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Cocky Love: Emma Cocker (Cocker Brothers of Atlanta Book 11)

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by Faleena Hopkins


  Eric tries to take Kaya from me. “Give her here.”

  “No way,” I whisper, stepping back in between our parents. Mom and I smile at the baby while I tell my father, “I see why you called me your baby love, Dad. I just want to love on her little fingers and toes forever. And look at those long eyelashes. I guess you guys are grandparents now!” I bump my hip to Mom.

  As she pulls the soft blanket back a bit, so we can see Kaya better, Mom says in her sweet southern drawl, “I thought it would be you who’d give me my first. Eric maybe. Never my naughty Ethan.”

  Both brothers crack up as Charlie smiles from the bed, straight red hair damp around her face. Dad chuckles, too, his deep voice rumbling beside me. “Just because Emma’s the oldest doesn’t mean she has to pop out puppies first.”

  “Jake!” Mom grins, “I swear, you can be so crass. You do it just to shock me.”

  “You love it.”

  Stroking Kaya’s forehead with the pad of her index finger, Mom whispers, “I do.”

  Ethan reaches for his daughter, telling me, “I have to hold her some more.”

  “You’re going to have her every day, all day!”

  He grins, “I know. I can’t wait,” as I relinquish her to him with my lower lip stuck out. “C’mon Emm, everyone’s going to be swarming around in here all day…”

  Mom lifts Kaya into her arms, interrupting him. “Since you put it that way, I’d better get my time in now.”

  “You already held her!”

  “I need to hold her again, Ethan. Go to your wife and be quiet.”

  Ethan’s grin flashes. He locks eyes with Eric. Can you believe this shit? I’m a grown man! But he does as he’s told. His eyes warm as he picks up a towel and mops the sides of Charlie’s glowing face. “How you feelin’ Highness?”

  “Tired but good. Sorry I called you a bastard in there.”

  Under his breath he laughs and kisses her forehead. “I was expecting worse. You were very contained. Impressed the hell out of me and made me love you even more.” Glancing to Dad they share a quiet moment. An understanding has happened that I’m not a part of, nor Eric. Ethan’s become a father and our dad is telling him, Welcome to the club. It’s nice here. Stay a while.”

  An ache slams into my chest, and I have to force myself to focus back on Kaya, stepping closer to Mom and trying to breathe normally. It’s been two weeks since Tanner disappeared. Every time the phone rings or a text comes through I lunge for it. The days have passed with no contact from him or his assistant. It’s occurred to me I could use the properties as an excuse to contact Dan, but it would be construed as obvious since there was no need. Nobody had bought the ones he liked most, I’ve been keeping watch.

  Even standing next to Dad makes me think of Tanner. Maybe some day I’ll ask him why they fought. Right now I’m hoping I still have to hide my feelings. That there might be a day soon when I’ll see Tanner again. Even if we have to sneak around for a while, I’m fine with that. I miss him.

  I’ve looked him up online, of course. Can’t find any philanthropy work so I don’t understand what’s inspired him to do such a noble thing as that orphanage. And why Atlanta when he lives all the way in California? I couldn’t find any ties to it at all.

  Mom walks Kaya to her mommy and tears wet Charlie’s smiling cheeks. “Hi, sweet Kaya baby, I’m here.”

  “I’m going to check on Gabriel,” I whisper, slipping quickly out of the room, and wiping my eyes.

  In the hospital corridor I’m bombarded with questions about the baby, and I repeat time and again that they’re doing well. Grandma Nance says, to herself but really to everyone, “I still can’t believe they got married so late in the pregnancy.”

  Grandpa Michael wraps an arm around her. “Better than not getting married at all.”

  Max, who is Jason’s oldest son, announces, “You guys are old fashioned.”

  His brother Caden, cool as can be, mutters, “They did it to shock you.”

  Their mother, my aunt Sarah, smacks the back of Caden’s head. “They did not,” she laughs while he grins and fixes his hair.

  Feeling suffocated by family for maybe the first time in my life I tell the whole corridor, voice shaky even through my smile, “You’ll see them in a minute. I’m going to check on Gabriel. I haven’t had a chance like you all have. Excuse me.”

