A Life Plan Without You.
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“You had it coming and stop with the spending money, too I have enough dresses and lacy stuff to last ages and I accept the ring when you give me what I want deal breaker, damn right I want to wear your ring. I don’t swear a lot but you had that coming, I love you, you moron. You jumped from idiot to moron, in the space of two arguments, I have some people to sort out, non-violently and then you are taking me for food, I’m hungry and nobody is coming with us.”
“Right how do I get back to hunky boyfriend then? Umm gimmy a second to figure it out, we need food, hell I want a kiss too and a bloody hell of a lot more baby girl a hell of a lot more.” He laughed and I smiled, yes he liked that idea too. He grabbed his jacket and we headed into Heaven, Shane held me to one side.
“Are you all right Princess?” I kissed him and spotted her and her mate, laughing and joking.
“I will be if those two don’t get in, please, she‘s the one who did this to me, Sam didn’t do anything it was her and my imagination that’s all.” He escorted Sam and me, down stairs.
“Those two girls aren't allowed in they are a fight risk, Rocky here will kill them. Two for my list please Dotty. You two, are going to be all right, because if I see her like that again Sam, you won't get a second chance, am I clear?”
“I don’t need another chance, I’m not messing this up again Shane. We will be fine Shane, really fine in fact, where do I send the invite to the wedding then?” I looked at him and smiled. I hoped he was joking, we had a shit night, and he was joking with Shane about marriage. Andy and Zoë were in with a few of the Jolly Boys and Carol from last night was in too and with Stuart. I went to the toilet. Zoë’s face dropped something which Andy noticed too.
“Drink please Sam a big one.” I sorted my wet hair out and re did the makeup. I need a wee; did I dare sit on the throne? I went back and Sam handed me a drink, and I'm sorry to say, it went down in one, he was smiling down at me. I was still wary about everything, especially about super stalker Sam. He looked at me I could see he loved me, but shit, I was new to this stuff and I need to talk it over with someone, but who which one knew enough about this crap? None of my friends knew anything about this umm I will call Michelle I think…
“Dance with me please Mi cielo?” I put his jacket and my bag next to Zoë. He held me tightly in his arms and looking down into my eyes before he kissed me, his gentle touch on my lips felt amazing. “It wasn’t a joke by the way I said I’d ask again, I love you Michelle Welles please marry me and soon?” Shit he asked me again.
“Sometime soon I will be ready to say yes, and wear your ring, but not yet, we need to get to know each other better. We start afresh tonight, we talk more first, because the past month was based on lies, I understand why you’d think I would hate you, but I don’t, it’s sort of nice you followed me and obsessed over me in a really weird arsed way?
I want to know everything there is to know about you first, but don’t worry, I will say yes if you ask when the timings right. Tonight isn’t that time Sam, not tonight, not after all the shit, we have had today, but I do love you. I wouldn’t be here if I didn’t Sam, do you think I’d take this crap from anyone else?” I put my head against his chest. We were smooching to Fern Kinney’s Together We Are Beautiful. I'd, sorry we'd had a hell of a day, three major Missy-fits and now being danced with. This had been a shockingly crazy truth filled day, oh and let us not forget the marriage thing was raised again! Will he ever give up? Moreover will I say yes? I want to, just to keep him and to have him forever...
Sam went to get me another drink, he came back with our drinks, and I smiled as I sipped this one, he just held me and smiled at me, the vodka made me fuzzy in the head, but it gave me a boost of sorts? He kissed my head and went to the loo, and I had people to sort out… I grabbed Zoë she wasn’t for coming but did, as I pulled her up and dragged her to the dance floor, I'm so fed up of her saying she can’t dance. I want to tell her I know what she did and to quit lusting after Sam.
“I can’t dance. Please Michelle I can’t dance.” There she said it again. I moved her to my side.
“Follow me then it’s dead easy so watch my steps, not, Zoë my fella, not yours, mine are we clear? I love the perfume too, is it new? Bill Blass if I’m not mistaken, I wear it too, but I will be changing it tomorrow.” She knew I was on to her, the look was enough, she danced nervously and Shane joined us, with him a bevy of girls. They joined in the dance too. Zoë looked at me.
“It’s dead easy, watch and learn simply throw your hands in the air, and move your bum to the music.” She wasn’t as bad as she thought.
“See you’re great at it, feel the music and just move. Zoë stop with the Sam thing, I know what you and she did with Andy and no I won’t tell Sam. He doesn’t need to know. It would kill him, if he knew what I know about your depravity. Just as long as you know, I know is enough for me.
I won’t have him hurt again, so bloody stop with trying to get between us, he’s mine don’t ever forget, you won’t like a mad Michelle that much I can promise you, fuck with me like you did tonight and I will hurt you, he doesn’t want you, tonight has proved that, nice touch throwing the pens and crap in the sanitary bins you fucking bitch.
