Fragile: Book One in The Everett Gaming Series

by Sera, Drew

  “Sunshine, your nipple jumped in my mouth.” Sydney treated us to her sleepy laugh that made me harder. “Sunshine, look at what Colin has. Want to help him or watch him?”

  “Help, Sir.”

  Anthony smiled and helped her over to me. I put my hands under my head so that I don’t nearly bring it down on her head like I almost did last night. Thankfully Anthony was watching.

  I shut my eyes when I felt her warm mouth envelope my hard shaft. “Fuck, baby.” I was trying to get a grip on my feelings. I’ve received tons of blow jobs before, but Sydney’s were completely different from any I’ve received. Sydney could be completely still and it’d still be the best by a long shot. And what the reason was behind that, I haven’t worked out yet.

  I heard a muffled moan and opened my eyes to look down to see if somehow I had hurt her or see if she was scared. But no, it wasn’t anything like that. Anthony’s face was buried between her legs as she knelt over me.

  “Sydney, I’m going to come baby.”

  She mumbled “okay” and I released my load into her warm mouth. She brought me down with gentle licks and sucking motions until Anthony had her coming. She seems to hold back, vocally, when she comes. I’ll dig into that but was pretty sure it had something to do with Howard.

  After Sydney brought Anthony to a loud orgasm, the three of us dozed right back off to sleep and didn’t wake up until close to 10:45 a.m. I’ve never slept in like this on a Saturday. I was absolutely starved and I’m sure Anthony and Sydney were too.

  I propped myself up on my left elbow and placed my hand gently over Sydney’s bruised tummy. I would have loved to pound the shit out of Howard. At least Anthony broke his arm. Sydney was still sleeping and looked like a delicate porcelain doll. Anthony was awake but was staring at the ceiling. He looked deep in thought and I hoped he wasn’t regretting anything. I certainly wasn’t.

  “Hey, have you been awake long?” I whispered.

  “No, not long.”

  His short response worried me some. But I’d deal with that later. Right now, we needed to get some food in Sydney and liquids. For a girl who had lots or orgasms and gave blowjobs last night and this morning, she was going to be hungry and thirsty.

  “I’m going upstairs to take a shower and then I’ll start some food.” I bent and kissed Sydney softly on the lips before jumping up from bed. I knew Anthony would struggle in the shower with her. His alone time with her just might help him realize that he is good for her and could be her Dom.

  Somehow I needed yet another jack off session in my shower. I don’t know what’s going on with me but I needed to calm the fuck down. Anthony and I needed to talk to someone not directly involved. Matt.

  With a towel wrapped around my waist, I grabbed my phone and sent Matt a text.

  CE: Matt can you come over this afternoon? Something happened last night and Anth and I need to bend your ear.

  I tossed the phone on the bed and went back in the bathroom to finish getting dressed and ready for the day.

  MR: We’ll be over at noon. Just tell me if Sydney is ok.

  Matt cares about Sydney in that big brother way and I was happy to see that he was concerned enough to ask and make sure she was okay.

  CE: She is okay, don’t worry.

  MR: Ok. Gina can take her shopping and they can talk while we talk. See you in about a half hour.

  I went downstairs and sat at the breakfast bar. I wasn’t sure what to do with myself. My mind was running a mile a minute and I was struggling with things I haven’t really struggled with before.

  Chapter 61

  Saturday, November 16th

  Anthony

  When Colin left the room I gently nudged Sydney to wake her up. She hadn’t had a nightmare last night and I was thankful that her evening wasn’t marred by a nightmare.

  “Sunshine, sweetheart.” I kissed her head and she began to stretch. She felt good in my arms but I needed to be responsible and get us up and some food in her. “Sweetie, we need a shower and then to get some food. How do you feel?”

  She playfully rolled over and set her chin on my chest. I couldn’t help but smile when I saw her smile and her red cheeks. This was a subtle sign of some confidence. Fuck, I wanted to kiss those lips. I bent and kissed her cheek instead. If I kissed those lips, it’d be game over for me. I knew this and it kept me from crossing that line.

