Manage Me (Toven's Circus #1)

by Marlowe Fox

  “I’m going to marry her.” I tell him, I’m not entirely sure why, I know he wouldn’t care if we got married or not, but I just want to keep talking. “I love her, I love them both so much. I never knew love could be like this, I can’t lose them, Dad.” I say looking down at my hands threaded around Nell’s.

  I feel arms come around my shoulders and I lean into them. My Dad and I have always been close but he hasn’t held me while I cried since I was a child. “Come on, J, let’s get you back to bed so you can get some rest. You can come back when you’re ready.” He says moving behind the chair as I kiss my goodbyes to Nell’s hand.

  He wheels me towards the door but I hear something, it sounded like a moan coming from Beauty.

  “Stop! I heard her, turn me around, she waking up.”

  “Jaden I didn’t hear anything, it’s just wishful thinking. Come on, your exhausted.” But just as he stops talking, I hear it again and if the gasp he lets out is anything to go on, so did he.

  We rush back over to Nell’s bedside, both scooping up a hand in our own.

  “Beauty, can you hear me? Baby, make a noise or squeeze my hand if you can hear me.” I say and wait, seconds pass like hours but ever so softly her hand moves in my own. A grin breaks out on my face as I look at my Dad, who is smiling back. He hits the nurses call button, and we keep talking to her as they run in and start checking her vitals.

  She’s here, she made it back to me.

  Chapter 47

  3 Months Later

  Nell

  Turns out getting grazed in the head by a bullet, and your boyfriend taking four bullets into his back and leg, really puts a damper on beach trips to Bali, but we finally made it.

  Life was crazy for a while after the shooting. Ryan, our sound tech, was standing outside having a cigarette when the shooting occurred. He saw Emily get out of her car and start walking towards us. When she drew the gun and started firing, he took off towards her tackling her to the ground but not before she pulled the trigger four times. He held on to her the whole time until the cops got there. She is now awaiting trial, with three counts for attempted murder hanging over her head, the baby counts despite not knowing about it at the time.

  Jaden’s injuries and his refusal to stay down is making his recovery go slower than it needs to but the man is stubborn. The bullet that hit his right shoulder, tore through the trapezoid muscles and cracked his scapula. An injury that they couldn’t do a whole lot for, but the doctor threatened to put him in a full body cast if he didn’t stop getting out of bed. Another bullet landed in his left side, damaging his left kidney so bad that it had to be removed, it also punched a hole his intestine, which despite everyone’s best efforts, caused a bad infection. The third landed in the outside femur muscle of his right leg. He lost a lot of blood and had to have several transfusions. His body was broken and it was a miracle he was alive.

  The last bullet fired is the one that hit me. It was shot as Ryan tackled Emily to the ground, so it went wide, hitting the car doors metal frame, and ricocheting off to hit me. The full bullet didn’t hit me, as I am told the bullet broke apart on impact, but a fragment lodged itself in the base of my temporal bone of my skull, just narrowly missing my C1 vertebrae. The impact caused small fissures and swelling of the brain. The doctors put me in an induced coma in hopes to keep the swelling down, but when everything was looking better and they went to pull me out, I just didn’t wake up. I don’t remember any of this, just the darkness but eventually remember hearing Jaden’s voice talking to his Dad. It was his voice that pulled me back to the surface, pulled me back to him.

  Now we sit in paradise, surrounded by sand, crystal blue water, and sunshine. Jaden is laying on the lounger beside me as we stretch out under in the shade of an umbrella. He has on a pair of white board shorts and sunglasses. Nothing else but a pink e-reader in his hand, which he stole from me so he could read the Death Dwellers MC books, his other arm thrown up under his head. My eyes scan across his sun kissed torso, the muscle still solid and deeply defined, despite the last few months of light workouts. I suck in my bottom lip, desire for him stirring to the surface.

  “Can I help you, Beauty?” He asks with a smirk not taking his eyes from the screen.

  “You stole my e-reader and now I have nothing else to do but gawk at the men on the beach.” I rib him and he sets down the e-reader to glare at me.

  “The only man you should be gawking at is my cock.” He sneers.

  “That cock?” I ask pointing to his junk.

  “This fucking cock.” He says grabbing the growing bulge in his shorts and I lick my lips wanting to taste him.

  “I have a surprise for that cock…If he’s up for it.” I barely finish the sentence before he is springing up.

  “Jaden, NO your shoulder!” I yell as he bends to pick me up. He growls in frustration, grabbing my hand instead and pulling me to my feet.

  “Jaden my e-reader!” I squawk as he’s dragging me away towards the hotel, leaving all of our stuff behind.

  “I’ll buy you a new one.” He bites out, still pulling me behind him.

  “But all my books.” I whine, I can’t help it, I have an unhealthy attachment to my books.

  “You’re lucky I love you.” He says dropping my hand and stomping back to rescue my e-reader. And that is real love, a man willing postpone sex to rescue his woman’s books.

  “You own me a blow job for that.” He says when he gets back to me handing my e-reader to me.

  “Deal, it can go with your surprise.” I say grinning.

