Golden

by Leah Adams

  He had the frozen look on his face. Then slowly his lips went up in a smirk.

  “Don’t worry you’ll fall for me soon.” Jay continued to smirk. “And then you will be begging me to touch you.”

  “Hardly,” I almost yelled. “I think it’s you, who will be begging me, soon.” I don’t know where that had come from, but I smiled when I saw the look on his face.

  His eyes went wide at my comment. This made me feel better.

  “Damn, I see way you like her.” Damon laughed. “A girl, who speaks her mind and is herself, I think I will be begging in a moment.”

  For, whatever reason I laughed at Damon stupid joke.

  I felt Leon hand go on my arm and I turned to look at him. He gave me a soft smile and I had to fight a blush that was coming. I needed to stop. I had just find out that he and his brothers suck the life or whatever from people, yet in still I found him highly attractive.

  “You ready to go?” He asked his hand still on my arm.

  “Yup,” I said. I turned to give Jay one last look and saw that he was still looking at me, but now his eyes held almost longingly glare to them.

  We walked out to Leon car and I found myself not wanting to leave. I might still be in shock of everything that I found out, but it felt like I needed to stay. I didn’t understand why, but I looked back at the huge mansion.

  I sighed, and then turned my eyes back to Leon.

  “Here you go.” Leon smiled, opening my door.

  I gave him a small smile and got into the car. It was the same car I had been in before and it still looked as beautiful as before.

  The drive was silent. I wasn’t sure if I liked that or not. I looked over at Leon and saw his eyes were on the road, never once looking over at me.

  I wondered if I had done something wrong or if he hadn’t really wanted to take me home. Then the picture came to my mind: The girl beautiful girl, with dark hair and eyes.

  She had glowed with beauty that any cover girl would die to have.

  I should tell him that I was sorry, for breaking his picture. I thought. I had already said I was sorry, but I felt like I needed to say it again.

  My eyes turned to look back at the road. I tried my hardest to work up the nerve to speak.

  I didn’t understand how Leon could make me feel so shy, yet Jay could make me want to scream and shout.

  “Leon, I’m sorry about the picture.” I said quietly. I turned my eye to look at him and saw that he still hadn’t turned to look at me. I wondered if he had heard me. I opened my mouth to say it again, but he cut me off.

  “It’s okay.” He said. “I needed a new frame, anyway.”

  “I’ll buy you another one.” I offered.

  “No, that’s okay. It’s not your fault.” He wasn’t looking at me still. I knew it was my fault and I shouldn’t have really touch his stuff, but the way he wasn’t looking at me, made me think he was still mad.

  “I am sorry.” I said again not knowing what else to say. I just wanted him to at least glance at me, so I would know we were okay.

  “Her name was Elizabeth. But you have probably guessed that already.” He said his tone slightly off. I opened my mouth to tell him he didn’t need to tell me anything he didn’t want me to know, but he cut me off. “I’m sure you wanted to know who Elizabeth was, right?”

  I did want to know who she was, but I didn’t feel right to tell him that. I wanted to know what she was to him, but I didn’t want him to think I was just being nosy.

  “I love Elizabeth.” He said after a moment. I didn’t say anything, but not hearing him say loved, made me feel slightly uncomfortable. “She is my life, my world, my reason.”

  When the words left his mouth, they didn’t feel like a quote or something he was saying to be romantic. They felt like he was saying them, because they were honestly true.

  I felt like his words were being spoken from his heart. I was scared to even say anything.

  He still loved her. I wondered where she was or what had happened to her.

  “She loved me to,” He said and I heard something raw go into his tone. I looked at him briefly and saw his eyes still on the road. “But, when she found out I wasn’t human, she said I was a monster, that shouldn’t be alive. I was sin and I should die. She wouldn’t even let me save her.” I kept my eyes on him. I was sad for him. His voice didn’t sound hurt, but it was the way that he was talking to me, that I knew he was hurt.

  You’re not a monster. I thought. You are so kind and sweet.

  “She’s gone now. But my feelings for her haven’t left. I know she was right. I am a monster. I want to die, but I fear that if I die, I still won’t be able to see her in whatever pure place she has gone. I never deserved her. She was always too pure for me. I should have never bothered her, but I love her. I just had to…..”

  He paused and shook his head. There was a small smile that played on his lips. I couldn’t help but remember the talk we had about what happened to people when they died. I now knew why he so badly wanted to know.

  “That picture and my memories are the only thing I have of her. I still love her and I live this hell every day, because of her. It is what I deserve forever hurting her. I’m a monster and I ruined her life by coming into it and telling her what I was, I deserve to live this hell every day. She deserved so much better than me.”

  Leon still wasn’t looking at me. I began to wonder if he was afraid to. He had always been the one who was nice and sweet, but he had always kept his distance from everyone.

  “I would understand if you wanted to go on with your life, as if none of this happened. I and my brothers are all damned. I don’t want you to be as well. If you want, I won’t ever talk to you again and I will make sure they don’t talk to you either.” There was something behind his voice that I could not read. “You don’t have to be around us if you don’t want to. We will still make sure that Jennifer and whoever won’t interfere with your life, still.”

