up."

  December 2014

  1st Week December 2014

  01 Dec 2014

  "John, John, shall we do some quilting today? Different engine, no? Still, there is a problem with broadband. Too slow."

  "Uninstall all the other programs."

  "Start carrying from US 10yr. Dim Sum is still warm and sweet. Might consider to go back if it's over 2.60. Quite a fat chance. Rottening."

  "I will buy a dual spin water cleaner from LGS online shop."

  "Do not follow me when I sell unless you want your legs torn apart."

  "Anyway those beggars are gone. Hope they could go through the airport without being caught by the thermal gun."

  "Lunch time, Yum Yums."

  "Do not lose that tiny little blue bit."

  "Are you fighting with your sanity? Can not be bothered. Let us be insane. Not often though."

  "When you make a U turn, you should steer the wheel for sure, no? Otherwise, you have an accident from both sides."

  "If you drive Lamborghini at 20mph all the time, it gets really annoyed and finally the engine get damaged. You had better buy a smart or ka something. You do not deserve the car. You live in a wrong place."

  "Same with horses. Same with us."

  "By the way, how are your legs? There will be a very short chance to join them later."

  "Yamamoto sensei used to shout at us. 'I will cut your bollocks out.' Other boys looked at me. I was the only girl there."

  "He said 'when you swim, you think, you sink.'"

  "Cooking time. Minestorm with Garlic bread."

  "Almost done."

  "A little bit more of seasoning. Not salty enough..."

  Before Ana fell asleep, she was shouting to herself. A bad day.

  "You are not my f****** brother. You cannot tell me to pack my bag and go home first. Never ever dare to say that I am a crying baby."

  02 Dec 2014

  "Have you ever slept with an enemy? I think we did last night. Not bad, eh?"

  "Peter is coming. I have to see him face to face. I will be back by PM 1:00 ^ ^;."

  "Channeling all the way. I might change the interval around AM 10:50. Are you vibrating, or what?"

  In the afternoon, she wrote,

  "Please let me stay in this world. Too much pain."

  "Big boys do not cry, no?"

  "If you do, I will peel off your d***head. If you've done it already, tell your friends how painful it is.If you've done it already And cry, you are out."

  "Then again... go home... Have a cup of hot chocolate or something... Ask your mum. 'Mum... can I eat something? Is there anything to eat?' Your mum will slap your head first instead of me."

  John knew this is not for him. The meeting with Peter got busted. He told Ana not to be too involved with Buddhists. They are wanking too much mentally or physically. Ana got upset and said her mum is a Buddhist and is still cleaning the house for two hours every morning, listening to the Heart Sutra. John said he meant business. He corrected himself a bit that Buddhists are spiritually too high, so they do not know what is shit and what is blood and what is fuck basically. Most of all, they live in this permanently blessed or what state, they don't know the timing, which will not come again.

  "Oye, Kentucky, I have to make myself clear. I am not your friend. We can share a profit temporarily. I am not your friend. Keep the timing right! Why is your ass so heavy?"

  "You are not my friend. You cannot decide. Eat your chicken."

  "You killed too many people for the last 50 years for your wealth. Karma. Unavoidable. Not your fault as an individual but you cannot avoid it. Something is coming. I do not know exactly what. But I saw your new map. I am telling you this because you can see me now. I do not know how but I know that you can see me. If so, pack. Pack and run. The west part of Colorado. Something to do with KP line and 26 GE mark 1 reactors. As KP line was rejected because it might trigger the earthquake. If there is an earthquake near those nuclear plants, you will have hydro-explosions. There were 2-3 already but they are declared as no-fly zones. That's why there is no news. Research if you doubt. Get the map. Draw the line. You will see very clearly what will happen."

  03 Dec 2014

  "Sorry about hot flushes, caused by Fischer's considerable time ch***ing."

  "Henry conducted 2008 shit shifting. He got employed agai
n this spring."

  "They cannot use BNP Paribas again as they fine them too bitterly."

  "Last year, around this time, there was a debt ceiling & government shutdown."

  "Something is bubbling, don't you think?"

  "Easy time with frozen IR will make you pay."

  Time was collapsing.

  "John, have you ever heard of someone's nick name called Nonpolar King? A guy called me today. He asked me whether I need some trading solutions. He sounds like an Asian with a tint of American accent. When I asked him how he got my number, he called me kiddo."

