Love and Liberation: A Christian Wife's Journey Into Sexual Freedom

by Laran Mithras

  His expression was feigned indifference, but his pulse was racing in his neck. "Oh, sure. I guess so."

  You can't fool me; you're excited. "Yay. You'll like the house; it's so big."

  He shrugged.

  She knew he would act indifferent and bored no matter what she said. It was his way of covering his eagerness.

  He smiled at her. "Hey."

  She smiled back; it was his way of suggesting sex. "You have a new magazine, right?"

  His smile was smoky. "Yep."

  She felt the stirrings of sensuality in her. "Let's go."

  They entered their small bedroom and he pulled a new Gallery from the nightstand.

  Undressed, they lay side-by-side. She stroked him while he turned pages. Whatever his hang-ups about sex, he liked his magazines.

  Curious as to his views and how they differed from what had happened during The Big Blow, she said, "Who do you like in here?"

  "I'm getting there."

  "Did you stroke earlier to this?" She kept moving her hand.

  "Yeah, a little."

  "Naughty boy." She felt the heat flaring in her.

  "I like this one."

  The girl on the pages had long, black hair cut with bangs. Her eyes were a light blue.

  She stroked him slower with more passion. "What do you like about her?"

  His words came in panting gasps. "I like her hair. She has bangs, like you."

  "Do you like her pussy?"

  He groaned. "Yeah."

  "Do you think she has a pretty face?"

  "Yeah."

  Time to test you, dear. "Would you like her to suck on you?"

  He didn't answer, but his cock twitched in her hand.

  "If she was here, would you like it if she blew you?"

  He groaned again, louder. "Yeah."

  Hmm. All guilty about Melissa and Olivia blowing him, but imagining it from some nameless girl was okay? Was it guiltless because she wasn't a real person in the flesh? It was still a picture of a real girl. "Would you like to feel her pussy on your dick?"

  He gasped and twisted out of her grasp.

  You almost came thinking about it. She reached over and gingerly took his bulging shaft. She slowly slid her hand down his rigid length. "Do you think her pussy would feel good if you stuck it in her?"

  He moaned feverishly and his hips moved upwards. "Oh, yeah."

  She was feeling steamy, now. Her hand moved faster. "Fuck her, Josh."

  His gasps and pants quickened. His hips thrust up against her gripping hand. "Unhhh…"

  "Fuck her hard. Ram your cock into her pussy—"

  It was too late by the time she felt his shaft swell. He groaned heavily and sperm flew out of his cock up into the air.

  Nuts. I wanted that.

  He grunted, straining, and staring at the girl's pussy on the page.

  Despite her disappointment, she found it sexy. Did he feel guilty?

  ~ ~ ~

  Dina held onto Josh's arm at the front entry. Sebastian opened the door for them. "Hi, Sebastian."

  His eyes lit with pleasure. "Mr. and Mrs. Lewis. Good evening. Please, come in." He stepped aside

  "This is the butler, Sebastian," she said to Josh.

  Sebastian held out his hand to him. "I am pleased to make your acquaintance."

  They shook hands.

  The butler's eyes twinkled. He held out his arm and said, "The living room."

  She said, "Thank you." She gripped Josh's arm tighter and watched the butler move into his office.

  Caleb and Olivia were already there, as was another couple introduced as Matthew and Erica.

  Josh shied away from Pastor Mann, undoubtedly over The Big Blow.

  Melissa and Olivia came and took Josh from her, each taking one of his arms. He flushed red but his smile said he was pleased.

  Donald spent much time talking to Matthew and Erica and it turned out that they were also new to liberation. Married fifteen years, they were there to explore themselves.

  Dina got the drift that Matthew wanted to share his wife with Donald. She whispered to Caleb, who was sitting with her, "And that wouldn't be adultery?"

  "No. Not if the husband gives his approval. Is Josh still in the dark about…?"

  "Yes."

  Caleb nodded. "My wife and Melissa intend to force him into the same situation you face so that the decision is easier."