  “Fucking perfect, let’s go.” Grinning, he sweeps my legs out from under me and into his arms causing me to let out a surprised squeak.

  “Jaden, damn it! No, you’re going to fuck up your shoulder.” I yell trying to squirm out of his hold.

  “Too bad, you waddle too slowly now and I am in a hurry to fuck you.” He says taking off at a hurried pace into the hotel.

  “What? I don’t fucking waddle yet, you Asshole! I’m only 3 months in and I barley even have a bump. There is no reason I would be waddling yet.” I shriek at him while he laughs entering the elevator.

  “No, Beauty, you don’t waddle. I was just fucking with you and trying to get you to sit still.” He says nuzzling into my neck. “You’re fucking beautiful though, you glow from the inside out. And it does crazy weird cavemen like things to me to think that you are carrying my child inside of you. That I put that life in you and it’s a part of both of us.” He says setting me down, trying to hide the wince, but I see it.

  “I love you, you stubborn man.” I say grabbing his face up in my hands.

  “Did you ever think, 3 months ago, you would be standing in an elevator with me again, pregnant with my child, telling me you love me?” he asks with a megawatt smile stretched across his face.

  “Never,” I say without hesitating, “But then, I never allowed myself to dream so big.” His lips crush down on mine and he pushes me up against the wall devouring me until the bell dings and the doors open to our floor. Where he tugs me out behind him to our suite.

  ******************************************

  My nerves begin to shake but I am excited, too. I made sure that it was okay with the doctor and she told me all I needed to do to prepare, so I brought everything with us in my suitcase. We get inside our room and Jaden is ready to go but I need to get ready.

  I kiss him deep but maneuver him over to a chair facing the bedroom door and push him down into it.

  “I need to go to the bathroom for a minute. I have to get your surprise ready.” I say and saunter out of the room.

  In the bedroom, I grab everything we will need. The bra and pantie set I found is elegant and beautiful with intricate gothic lace along the hips, attaching the deep red satin cover on the front and back. The bra is the same and match, deep red satin with a black lace overlay. The black stocking’s reach mid-thigh and have the same gothic lace pattern around the top and in a line down the back. On my feet
are a pair of patent leather black Louboutin’s. Dressed, I need to set up the ’Props’ for the evening. I set one bottle of lube by the bed and then grab up the small purple velvet bag to take out into the sitting area with me.

  Stepping out of the bedroom and stand there leaning against the doorjamb, trying hard not to be self-conscience about my growing baby bump. From the look of Jaden’s face though, I shouldn’t be worried.

  “Fuck Beauty, you look stunning.” He says in awe. “What’s in the bag?” He says with a grin.

  “You’re always so fond of giving me presents, so I figured it was my turn.” I say, bringing it over to lay in his lap then bending forward. I press both hands into his upper thighs, bending my knees to kneel before him on the floor. He is opening the bag and a huge grin breaks out on his face.

  “Beauty, these look like presents for you.” He chuckles, pulling a purple jelly bead stick, a wireless remote, and a small bottle of lube from the bag.

  “Kind of, but they are to prep for the Beast.” I say Beast softly, and the bulge in his pants jumps at its name.

  “Fuuuuck…” He breaths out the word, his eyes shining with excitement and hunger. “Is it safe for the baby?” He asks causing me to grin, he’s going to make a great father.

  “Perfectly safe.” I assure him and that’s all he needs. His mouth is on mine in a flash and he is consuming my being. He bites my tongue then sucks it into his mouth. Before pulling back to move down my chin to my neck. The brush of the scruffy beard causing a chill to run though me.

  “God Jaden, I love your beard, don’t you ever fucking shave.” I murmur causing him to chuckle.

  “I promise.” He whispers across my skin, causing tingle bunnies to erupt. He reaches around me and I am pulled into his lap straddling his hips, his straining bulge beneath my heat, where I rock gently across it. “Mmm…I can feel that hot little pussy though my shorts. It’s begging for my cock to be inside of it. And inside your ass, Beauty I can’t wait to have you squeezing me tight in your ass. ”

  “Me, too, Jaden. I want you to make me feel so full.”

  Standing up, he takes me with him before he untangles my arms from around his neck and sets me down. Turning me away from him, he kisses my shoulder and unsnaps the bra pulling the straps down, trailing kisses in their wake. He bathes my back with his lips, using the pads of his fingers to lightly brush my skin. Reaching around, he cups each of my breasts causing me to gasp his name. This man is driving me wild with need.

  Pushing his hardened length against my ass, I shamelessly grind against it, excited for their meeting to come. “You want that cock in your, ass don’t you, Beauty?”

  “Yes, Jaden.” I pant and grind.

  “Okay Beauty, climb up on the chair and lean over the back.” He says gruffly and I do as I’m told, then look over my shoulder at him. He’s standing there looking at me, that smirk on his face, a huge bulge in his pants, and he just grins before his hand snakes out and a smack lands on my left ass cheek tearing a moan from my lungs. He doesn’t let me recover but quickly slaps the other cheek.

