If I Was Your Woman: A BBW Camden Love Story

by Mz. Toni

  “You call this a little get together?” I asked with my hands on my wide hips.

  “Damn babe you look sexy as hell!” he said while hugging me tight. Before I could even reply, we were interrupted by some ratchet.

  “Are you going to introduce me?” the ratchet asked. I swear if this was some long lost baby mama or somebody he was fucking I was going to leave and never look back, I refuse to go through the fucking drama.

  “Terry this is Shante my new woman,” Tre said smiling and then he turned to me.

  “Babe this is Terry my little sister.”

  “Hi it’s nice to meet you,” I said politely.

  “Nice to meet you too!” she said with a smile.

  “I'll talk to you later I’m gonna introduce her to everybody,” he said kissing his sister on the cheek. She was actually a very pretty girl. She looked to be about my age with shoulder length kinky twists in her hair. She was a little on the short side and she had a very pretty face. I was definitely tired of him introducing me to all these damn people so I was glad when he excused himself to go talk business. I was swaying to the music with a wine cooler in my hand when I felt someone tap me.

  “What’s up Tae baby?” I didn't even have to turn around to know who it was.

  “Hey Kasan I didn't think you were gonna come,” I said surprised.

  “I'll go anywhere you are,” he said with conviction.

  “Whatever Kasan!” I said rolling my eyes at his corny game.

  “What’s up you made it I see!” Tre said walking up to me and Kasan.

  “Yeah I decided to check it out but I’ll holla later,” Kasan replied walking away.

  Me and Tre were dancing and having a good time when some dick heads decided to fight, I looked over and they were headed our way. Before I could even react, I was pushed to the ground in all the commotion. I was trying to get up but my foot was hurting so bad and people were stepping on me. I felt a pair of strong hands lift me up, I didn't know who it was and I didn't care as long as I was off the fucking floor. I just knew it was Tre, but when I looked up, it was Kasan's ass. I swear this nigga was always around it was driving me crazy. I was glad that he was there because if not I would still be on the floor, where the fuck is Tre’s ass?

  “I'm good Kasan you can put me down,” I said while rubbing my foot.

  “Naw ya foot fucked up it might be broke,” he said sitting me down on one of the chairs in Tre's kitchen. He grabbed me some ice and was holding onto my foot. He then took my sandal off and started massaging my foot, I wanted to stop it but my foot hurt so bad and his hands felt so good I just said fuck it. I felt him put one of my toes in his mouth and suck it gently, then he slowly licked each of my toes, he had my panties dripping. I let him do his thing for a minute before I pulled my foot out his mouth.

  “You know I love you right?”

  “Everything I thought about us turned out not to be true so I don't know anything anymore,” I said sadly putting my head down.

  “I'm sorry I hurt you Tae baby, you mean everything to me you gotta know that,” he said lifting my head back up and kissing my forehead.

  “I have a boyfriend now Kasan but we can...” Before I could finish my thought Tre walked in.

  “What the fuck is this?” Tre asked walking in while Kasan had my foot in his hand.

  “When they started fighting I got knocked down where were you?” I asked pissed.

  “I'm sorry babe I thought you were good so I went to check on my sister,” his dumb ass said.

  “So you left her to be trampled while you went and checked on your sister who wasn't even near the fucking fight!” Kasan snapped.

  “Yo I respect you to the fullest but this shit is between me and my fucking girl!”

  “Nigga lower your fucking tone when you're speaking to me. If she was your girl then you would have made sure she was straight, you invited her to this ghetto ass party!”

  “Please stop it!!” I screamed. While trying to stand up my foot gave out on me and I almost fell, both of them reached to catch me.

  “She my girl, I got her!” Tre said heated. Looking at Kasan with the same pleading eyes as earlier, I prayed he just left the shit alone.

  “You got that my nigga but you make sure you don't invite her to any more of these parties, I would hate to have to dead a nigga because my Tae baby got hurt!” Kasan said with a smirk.

  “Trust me, I got her always, she safe!”

  “You talking fly shit while she over there fucking hurt!”

  “Hello can somebody help me!!” I asked snapping them out of there dick measuring contest.

  “You sure you good, I don't feel right leaving you alone here.”

  “She not alone she got me so she good,” Tre said.

  “Look just go Kasan, thank you so much for helping me but I’m ok,” I said hugging Kasan and whispering that I would call him. After everyone left, Tre carried me upstairs. I was still pissed that he left me there. I honestly wanted to leave with Kasan and I would have if I wasn't so mad at Kasan's ass, he definitely had Tre beat.

  “I gotta ask you something.”

  “Alright.”

  “What’s up with you and Kasan?”

  “I already told you he's a good friend of mine and he can be very over protective,” I said lying my ass off.

  “Are you sure that’s all he is to you?”

  “Yes I’m sure Tre!”

  “Alright say no more, you want a foot rub?” he said sweetly.

  “No I’m tired I just want to go to sleep,” I said turning over. I know I said tonight was the night but after my run in with Kasan it's so clear that I’m not over him. I can’t even see myself being with anyone else so I guess it’s safe to say I’m not ready.

