If I Was Your Woman: A BBW Camden Love Story

by Mz. Toni

  “Really?”

  “Yes honey don't let the old age fool you, I was a P.Y.T in my days, hell I still am. We use to rip and run these streets, partying and fighting, them boys couldn’t get enough of us and I was thick as grits just like you,” she said laughing. I was really loving that whole thicka than grits phrase, it was catchy.

  “Are you guys still friends?”

  “She passed last year from that damn breast cancer but we were the best of friends until the day she took her last breath,” she replied.

  “I’m sorry to hear that Ms. Betty.”

  “Girl we had a good life, full of traveling and partying. We both lived our lives so I’m not sad, I’m just blessed to have known her and call me Mama Betty baby.”

  “Ok Mama Betty!” I said laughing.

  "Oh shit here comes my baby and his tramp girlfriend, I swear her ass can't be trusted!" she said annoyed. I turned around and who was walking our way, none other than Kasan and Keisha. If looks could kill, I'd be dead the way Keisha was grilling me when they walked over.

  "Hey mama I was just coming over to make sure you were good, I haven't really seen you all night," he said kissing her forehead just how he used to kiss mine.

  "Oh I'm good baby but I want you to meet someone," his mom said completely clueless to our history, I just wanted to run away.

  "Hey Mama Betty!" Keisha said happily.

  "Little girl how many times I got to tell you my name is Elizabeth I ain’t ya damn mama!" Ms. Betty said smartly. Keisha looked embarrassed and I was happy as hell, that’s what her ho ass get.

  "Anyways baby this is Shante, she's in school for social work, ain't she beautiful," she said like Keisha wasn't even there.

  "Did Kasan tell you that we're having a baby? You’re gonna be a grandma," Keisha said butting in again.

  "I'm his mother so of course he told me and like I told him ain't shit official until Dana proves it!"

  "Who is Dana?" Keisha asked stupidly.

  "DNA heifer but now that I'm seeing you, he don't even need no DNA test cuz ya dizzy ass ain't pregnant!" she screamed out. I couldn't hold my laughter in, I started cracking up.

  "What ya fat ass laughing at bitch! You just mad because he chose me and our child over your fat ass!" she said rubbing her stomach while smiling. I couldn't help what I did next, she was asking for it and the baby shower was damn near over so Cam would forgive me. I pulled out my phone and played the message I had recorded of her and the doctor.

  "So you say I'm mad but it's you that felt like you were losing him to the point that you had to fake a pregnancy, so bye Felicia!" I said laughing.

  "You fucking bitch!" she creamed attempting to slap me, but that ho was too slow. I dodged her slap and two pieced that bitch. I continued to pound her face in until I felt strong arms pull me up, I looked up to see Kasan holding me in the air and I snapped.

  "Don't fucking touch me!" I screamed slapping his ass in the face. Before I knew it, Camille, Marks mom and Kasan's mom were standing watching the drama unfold.

  "Calm down Shante please," he begged.

  "I'm calm Kasan just don't touch me!" I said walking over to Cam.

  "I'm sorry Kasan, I felt like I was losing you to her," she said grabbing him and crying.

  "Do you understand what the fuck you did?" he screamed in her face. I really thought he was gonna lay hands on her ass, but it was pointless, I had already did enough damage. She was bleeding from her swollen lips, her left eye was swollen shut and she had scratches and bruises everywhere.

  "Why are you doing this in front of all these nosey motherfuckers, let's go home and talk this out!"

  "Who you calling a motherfucker hoe don't make me dog walk ya nasty ass!" his mom snapped.

  "Chill mom I got this," he said walking her outside. I wasn't even gonna stick around and further entertain this bullshit so I grabbed my keys and prepared to leave.

  "Look I hope you had fun but I can't be around this right now," I said to Camille.

  "I had a great time bestie and I'm sorry you had to deal with this shit, go ahead and go home and relax," she said hugging me. Next, I walked over to Ms. Betty to kinda explain and say my goodbyes.

  "Hey Ms. Betty I'm sorry I acted that way in front of you, I know your son, I mean I didn't know you were his mom but I definitely know him."

  "Girl no need to explain, I already know who you are I just didn't know it was you, he never said your name before, but go on home and I'll call you in the morning, we can do breakfast," she said hugging me.

