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Narrative Poems

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by C. S. Lewis


  Brooding alone beneath the strength of things,

  Murmuring of days and nights and years unfurled

  Forever, and the unwearied joy that brings

  Out of old fields the flowers of unborn springs,

  Out of old wars and cities burned with wrong,

  A splendour in the dark, a tale, a song.

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  The dream ran thin towards waking, and he knew

  It was but a bird’s piping with no sense.

  He rolled round on his back. The sudden blue,

  Quivering with light, hard, cloudless and intense,

  Shone over him. The lark still sounded thence

  And stirred him at the heart. Some spacious thought

  Was passing by too gently to be caught.

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  With that he thrust the damp hair from his face

  And sat upright. The perilous cliff dropped sheer

  Before him, close at hand, and from his place

  Listening in mountain silence he could hear

  Birds crying far below. It was not fear

  That took him, but strange glory, when his eye

  Looked past the edge into surrounding sky.

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  He rose and stood. Then lo! the world beneath

  —Wide pools that in the sun-splashed foothills lay,

  Sheep-dotted downs, soft-piled, and rolling heath,

  River and shining weir and steeples grey

  And the green waves of forest. Far away

  Distance rose heaped on distance: nearer hand,

  The white roads leading down to a new land.

  CANTO VI

  1

  The sun was high in heaven and Dymer stood

  A bright speck on the endless mountain-side,

  Till, blossom after blossom, that rich mood

  Faded and truth rolled homeward, like a tide

  Before whose edge the weak soul fled to hide

  In vain, with ostrich head, through many a shape

  Of coward fancy, whimpering for escape.

  2

  But only for a moment; then his soul

  Took the full swell and heaved a dripping prow

  Clear of the shattering wave-crest. He was whole.

  No veils should hide the truth, no truth should cow

  The dear self-pitying heart. ‘I’ll babble now

  No longer,’ Dymer said. ‘I’m broken in.

  Pack up the dreams and let the life begin.’

  3

  With this he turned. ‘I must have food to-day,’

  He muttered. Then among the cloudless hills

  By winding tracks he sought the downward way

  And followed the steep course of tumbling rills

  —Came to the glens the wakening mountain fills

  In springtime with the echoing splash and shock

  Of waters leaping cold from rock to rock.

  4

  And still, it seemed, that lark with its refrain

  Sang in the sky, and wind was in his hair

  And hope at heart. Then once, and once again,

  He heard a gun fired off. It broke the air

  As a stone breaks a pond, and everywhere

  The dry crags echoed clear: and at the sound

  Once a big bird rose whirring from the ground.

  5

  In half an hour he reached the level land

  And followed the field-paths and crossed the stiles,

  Then looked and saw, near by, on his left hand

  An old house, folded round with billowy piles

  Of dark yew hedge. The moss was on the tiles,

  The pigeons in the yard, and in the tower

  A clock that had no hands and told no hour.

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  He hastened. In warm waves the garden scent

  Came stronger at each stride. The mountain breeze

  Was gone. He reached the gates; then in he went

  And seemed to lose the sky—such weight of trees

  Hung overhead. He heard the noise of bees

  And saw, far off, in the blue shade between

  The windless elms, one walking on the green.

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  It was a mighty man whose beardless face

  Beneath grey hair shone out so large and mild

  It made a sort of moonlight in the place.

  A dreamy desperation, wistful-wild,

  Showed in his glance and gait: yet like a child,

  An Asian emperor’s only child, was he

  With his grave looks and bright solemnity.

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  And over him there hung the witching air,

  The wilful courtesy, of the days of old,

  The graces wherein idleness grows fair;

  And somewhat in his sauntering walk he rolled

  And toyed about his waist with seals of gold,

  Or stood to ponder often in mid-stride,

  Tilting his heavy head upon one side.

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  When Dymer had called twice, he turned his eye:

  Then, coming out of silence (as a star

  All in one moment slips into the sky

  Of evening, yet we feel it comes from far),

  He said, ‘Sir, you are welcome. Few there are

  That come my way’: and in huge hands he pressed

  Dymer’s cold hand and bade him in to rest.

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  ‘How did you find this place out? Have you heard

  My gun? It was but now I killed a lark.’

  ‘What, Sir!’ said Dymer; ‘shoot the singing bird?’

  ‘Sir,’ said the man, ‘they sing from dawn till dark,

  And interrupt my dreams too long. But hark . . .

  Another? Did you hear no singing? No?

  It was my fancy, then . . . pray, let it go.

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  ‘From here you see my garden’s only flaw.

  Stand here, Sir, at the dial.’ Dymer stood.

  The Master pointed; then he looked and saw

  How hedges and the funeral quietude

  Of black trees fringed the garden like a wood,

  And only, in one place, one gap that showed

  The blue side of the hills, the white hill-road.