  I took in a breath and closed my eyes. I didn’t want to cry. His words made me feel sad. He was too good for anyone to ever think he was a monster.

  How could she have told him he was a monster? He was so good. He was always nice and he never went out with tons of girls, like his brothers. In fact I had always seen him eating food, so that meant he never wanted to rely on eating people souls or whatnot. He didn’t want to.

  Leon never got into fights all the time. He was always listening to the teachers and not doing what he wanted.

  The thought of yelling at him came to my mind. Wanted to scream, you’re not a monster. I wanted to tell him that if it hadn’t been because of him, I would be dead, and maybe even my niece.

  He was so kind and so unlike his brothers, how could anyone ever think he was a monster.

  I hated Elizabeth. How dare she make him feel so bad? How dare she cause him so much pain? How dare she make him think he was a monster? How dare she?

  “Your house,” He said, still not looking at me.

  That was why Damon had called me by her name. He thought I would call them all monsters to. He thought I would say what she had said. And that was why Leon wouldn’t look at me right now.

  Did he think I was like that too?

  My eyes turned to look at my house. It was well light and I knew my parents were home.

  I turned my eyes and stared at him. I didn’t know what came over me but, I throw my arms around him and holding him close.

  His body tensed at first. He felt like he hadn’t thought I would do this, like he was surprised, but I didn’t care. I kept holding him, pulling him as close as I could to me. I wanted him to forget what she had said.

  I wanted him to know that I didn’t think that. I needed him to know I was happy he was alive. That I was happy he was in my life. I just kept my arms around him, fighting back the tears I felt would come at any time. And slowly, but surely, I soon felt his arms around me.

  Chapter 14

  You, Me, and my Friends
/>   I didn’t know how long I and Leon sat in his car holding each other, but I didn’t care. I just needed this. It felt like the hug was more than just for Leon, but for me as well.

  After everything I had just found out, I felt this pain in the back of my mind yelling at me to just break down and cry.

  It would have been better if I could just break down and cry. It would have been so much easier on me, to allow my emotions to take over and let them stay put. But I couldn’t. I had to think straight….had to put my emotions aside. I needed to think clearly on what I could do next.

  If this Jennifer was out there, trying to hurt my family and friends, I would need to help stop her. I needed to try and be brave.

  I soon felt Leon arms hold on to me tighter. I closed my eyes feeling a wave of emotions come over me and I liked it. I had wanted this.

  Leon and I like this, felt perfect. I even now knew why he was the way he was. That Elizabeth had hurt him. I wouldn’t ever do something like that.

  “Thank you.” His voice was so soft I almost thought I had missed heard him.

  I pulled back from him, missing his body heat as soon as his arms left from around me, and stared into his eyes.

  His beautiful grey eyes stared at me. There were so many emotions running through them but I couldn’t read any of them.

  “For what?” I asked, not sure of myself. I didn’t think I could talk straight with his eyes looking at me like that.

  “For that,” He said. Leon reached over to me and pushed a piece of hair from my face. “I don’t think anyone has hugged me in a long time.”

  I wanted to cry, but didn’t. He was so sweet and kind.

  “Leon, I…..” My phone ringed and it made me jump. I picked it up and stared at the phone. It was my parents. I was upset that they had interrupted my time with Leon, but glad at the same time. I didn’t honestly know what I would have said to him and now would never know.

  “Answer it.” Leon smiled.

  I shook my head and opened the phone.

  “Hello.”

  “Don’t you dare hello me?” I heard my mother voice yelled. “Where in the world are you? You were supposed to be back hours ago. I and your father were thinking about calling the police.”

  “I ran into some friends.” I partly lied. I wasn’t sure if the forbidden four and I were now friends or something. “And it kind of ran late.”

  “What friends?” She asked, sounding as if she didn’t believe me one bit. It then came to me that she may have called my friends. “And that Keith wanted to ask me and your father if you could go out with him? After this I think I should say no.”

  “What?” I almost yelled, unable to think straight. Keith had asked my parents to go out with me. “Mom I am almost home, okay.”

  “Get here soon.” She said and then hung up.

  I closed my phone and rolled my eyes. I just could not believe this was happening to me.

  “I take it you don’t like Keith?” Leon asked.

  I opened my eyes widely at him.

  “Did you hear my mom talking?” I asked suddenly remembering he wasn’t human.

  “She was yelling.” Leon gave me a shy smile.

  I shook my head. “Sorry about that. But I guess I should get going before she sends out the National Guard or worst she comes looking for me.” I laughed.

  “You’re lucky to have a mother who really loves you.” Leon said softly. “And I can tell she really loves you.”

  “Don’t let the call fool you.” I said. I never really thought about what my mom felt about me. Well in regards of if she loved me or not. I didn’t really know if she did or not. At one time I guessed she did, but now it kind of felt like she just put up with me. “I’ll see you at school tomorrow.”

  I reached to get out of his car and felt his hand go on my arm. “Bonnie, life is going to be full of regrets, don’t let your feelings for your mother be one of them. Talk to her.”

  If only it was that easy. I thought closing my eyes. He didn’t know how she was.