  Early in the morning, I got up and left to head home. I didn't even bother to wake Tre, I was so confused I didn't know what to say to him anymore. I was glad that I had brunch plans with Ms. Betty after class so I could tell her about her crazy ass son. When I got home, I showered, dressed and was about to head out to pick up Kasan's mom but my phone rang, when I checked I saw it was Tre.

  “Good morning,” I said dryly.

  “Damn you don't sound happy to hear from me!”

  “I'm sorry my foot hurts and I’m still a little tired.”

  “It’s cool. So what are your plans for today?”

  “Nothing class, a little shopping and lunch.”

  “Oh you're doing all of that alone?”

  “No I’m going with a friend of mine.”

  “Not Camille, then who?”

  “Is everything alright Tre? I feel like you're asking me a ton of questions!” I said annoyed.

  “My bad just making sure you good.”

  “Alright well I gotta head out to class so I’ll hit you back later,” I said ending the call. That was weird as hell. It felt like he was clocking my moves like I’m a fucking child. I know I never had an actual boyfriend until now but I swear I didn't know it entitled him to know my every waking move. I brushed the funny feeling off and hopped in my truck to go to class. When I got out, I was starving and ready to meet up with Ms. Betty. I pulled up to her house and walked in the door without knocking.

  “Mama Betty it smells good as hell in here!” I yelled as I headed to the kitchen.

  “Thanks daughter-in-law,” she said while flipping pancakes. I swear I tell her every damn day that I’m not her daughter-in-law but she refuses to call me anything but that so I've gotten used to it.

  “I thought you wanted to go out for brunch?” I asked while eating a piece of bacon.

  “You know ain’t no damn restaurant cooking better than me so I figured we might as well stay here!”

  “Well you right and I’m starving!” I said while grabbing my plate. I piled on some bacon, sausage, pancakes, grits, cheese eggs, and hash browns. We sat down and began to eat and damn was it good. She was laughing hard as hell when I told her about what happened last night.

  “Gi
rl when my son love he loves hard so he can be a little over protective but you knew that already. I don't like that damn boyfriend of yours, what kind of nigga leaves his girl in the middle of a fight!” she yelled. I already knew she was gonna have something to say about that shit, hell I was still pissed about it.

  “Ma he had his chance and he blew it now I feel like I see him everywhere I turn,” I said pissed.

  “Girl don't be making my son sound like some damn stalker!” she yelled causing me to laugh.

  “I'm not saying that I’m just saying I’m seeing him way too much right now.”

  I must of spoke his ass up because in walks Kasan’s ass right in the middle of me talking about him.

  “What’s up ma?” he said bending over and kissing her forehead.

  “Hey baby!” she said truly excited to see his ass. Not me, I continued to eat without taking a glance at his ass.

  “I thought you told me you were hanging with your friends?” he asked while stealing a piece of bacon.

  “Nope I told your nosy ass no such thing.”

  “Well I just assumed you were going to be hanging with your little older girlfriends,” he said while looking over at me.

  “Well you know what they say about assuming!” I said smartly.

  “Don't start y'all bullshit today!” Mama Betty said while walking out of the kitchen.

  “Yo what the fuck is up with you Shante?”

  “'What you mean?” I said playing stupid.

  “Look I understand I hurt you, I get it you're pissed off at a nigga, but I've apologized over and over and I’m trying to show you that I miss our friendship and I want it back but you making it real hard for a nigga.”

  “You did hurt me and I was and still am upset Kasan, but I do miss you.”

  “I miss you too Tae baby. A nigga was going through it being around you all the time but getting ignored and shit,” he said hugging me.

  “Well I had to show you that you hurt me Kasan. I don't know what kind of friends you have but friends don't hurt friends the way you did me,” I said sadly.

  “I apologize and imma fix this shit trust me,” he said confidently.

  “Yayyyy I got my friend back,” I said jumping around dancing.

  “I knew you missed a nigga you were just playing hard to get.”

  “Boy bye ya ass missed me which is why you been begging for months!” I said laughing.

  “You got that but yo where we go from here?” he asked seriously.

  “What you mean?”

  “Are we friends with benefits? Are we gonna try to work on being together? Let a nigga know some things.”

  “None of that shit, we just strictly friends. Us being more almost cost you this friendship so let’s keep it as is,” I said hardly believing the words myself.

  “I respect that I fucked up so I guess I’d rather have you as a friend than not at all.”

  “Aight now can you go so me and Mama Betty can finish our girl’s day?”

  “So are you fucking that bitch nigga or what?” he boldly asked. See I should have known this nigga wouldn't be that cool.

  “I already told you it's none of your business what I’m doing with my man Kasan!”

  “What’s the difference between Cammy asking you are you fucking the nigga and me asking you? This is shit friends talk about,” he said smiling.

  “It’s a big difference. I should've known you had some bullshit under your sleeve!” I yelled pissed but smiling. I swear this nigga was something else but I think that’s one of the reasons why I love him so much.

  “Aight aight I’m out!” he said with his arms raised surrendering.

  “Ok I'll call you later,” I said while shaking my head. When Kasan left Mama Betty came back into the kitchen, she had the biggest smile on her face. I knew she wanted us to make up because she was tired of being the middleman between me and his bullshit.