  "What? How? I thought none of this was about forcing."

  "I didn't mean cruelly. Perhaps I chose my words wrong. They intend simply to put him in your shoes so that you share a commonality of condition. It can be easy to say no looking down at someone else – in this case, he to you."

  "He doesn't look down on me."

  Caleb chuckled. "I meant that he wouldn't have a high horse from which to wag his finger at you."

  "Ohhh." She nodded. "I get it. That's sort of sneaky."

  He leaned back and shook his head. "Not really. It's human nature to disapprove of what your neighbor is doing that you aren't. But do the same thing as your neighbor and suddenly you find a way to justify what you're doing."

  She could almost taste the freedom in the words. Was man really so very restrictive with himself? She looked over at Josh sandwiched between the two older women. "What are they going to do to him?"

  "Try to get him into bed. I imagine they'll be successful."

  She blinked. Was this what she wanted? She wanted Josh's approval of her own liberation. Did she have to see him liberated to get his approval? Was she ready for that? She wanted his permission to make love to Caleb, but she didn't want him making love to another woman. Surely Josh would resist Melissa and Olivia. He wouldn't cheat on her. Would he? "You don't mind if your wife and my husband…?"

  "No need to be coy. Josh looks like a fine, young man. I hope she enjoys him and he enjoys her."

  Donald and the married couple got up and walked down the hall towards the bedrooms.

  Olivia and Melissa were giggling, leading Josh down the stairs and into the basement.

  What's my husband going to think of that?

  Caleb held out his hand. "Come."

  "Me?"

  He laughed easily. "Yes, you."

  "What…?"

  "I think we should be properly acquainted – this time without restraints."

  She placed her hand in Caleb's and glanced at the basement door. Her worry that Josh might go through with it and be with the two women faded as her lust for Caleb and his promise grew. She could enjoy the pastor again and surely Josh would resist Melissa and Olivia. She had nothing to worry about. Her excitement grew as she followed Caleb.

  He led her into a guest bedroom quite different from the ones downstairs. There, he turned and wrapped her in a hug. One hand came up and stroked her hair. "Such a beautiful young woman."

  Dina blushed. No one ever called her beautiful, except for Sebastian. "I'm not."

  "You are." His lips met hers and they kissed slowly.

  Her fears and anxiety smoothed out and fled away being replaced with serenity and a growing lust. He lowered her to the bed and raised her short skirt. He removed her panties as she watched his face. There was no critique in his eyes. He pulled her to the edge of the bed and knelt between her legs.

  Oh my gosh. Is he really going to…? Josh never does this. She drew in breath and held it as his head moved in. Her breath gasped out as his tongue touched her pussy lips and ran up and over her clit. She moaned out at the shock of sensation and sensuality. Does he do this to Olivia? Has he ever done it to Melissa? It felt wonderful and she spread her legs open wider for him.

  Up and down he ran his tongue – parting her lips and caressing her clit. She shook with the tremors of need. She moaned out, her hips moving up and down in jerky motions. Oh yes, so good. Slow twirls of ache inside her wound tighter.

  He stood and removed his clothing. She gazed at his penis hanging there, half hard and looking very nice. Should I be looking? But Josh looks at pussy, does
n't he? And the pastor's cock is so pretty.

  "Scoot back," he said. He gripped his flesh and began stroking it while looking down at her pussy.

  He's stroking for me? It made her feel good and she understood what a girl in a magazine might feel if they were aware of men masturbating over them. It was very sexy. Josh was not a small man in that department, but Caleb was slightly longer and thicker. His shaft was straight and the color was normal. The head looked large, but not painfully so. That's what fucked me? It's beautiful.

  He got it hard and climbed between her legs.

  She opened willingly, wanting to feel it in her without any further delay.

  His face was all smile and sexy. Sensuality oozed from him. The head of his cock touched her pussy and she moaned with need. She wanted to feel his shaft sliding past her lips into her, filling her.

  He tenderly rubbed his cock over her pussy and then gently leaned down onto her.

