Taboo
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“Now come inside and I’ll help you get your stuff set up in the spare room.” We both open our doors at the same time and then I let her follow me inside. Noah is in the kitchen when we pass, but neither of us stop to fill him in. I need to have a little one on one talk with him about all of this anyway.
“You know where to find me if you need anything.”
“Thank you, Levi. Here are your keys.” She attempts to hand my truck keys back to me and I don’t reach for them.
“I told you to keep it until you found something to replace your Jeep.”
“I know you did, but I can’t keep getting handouts from you.”
“It’s not a handout; you’re just borrowing it until you get yours.” I walk toward the door, knowing she’s not going to make it easy to reason with her about this. “I have to work tonight at the club; will I see you there for your shift?”
“Yes. I’ll be there.” It makes me oddly at ease knowing I’ll get to see her tonight. I walk out, leaving her to think and giving myself a chance to see what Noah has been up to.
Chapter Seventeen
Noah
“We need to fucking talk.” Levi slams his hand on the patio table, rattling my coffee cup and everything else in the process.
“What’s your problem?” The sun shines around his body, so I can’t see his expression, but I know this is about Kali. Levi doesn’t generally let anything bother him. I guess that’s changed now.
“My problem is your ass needs to figure out what you’re doing. The rest of the world isn’t going to sit back and wait while you decide when you’ll allow Kali into your life or not. I’m fucking done seeing her hurt, so if that’s what you have as a grand plan, change it now.” He sits in the chair opposite me and glares with an anger I’m not used to seeing in him.
“Who says I haven’t figured it out?”
“We’ll see. But just know I’ll kick your ass if you lead her on only to throw her out again.” He cares about her. It’s written all over his face.
“Holy shit. You’re not just playing around with her, are you? You’re falling for Kali.” He stands abruptly, not looking at me again as he walks toward the sliding door.
“All you need to know is if you fuck up, I’ll be there ready to sweep in and save her while I kick your ass.” He leaves me sitting by myself outside and I wonder what she said to him exactly.
It seems like she broke it off with him to see what could come between us. I take the last sip of my coffee and slide inside, hoping to see her again. This couldn’t have worked out better for me this morning.
Kali
I’m still staring at the door to my new room when I hear a quick knock and see Noah peek in. “So you decided to stay.” He opens the door, proudly walking in with his head held high like he just won a competition.
“For a few days.”
“Good. It’ll give us time.” He sits on the edge of my bed and falls back, watching me as I move around the room.
“No, it’ll give me time. Just like I told Levi, I need to do some soul searching and you two are the reason I left in such a hurry this morning. I can’t breathe while you give me whiplash and Levi does everything I’ve ever wanted.”
“You can’t be serious about Levi.” I turn quickly, flashing him a stern look that shuts him up quickly.
“He’s been amazing and I won’t let you talk shit about him.” He sits up, raising his hands in defeat.
“Fine. He’s a great guy. Now let’s talk about me.” He’s so damn conceited that I want to choke him. How do I let him get to me like he does?
“You’re an ass. You’ve made that very clear over the years and you haven’t pulled back the past week either.” He stands and stalks toward me, slowly watching me take a step back with each one he takes forward.
“Just remember, you came to me. You’ve creeped into my bedroom more than once now, so don’t get pissed at me for this little predicament.” His breath hits my cheek as he finishes his sentence. His mouth is dangerously close to mine as he continues. “And now look where we are. Back to where we were the first night in my bedroom with your back against the wall and your eyes begging me to rip your clothes off so I can fuck you.”
“My eyes aren’t begging for anything.” I step around him, leaving him standing by the door alone.
“You forget that I’ve known you most of your life.”
“You forget that you haven’t been around me the last few years and you don’t know me like you used to.” He rubs his chin and leans against the door frame, imitating someone pondering one of life’s great mysteries.
“You’re right. It looks like I’ll need to change that in the next few days. Get a shower and change. I’m taking you somewhere.” He swings the door open quickly and leaves like a man on a mission.
“I have to work tonight.”
“I’ll have you there in time. No excuses Kali, get ready.” His voice gets further away before he finishes.
He has no boundaries. He’s established that many times, but the way he’s ordering me to get dressed on command, reminds me of the old Noah. The one that I fell for years ago.
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“Get in. I’m taking you to one of my favorite thinking places. Something tells me you’ll find it just as relaxing as I do.” He has the passenger window down when I step outside.
I glance over and see that Levi’s motorcycle is gone. I thought I heard the rumble of the engine just before Noah stepped into my room.
“How far are we going?”
“It’s just a few miles.”
We both sit in silence as the trees pass while he takes me down the road and into a wooded area that I didn’t even know you could go back into. The small road isn’t meant to be traveled and the further we go, the more I can tell this place will feel remote and give me the peace and serenity I need.
The view is gorgeous when we finally park in front of a small waterfall. I don’t wait for him to say anything before I’m out of his truck, walking toward the water.