  Keeping my head down I cut through the crowd as they return to their separate conversations.

  Turning a corner, finally alone in another hallway I inhale sharply and pause, touching a wall for support. My heart is beating so hard. Pain throbbing in my chest. Maybe this was the first heartbreak after all, the one Hannah said I’d have. The one I welcomed. God, it sucks. Wouldn’t wish this feeling on Cora, or anyone else I don’t like.

  “You okay, Emma?”

  My head jerks up to find my Uncle Justin, the retired Senator, gazing at me with concern. “No…yes…I’m just tired. And I want to check on Gabriel.”

  “You’re going the wrong way. He’s not in his room.”

  My spine tightens. “He’s not in another surgery is he?”

  Justin frowns, “Nothing like that. He’s with his girlfriend in her room, number 307.”

  “Gabriel has a girlfriend? Since when? I know I missed his concert, but am I really that out of touch with his life?”

  Clearly conflicted about it, he sucks on his cheek and stares off. “I think we’re all out of touch with my son’s life.”

  “Uncle Justin, do you know what happened between my father and a man named Tanner Hamilton?”

  Pale green eyes search for a memory. “Doesn’t ring a bell.”

  “Never mind. It’s not important.”

  He watches me as I head away.

  Hospitals inspire caution and quiet, so I slowly open the door and listen. A nurse walks out and pauses upon sight of me, blocking my path. I dig out my I.D. and show her, “I’m his cousin, Emma Cocker.”

  Her protective stance relaxes. She nods and exits. After the paparazzi incident, there are guards at all the exits.

  I’m the last of the cousins to visit. When Gabriel was brought in, I was in the delivery room with Charlie, Ethan and Mom. I had to be there when Kaya was born, even though Eric told me I was crazy.

  Since I don’t hear a greeting, I assume Gabriel must be sleeping, so I tiptoe around the curtain, and freeze. My normally self-centered cousin is under the white hospital blankets, spooning a pretty brunette, both with their eyes closed. Something tells me they’re in their own little world, and not asleep at all. Mesmerized I tilt my head and watch them breathing. They’re battered and bruised and in love.

  Tears of happiness for him, and for Ethan, and my Hannah, mingle as a desire to talk to Tanner burns in my heart. I back out of the room and see a nurse walking up. Wiping my eyes I tell her, “Take good care of them. They’re my family.”

  Chapter 27

  EMMA

  While we make sandwiches on a warm Saturday for the small group of us who’ve gathered at Ethan’s home, Hannah asks, “A month of unemployment? Has it really been that long already?”

  And a month since I saw or heard from Tanner. But she and I are both not talking about that. I told her what happened and then too many check-in questions came at me until I finally asked for peace.

  I close the bread on a turkey, swiss cheese and avocado sandwich, place it next to the others on a platter. This lunch is pretty basic. Hannah and I glance from the sandwiches to each other, and I know we’re both thinking the same thing.

  “Not everyone can cook like Grandma Nance,” Hannah mutters.

  “Amen to that.” I lift the plate, she the pitcher of lemonade, and we head into Ethan’s gorgeous backyard. It’s constantly changing since he can never decide if he wants a volleyball net, a pool, a big lawn like Grandpa and Grandma, or what. He’s got the money to throw around for remodeling and I know over the years as they have more children, this yard will assume many shapes and sizes dictated by wha
t the kids are interested in at the time.

  Ethan and Tobias are across from each other on white couches, under the shade of an enormous turquoise umbrella. Charlie is in the lounge chair with Kaya breastfeeding under a baby-hammock, the soft fabric brought up for modesty.

  “Why couldn’t Ben come?” I ask Ethan while setting down the food as Hannah divvies up the lemonade, ice splashing over the pitcher’s rim.

  “He can’t make it.” As Hannah sits next to Tobias and rests her hand on his jeans, Ethan asks her, “But since we’re wondering where people are—Gabriel and his girl coming soon?”

  “Normally I’d say I don’t know where my brother is, but the new me is paying a lot more attention,” she announces, eyeing me for having been the one to tell her she needs to be easier on the twins. “He politely turned us down for lunch today. Asked for a raincheck. They’re spending a lot of time alone together right now. You know how it is, those first stages.”

