Golden

by Leah Adams

  “Yes.”

  “What did he tell you?” His voice sounded like he thought I was lying or was too shocked at my answer.

  “Why?” I asked glaring at him.

  “Because I would hate for you to set your hopes on someone who would never look at you the way you should be look at.” Jay words hit me like a lightning bolt hitting the ground. “So, don’t waste your time.”

  “Leave me alone.” I snapped. “Now…..leave ok.”

  He just stared at me for a few moments then shook his head.

  “I’ll be looking out for you okay.” He said going to the window. “I’ll find her and all of this will be over soon.”

  I didn’t say anything. I just watched him leave.

  I didn’t sleep that well that night. I kept twisting and turning throughout the night. When my mother came into my room and told me it was time to get up, I felt like I hadn’t gotten an ounce of sleep.

  After I got ready for school and ate breakfast I felt like not going to school. I know that I never really ever thought like going to school, but today it just felt like a pain to go.

  I wasn’t sure how I would be now that I knew the forbidden four secret and that really they trusted me with it. They could have just protected me from afar, but they had told me everything I had asked about.

  Did this mean that now we were in some sense friends?

  I shrived at the thought. The forbidden four friends with a girl, that was funny.

  After I was done eating I went outside and saw that my car was out there. I smiled.

  By the time I drove to school it was time for my first class and I noticed that I saw that forbidden four cars outside. They had deicide to come to school today. I shook my head and headed to my first class.

  When my lunch class had finally come around I was happy. I didn’t know why, but I for some reason wanted to see what would happen once I saw the forbidden four.

  I went to my locker and saw that Beth and Angelica were both waiting for me by my locker with huge smiles on their faces.

  “Hi, Bonnie,” Angelica said with a small nervous smile on her face.

  “Hi.” I said not sure what to make of it. I wondered if Damon had talked to her or not.

  “I’ll see you two in the café.” Beth smiled, warmly.

  When she had walked off my eyes went back to Angelica and I could see she was clearly nervous about something.

  “What’s wrong Ang?” I asked as I put up my stuff.

  “I broke up with Damon.” Angelica said. My eyes went big. “I know I just started thinking about everything you have been telling me. I was different and it wasn’t for the better. I am so sorry, for everything. Will you forgive me?”

  “Yes.” I said louder than I had wanted. I wrapped my arms around her and felt I wouldn’t let go.

  My best friend was going to come back. Damon must have talked to her. I was so happy, yet I was still mad at him for even doing what he did to her in the first place.

  “Thanks, you and Beth are the best friends a girl can have.” Angelica smiled. “I am really sorry for how I have been acting and you guys just forgive like this…” She looked like she was going to cry.

  “Ang, it’s really ok.” I began, knowing that Damon was the real reason she hadn’t been acting like her bubbly self. “Come on; let’s go get something to eat.”

  She shook her head and we both walked to the café. I had a huge smile on my face. I started to think that maybe things could go back to normal or at least somewhat. Angelica was going to be normal again at least.

  When we walked into the café I saw that our friends were all sitting down at a table. My eyes landed on Keith. I really needed to talk to him. He needed to know that I didn’t like the fact that he had called my parents the other day.

  “Hey, Bonnie,” I turned my head and saw Jay standing right by me. He had this huge smile on his face.

  “I’ll be at our table.” Angelica said and hurried off.

  I briefly thought about why she had seemed to almost run off, but had little time to think about it because I soon felt Jay hand go around my arm.

  “Hey.” I said moving my hand from his grip. “What do you want?”

  “We need to talk.” Jay whispered.

  I could tell from how he said talk what he wanted to talk to me about. Jennifer. But I was feeling too happy about Angelica to even want to talk to him about that.

  “Do you really need to talk to me?” I questioned. “I think you said enough the other night. So, I know everything, and I will be careful okay. And besides if something happens…..”

  “You will call me.” Jay said, finishing my sentence before I could even finish it myself.

  “Right,” I said moving my eyes from off of him. “So, I’ll just talk to you whenever.”

  I turned to walk away from him, but I felt his hand grip mine.

  “Bonnie, after school we can talk.” He told me and then let me go.

  I turned to look at him and saw that he was walking off to his brothers. They all were sitting by the window looking as if they didn’t have a care in the world. Nate was busy flirting with a senior, Damon eyes were on Angelica-something I wasn’t sure if I liked-, and Leon was busying eating a salad, not paying attention to the girl trying to get him to notice her.

  When Jay had finally taken a sit, he looked over at me briefly. Then his eyes went to the girl that was sitting at their table trying to get Leon the notice her. But he was more interested in his salad it seemed.

  I folded my arms when I saw him lean into her ear and whisperer something. All of her focus switched from Leon to Jay.

  My eyes began to glare at him when I saw him lightly brush his lips across hers. I wanted to walk over there and give him a piece of my mind, but then I told myself that it didn’t matter.

  I didn’t care who he wanted to be with.

  My eyes then looked over at Leon and saw that he was no longer eating, he was staring at me.

  His beautiful eyes stared at me with an emotion that was unreadable. I smiled at him and watched as he gave me a lovely smile back.