I’ve always been drawn to water and that’s something he knows. “I love it.” Taking in everything in sight, I keep walking until I’m at the edge. He follows me and sits on a large rock. He hits the empty space next to him a couple of times to get me to sit with him.
“This place is gorgeous. And so quiet. You were right about me liking it.”
“See, I remember the important things about you.” I can feel him looking at me while I continue to take in our surroundings. “I even remember the expressions you make when you’re happy.” I lower my head at his words. Just when I think he’s still the giant ass he’s always been, he does something like this and surprises me.
“Why are you being nice to me?” He moves closer with my question.
“Let’s just say I’ve decided to go for what’s mine.” His words send a surge through my chest as I realize he’s talking about me.
“You don’t get to say that.” He moves his hand over my back and slides my hair away from my face before he leans in close.
“Sure I do, Kali.” He slides his hand down, then back up as he sends chills through my body with his touch. He pulls my face toward his and begins kissing me.
He’s being gentle, yet demanding. Like he wants to take his time, but expects me to meet him with every movement of his tongue. He tugs me onto him as he leans back, guiding me to straddle his waist.
His hands move fast over me, not allowing time for me to think about what’s happening. He’s Noah. All consuming and just as addictive as he always has been.
He slides the straps down on my tank top and lifts his head to kiss my chest. I love how his mouth feels on me and I’m screaming internally, hoping he’ll slide the material lower and focus on my sensitive nipples.
“Fuck, Kali.” His firm squeeze on my ass sends me even deeper into a swirl of delicate flesh that’s more pathetic than I thought possible. I’ve wanted him for so long and he feels better under me than I imagined.
Chapter Eighteen
Noah
I slide her tank top off and watch her nipples harden as the wind brushes over them. She’s grinding her hips on my waist, making my dick hard and throwing my restraint out of control.
I want her more than I’ve ever wanted a woman in my life.
She reaches between her legs and tugs open the button on my jeans while I pull hers open. She lifts off of me just long enough for us both to drop our jeans, then we race to get back into the same position.
Our lips crash into each other, both of us biting and kissing like this is our last chance to live life. I feel her heart racing against my chest even though her tits brush against me every time she rotates her hips over me.
My dick glides through her wetness a few times before she stalls over me, searching my eyes. She pivots her hips and we stare into each other as she slides down the full length of my dick.
“Noah. Oh my god. You. Feel. So fucking good.” She’s breathy, speaking between thrusts as she moves over me.
This is what I’ve been missing my entire life. The intensity we have together is something I’ve never experienced and something I’m not willing to walk away from. She’s mine. And someone I’ll fight like hell to keep.
The wind blows through her hair and even though I’m fighting the urge to take over, I hold back and just watch her move over me. The slow grind of her hips and the tightness between her legs has me nearly going insane.
Her hands spread over my chest allowing her to shift, sending me even deeper inside her.
“Kali. Fuck.” She lifts and drops her hips over and over until she’s frozen in place allowing her orgasm to race through her, practically paralyzing her with the most satisfied expression on her face. She pulls her bottom lip between her teeth as she moans through the end of her release.
Once she falls on my chest and her hair drapes over me, I take over. I spread both hands over her ass cheeks, giving me the grip I need to thrust into her slowly. I’m not in any hurry for this to end, so I’m making the most of every moment.
She starts to kiss over my chest and into my neck, softly biting every once in a while. Her skin is like silk against mine and the scent of her hair is even better this close.
I pull most of her hair into my grip, exposing her neck and chest to me when I tug her back to look at me. “You’re making me crazy. I’ll never be able to resist you after seeing you like this.” My words slip out and the smile on her face shows me what effect they have on her. My dick takes over, sending me thrusting in and out of her with a fury until I’m forced to pull out and send my release all the way up her back.
She manages to get another release in before I finish, so we both come to a stop together, looking into each other’s eyes while fighting for the breath that seems to escape us. I can feel her heart racing, matching my own while I come down from the high that she sent me to.
“Kali. I want you. Not just this, but all of you.” My deep grumble seems to startle her into reality. She sits up abruptly, looking shocked by my words.
“That’s what you say right now, but how will you be when we go back to the real world?” She moves off me with a quickness that sends a bolt of frustration through my body.
“What do I have to say to you to make you realize what I want?”
“I don’t know, I guess your history with keeping your word isn’t exactly clean when it comes to me.” She uses my shirt to dry her back before she puts her own clothes on. I toss my shirt over my shoulder after she throws it at me.
“That’s in the past.”
“I guess I’ll need to see that you’ve had a change of heart.” She starts pacing the small area, her face looking horrified as the realization of what just happened hits her. “I can’t believe I just did that with you.” Tears begin to fall down her face and before I can get to her, she’s crying out loud.
“Levi will hate me for this. How could I do this to him?”
“Wait, you were very clear about needing time to think about things. You two aren’t a couple, so what’s the issue?” I try to approach her only to have her walk away from me the second I get near.