I saw you coming in from the toilet drunk, when you joined us late and you dropped the lipstick you used under the table, I saw you and when you went to pick it up what did you really do throw it further under the seats? Fucking quit it. He loves me not you, I am getting the ring, the knee drop and him all next weekend. If you fancy taking me on, you will lose and big style.” She looked mortified and wisely shut her mouth, drunken bitch, but she was Andy’s drunken bitch, who for some reason he liked. Hot Stuff, by Donna Summer, she carried on dancing with Shane and the girls, I went to talk to Andy next, he needs to make this work or let her go, she want romance I will teach the idiot brother bloody romance...
“Dance with her you moron, I know all about your tryst with that girl, she was very eloquent in her talk with the fat piggy friend in the loo, I know that you pay for her house and you pay her to keep away from Sam. Well stop, I will sort that bitch out if she comes anywhere near him, but you are his brother, I don’t suppose for one minute you did it to hurt him? Zoë though she’s a different kettle of fish, keep her away from him, because I will, if I have to, smack her into next week and she has been told that too! She did the art work, here is her make-up, she gave it me as a favour to my Dad, I have known all night she was up to something, the landlady had a look in the bin!
She is desperately seeking love Andy, if you can’t give it her move on. Sort her out, if you made her feel a tiny bit as special as Sam does me, she wouldn’t need to look elsewhere and stop with the lusting after me too. I love your moronic brother, not you and not your other brother, just Sam, so don’t piss me off Andy, do it, stop the money, or your sex life won’t be that great with no fucking balls
I don’t think ball-less Dom’s are a great feature for sex clubs, and fucking sell the one she has and soon, or I will go around and picket the brothel that she is running as a hotel and as I told Zoë don’t fucking push me I’m at the edge of a cliff and I will push you all over, my safety ropes will be attached to the man you love, your brother! Who do you think he will choose me or you? Let’s not find out Andy neither of us want to hurt him that way, but if it carries on being a problem I will.” I danced with Shane again, whilst Sam looked on as we danced, he kept asking me if I was fine.
“Yes, so fine he’s asked me to marry him.” He smiled.
“Shaking your sexy backside paid off then cuz? ‘Tis a sexy bum that has that man weeping, he loves you, why did you ever doubt it Michelle?”
“If I told you what I wanted and what he won’t do, then you’d love him more. I want the whole nine yards and he won’t Shane, he’s been a lot of a man-whore with girls in the past and with her, but me he won’t touch, does that make sense to you Shane, because to me it just feels like I’m not good enough?” He smiled and kissed my cheek.
“You looked like you were having too much fun.” I moved against him. Andy was now dancing with Zoë. They were talking he looked over and smiled, he held her in his arms and kissed her. Sam held me tightly. “You can’t have too much fun without me.” He held me closer we did dance well together. I needed my drink, so led him from the floor to a secluded booth and I sat on his lap as he held on to me tightly.
“I’m not going anywhere Sam. I needed to know how many girls, you have slept with and how many were that serious. I did ask was there anyone I needed to know about, she was one I should have known about, if I had known I would have been better prepared. As it was she was a bitch in the toilet, the things that spewed from her mouth. I should have killed her in there. That’s why I wanted to go. However you didn’t move fast enough. I’m going to start going to the gents, will I have anything to worry about in there?” He laughed.
“She’s the only one I should have told you about, she was the one who messed me up in the sex thing department. I was too embarrassed to tell you about her. You baby are nothing like her at all, I could never hate you, not like I do her. She makes my skin crawl. What did she say I need to know?” I knew the Andy thing would kill him and the other stuff would just embarrass him.
“She just said you had a lot of girls on the market, looking for someone as good as her and well you were inexperienced. How you found out you were being used which was vile, but nothing that you need to worry about! Besides according to her she made you the stud you are today.” He laughed.
“She taught me how to fuck and not that well either, but I got practice in of sorts but never to make love. Being loved and in love with you, is so different Michelle. I’ve never had the love for anyone like the one I have for you, besides you rock my world in ways she never has.
You’re so good at loving me, I wish with all my heart we had met back then, but well I’m cursed knowing my first time was a lie and I was being used. You however will know how special and wanted you are, I’m going to make it so special, had you got a passport Michelle, we would be in Paris or Venice Next weekend.” I was catching flies. He leant in and kissed my open mouth with long slow kisses.
“Erg, I would have only been a child let’s don’t go there stud, but remind me to re-apply for a new passport. I don’t have that problem you were the one I wanted from the minute I saw you Sam and you think you have to marry me to get it, so nice but so not necessary, I will marry you one day though.” He smiled.
“One day’s fine with me I thought I needed the marriage commitment Missy. I don’t need it now I know you love me. One day soon you will say yes though, Michelle, one day.”
“Can we go please I’m tired?” He agreed saying goodnight to Andy, who was still dancing with Zoë. I drank the rest of my coke. He really wasn’t letting me have another drink. I hadn’t brought a coat and it was raining hard again. We ducked into the doorways trying to keep dry, as he pulled me towards him to keep warm. Kissing me as he did at first contact alley, I was a little worried but given what we’d done I knew he knew there was a cut-off point. He reached that and pulled away, he smiled.