  Ethan mysteriously mutters, “Guess Ben could have come after all.”

  My eyebrows go up, but Tobias distracts us all by saying, “What first stage?”

  Melting into him, she smiles, “I guess you’re right.” They kiss and she murmurs against his lips, both of them locked on each other, “I will always want to be alone with you.”

  Under my breath I cough and mutter, “Gagging. Gagging over here.”

  Charlie laughs. “Emma, even we get nauseated by them. Nobody should be that publicly demonstrative.”

  Hannah sticks her tongue out.

  But Ethan announces, “Oh yeah? Kaya wasn’t the only one breastfeeding last night!”

  Charlie levels him with a somber look. “Why do I love you?”

  “Because I’m fucking awesome,” he chuckles.

  People tear into the sandwiches while I watch, feeling numb and detached. I’m so happy I love Charlie. It would be terrible if I didn’t love the woman my brother chose. I only hope Eric chooses wisely, too.

  Listen to what I’m thinking!

  Why do I want to see Tanner again? It would put a strain on the relationships with the people I love most. How could I choose someone they don’t approve of? I’m a complete hypocrite.

  When was this built?

  Are the windows double-paned?

  How are the appliances?

  Emma, I will hurt you.

  “You okay, Emm?”

  Snapping back to reality I stare at Hannah, and then graze a look across the staring faces, sandwiches put on pause in everyone’s grip. “I’m fine! Just daydreaming. I need to get a job. Guess it’s got me worried.”

  Ethan frowns, “You know I’ve got you covered if you need anything. You don’t have to be so stubborn about it. Money isn’t an object with me.”

  “Thank you, but I have enough. I’ve saved six months’ worth of salary.” Tilting my head I remind him, “And I told you I have to earn it myself. I won’t take a hand-out.”

  “Could be a loan!”

  “And then I’d be in debt, which I hate.”

  He starts to argue but a voice coming from inside the house interrupts us.

  Hannah’s step-mom, Aunt Jaimie, appears in the back door. “Oh, there you are!” she exclaims, black hair blowing back as she practically runs to where we’re sitting. “And good! Emma’s here, too.” She glances to Charlie. “You’re saved because you just gave birth. Count yourself lucky!”

  Hannah and I exchange a look.

  Aunt Jaimie inhales sharply, getting ready to explain, “The Woman’s Group has a fundraiser tonight and we’re understaffed. Hannah, I know you’re not a fan of these events but I’m calling in every favor I’ve ever done for you to demand that you be there. And Emma, you owe me nothing, but please don’t let me down. I need you, too!”

  Hannah laughs, “You don’t need to call in favors. Of course I’ll help.”

  “And hold it over your head for eternity.”

  She gives me a look. “Emma, the smartass, will go, too, regardless of how sick she looks about it right now.”

  Tanner might be there. If he’s in Atlanta, he didn’t tell me. Which says everything. Get prepared for the ending of hope, Emma. “Sure, why not? I’ll be there.”

  Oh dammit dammit dammit.

  “Wonderful!” Aunt Jaimie lifts the lemonade pitcher and tells me, “I’m surprised Cora didn’t already talk you into going. She’s on the planning board.”

  I hate my life.

  Chapter 28

  EMMA

  In the bathroom mirror that she and I used to share, Hannah watches me apply my lipstick while she sits on the cream counter, one long leg swinging, the other keeping her balanced. “You’ve been so quiet tonight.”

  “I’m tired from the sun,” I mutter and set the golden tube down. “I should have taken a nap, but you guys wrestled me into a game of volleyball. And Tobias and Ethan are way too competitive.”

  Muttering, “Only having four players makes it tougher,” she picks my lipstick up and checks the color against her skin. A fruitless endeavor since our skin tones are vastly different, hers pale and mine olive. But she always wishes it were different. While I apply mascara she gives my reflection a slow up and down appraisal “You look very pretty tonight, Emm. Gone gay?”

  I flick a look at her. “What?”

  “It’s a women’s-only group. That’s why we don’t like going, remember?”