  “What you smiling at?” I asked already knowing.

  “You and my son need to just stop playing and get married,” she said smiling.

  “Damn I just accepted him back as a friend and you already talking about marriage,” I said laughing. I swear this woman was too much for me.

  “Oh cut the bullshit I see how y'all look at each other, it's just how I used to look at his daddy before he got crazy.”

  “Yeah Kasan told me about his dad a little, bit but not much,” I said while sitting on the couch.

  “Girl he looks just like his daddy did at that age, he had what y'all little kids call swag, all the bitches was flocking but he only had eyes for me. I met Terrence when I was 19 years old. I was at the bar showing my ass and having fun because that's what me and my best girlfriend was known for, being the life of the party. I hear all these bitches start whispering and checking their makeup and I’m like what the fucks going on, where's the damn celebrity. I look up and see this dude walking over, I mean he was cute but I’d seen better in my opinion. All the girls started flocking, throwing themselves at him. That just wasn't my thing so instead of sticking around and finding out exactly who he was, me and my girl went on the dance floor. When it got hot, I went to the bar to get us something to drink. I turned to walk away but was stopped by a massive pair of hands on my ass. I looked at him and he had the cockiest smile on his face, but that shit didn't last long because before I knew it I had threw my drink on him and cussed his ass out,” Mama Betty shared her story of the night they met and I was in complete awe. Kasan's had all of his father's best qualities and even some of his bad ones.

  “You really loved him huh?”

  “Of course because we had some good times. He wasn't always a loser and he didn't always beat on me, he was all I knew and I had a hard time letting go, but I eventually did.”

  “Love will make you do some crazy things,” I said thinking about Kasan.

  Chapter 28

  (Shana)

  I don't understand how a mother could drop her child off and not even call or answer. Anything could happen or be wrong, I thought as I tried to call Angel for the hundredth time.

  "Angel its Shana again your daughter has a fever and I'm about to take her to CHOP, please call me back!" I said to her voice mail.

  "Auntie I don't feel good," Destiny sweetly said.

  "I know baby, I'm gonna take you to the doctors," I said while getting her dressed. I grabbed my phone and called Shante to meet me, I swear she's been a lifesaver since coming back into my life.

  "Hey sis I'm taking Destiny to the hospital can you meet me?"

  "Of course, I'm on my way. Did her cough get worse?" she asked worried.

  "Yeah and now she has a fever of 103.4, her skin is pale and she's weak."

  "Damn that's not good, hurry and get her there and I'll meet you. Where are the other kids?"

  "They're with Ray's mom so their fine, I'll see you at the hospital," I said hanging up with her.

  "Alright baby come on," I said picking her up and carrying her to the car.

  "I want my mommy and daddy."

  "I know baby just sit tight."

  This is weird. I didn't think she knew who her father was because I sure as hell didn't. After arriving to the hospital, we were taken to the back they didn't know what was wrong with her yet but they we're running test and trying to get her fever down. I couldn't take seeing all of those wires and IVs running from her body.

  "Auntie did mommy answer yet?" she asked innocently.

  "No not yet but I'm going to keep on trying."

  I walked out in the waiting room and was surprised to see Mark, Camille, Shante, Kasan and Ray waiting with worried faces. I knew that they all had gotten close to the kids but I was thankful that they all came.

  "Hey guys, thanks for coming,” I said hugging everybody.

  "Have they told you anything?" Camille asked.

  "No they’re running test as we speak."

  "And you still haven't heard from Angel's ass," Shante snapped.

  "Nope I've been calli
ng. It’s like she just dropped her child off and disappeared."

  "Have you heard from your baby mama?" Camille asked Mark.

  "Naw man I found some shit out, confronted her and ain't heard from her since and for the record that ain't my baby," he snapped.

  "Alright well imma head back there."

  "You need me to come with you?" Ray asked actually looking scared for my niece which was so sweet to me. He never really interacted with her when she came over but you could clearly see the love he has for her.

  "Yes seeing her looking fragile is really hurting me," I said trying to blink back my tears. I knew I couldn't go back there looking scared or weak because she would feed off that energy and in return get scared. When we made it to her room, she was sleep but actually looked better than she did when I brought her.

  "Hello I'm doctor Frasier are you her parents?"

  "No, I'm her aunt I can't seem to get in contact with her mother and this is my husband," I said shaking his hand.

  "Okay well here's the problem, she has pneumonia. We are going to do a course of antibiotics and fluids, good thing you brought her when you did, she had to have had this for a while," he said honestly.

  "Well when she first came, she did have a cough but I didn't really see it as a big deal."

  "Ok well she's here now and she'll be fine but I want to keep her here for a few days."

  "That's fine, thank you so much doc."

  "How the fuck didn't she know her child was sick?" Ray yelled with so much emotion I was taken aback. Destiny began to wake up and Ray was still upset so I sent him out to the waiting room to let everyone know what was going on. "Auntie was that my dad why didn't he stay?"

  "No baby that was uncle Ray but he'll be back," I said rubbing her forehead.