  She felt the head of his erection pressing and pushing into her pussy. Her lips opened and spread wide, admitting his flesh. She wanted to pull him to fill her faster – to be one with him. His thickness invaded her, pushing in and filling her emptiness. It was slow and delicious. She was gasping and pulling on him until she felt his hips meet hers. She felt so full and so happy. She moaned low in relief, unable to control her joy at being filled.

  Dina looked up into his handsome face and smiled happily.

  He smiled back and began moving his hips, pulling his cock out and pushing it back in. Delicious waves of pleasure surged through her with each thrust and she trembled once again with lust and need. Her pussy accepted his cock – welcomed it – and demanded more.

  Oh yes. Josh needs to understand. She felt alive and overflowing with freedom. She was going to want more of this. It would be better if Josh were here, but as long as he approves that's all that matters. I can have Josh and Caleb both, and it will all be good.

  Caleb fucked her deeply, sighing with satisfaction. His shaft sent vibrations of ecstasy through her that increased the tension inside her. She moaned out, her head moving side to side. She gasped moaned as his gorgeous cock thrust into her wet pussy over and over.

  He leaned down and kissed her and her world spun behind closed eyes. He pressed his shaft in and held it there, still kissing her. It felt so right and complete. In a sudden lurch, she fell over the edge and into undulating waves of orgasm. She groaned out in the kiss as tension flooded her body and shook with ferocity. She definitely wanted more. She would fuck Caleb again and again and Josh would have to understand. She loved him and would never leave him, but he was going to have to give her his approval.

  Caleb thrust again, this time faster. His balls slapped against her and she muttered gibberish in a desperate pleasure. She felt his shaft fill her and he held it there, tensing. Then she felt the hot spurts deep within her. She floated, tingles of contentment running through her body. She felt alive and free.

  ~ ~ ~

  In the car, on the way home, Dina said, "So…"

  "Hmm?"

  "Did anything happen down there?"

  "In the dungeon?" He blushed. "Yeah."

  "What happened?" She began feeling defensive.

  "They showed me one of the bedrooms you used to clean. And then things sort of happened."

  "Like what?"

  He shrugged. "They said you were going to be with Pastor Mann. And…"

  "And?"

  "They both took turns on me."

  "They blew you?"

  "No, they rode me." He looked as if he had found a winning lottery ticket. "They said that you were seeking my permission to be involved in their liberated lifestyle."

  They fucked my husband? She started not feeling good about this.

  He frowned. "Did you and Caleb…?"

  "Yes, but that's not the point. How could you let them fuck you?"

  He looked confused. "I thought that's what you wanted. I wasn't sure about letting you do this, but if I'm included—"

  "This wasn't about you. It was about my liberation."

  "Yours? Not mine, too?" He looked irritated.

  "No, not yours. You don't need to be liberated." She wanted to be with Caleb again as often as she could, but there was no way she was going to allow Josh to stick his dick in another woman.

  ~ ~ ~

  Dina fumed. She was going to be late for work. "I'm not going to quit."

  Josh shook his head. "I don't think you should be in that lifestyle—"

  "It's not for you to decide."

  "I thought we were married."

  "We are. I love you. But you're not going to fuck other women and you're not going to act childish and tell me to quit because I won't let you."

  "But you wanted my permission to fuck other men."

  "Not other men, just Caleb."

  "Well, you don't have my permission."

  "That's not fair." Why don't you understand how simple this is?

  "Of course it's fair."

  "No, it's not. You were going to let me if you could stick your dick in some other woman. Well, that's not happening."

  "Right. Fair is fair. The whole deal is off."

  "You're over-reacting." She crossed her arms.

  "I'm being fair."

  "No, you're acting like a child."

  He rolled his eyes.

  She sighed. "I need to go or I'll be late."

  CHAPTER 11

  Dina returned Sebastian's smile. Since the day he had fingered her, he hadn't touched her. Did he not like my pussy? Does he think I don't want to be touched? She reached out and brushed a hand across his chest as she passed. She said, "You're such a statue, sometimes."