  "He also said he came from the Ninth Heaven. Why do I have to deal with these phycos? Basically he wanted me handle some of his spare cash. I said no. He said he had to spend fifty years to get used to this shit hall."

  "He said he could send me to hell as well. I said, whatever you burger king."

  "Do I have to be bothered to trace his phone number? Really annoying with his mere sum of cash."

  John kept on watching the time.

  "Ana, just say 'burger off'. If he calls you again, let me know. Sorry, I am a bit busy. You are monitoring it too, right?"

  "Yea... But I cannot believe my eyes. Another government shutdown? Maybe that's why that burger king sounded so desperate. So desperate to call me. Jesus..."

  "That was not the news which we were waiting for, Ana."

  "What? Stamp duty? 1 bn? I had better get the 10,000 loan for a postgraduate. I will get another Master degree. Anyway, your Queen is cursed. Look what happened to people including that another King. I am serious. You like referendum. You should have a referendum about this monarchy, which changed their Sir name at the beginning of the Great war as they are Germans. If your parliament think they still make good profit, think twice. Since Diana died, they are a hall of shame. Sorry I just got so angry with that useless King. Then again, I am not sure about this Canadian. He shielded his country successfully last time. But would he do the same thing for a foreign country? Would he have the same heart and nerves? That is my question. My suspicion started when Sir Alan came up in the BBC news. If there is a fraction in the bank, that is a real bummer. Ah, that is the problem. Nothing to do with the clever man. He did not have enough control of the organization. Then, you are in a real trouble. Particularly in emergent crisis. I do not think I can watch it again. Too painful."

  "Ana, focus."

  "What? I've done my homework."

  "Please, I am about to close the day."

  "I cannot think. I am drunk as usual. Good night. I might do some my favorite drunkin driving. Last minute stuff. Cheers."

  "1992, George Soros killed Sterling with 10 billion dollars. People remembers the day as 'the death of Bank of England'."

  Ana wrote this but did not send it to John.

  "What the heck. The point is US dollars as epic money is running out of its life span. Average life span of epic money is 46 year. USD is a very old maybe still lookalike rich man, being connected to various sorts of medications and lingers. Desperate to survive. Senile. Cannot recognize his own children. Just blind for his own life. Greedy. Ugly. Full of liver spots and bulging veins. He does not show inheritance document to anyone. He likes to make everyone to believe that he is still very rich. Once they know actually he is about to have bankruptcy or already had, they will pull out his life support, spitting and swearing at him that he had wasted their whole lives."

  "Fischer knows this. He said there is no rich uncle. He is half African and half Israeli. The African fund by Israel got busted. And there was a capital exodus. No wonder the coalition government cannot work. No money. Anyway, US contacted the African clients. A backstabbing with salt on top of the wound. God knows what he is doing there at the moment. Once, not twice. You know Israelis. They are elephants. They never forget. So stubborn. Also it's too hard to work with that heavy dove. An academic."

  04 Dec 2014

  "Unprecedented squeeze: 316bn from oil petrodollars, 300bn Qatar family"

  "I will see my old friend, Sam. He said oil down, dollar down. God knows why."

  John got it.

  Ana thought to herself.

  'I will not give a shit about the target today. I made quite enough yesterday. Then again, fairly interested in Sam's theory. He said briefly something to do with Ren Min Bi and Who Kang Tung. He said main factors are changed. Aka main forces are changed. In that case, it is worth pushing further enough to change the pattern itself. Shifting of indicators means shifting of paradigm. No one use Chicago, as everyone knows Reuter pays to Chicago yearly to get the information 5 min before market starts. US 10 yr bond is in a shit state. You cannot use it as a indicator anymore. Too depressing. Here we go. US owes 3 tr to China. Hilary sold the bonds. Michelle went to China again but failed as she is not suitable for their cultural tradition. Still hard to understand why oil goes down with dollar. 316bn sucked up from oil petrodollars. Petrodollars are different from US dollars? I will ask Sam.

  1. What made oil drop so dramatically?

  2. What the hell is going on here?

  3. Can China induce a US sovereign default?

  4. Is this their first step in their Go?

  One stone can collapse the whole power house if all the other stones are arranged in a Domino chain. One brings down another. I am writing a fiction here. But the problem with me is that what I am writing is going to be realized. I feel I am cursed or cursing. Reality clash. Realities plus time are crossing over and weaving a different dimensional picture.'