  On my way to my truck, I saw Keisha still begging and pleading with Kasan and it kind of looked like he was debating on whether or not he would forgive her. I wasn't even sweating it anymore, if he chose to take her back that's his dumb ass. We locked eyes and I just shook my head and drove off. I pulled up to the gas station and walked in to pay after grabbing a water. I swear I just wanted this day to be over. I felt someone tap my shoulder and was instantly annoyed until I turned around and recognized who it was.

  "Hey beautiful, long time no see," Tremayne said smiling.

  "Hey!! How you doing love?"

  "I'm alright can't complain feel me. But yo I wanted to hit you up, but after dude carried you out I assumed that was ya nigga."

  "Hell no he ain't my nigga, never was!" I said with an attitude.

  "Calm down mama I ain't do it," he said holding his hands in the air.

  "I'm sorry I just had a long day today and I'm ready for tomorrow," I said laughing.

  "Aight so since you’re single can I take up some of your time one day soon," he asked looking sexy as hell. I looked him up and down and damn he was definitely fine so it wasn’t the drinks. I was seriously ready to say no, but then Camille's voice came booming in my head. I could hear her now, "Girl if you don't stop playing and say yes to that fine ass nigga!!!" I couldn't help but laugh out loud.

  "Damn a nigga asking you out is funny to you?" he said faking hurt.

  "No no cut it out I was just thinking, but yes I would love to see you again," I said smiling. This time I took his number and promised to call him when I got home. That was a few weeks ago and we've been on a couple of dates, I really like him but I'm still wrapped up in Kasan. I decided to call Camille and see what she thought about the situation.

  "Hey bestie I got a question."

  "Ahhhhhh fuck!" she screamed into the phone.

  "Oh my God is it time? What's wrong, I'm on my way!" I asked worried.

  "Girl stop overreacting, I've been having contractions like every thirty minutes, and don't worry I called my doctor at CamCare she said that's normal."

  "Aight are you sure you're good?" I asked concerned.

  "Yes I will let you and Mark know when it's time now stop playing and ask me the question."

  "Aight well you know I've been dating Tremayne and I like him a lot but I love Kasan, do you think it's wrong for me to keep seeing Tremayne?"

  "Girl bye, y'all dating y'all ain't getting married. Who knows you might really fall for dude but you won't know unless you keep seeing him!"

  "You right bestie, thanks."

  "Oh shit! Now Shante, I'm gonna need for you not to overreact OK?"

  "Ok what's up?"

  "My water just broke. Now listen, I'm fine but I'm about to wash up, change clothes and grab my bag. Call Mark right now!" she screamed.

  "Ok ok I got you!” I said hanging up. I was scared and excited as I dialed Mark’s number.

  "She's in labor!" I screamed before he could even speak.

  "Oh shit oh shit I'm about to be a dad what do I do!"

  "Nigga go get her!! I have to make a stop but I'll be right behind y'all," I said hanging up and grabbing my keys. I know my best friend like the back of my hand and I know she needed her mom there. When I pulled up, she was sitting on the porch.

  "We got to go Camille’s water just broke," I said excitedly.

  "Oh my baby about to have her baby!" she screamed locking her door and hopping into my
truck. See no one knew that I was still giving Camille's mom info on her progress and pregnancy. It’s not that she didn't love her, they were both just being stubborn as hell, but my god baby was gonna end all of that tonight. We arrived at Cooper hospital in record time. I looked around for them but didn't see anyone until I spotted Kasan. "Where are they is everything ok?" I asked worried.

  "Yeah that nigga was so nervous he couldn't even drive," he replied laughing. We were all waiting until Mark came running out. "Man she keep asking for her mom saying she needs her, you need to get her here, I don't care what you have to do," he said obviously nervous for his girl.

  "She went to get coffee," I said smiling when her mom came walking up with coffee.

  "Why the hell y'all looking like that? Are my babies ok?" she asked worried.

  "Yeah everything is good but she won't stop crying for you," Mark said honestly.

  "Well what you waiting for hoodlum take me back there!" she snapped. I could see Mark biting the inside of his cheek but he did a good job biting his tongue.

  "You too Shante, she wants you in there too," Mark said grabbing my arm. He think he fooling somebody, he wanted me in there.

  "Mommy you came?"