“No we weren’t a couple, but that doesn’t stop the fact that I care about him. I don’t want him to ever think that I was using him to get to you, because in all reality I wasn’t. I really like spending time with him and I’m not even sure I want to stop. Jesus, this makes me sound like a whore!” She screams the last sentence before she takes off straight for the truck.
“No, it doesn’t. It makes you sound like a confused woman who cares about two men.” She turns abruptly to face be and uses her shirt to dry her own tears.
“Take me home please. I need to talk to Levi. And so help me if you try to beat me to it, I’ll never speak to you again.”
Chapter Nineteen
Kali
What have I done? Being near Noah has been something I’ve wanted my entire life and given the first chance, I take it, no matter the consequences to others. This makes me a monster and I’m terrified of what Levi will do once he finds out.
I can’t swallow past the lump in my throat while Noah drives us home. He’s still not wearing his shirt and that irritates me. “You have to put your shirt on.”
“Excuse me, but I’m not going to slide on a cum filled shirt just to keep your little secret. I personally don’t care if anyone thinks we just fucked.”
“Noah. You’re not going inside like that if he’s home.”
“Well princess, you’d better hope he’s long gone.” His attitude infuriates me and the lump in my throat turns into rage boiling at the base of my tongue.
“You’re such an ass.”
“Well, I’ve never claimed anything different and you know this about me, Kali.”
“I know the real you. The ass is the one you show the world just to keep from getting hurt.” He’s putting up his walls again, I can feel him. Only this time I’m not going to race to try to get him to stop. I just made the biggest mistake of my life by fucking him. Now I can’t think clearly to know if I’m coming or going.
How did I fall for two men? Both so different, yet both impacting me just as strongly. I can’t be with one of them without thinking of the other. This is no way for me to live my life and it sure as hell isn’t fair to them.
“Looks like you’re safe. He’s not home.” I slam the door of the truck closed before he has a chance to finish his sentence. I don’t have to be nice to him when he’s acting like this. In fact, if he can’t give me the time to clear things up with Levi, then that speaks volumes to me. I know where I stand. I must’ve been a challenge to him to get his hands on. He just wanted to prove that he could pull me away from Levi and mind fuck me at the same time.
“Look, Kali. This changes nothing. I still want you and I’ll stop at nothing to make sure you realize that.”
“Not now, Noah. You don’t know what you want.” I stop halfway up the stairs and turn to look at him. “Why don’t you really think about what it is you want out of this before you completely turn my world upside down once again.” And with that I turn and never look back. I close the door to Levi’s room and the overwhelming rush of guilt sweeps over me while I try to gasp for breath.
“What have I done?” I slide down the door until I’m sitting against it, my tears falling faster than I can dry them. I’m wrecked with shame for allowing myself to get into this mess and I don’t even know how to talk to Levi about what I’ve done.
I don’t really have time to come up with a plan before there’s a knock at the door. “Kali?” Levi’s voice sounds unsure on the other side of the door and my body is in instant panic as I crawl to my knees and hold it closed.
“Levi. I just need a minute.” I hear the sound of him sliding down the door o
n the opposite side, pulling me to match his action once again.
“I’ve got all day if that’s what it takes.” He’s being nice and if he only knew why I’m upset, he wouldn’t be sitting here with me.
“You need to just walk away. I’m no good for you.”
“Why don’t you let me make that decision?” His voice calms me even though it shouldn’t. I’m about to make him see just how bad I really am for him.
“Look at this. She won’t even let you in your own room.” I stand the instant I hear Noah.
“Noah, stay out of this!” I yell as I open the door, causing Levi to fall back just slightly when I surprise him. Levi stands when Noah walks by with a giant smile on his face. I have the urge to follow him and slap it right off his face, but choose to stay and talk to Levi.
He closes the door behind him, leaving us alone in his room once again. “I know this has been hard on you. I had some time to think this afternoon and wanted to talk to you about a few things.” He starts in first, so I have to interrupt him quickly.
“I need to tell you something first.” He flops down on his bed, looking me over and allowing me time to talk. Only I can’t manage to get a word out of my mouth. I don’t want to upset him and this is only going to do that.
“Kali, what’s wrong? You have me worried.”
There’s no easy way to do this, but I know for a fact if I leave this room without doing it, Noah will be waiting to do it for me. If I have a single chance of Levi not hating me, this needs to come from me.
“Please don’t hate me.”
“I could never hate you, Kali.”
“Levi, please let me finish before you say anything else. If I’m going to do this, I need to say it all at once.” He nods slowly, obviously not assured he wants to know what I have to say. “I’m completely stuck caring for two men. I came here a few weeks ago wanting to see Noah, then you came out of nowhere and showed me what it’s like to be truly cared about. I’ve had so much fun with you and I can’t tell you how much it means to me that you’ve protected me over and over again.” I start pacing again. Not looking at him seems to make the words come out easier.