  For a moment, I wondered what life with Sydney would be like. She brought me out of my pointless wondering with a quick kiss she placed on my chest. She was smiling ear to ear and was playful.

  “I gather you enjoyed your evening, sunshine.”

  “And morning, Sir.”

  She let her fingertips swirl around in my chest hair and soon they danced down towards my belly button. And my scar and my burns. I just stayed still and let her do it too. I finally snapped out of my trance and pulled her hand up to my lips to kiss.

  “Sunshine, our shower awaits. Go start the water."

  “Yes, Sir.”

  Her answer seemed to lack the playful spark she just had moments ago. That’s my fault. I did that. She had been in a good mood and for once wasn’t worried or dwelling over nightmares and cuts or wounds. And I just knocked all of that down. I felt bad for not sharing her excitement as guilt sliced through my chest. I wanted to but I had to get us out of bed. Otherwise I may have found my mouth on her again. I stayed in bed staring at the ceiling until she was standing next to me looking down. She reached up and started to play with her fingers. I looked up at her and she pulled her hands apart.

  “Water ready?”

  “Yes, Sir.”

  We got in the shower and I washed her from head to toe with the vanilla scented stuff. I was losing my mind. My head was a mess and the vanilla wasn’t helping. Every time I inhaled, it was as if I was inhaling her. Her pussy was heavenly last night. How the fuck am I ever supposed to play again after getting that close to someone so perfect? Nothing would ever measure up. Fuck! What the hell was wrong with me? All I did was eat her pussy. I haven’t even had penetrative sex with her, yet I know nothing will ever be as good as her. That’s not even logical for me to be thinking like this. And on top of all the confusion going on in my head, my fucking chest was still bothering me.

  “Sir?”

  I realized I had shut my eyes. I opened them and looked down into the most gorgeous blue eyes I’ve ever seen. I took the shower head off the wall and made sure she was nice and clean and rinsed everywhere. I needed to get her rinsed and out of the shower before I lost it. I knelt down and tapped the inside of her ankle so she’d part her legs some more. I knew her pussy was so close but I had control. I did. Until I turned her around to face me. I had her delicate hips in my hands. She trusted me to touch her there. That meant something to me. I bent and placed a kiss on each hip. She put her hand down and ran it through my hair. Fuck, fuck, fuck.

  “Sit on the bench, sunshine.” She sat and smiled at me. My smile. “Part your legs.”

  When she parted them, I lowered my head to her warm spot between her bruised legs. I was relentless and didn’t bring my head up until I felt her convulse around my face and those tiny hands grasped at my hair. I silently pulled her to stand and began washing her again while guilt filled my chest.

  “Are you okay, sunshine?”

  “Yes, Sir. I liked that.”

  Her smile quickly faded though and she looked ashamed for some reason. She began to lower herself to the floor of the shower and reached out for my cock. No. She thought I wanted her to reciprocate. We weren’t going there and I refused to let her think I’m like Howard. I pulled her to stand and when I looked in those eyes, I saw confusion, sadness and fear. Damn me. Why couldn’t I just shower with her without having to stick my tongue in her?

  “Sydney, I…"

  I looked down and she was making invisible patterns on my skin with her finger and was right next to my scar. I stretched my arms out over her shoulders and let my hands rest flat on the shower wal
l. I closed my eyes and lowered my head so that our foreheads touched. My heart was pounding in my chest.

  “What are you doing to me, sunshine?”

  I felt her start to pull her hand away from my abdomen but I quickly took it in my hand and held it flat against my belly button. She’d understand. I knew she would. I opened my mouth to tell her that I knew what the cigarette burns felt like, but nothing came out. I’ve never told anyone about that. Colin and Matt are like brothers to me and I hadn’t even told them. Yet I almost let that roll off my tongue to her. I regrouped and stood straight up.

  “What I was going to say, was that I didn’t make you come so you’d feel guilty and feel like I wanted you to reciprocate. I don’t do things like that and I’m sorry if it came across that way.”