  I feel lips on my stinging cheeks next. He palms the other side kissing and nuzzling then switching sides. When a cool breath blows across my hot skin a shudder runs though me.

  ******************************************

  Jaden

  Her scent drives me mad, I just want to dive inside of her and feel her pulsing all over me but I have to go slow. I have to prep her and make her feel good. I push my face into her heat, devouring her sweetness from behind. I suck her lips into my mouth, tug and pull them then dive back in for more.

  Licking and sucking at her opening before diving my tongue in to fuck her with it. She moans and gasps, rocking her hips into me, getting close to her release. Slipping a couple fingers inside and suctioning my mouth to her clit is the final nudge she needs to send her over the edge, squeezing my fingers and crying my name.

  As she comes down, I remove my hand and face from her center and grab up the lube from the bag. Dropping a little bit on my fingers, I rub it around her tight hole, pushing softly inside, making sure she is well coated. She moans out liking me in there but she’s going to like the vibrations of the bead stick more. Grabbing it now from the bag, I add a bit of lube to it, covering every inch, before poising it at her tight bud.

  “Alright Beauty, take a deep breath for me.” And she inhales deep as I start to push the first small ball into her. “I need you to push out again now, and relax, just like when it’s my finger.” The second she does, the ball slips inside. She’s so aroused, her breath is heavy and panting, her pussy below is sloppy wet and I can nearly see her pulse thundering through it. I dip my thumb into its wetness to rub around her clit, and push the next ball in all at the same time, letting her get used to it before rocking it back and forth then slipping the next one in.

  “Ahh…God Jaden, that feels so fucking good.” She cries and I pop in another one. Her body is covered in a sheen of sweat and she getting close but I don’t want her to cum with fake piece of rubber in her. I stop playing with her clit and move my hand off of the stick. I stand up, grab the last thing from the bag, and go around to the front of the chair where she lays panting.

  I coil my hand in her hair lifting her head, so she’s looking at me. She looks up at me in question, “You own me a blow job, Beauty. I’m here to collect.”

  She looks like she’s about to argue but instead reaches out, grabs my cock, and pulls me forward, sinking her hungry mouth right down over the tip. No fucking around, she goes to town on my cock. Sucking in her cheeks creating just the right suction that makes my eyes roll back. She bobs, and licks, tugs and pulls with her hand, nearly taking me to my knees when she drags her teeth over the sensitive section just under the head. When she pops off the tip, I remember the device in my hand.

  Looking down at it, it’s a little purple box with a couple buttons on it. I mash my thumb into one and Nell screams out, followed quickly by a long low moan. Pushing the up triangle causes another gargled moan to escape and she’s completely forgotten about my cock. So I push the down button twice, assuming it will turn it off. When she whimpers in protest, I grin waiting for her to look up at me.

  When her eyes open, they are annoyed, “Turn it back on Jaden, I was getting close.” She says.

  “First, you won’t be coming on that thing so whether you were close or not is irrelevant because you will be coming around my cock. Second, you were mid-sucking on my cock and forgot what you were doing.” I say indignantly, I’m not really mad though, I just enjoy messing with her.

  “Well now you’ve pissed me off, do you really want to risk your cock in my mouth?” Instead of responding I just turn the stick back on and walk around behind her. Pushing her head down in the chair, I grab up my cock, and push into her pussy.

  The fit is tight and I nearly lose my shit in the first stroke but I take some deep breaths and calm down. I can feel the beads massaging my dick and the vibrations feel awesome. I’m not going to last long like this, so I slam into her a couple times before pulling out. I gently pull the anal bead stick out, watching as the hole says open wide for me. I lube up before pushing the head of my cock against her hole. I’m still a bit bigger than where we stopped with the beads, so I have to go slow but once my head is in she adjusts quickly. Sliding in and out her tightest hole straggling my cock, has my breath panting, my heart racing, and if I don’t get moving soon, this is going to end too soon. Pumping into her, she pants my name. Our skin is slick with sweat and we are both ready to explode.

  I reach down and lift her back to my front, changing the angle, and giving me access to her clit. I pound in to her, tug on her bud of nerves, latch onto her neck with me teeth, as we both let go.

  We both melt down into the chair, I angle not to squish her and the baby. A baby. I think as a big grin spreads across my face. Beauty is so still, I think that she’s fallen asleep, until she turns to look at me. A happy calm look on her face.


  “Marry me.”

  “What?” I ask, completely taken off guard.

  “Marry me, Jaden.” She says again.

  “You are not asking ME to marry you. I am supposed to ask you!” I say in a flabbergasted tone.

  “You’re taking too long.” She says with a grin.

  I open my mouth to speak but I’m fucking speechless. I haven’t asked because she wasn’t ready, but all I want is to make her my wife. Who fucking cares who asked who, I don’t, as long as the end result is her saying yes to being my wife. “Yes. Fuck yes, I will marry you, Beauty. Before we leave this island, we are getting married.”

  I expect her to say no or try to argue a little, but she doesn’t, she grins and kisses me stupid as I sweep her up in my arms to carry her to bed.

  Chapter 48