  “Bye, Leon.” I whispered and got out of the car.

  I didn’t even look back when I went to my house door and opened it. I heard his car drive off, but I didn’t get a chance to walk in to the door before my mother started yelling.

  Her words came out so fast and so loud that I didn’t understand her. I locked the door behind me and tried my hardest to pay attention to her words.

  But my mind kept going to the forbidden four and Elizabeth.

  What was I going to do about what I had found out? What was going to happen to my family now?

  Did Leon think I would act like Elizabeth?

  “Why are you crying?” My mother voice went on.

  I looked up at her and touched my face. Why was I crying?

  “Goodness, you were in the wrong.” My mother said moving my hair from my face, then started wipe the tears from my face. “I know you think your grown and everything, but you still have to listen to me and your father.”

  I just shook my head. I didn’t feel like arguing. I just wanted to go to my room.

  “Now I am going to let you go out with Keith this weekend.” My mom smiled shaking her head. “I know his parents are very respectable and they told me he has been accepted to Harvard already.”

  Her sounded like she was bragging about her own child and I wondered if this was a good thing or not.

  “I want to go to bed.” I told her and began to walk up the steps.

  “Sweetie, Keith is a good guy. He even asked to go out with you unlike that husband of your sister’s.” My mother began making me stop on the top step. “I am willing to overlook your being out so late, so you can go out with him. Keith has a bright future and I think he is a perfect match for you.”

  I could feel her words were meant to be taken as a compliment, but hearing her put down my sister life yet again made me feel bad.

  “Okay.” I said and then went up to my room.

  Once I was in my room and had closed the door, I went to my bed. I was upset at the fact that Keith had asked my mom to go out with me, when I had told him I would ask. I was also upset that my mom had just assumed I wanted to go out with him.

  Then there was the matter that I had to keep a secret about the forbidden four. I secret I wasn’t too sure about.

  I wanted to close my eyes and open the again only to find out it was all a dream. But my mind kept screaming at me that I needed to realize this was real. That there was no turning back now that I knew the truth to their lies.

  Curiosity killed the cat and I was finding out that it was also going to make the cat crazy as well.

  I sighed loudly and turned on my side.

  This was crazy. There was no such thing as pixies and things in that nature. Even when my sister was going through her I love vampires faze, because of Anne Rice, I had loved her books, but never would have dreamed what the forbidden four said could be true.

  I just could not believe it.

  But I couldn’t ignore what they said or what I saw them do. I wanted to, but couldn’t.

  “Bonnie.”

  I jumped at the sound of my name being called. I turned my head and saw Jay coming though my bedroom window.

  “You okay?” He asked once he was all the way in.

  I got up from my bed and frowned at him.

  “What on earth are you doing in here?” I asked trying to remember to keep my voice down. “Get out.”

  “I came to check on you.” He smiled then went to sit on my bed. “Nice room, I would have thought your room would look like this. Very cute.”

  “Shut up.” I whispered and folded my arms. “You can leave now.”

  “I just got here.” Jay said staring me up and down. “Why don’t you come sit down by me?”

  I shook my head and stared hardly at him. “Why don’t you just leave?”

  “Because I don’t feel like it and besides Jennifer was lurking around here earlier.” Jay sighed and fell back on
my bed.

  “What? Why is she doing this? I mean she is crazy jealous to even want to hurt me when we aren’t doing a thing together.” I said rolling my eyes.

  “That’s Jennifer.” Jay sighed and I saw that he was still looking at me, but now his eyes were unreadable. “When we were little she would always try to outdo me at everything, but since she couldn’t she began to follow me around. Damon always said she had a crush on me, but I always looked at her like an annoying sister.”

  “Did you ever date her, when you got older or something? Is that why she’s mad, you like dumped her?” I asked not knowing if his answer really mattered or not. Regardless of his answer Jennifer still wanted me dead.

  “We had some fun when we got older, but it wasn’t anything like Damon and my older sister. Now Dora should be mad at Damon, but my sister was never the jealous type.” Jay laughed. He put his hands on the back of his head and shook his head. “Then again Damon should also be mad at her, my sister was never one to want to be fateful.”

  “But don’t you need to kiss someone to get their energy?” I asked then looked out my window.

  “Yeah, but we are able to share our energy with other pixies.” Jay said. I glanced over at him and noticed that his glace was becoming alluring. “Why don’t you come over here?”

  “Why don’t you leave?” I questioned, yet again. “Jennifer isn’t here. If she comes I can call you.”

  “You don’t have my number.” He grinned at me widely.

  “But, I’m sure you have mine.” I whispered, and shook my head. “So just call my phone, and I will have your number. So, you can leave now.”

  My eyes stared at him and I watched him get up. He walked over to me and stopped right in front of me.

  I wanted to back away. His glace on me was too intense.

  “What did you and Leon talk about?” He voice was even and I wasn’t sure if I should believe his tone.

  “Nothing really, why?” I didn’t trust myself to talk about Leon evenly with him. I didn’t like the way he was eyeing me. His eyes looked at me like he had caught me in a lie.

  “Did he tell you about Elizabeth?” He asked voice still even.