  He cleared his throat and raised an eyebrow. "Perhaps time permitting…"

  She turned back to him. What did he mean by that? "Yes?"

  "You seem quite busy and pre-occupied, lately."

  She wasn't sure what to say.

  He said, "I find you very attractive and have the most difficult time controlling myself around you."

  Her heart began to beat a little harder and she felt a sudden panic of self-consciousness. It wouldn't hurt you to lose a little control now and then. "Me?"

  "Indeed."

  Melissa's voice drifted down the hall. "Dina?"

  "Coming." She gave Sebastian a searching look and scurried towards the far end of the hallway.

  "There you are. I wanted to ask how things went at home last night?"

  She looked down as she walked beside Melissa. "Not too good, I guess."

  "That's a shame. What happened?"

  "I didn't know he was going to make love to anyone."

  Melissa stopped and gave her an eyebrow. "But you seek his approval—"

  "I know. I just wanted this for myself. I didn't want to include him."

  The woman overlooked the interruption. "That doesn't sound very trusting."

  She said, as if certainly obvious for all to see, "Of course I can't trust him. I mean, come on."

  Melissa shook her head. "Despite all your fears of his rejection, it is your own weakness that holds you back."

  "Me? Mine? What? It's Josh who won't approve unless he can—"

  "Trust and love is a two-way street. Do you think him incapable of love?"

  "No, of course not."

  They stopped in front of the maid's room. "But you treat him as if he were a child who cannot be trusted and who must be controlled."

  "He doesn't need liberation." He doesn't need to stick his dick in another woman.

  "Do you really love your husband?"

  Dina frowned. "Absolutely. That's why—"

  Melissa sighed. "You believe he holds you back, but it is your own fear holding you back. I think we need to advance your instruction."

  "Mine? What?"

  "Stay after your duties Friday. Bring your most revealing uniform."

  What was this about?

  ~ ~ ~

  The week passed for Dina in more silence than normal.
She stroked Josh to a Gallery magazine and made love to him, gripping him, but wondering how he compared her to Olivia and Melissa. "Do you love me?"

  He looked down at her, moving inside her. "Always."

  "Even when you were fucking—"

  He stopped pumping. His words were irritated. "Yes. Even then. I wondered where you were."

  "I was perfectly safe. I was with Caleb."

  "With his dick in you."

  Dina felt herself blush. "Well, yes."

  He shook his head. "And you want my approval to keep seeing him?"

  "Well…" A longer pause. "Yes."

  He chuckled, but it wasn't with very much mirth. "Was he good?"

  She felt defensive. "He was fine, why?"

  "And you still love me?"

  "Of course I do, silly. What kind of question is that?"

  "The same one you asked me. We're married. We do things together. I would have wanted to be there."

  "You? Really?"

  "Yes, really." He went back to thrusting.

  "I have a confession." Dare she?

  "Hmm?"

  "That was the second time I was with Pastor Mann."

  He stopped. "The second?" He looked mad.

  "It wasn't my fault. Not my choice, either. Remember that barrel down in the basement?"

  "Yeah?" He sounded disbelieving, but he started thrusting again.

  "Melissa had me tied over that but she had to go answer some calls. Caleb came in and he couldn't see my face. He and his wife started playing with me… You know. And then I felt him enter me. I think he thought I was someone else."

  He coughed. "Why didn't you say something?" His tone held the obvious sarcasm that his idea was the best and most perfect solution on the planet.

  "I didn't want to be found out. I was scared of what he'd think."

  Josh broke out in laughter. "So you let him fuck you?"

  "I didn't have a choice in the matter."

  He grew quiet and his thrusting slowed. "Yeah, I guess that would be a pretty tight situation to find yourself in."

  "You're not mad?"

  He stopped again. "Mad? No. I don't know. I can't be mad over that, though I might be mad at Pastor Mann for not checking to see who you were."

  Dina felt relief wash over her and she grinned. "I was so scared."