  "Yes baby I would never miss this," she said kissing Camille's cheek.

  "Alright this baby is ready to come out so the next contraction imma need you to push!" the doctor said. Next thing I knew we were welcoming Mylee Camilla Jones into the world, she was a beautiful mixture of both Mark and Camille with a head full of hair and bright eyes. An hour later Kasan came into the room, he looked so cute holding Mylee I almost cried.

  "Look Mark, you know I don't like you but the love you have for my daughter is undeniable and I have you to thank for my gorgeous grandbaby so I want to put this behind us for her sake," I heard Camille's mom say to Mark. To say I was shocked was an understatement.

  "And Camille baby, I want you to know I'm sorry for pushing you away. I love you and I just wanted the best for you and I see he's the best to you so I'll accept it."

  "Awwwwww my niecey poo is here everybody done made up, this is perfect!" I said laughing.

  "Oh shut ya mushy ass up," Cam said laughing.

  Chapter 27

  (Shante)

  Things have been going great between me and Tremayne; we've been going hard for a few months. Since I ran into him at the gas station, he has been a permanent factor in my life. I would be lying if I said I was in love with him, but I did care for him. My feelings for Kasan still haven't changed, I miss him so much. I really miss our friendship but he fucked it up when he continued to play with my emotions. As I laid in my bed studying, I couldn't help but think of how different things could have been if Kasan would have chosen me. I wouldn't be in a relationship with someone that I didn't love and I would have my best friend but I'm too hurt to forgive him right now no matter how much I miss him. Tremayne asked me about my relationship with Kasan, I told him we were just friends and he dropped the conversation. I could tell he wanted to ask more but he kept it to himself which I appreciated. I loved a lot of things about Tremayne, but he damn sure wasn't Kasan, not in the least bit. Tremayne was flashy as hell, always walking around in the latest and Kasan always said that if you had real swag it could be seen and felt even if you were rocking Walmart clothes. He had a Benz and an Audi and a big ass house that I'm sure he didn't even own. He always thought he was right about everything and when he was wrong he refused to admit, that shit irked my soul but he treated me like a queen so even though I didn't really like his personality, he would do for now. As I studied, I felt my phone vibrate; it was Tremayne letting me know he was outside. Putting my books down I got up to let him in.

  “Hey beautiful!” he said greeting me with a big hug and kiss.

  “Hey Tre! What’s up?” I said smiling.

  “Your ass is what's up, you looking sexy as hell,” he said causing me to blush.

  “I look a mess so cut it out,” I said laughing. I had on a pair of Rowan College sweatpants, a wife beater, slippers and my hair was in a messy bun. Not to mention I had on my reading glasses, but he always knew what to say to make me feel special.

  “Sweatpants, hair tied, chilling with no makeup on. That's when you're the prettiest, I hope that you don't take it wrong,” he said quoting one of Drake’s lyrics causing me to laugh.

  “What brings you over here though?”

  “I can't come see my favorite girl?” he said faking sadness.

  “Of course you can, but you knew I was studying today and we were supposed to get together tomorrow.”

  “Well I wanted to know if you could come to this little get together I'm having at my crib?” he asked. Grabbing my waist, he sat me on his lap.

  “I don't know Trey, I'm supposed to study today not go out,” I said shaking my head.

  “Come on babe, I want to show off my woman,” he said while kissing my neck.

  “That’s cheating!” I said while moaning. That shit felt so fucking good and I haven't had any kind of sex since my last time with Kasan, I just wasn’t ready.

  “Please babe will you come just for a little?”

  “You know I hate driving all the way to your house Tre that shit is far as hell,” I said annoyed. He lived all the way in Mt. Holly. Now don't get me wrong, his house was beautiful and I enjoyed being there but the drive was annoying and the cops were assholes.

  “I’ll come scoop you, anything for you babe you already know!”

  “Naw I’ll drive myself but I’m not staying for too long.”

  “That’s cool,” he said kissing my lips softly. Damn my panties were dripping, I’m really thinking about just saying fuck it. I mean I’m sure Kasan fucking other bitches so why can’t I fuck my man. If all goes well tonight is definitely gonna be the night that I take the lock off this pussy and give him some.

  “Alright you gotta go. If I’m going to your house tonight then I got to really study while I have the chance and I have a class in two hours,” I said while getting off his lap.