  From Sam

  'No war. Fluent supply of oil. Oil price down. Natural. US, not strong enough to evoke wars. Oil dollar go down too. Evaluation period following US 10yr chart. 2.26 now. If China decides to sell 3tn bond, that's an end to US economy. Bubble burst. Other countries are preparing to shield from that explosion. Get a list of US companies, which moved abroad for the last three months. You will be amazed.'

  "I will walk in darkness as if I am blind."

  Ana knew that when she first started this game. She could not see anything. She learned how to use indicators to show what is probably going to happen. But it was not enough. There have been always sudden unexpected waves. And that's the time to make a real good deal. And they are the most beautiful beasts. The panting, the claws and the pulse.

  Anyway, she sent the report to John.

  "John, this is what I got from Sam. You know Sam. I jotted down as much as I could. What do you think? Will the theory back up the reality?"

  "The reality relies on the decision of the power group. We can present some samples though."

  "Shall we try tonight?"

  "Give me 10 min."

  "Ok. I will cook some Korean food called Bibimbap. You know that dish? Colorfully arranged but you have to mixed up with sesame oil and hot red chili paste."

  Ana connected USB port, which will connect to Auto-play. An alert message is sent already by her washing machine, indicating 'Quick 30, temperature 90'.

  "Be ready for a screen-shot."

  "A bit laughable but a good shot. I really have to cook for my family."

  "I finished my cooking. It took more time than I thought, sorry. And you?"

  "Just play candy, Ana, will you?"

  Ana remembered exactly same thing her brothers said. She shouted back to them.

  "Father said I can be better than you."

  Her brothers said "Whatever. You cry. Your crying is not a help, is it?"

  How many times did she have to come back home alone with her smudged eyes with tears and dirt?

  "Ok. I will see you play. Cheers."

  She wrote to John.

  Ana told to herself when she was tiny.

  "You will be f***** without me. Mum knows that. I will brush my hair and do my homework and see you totally f***** at dinner table. Adios."

  Her mum used to say.

  "Ana, that is a boy's game. You are not a boy, are you?"

  "But I am good at it."

  "Ho ho, I can see that your husb
and will have tough time."

  "I do not want to marry. I want to play with big boys. I can bit them."

  She had a high fever at that night exactly like when she was young. Her temper made her ill.

  05 Dec 2014

  Ana's morning note

  "Fischer's warning: stop reinvesting matured bonds.

  This means that in case, you have to redeem the matured bonds.

  If you cannot redeem them, what happens?

  Which year did Hilary visit China? 2009. 5 yrs ago. She sold US 10yr bonds. 3 trillion of debt.

  China is holding US's neck, in case, to strangle it off. Request early redemption."

  "John, if you have any US 10yr, you had better clear them off before it's too late. There was Fischer's warning last night. Sounds ultra dodgy."

  "Two screenshots. One for the engine, another for the resistance."

  "John, I sent two screenshots to Chart Goddess, one of my old tutors in Tokyo. She said they seem ok but miss a bit of photoshop work like an arrow showing the exact degree. She said her naughty students changed her nickname into Queen Rea. They think she is too old to be a princess. She asked them to call her Empress Rea as she helped them to make a fortune. Anyway she sounds interested. She said it is a good timing to take a different type of manipulation before Ren Min Bi comes out. I said that this is not a manipulation, but a collective buying or selling at a certain time. Nothing illegal. Ho ho... she said goyukuri, meaning slowly with pleasure."

  "By the way, did you hear this morning? Mark said 'trust me.' What do you think?"

  "Anyway, I cooked a Chinese tonight. It's called Ma Pa Du Bu. The dofu stew made by an old woman called Ma."

  "Eric Garner's case can get worse that LA riot 1992. As people can watch what happened in a daylight through social media. Different level. Bad, man. Bad. On top of Michael Brown."

  06 Dec 2014

  Ana's summarizing and reasoning about Eric Garner's case

  "Why is it so difficult to give justice to the dead Eric Garner and Michael Brown and their family? Why is there no charge for both Daniel Pantaleo and Darren Wilson?