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  ‘I have planted fir and larch to fill the gap,’

  He said, ‘because this too makes war upon

  The art of dream. But by some great mishap

  Nothing I plant will grow there. We pass on . . .

  The sunshine of the afternoon is gone.

  Let us go in. It draws near time to sup

  —I hate the garden till the moon is up.’

  13

  They passed from the hot lawn into the gloom

  And coolness of the porch: then, past a door

  That opened with no noise, into a room

  Where green leaves choked the window and the floor

  Sank lower than the ground. A tattered store

  Of brown books met the eye: a crystal ball:

  And masks with empty eyes along the wall.

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  Then Dymer sat, but knew not how nor where,

  And supper was set out before these two,

  —He saw not how—with silver old and rare

  But tarnished. And he ate and never knew

  What meats they were. At every bite he grew

  More drowsy and let slide his crumbling will.

  The Master at his side was talking still.

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  And all his talk was tales of magic words

  And of the nations in the clouds above,

  Astral and aerish tribes who fish for birds

  With angles. And by history he could prove

  How chosen spirits from earth had won their love,

  As Arthur, or Usheen: and to their isle

  Went Helen for the sake of a Greek smile.

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  And ever in his talk he mustered well

  His texts and strewed old auth
ors round the way,

  ‘Thus Wierus writes,’ and ‘Thus the Hermetics tell,’

  ‘This was Agrippa’s view,’ and ‘Others say

  With Cardan,’ till he had stolen quite away

  Dymer’s dull wits and softly drawn apart

  The ivory gates of hope that change the heart.

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  Dymer was talking now. Now Dymer told

  Of his own love and losing, drowsily.

  The Master leaned towards him, ‘Was it cold,

  This spirit, to the touch?’—‘No, Sir, not she,’

  Said Dymer. And his host: ‘Why this must be

  Aethereal, not aerial! O my soul,

  Be still . . . but wait. Tell on, Sir, tell the whole.’

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  Then Dymer told him of the beldam too,

  The old, old, matriarchal dreadfulness.

  Over the Master’s face a shadow drew,

  He shifted in his chair and ‘Yes’ and ‘Yes,’

  He murmured twice. ‘I never looked for less!

  Always the same . . . that frightful woman shape

  Besets the dream-way and the soul’s escape.’

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  But now when Dymer made to talk of Bran,

  A huge indifference fell upon his host,

  Patient and wandering-eyed. Then he began,

  ‘Forgive me. You are young. What helps us most

  Is to find out again that heavenly ghost

  Who loves you. For she was a ghost, and you

  In that place where you met were ghostly too.

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  ‘Listen! for I can launch you on the stream

  Will roll you to the shores of her own land . . .

  I could be sworn you never learned to dream,

  But every night you take with careless hand

  What chance may bring? I’ll teach you to command

  The comings and the goings of your spirit

  Through all that borderland which dreams inherit.

  21

  ‘You shall have hauntings suddenly. And often,

  When you forget, when least you think of her

  (For so you shall forget), a light will soften

  Over the evening woods. And in the stir

  Of morning dreams (oh, I will teach you, Sir)

  There’ll come a sound of wings. Or you shall be

  Waked in the midnight murmuring, “It was she.”’

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  ‘No, no,’ said Dymer, ‘not that way. I seem

  To have slept for twenty years. Now—while I shake

  Out of my eyes that dust of burdening dream,

  Now when the long clouds tremble ripe to break

  And the far hills appear, when first I wake,

  Still blinking, struggling towards the world of men,

  And longing—would you turn me back again?

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  ‘Dreams? I have had my dream too long. I thought

  The sun rose for my sake. I ran down blind

  And dancing to the abyss. Oh, Sir, I brought

  Boy-laughter for a gift to gods who find

  The martyr’s soul too soft. But that’s behind.

  I’m waking now. They broke me. All ends thus

  Always—and we’re for them, not they for us.

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  ‘And she—she was no dream. It would be waste

  To seek her there, the living in that den

  Of lies.’ The Master smiled. ‘You are in haste!

  For broken dreams the cure is, Dream again

  And deeper. If the waking world, and men,

  And nature marred your dream—so much the worse

  For a crude world beneath its primal curse.’

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  —‘Ah, but you do not know! Can dreams do this,

  Pluck out blood-guiltiness upon the shore

  Of memory—and undo what’s done amiss,

  And bid the thing that has been be no more?’

  —‘Sir, it is only dreams unlock that door,’

  He answered with a shrug. ‘What would you have?

  In dreams the thrice-proved coward can feel brave.

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  ‘In dreams the fool is free from scorning voices.

  Grey-headed whores are virgin there again.

  Out of the past dream brings long-buried choices,

  All in a moment snaps the tenfold chain

  That life took years in forging. There the stain

  Of oldest sins—how do the good words go?—

  Though they were scarlet, shall be white as snow.’