  I felt my cheeks began to become hot and I turned my head only to see-out the corner of my eyes-Jay eyes looking at me. He seemed to be almost glaring, but when I tried to look back at him that look was gone.

  He was now kissing the girl that sat by him. I rolled my eyes and then walked off to the table with my friends.

  “What was that all about?” Asked Keith when I sat down. “You two seem very friendly.”

  “Nothing, as you can see.” I said and nodded over to Jay who was still kissing that girl.

  Keith eyes rested on me for a moment. He seemed like he was trying to see if what I was saying was true or not. Then his green eyes of his soon began to sparkle then he laughed.

  “Yeah, Jay must think he can get any girl.” Keith smirked. “But not all girls fall for his lies.”

  “I know.” Angelica agreed. “I mean Damon was so not the right guy for me. Really all of the forbidden four are such playboys. Well Leon was the only one who never acted like that. Oh, and you won’t believe how weird Damon started acting when I told him some girl named Jennifer told me to say hi to Jay for her.”

  I froze and stared at her.

  “Jennifer?” I questioned.

  “Yeah,” Angelica said, completely not aware of whom she was talking about. “I saw her after I left Damon one night. She was asking me all about you and Jay. Then she was like tell Jay I said hi. Do you know as soon as I saw Jay it was like something was forcing me to tell him that she had said say hi or something?” Her eyes narrowed, and then she shook her head as if what she said was silly. “But anyway Damon started getting angry and so did Jay. Honestly they all did.”

  “When did this happen?” I asked feeling slightly put off.

  “A few days ago,” Angelica said then rolled her eyes when Reed took some of her food from her plate. “Reed you totally suck!” She laughed.

  A few days ag
o. I thought, becoming angry. How dare he not tell me about this?

  Maybe that was the reason why he told me what he was? Because that was when Jay knew I was in danger.

  I shook my head. No way, Jay doesn’t care that much about me. He’s only acting like he does, because I am the only girl that has turned him down. And he can’t ever have me if she kills me.

  “Bonnie, did your mom talk to you the other night?” Keith suddenly asked.

  I had to stop myself from glaring at him. I had almost forgotten about the fact that I was mad at him for talking to my mom.

  “Yes she did.” I began then folded my arms. “And I can’t believe you did that. I told you I was going to ask her, but then you go off and ask her yourself.”

  “I’m sorry. It honestly just kind of happened.” Keith smiled; he must not have caught my tone. “I was asking if you were home and next thing I know me and your mother where talking and I just asked her if I could take you out. She was really ok with it. What she wasn’t really ok with it or something?”

  “No.” I said. “But that’s not the point.”

  “Then what is?” Keith asked. I wasn’t sure if I liked this new tone his voice was taking on. “You told me you were going to ask, yet you didn’t. Either you kept forgetting or you just were trying to give me the run around, because you didn’t want to go out with me.”

  “That’s not true.” I lied. He had really told the truth about me. I had forgotten and I didn’t really want to go out with him. I had too many things on my mind for a date right now. But even before everything I found out, I still wasn’t too sure about this date and was forgetting about it.

  “Then what’s the problem Bonnie?”

  I could feel all of my friend’s eyes on me. I glance around at all of them and saw that Reed was still playing around with Angelica but he and her both were still watching me. Even Jonathan and Beth who were clearly flirting with each other were paying attention.

  “I don’t like how you asked, when I told you I would.” I said. “I just don’t like it okay. I don’t like it at all.”

  “Well I’m sorry for wanting to go out with you. When you so clearly have better things to do”

  “Hey guys, we should all go bowling this weekend?” Beth said looking at everyone.

  “And I am sorry you’re acting like a jerk. When you, so clearly, have other girls always asking you out.” I said getting angry.

  “Bowling does sound like fun.” Reed added. “What do you think Keith?”

  “Are you serious?” Keith asked. “You’ve been acting so weird lately and you’re even talking to the forbidden four. Really Jay….you and him got something going on….is that the real reason you don’t want to go out with me? Have you just been lying about going out with him?”

  “We’re not going out.” I almost yelled. “But I think I would rather go out with him, then you right now.”

  “Really, well tell me how it feels to be fucked over.” Keith said and I stared at him wide eyed.

  He had never talked to me like this before.

  “Keith.” Angelica and Beth said at the same time.

  “Man, cool off.” Reed said.

  “Yeah,” Jonathan agreed.

  “It’s okay.” I said. “I will be sure to give you a full report ok.”

  I got up and began to walk out of the café. Before I could leave I saw Leon eyes, looking right into me. I wanted to talk to him, have him tell me it okay, he liked me.

  But he wouldn’t ever say words like that to me. He still loved Elizabeth and I wasn’t anywhere near coming close to having him like me like that.

  I just kept walking until I was by my locker.

  Once there I fall against it and my legs give out, making me sit on the floor.

  I didn’t need this right now. I already had too much on my plate.

  “Pet, don’t be so sad.” I heard Jay voice. It was soft….caring. “You can’t help it if you are so naturally beautiful that guys just flock to you.”

  I looked up and saw him walking over to me. I wanted to just get up and leave him, but something made me stay.