  “The fundraiser is co-ed.”

  “Wait, why?”

  “I guess they wanted to smell something other than Chanel,” I dryly reply.

  She follows me into my room and sits on my bed while I slide on heels that will hurt by the end of the night, but this dress demands them. Meeting her eyes I see a suspicious smile. “Are you not telling me something?”

  “Like what?” I shrug.

  “You’re just wearing your most flattering peach dress that makes your skin glow and look even more sun kissed, with nude come-fuck-me heels, for the hell of it?”

  “I just want to look nice.”

  She bounces to standing. “Fundraiser means money. Co-ed means men with money. Is Tanner going?”

  “How would I know? Nor do I care.”

  Her eyes narrow. “You don’t?”

  “Not at all.”

  “Mmmhmm.”

  I head out of the room, dipping back in to snatch my clutch bag off the dresser. Hannah laughs, following me. Neither of us are bringing jackets. It was over ninety degrees today so the night air will be the perfect temperature. The hall where the event is being held is half outdoors. Who likes carrying coats anyway?

  “Emma, tell me why you’re pretending.”

  Groaning, I lock up. “I’m glad I live alone now by the way.”

  She pushes my shoulder. “You miss me as much as I miss you—stop it.”

  “I miss you more, if we’re being honest.”

  Together we stroll along the apartment building’s walkway, just like when we used to go to the clubs, picking up men. Dressed up, ready for fun. If tonight could be any.

  “I don’t know if he’ll be there. I’m hoping he will and I’m hoping he won’t.” Off her look I sigh, “He hasn’t called me.”

  “I figured you would have told me if he had.” Gently she wraps her arm around me while we stroll, kissing the side of my head. “If he doesn’t see your worth then he’s not worth you.”

  A grateful smile tugs, but I really can’t think about him anymore or I will start selling my adrenaline to people at Starbucks, because this is stronger than their espresso. To get her off the subject I ask, “You should have invited Tobias, since men are allowed.”

  She turns off her ringer and slides the phone away with a mischievous smile. “It’s healthy to disappear for a while. Makes him wonder what I’m up to. Have to keep their engines roaring, Emm, that’s the secret. You’ve seen his fights. Girls are screaming his name the entire time. If he gets bored his eyes will wander. He’s only human. I make sure that never happens.”

  Fro
wning I round my car as she gets in the passenger side. “Are you stressed about that?”

  “Not at all!” She lifts her long blonde hair up so the seatbelt can do its thing and not trap some. “It keeps me entertained, too. I love all of it. Being with him is exciting. I’ve never been with a man who made my blood race until I met him.”

  “Tanner does that for me.”

  Hannah’s head swings over and her eyes darken as she realizes I’m hurting. “Oh Emma, I’m sorry, I shouldn’t have been so glib about it. I didn’t realize how you felt about him until now.”

  My eyes go misty and I take a deep breath. “I might have pushed him away.”

  “No!”

  “I might’ve!”

  Hannah’s head tilts. “I’ve never seen you get attached to a guy before.”

  Wiping my eyes I fiddle with the music for something to do. “Andy would agree with you. Except he’ll never talk to me again, I’m sure.”

  The seatbelt is the only thing keeping her from flying into the air. “What?! You and Andy? How did that happen? Oh my God!”

  Covering my mouth I groan, “I forgot you don’t know!”

  Hannah turns off the playlist. “Talk!”

  Out of options I tell her about how it began, after I joined her and Sofia Sol in Florida. Hannah’s pale eyes widen. “He was with Sofia first though! And she masterminded the whole thing?”

  “Crazy huh?”

  She grins, “You’re so naughty!”

  “I’m not as sweet as you think I am. Anyway, since Andy manages Tobias, when you guys moved back to Atlanta he came over one night. Called first, of course. After that, whenever Tobias had to fly to some fight, and Andy came here from Florida to leave with him—he’d stay with me.” Hannah gasps. “I’m sorry, but I wasn’t interested in making it a public thing. And…that is what ended it.”

  A knowing look lights her pale eyes, and her voice changes. “You didn’t want to invite him to a Family BBQ.”

 

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