  “Damn so you just kicking me out and shit,” he said while laughing.

  “Nooooo I’m not kicking you out but I do have to study and you are kinda a distraction,” I said kissing his lips.

  “Yeah aight, I’m outta here but be at my crib by nine tonight,” he said while walking out the door. After he left, I got ready for class. I knew I was gonna be tired as hell in class tomorrow fucking with Trey’s ass, but if he wants me there then that’s where I’ll be. When I arrived at class, it actually went fast as hell, especially since I only had one class for today. While leaving out the door someone bumped me causing all of my books to fall out of my hands.

  “Oh my bad mama,” the stranger said while bending down picking up my book. I knew that fragrance from anywhere so when he stood up I wasn't surprised to see Kasan standing in front of me.

  “Can we talk Tae baby?” he asked with his sad puppy dog eyes.

  “Kasan we don't have shit to talk about. I saw your text messages, I get it you're sorry I accept your apology but I don't want to be your friend anymore you hurt me!” I said hurt and pissed all at the same time. I let one tear fall from my eyes before I turned and walked away. I heard him calling my name and I knew he was following me; I just wanted to hurry and get to my truck. When he finally caught up with me, I turned around to see Trey standing in front of me, just my luck.

  “You good babe?” Tre asked while eyeing Kasan. He pulled me in for a hug while lightly kissing my lips.

  “Yeah I’m ok what are you doing here?” I asked not meaning for it to come out the way it did.

  “Damn am I interrupting something? What’s up Kasan, I forgot you knew my girl,” Tremayne said dapping Kasan.

  “Yeah me and Tae baby go wayyy back. You actually ended up meeting her at a party I threw for her.”

  “Damn my nigga, I forgot all about that shit,” Tremayne said lying his ass off.

  “Yeah take care of her for me, I need her back in o
ne piece,” Kasan said laughing.

  “Fuck is that supposed to mean?” Tremayne asked while I looked at Kasan with pleading eyes.

  “I'm just fucking with you my nigga!” Kasan said while laughing. I swear he irks my whole fucking soul.

  “You coming to my party tonight right?”

  “Yeah I got ya invite, I’ll be there if I can make it,” Kasan said brushing Tre off.

  “It’s gonna be a lot of thots so slide through bro!” Tre said with his disrespectful ass, he must have forgotten I was there.

  “Maybe but it’s only one person I’m checking for and she ain't no thot,” Kasan said winking at me. I'm happy Tre didn't notice or catch on to Kasan's bullshit.

  “I feel you but yo my babe ready to go so ill holla,” Tre said dapping Kasan up again. Once in my truck, I exhaled as both Kasan and Tremayne followed behind me. I didn't know what the fuck Kasan was doing but I didn't appreciate his games. When I got home, I saw Kasan parked down the street. At least he had enough respect to wait until Tre left before coming to my door. I said my goodbyes to Tre and waited until he pulled off before walking up to Kasan's truck.

  “What the fuck is your problem?” I snapped.

  “Why you kissing that nigga in front of me, are you fucking him?'' Kasan asked getting in my face.

  “Boy bye, he's my man what you think? Did you try and spare my feelings when you were flaunting that bitch around?”

  “So you don't miss me Tae baby,” he said invading my space. I just wanted to jump on his ass but I kept my composure.

  “Back the fuck up Kasan that shit ain't working this time. If I want to get fucked, I’ll fuck my man.”

  “You really gonna make me kill something yo!” he yelled punching his truck.

  “Whatever Kasan go have your temper tantrum somewhere else!” I yelled before walking away. He was looking so fucking fine but I refused to let up, I was gonna make that nigga pay for playing me out. When I got in the house I got myself ready for Tre's get together, I was actually nervous as hell. Once I showered, I started getting dressed. I was wearing a blue backless maxi dress that was very low cut in the front with two slits on each side showing all thigh and blue gladiator sandals. I was definitely feeling myself. I flat ironed my hair bone straight with a part in the middle, sprayed on Paris Hilton, added some MAC lip gloss and I was ready to go. When I finally pulled up to his house, there were cars everywhere. When I opened his door, I was pissed, it was crowded as hell and there were more bitches than dudes. This wasn't no damn get together, it was a house party. I walked around until I finally found Tre's ass.