  My words were meant to be comforting but I think they made her second guess her oral skills. Howard burned her for not being satisfied and maybe now she was hearing his unsatisfied words in her ears. Maybe she thought that’s why I didn’t allow her to take me in her mouth again. It certainly wasn’t the case and I didn’t know where to begin with explaining it to her. I swore that I saw her bottom lip start to quiver but she pulled her lip in and nodded.

  “Sydney, we need food.”

  I rinsed her again and set her out on the tub mat for her to begin drying off and getting ready. When I had myself under control, I got out and shaved. I hadn’t heard anything from her so I went out to the bedroom to see where she was. She was still wrapped in the towel but was lying sideways on the bed on my pillow. She was curled up. Fuck me, I keep fucking up like this and Colin will kick me out.

  I sat next to her and she opened her eyes. They didn’t look nearly as bright as they had been, before I deflated her spirit. She sat up and started to get off the bed but I pulled her back to my lap.

  “Sydney, sweetheart. Talk to me.”

  “I’m…hungry, Sir.”

  I knew she was hungry, but that’s not what was going around in her mind. I wish I was better about this stuff. Colin and Matt are good at this sort of thing. I knew last night was emotional for her and a huge step. The amount of trust that she had put in Colin and I was huge.

  I helped her dress in a tank top and some of those boy short panties and I dressed in jeans and a tee shirt. We walked out into the kitchen and before we even got all the way in the kitchen, Colin informed us that Matt and Gina were coming over in about fifteen minutes.

  “Sydney, get dressed. Gina is taking you shopping this afternoon.”

  I looked down at Sydney and she replied with a “yes, Sir” but kept looking up at me.

  “Sunshine put on some jeans, a long sleeve shirt or sweater and your Converse. Make sure you remember your jacket too.”

  I bent and kissed her cheek before she turned to head back to her room. I glanced at Colin and put my hand over my chest and went to the coffee pot. What the fuck time was it anyhow? Almost noon.

  “How are you doing, Anth?”

  I was far from okay to be perfectly honest. I felt like I was out of control.

  “I think I’m about the same as you,” I countered. “Although I’d say my shower was probably better than yours.”

  He laughed. “You’re probably right. I asked Matt to come over so we could talk to him about last night. And this morning.”

  While Colin spoke I pulled out a small bag of M&M’s and found a small piece of paper. I wrote her a little note, taped it to the candy bag and then slip it into Sydney’s twill jacket that hung on the chair.

  “Ah.” I needed air. “I’m going out and hit some golf balls for a bit. Make sure she eats and takes her coat.”

  Chapter 62

  Saturday, November 16th

  Colin

  And there he goes retreating. Anytime there is a threat of discussing anything personal he shuts down. I’ll admit that I’m out of sorts after last night too, but I don’t think it’s a bad thing at all. He and I had done scenes like last night many times before, yet this had been so different. Anthony needed time to figure it out too. And if he didn’t in a reasonable amount of time, then I’d help him.

  Sydney walked back into the kitchen and was dressed in her cute jeans and a navy long sleeve knit shirt. She had the orange zip up hoodie that Anthony had picked out for her and was pulling it on over her shirt as she gazed around the kitchen. I knew she was looking for him. Goddamn him.

  She paced around the kitchen with her arms folded around her midsection. I watched her pace around unsure of what to do or what to say. I couldn’t stand seeing her this way.

  “Baby, come here.” I opened my arms and she walked right into them. I took a deep breath of the vanilla and kissed her cheek.

  I helped her sit on the barstool and slid my bowl of fruit over and encouraged her to eat just as the doorbell rang. When I let Matt and Gina in, Matt quickly stepped inside and looked around.

  “Relax, Matt.”

  “Where’s Sydney?”

  “I had my way with her and fed her to the wolves. Fuck, come on. She’s in the kitchen.”

  I led Matt and Gina into the kitchen just as Sydney was pulling herself away from the patio door. She was looking for Anthony again. Damn him.

  “Hi, Syd, ready to shop?” Gina went over to stand beside Sydney.

  “Hi, Gina. Hi, Matt. Yes, I’m ready.”

  Sydney pulled her jacket on and picked up her purse and I snapped out of it. I pulled my wallet out and fished out $100 in twenties and handed it to her. She stared at the bills I placed in her hands until I took them and put them in her purse.