“Is it Saturday yet, food or back to yours?” I looked at my beautiful watch.
“We’ve just missed it damn it lets give the food a miss and get to mine, I’m knackered.” Walking home in the rain, he held me tightly. “The past is now just that, the past. I love you though and I’m sorry about tonight. I don’t handle rejection well.” He smiled.
“You have nothing to be sorry about, Mi cielo, I’m so glad we have cleared things up. She and it were always the elephant in the room with me. We both have major trust issues, I have a screwed up home life and now a girl who knows exactly what she wants, which she can have Friday night after dance class we’re head off somewhere anywhere were we don’t know anyone alone and just us.” I liked the truth.
“I can wait however long it takes, I’m new to all this, you however have done it and got the tee shirt. I’ve known what I wanted from the first time I saw you, definite after the first kiss and so frustrated after all the other things we’ve done, nice as they are, I still want you Sam.” Wet through and all argued out, we reached mine.
“See you don’t listen, you get what you want on Friday, we get gifts that don’t cost a penny but ones that are priceless and we both get commitment, baby listen, I love just you and boy I want you now!” I smiled umm I want him too.
“Come on let’s get out of these wet things.” He followed me to my room, I undressed him, taking off his jacket and hung it up to dry, undid his belt, top button and zip. Moving to the shirt, I undid the buttons running my fingers through his chest hair and playing with his chain around his neck. I pulled his arms free and tossed it to the floor. The trousers fell easily to the ground and he stepped out of them. He started undressing me, his touch sent shivers of excitement throughout my whole body, the zip slid down and the kisses to my back as he did it, I closed my eyes and I enjoyed his touch.
He had me step out of the dress as he sat on the bed and pulled me to him, he undid the stockings and running his hands up and down my legs he murmured his delight, kissing them and caressing them, mind blowing feelings all coursing through my body.
“Your legs are amazing.” He kissed my belly, carry on please. He removed the stockings with ease. He kissed the top of my thigh as he did. A playful flick of the belt and that too ended upon the pile of abandoned clothes. He slipped his hands under my bra and massaged my breast, playing with my nipples, standing up undoing it, he flicked my leg with it before putting his hands on my bum cheeks and he squeezed hard holding me against his chest.
“Argh Sam tonight please?” With one swift movement my knickers they too were removed. He kissed my neck and moved down, kissing my breasts and moving to my sides tiny explosive kisses, he knelt down and I had my hands in his hair, running my fingers through it he was pulling me to him. “Oh, Sam, please?” He and his tongue found my sex. It darted in and out finding the sweet spot, over and over teasing it and stopping and starting, his lips pursed as he blew on it, he was driving me wild. I held on to his hair. I pulled his head back kissing him he pulled me down to the floor. We kissed I was so ready for this. He looked in to my eyes.
“Is this what you want? I pulled him down onto me.
“Yes, now please.” He looked petrified, yet so ready.
“I really want you too and now.” He kissed me and the kisses were everywhere, frantic kisses, then he had my nipple in his mouth, he sucked circling it with his tongue, nipping at it gently and then letting it fall from his mouth, oh God, oh God, oh God yes, I arched my back and shivered against him as I came, he picked me up and laid me on the bed.
“Are you sure this is what you want?” I pulled him to me.
“Yes Sam more than you know.” He held me tightly.
“I love you and this is forever.” He was as nervous as I was and as I felt him on top of me I knew this was happening and the pleasure sored through my body, at last yes I had my hands on him, pulling him towards me, oh hell he was big and I wondere
d if it would hurt and how much? I knew he was big and I then started to panic, he smiled and kissed me again.
“I don’t know how this will feel for you baby, but if it hurts I stop and we take it slower, I am not rushing this I don’t want to hurt you, I really don’t. This is always and forever baby.” Yes at last he was so near me, his end was slipping in and the anticipation building to a crescendo of our heartbeats, I could feel his beating in rhythm with mine; the silent pounding in my ears this was it.
Yes I wanted this. I grabbed the sheets, he was shaking, hell he was doing it, he was in me… No, oh hell no, no, no… A bang at the door and he pulled out, shit noooooo, no, no, no, no, no, no! No damn it, someone is knocking on the front door and hard. Dad is on nights and the knocking at the front door is getting angrier. Sam is now swearing… That has put paid to any further deflowering for now. His face was a picture, as I put on my robe.
“Shit who’s that, I am going to kill them, hold that thought Sam, we are finishing this in two minutes.” Mum was running to answer the door, as I opened the door damn was she listening outside the door? I followed her down. Their raised voices were loud enough to wake the dead.
“We didn’t order a taxi, no we didn’t.” I went behind mum, who was angry and was screaming for him to be quite and to go away.
“We were trying to sleep, why the hell would we order a taxi? You’ve had a prank call, so please leave and we don’t even have a phone in the house to call for a damn taxi! My baby brother is awake now and crying.” He apologised as he could hear JJ screaming for Aunty, great the monsters up for the night. He drove off as Paul passed on the other side of the road, on his home after dropping off Mandy no doubt?