  “That line sounds like something from Gone with the Wind.” I said, almost shocked I had recognized it. “You steal energy and lines.” I smiled.

  “It’s from Gone with the Wind.” Jay said, ignoring my last statement. “I’ve got to pay more attention to what I watch or read.”

  “Yeah,” I grinned, despite myself.

  “You read a lot?” He asked.

  I wanted to ask him why he was being so chatty, but deicide not to.

  “Kind of,” I began and looked down the hallway. “I mean some people would say I read a lot and others would say I don’t read enough.”

  “You know when I was little I would read all the time. It was like if I read I wouldn’t have to face the world I lived in.” He said his voice held a distance to it and it felt like he wasn’t really talking to me, but to himself. “My father and mother were never around, but when they were it never felt like we were a family. They always had this idea of what I should be and whenever they were free, from whatever, they would come into my live and tell me what I needed to do.”

  “It always felt like no matter what I did, I could never be what they wanted. My father always pushed me, but my mother pushed me even harder….saying that I needed to make my father happy with me. But he is never happy with me.”

  I sat still and listened to him. Partly wondering why he was telling me this.

  “My sister was always gone, too. Dora never stayed home to long. I think because she was trying to run from something, rather she admits that or not. When she would come to see me, she always had a new pet with her. I once asked her why she always was with a new human.”

  “She told me that it felt good when you suck the life from a human, said it felt better then bliss when her lips touched theirs and if she stayed with the same human too the human would become too attached to her.” Jay turned his head to the side with a small smile. “I think that give her the escapes that my books gave me. That’s why she and Damon…..well anyway when I was younger I read a lot, but now I find other things to do to past the time.”

  His eyes looked at me with this lust look and for whatever reason I didn’t get mad at him. I just didn’t think he was looking at me like that fully because he wanted to kiss me, but because he wanted to hide something.

  I just shook my head and smiled.

  “I can tell.” I said softly, wondering that maybe there was more to Jay than I thought there was.

  Maybe he only was doing what he said his sister did to escape. And after I thought that I suddenly wanted to know more about him. I wanted to know just what he truly hind from everyone, maybe even his own brothers.

  After a moment of salience I realized I wasn’t thinking anymore about Keith or the fact that I was kind of mad at Jay for not telling me about Jennifer talking to Angelica.

  He had distracted me. I partly wondered if that was what he was trying to do in the first place.

  I shook my head at that thought.

  Jay wasn’t that nice.

  “After school we still need to talk.” Jay said and started to get up. When he was up and looked down at me then put his hand out for me to take.

  I took it and let him help me up. I stared into his eyes, feeling almost uneasy. I didn’t like feeling like this with Jay. He wasn’t supposed to have layers. He was supposed to be what you see is what you get.

  “Why are you looking at me like that?” Jay asked.

  “Like what?” I replied back.

  “Like you like me.” Jay grinned. His eyes then gave off this suggestive glance. “Of course you like me. I am tall, dark, and handsome.”

  “And so modest.” I laughed.

  “What’s not to like?” He continued as he ignored me.

  “What do you what to tell me in the cafe?” I asked shaking my head, now ignoring him. I kind of liked talking to him like this, I realized, but an
other part of me was screaming, this was Jay.

  “You’ll see.” He smiled.

  I opened my mouth to ask him to stop playing around, but he had started to walk away.

  My lips turned into a frown as I watched his figure walk back to the café.

  I wondered just what I was getting myself into. Something told me being friendly with Jay was going to start something I wasn’t all together sure I liked, but I wasn’t altogether sure if I disliked the idea either.

  Chapter 15

  Golden

  How could I think such a thing about Jay? I can’t like him at all. After everything I knew about him how I could even think that maybe there was something more than meets the eye, about him, is beyond me.

  But I just couldn’t shake that thought. Maybe if I got to know him I wouldn’t hate him so much and I wouldn’t mind thinking nice things about him.

  “Bonnie, didn’t you hear the bell ring?” I turned and saw Angelica walking to me. “And did Jay try to talk to you again? I saw him leave the café after you did and I thought maybe he went to talk to you. But that’s crazy right….oh and I totally yelled at Keith for how he was talking to you. I just can’t believe he was acting like that. Are you okay?”

  Angelica was talking very fast and I tried my best to recall everything that was said.

  “Jay did talk to me, but it wasn’t about anything really.” I began then slowly recalled her last question. “And I’m ok. I’m not going to pay too much attention to Keith.”

  “He’s just mad jealous.” Angelica giggled as the second bell went off. “I’ll see you later ok.”

  I shook my head and went off to my next class.

  Even with the fact that Angelica was back to normal I still could really focus on my class work.

  Jay kept coming to my mind.

  He wasn’t supposed to come to my mind. He was supposed to be someone I disliked and thought little of.

  I sighed. I didn’t have time to think about him. I had homework to do. I didn’t feel like doing any of it, but I had to do it. I could see my mother getting angry with me if my grades started to slip.

  They already weren’t where she wanted them to be. I would never live up to the grades that Mary had brought home, but something in my head told me as long as I didn’t bring any guys, she didn’t like, home I would be fine.