  “I want you to buy something while you’re out.”

  As I looked at the crappy twill jacket she wore over the hoodie, I was reminded that I still needed to make sure she had warm clothes for the winter and a warm coat. The jacket she was wearing was very light but on top of a long sleeve shirt and hoodie, it’d be okay for today.

  “Baby, wait. You haven’t eaten anything.”

  Why was I so out of sorts? Sydney’s eyes were sad looking. I knew it was Anthony’s absence. While I scanned the fridge I could hear Matt talking to Gina.

  “Colin, if it’s alright, Sydney and I can get lunch while we’re shopping,” Gina suggested.

  I looked over at Sydney. “You want to eat while you’re out, baby?”

  “Yes, that would be fine.”

  I nodded to Gina and then Matt and I walked the girls out to Gina’s Mercedes SUV. It was a little bit smaller than Matt’s new one, but it was still a Mercedes and was built like a tank. They’d be safe in it. I opened the passenger door and made sure Sydney was buckled in. I heard Matt talking to Gina about the food.

  “Pet, make sure the first place you stop is for food. Real food, not just pastries at a coffee place. Understand?”

  “Yes, Sir.”

  “Text me every hour and don’t forget food first.”

  Matt and I watched the girls back out of the driveway.

  Chapter 63

  Saturday, November 16th

  Sydney

  I wasn’t feeling very well and didn’t really want to go shopping. I’m getting to be too much of a burden. When I woke up, Colin wasn’t in the room. Maybe he figured there was no point because of how lousy I was at sucking him this morning and last night.

  Howard was right. I am horrible. Of course I’m horrible. Especially to two Doms like Colin and Anthony. They can have anyone they want. Women who can at least suck well. I can’t even do that right.

  Anthony could barely look at me this morning. Our shower was awkward and I couldn’t help but feel like he just wanted me out of his way for a while. No problem. I understand. I was disappointed though when Colin told me I was going shopping and Anthony didn’t even bother to say anything. I had hoped he would have seen that I didn’t want to go. I was feeling weird and I didn’t really understand why. Last night was so wonderful. It was actually the best sexual experience I’ve ever had, even though it was only a lot of oral sex, I came and everything felt so go
od. I actually came! I loved every second of their attention and everything felt so good. I never feared they’d hurt me. They both know exactly what to do and were good at everything they did. They didn’t overwhelm me or make me feel inadequate yet they dominated the evening. I managed to feel inadequate all on my own.

  I had been looking forward to a day with them but when I found out Colin was sending me shopping, I was upset and thought I had made him angry. I was sent to get dressed without any other words. While I got dressed I contemplated telling Anthony that I felt funny and didn’t feel like shopping. I was going to tell him that I’d stay out of their way and in my room. I just felt weird and didn’t want to go anywhere. He told me that I could always tell him anything and he especially wanted me to tell him if I felt sick.

  When Colin went to let Matt in, I looked outside hoping to find Anthony so I could tell him I didn’t feel well and didn’t want to go. I could see Anthony out hitting golf balls. He was glad to be rid of me for the day too. I’d do as I was told and give them their peace for the afternoon.

  The worst was when Colin shoved money in my hands. As if he felt he needed to give me something. I just wanted his time, not $100. I would have left it on the counter if he hadn’t put it in my purse.

  “So where should we have lunch, Syd?”

  I had to put on a compliant face and not be jerky. It wasn’t Gina’s fault. I was actually lucky to have a friend.

  “Um, you can pick. I don’t really know of any restaurants at the place we’re going.”

  We were headed to an outdoor shopping mall near the strip and I hadn’t been up there before. I think if I had been feeling better I would have been excited to go.

  “There is a great place called Tuscany. We’ll go there first.”

  “Sounds good.”

  For the rest of the drive Gina talked a lot about a scene she and Matt were going to do next weekend at Irons. I sort of zoned out and was thinking about Colin and Anthony. Naturally, Irons made me think of them. My stomach hurt. It felt like it does when I’m falling in a dream but never hit the ground. That’s how I feel when I think of those guys. What did that mean?