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  Then, drawing near, when Dymer did not speak,

  ‘My little son,’ said he, ‘your wrong and right

  Are also dreams: fetters to bind the weak

  Faster to phantom earth and blear the sight.

  Wake into dreams, into the larger light

  That quenches these frail stars. They will not know

  Earth’s bye-laws in the land to which you go.’

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  —‘I must undo my sins.’—‘An earthly law,

  And, even in earth, the child of yesterday.

  Throw down your human pity; cast your awe

  Behind you; put repentance all away.

  Home to the elder depths! for never they

  Supped with the stars who dared not slough behind

  The last shred of earth’s holies from their mind.’

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  ‘Sir,’ answered Dymer, ‘I would be content

  To drudge in earth, easing my heart’s disgrace,

  Counting a year’s long service lightly spent

  If once at the year’s end I saw her face

  Somewhere, being then most weary, in some place

  I looked not for that joy—or heard her near

  Whispering, “Yet courage, friend,” for one more year.’

  30

  ‘Pish,’ said the Master. ‘Will you have the truth?

  You think that virtue saves? Her people care

  For the high heart and idle hours of youth;

  For these they will descend our lower air,

  Not virtue. You would nerve your arm and bear

  Your burden among men? Look to it, child:

  By virtue’s self vision can be defiled.

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  ‘You will grow full of pity and the love of men,

  And toil until the morning moisture dries

  Out of your heart. Then once, or once again,

  It may be you will find her: but your eyes

  Soon will be grown too dim. The task that lies

  Next to your hand will hide her. You shall be

  The child of earth and gods you shall not see.’

  32

  Here suddenly he ceased. Tip-toes he went.

  A bolt clicked—then the window creaked ajar,

  And out of the wet world the hedgerow scent

  Came floating; and the dark without one star

  Nor shape of trees nor sense of near and far,

  The undimensioned night and formless skies

  Were there, and were the Master’s great allies.

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  ‘I am very old,’ he said. ‘But if the time

  We suffer in our dreams were counted age,

  I have outlived the ocean and my prime

  Is with me to this day. Years cannot gauge

  The dream-life. In the turning of a page,

  Dozing above my book, I have lived through

  More ages than the lost Lemuria knew.

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  ‘I am not mortal. Were I doomed to die

  This hour, in this half-hour I interpose

  A thousand years of dream: and, those gone by,

  As many more, and in the last of those,

  Ten thousand—ever journeying towards a close

  That I shall never reach: for time shall flow,

  Wheel within wheel, interminably slow.

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  ‘An
d you will drink my cup and go your way

  Into the valley of dreams. You have heard the call.

  Come hither and escape. Why should you stay?

  Earth is a sinking ship, a house whose wall

  Is tottering while you sweep; the roof will fall

  Before the work is done. You cannot mend it.

  Patch as you will, at last the rot must end it.’

  36

  Then Dymer lifted up his heavy head

  Like Atlas on broad shoulders bearing up

  The insufferable globe. ‘I had not said,’

  He mumbled, ‘never said I’d taste the cup.

  What, is it this you give me? Must I sup?

  Oh, lies, all lies . . . Why did you kill the lark?

  Guide me the cup to lip . . . it is so dark.’

  CANTO VII

  1

  The host had trimmed his lamp. The downy moth

  Came from the garden. Where the lamplight shed

  Its circle of smooth white upon the cloth,

  Down mid the rinds of fruit and broken bread,

  Upon his sprawling arms lay Dymer’s head;

  And often, as he dreamed, he shifted place,

  Muttering and showing half his drunken face.

  2

  The beating stillness of the dead of night

  Flooded the room. The dark and sleepy powers

  Settled upon the house and filled it quite;

  Far from the roads it lay, from belfry towers

  And hen-roosts, in a world of folded flowers,

  Buried in loneliest fields where beasts that love

  The silence through the unrustled hedgerows move.

  3

  Now from the Master’s lips there breathed a sigh

  As of a man released from some control

  That wronged him. Without aim his wandering eye,

  Unsteadied and unfixed, began to roll.

  His lower lip dropped loose. The informing soul

  Seemed fading from his face. He laughed out loud

  Once only: then looked round him, hushed and cowed.

  4

  Then, summoning all himself, with tightened lip,

  With desperate coolness and attentive air,

  He touched between his thumb and finger-tip,

  Each in its turn, the four legs of his chair,

  Then back again in haste—there!—that one there

  Had been forgotten . . . once more! . . . safer now;

  That’s better! and he smiled and cleared his brow.

  5

  Yet this was but a moment’s ease. Once more

  He glanced about him like a startled hare,

  His big eyes bulged with horror. As before,

  Quick!—to the touch that saves him. But despair

  Is nearer by one step; and in his chair

  Huddling he waits. He knows that they’ll come strong

  Again and yet again and all night long;

 

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