No Going Back (Siren Publishing Allure)

by Redrae Gunn

  Now to convince her of that…

  Chapter 17

  Tayen sat on the porch of the cabin and watched Caleb walk up the trail. Half Smile slunk down and whined. Tayen patted her head. “I know, honey,” she whispered to the wolf. “He does that to me, too. Pretty sexy though, you have to admit.”

  Half Smile licked her lips, but she was probably hoping that Tayen would kill and smoke Caleb. Instead Tayen invited him inside the cabin. Tayen left the door open so that Half Smile could come and go as she pleased instead of pacing nervously on the porch.

  “We spoke about this on the rescue mission,” Caleb started and paused. Time for do or die. He watched Tayen’s breath catch, and it gave him encouragement. “I want you, Tayen.”

  “I want you, too,” she breathed, rubbing her lower abdomen. “I just don’t want to get hurt again.” Her eyes unfocused for a moment, and her hand rubbed her chest. Her eyes focused again, and she looked at Caleb. “I’d rather live alone then be with someone who can hurt me.”

  “I appreciate your honesty, Tayen, and we have discussed that,” Caleb said, his Dominant side coming to the surface. “I want you to be mine, to be available when I need for what I need. That pleases me and makes me happy.”

  “I was open to you,” Tayen replied, “but I liked making you happy because it made me happy. I know that you fulfill a need in me, and I liked the way you fulfilled it.” Tayen looked at Half Smile, who had curled into a ball just inside the door. She may have appeared to be sleeping, but she had eyes on Caleb and Tayen.

  “You will give me the chance to prove it,” Caleb said.

  “I will,” Tayen said, fighting through her own fear of getting hurt again.

  “I leave in the morning,” Caleb said. “I have a concert to promote, produce, and all of the fun things that go with it, coming up this weekend.”

  Tayen glanced up at Caleb. “What do you want from me?”

  “I want you back home within the week,” Caleb replied. “I want you to resume your daily activities as David needs you as much as I do. I want you to let me resume my place in your life as well.”

  “In return?” Tayen asked.

  “You will have your needs fulfilled,” Caleb said firmly. “The previous contract will stand as was for an extension of six months. After all, we are testing the waters here. However, shall the contract be extended it will include a vacation during the summer months where you can spend your vacation here.”

  “Here?” Tayen smiled and then she frowned. “Here? Or where you tell me to go?”

  “Here and nowhere else,” Caleb replied. “You will be available to me during that time if I so wish to visit.”

  Tayen nodded her head considering the freedom Caleb was giving her. The rules were comforting. The freedom was invigorating. He wasn’t neglecting her needs. He was seeing that they were met, and he was offering the control that she desperately needed.

  “Yes, sir,” Tayen replied, kneeling gracefully at Caleb’s feet.

  “Thank you, Tayen,” Caleb said gently. “You have the kindest, most forgiving heart that I have ever met. I won’t betray that forgiveness, or lose your trust. I swear that to you.”

  “Thank you, Caleb,” Tayen replied, her head still down.

  “Come to bed,” Caleb said.

  “Yes, Master,” Tayen replied as she led Caleb into the bedroom.

  Caleb heard the rain outside, and he saw through the sliding glass doors the place that Tayen had built for her “rain showers.” Caleb pointed outside and said, “I would like to watch you shower.”

  Tayen stripped down, leaving her dirty leather on the wood floor, and opened the sliding glass door, breathing deeply the scent of pine and fading summer. She smiled and walked to the shower, letting the rain hit her naked body. She looked up at the sky and held her arms out, letting the rain wash away the salty smell of sweat and the dirt that clung to her body. The cool rain pushed the last of the summer heat away, and she scrubbed her body with the bar of rose petal soap she had left on the rock pedestal.

  “You’re going to ride me now, Tayen,” Caleb whispered.

  Tayen spun around a little startled that she hadn’t heard his approach. She nodded her head in the pouring rain and straddled Caleb as he sat on one of the large rocks that circled her rain shower.

  Tayen placed Caleb’s erect penis at her opening. Caleb held his penis with one hand and waited. When Tayen didn’t move, Caleb pulled her down on his erect shaft, moaning as she pulled up and her pussy clenched tightly around him.

  “It’s been a while,” Tayen said, shaking her head. “I need a little time.”

  “You have three more strokes to become reacquainted,” Caleb said forcefully. When Tayen’s pussy clenched around him again, he knew that she was the one for him. “Count them.”

  Tayen forced herself further down on his cock and then pulled up quickly. “One.”

  “One, what?” Caleb said.

  “One, Master,” Tayen replied. Then she lowered herself again to the point of uncomfortable fullness. She could feel herself wanting more, getting more wet, but she wasn’t quite there yet. “Two, Master,” she said a little louder, and she knew she only had one more chance to become reacquainted.

  Tayen took a deep breath, and she slid down far enough that her clit touched the base of Caleb’s penis, and it sent shivers through her entire body. When she went to pull off, Caleb held her hips in their position. Tayen clenched again as she managed to say, “Three, Master.”

  “You can take more,” Caleb said. When Tayen shook her head, Caleb pulled Tayen down further and she arched her back as he then cradled her in his arms. “Yes, Tayen. Take all of me. Come all over me. I love your tight pussy. I love how you surrender. Give yourself to me, Tayen. I own you. I want all of you. Give me what I want. Give me what I need.”

  Tayen clung to Caleb’s shoulders as the first orgasm ripped through her body.

  “That’s my girl,” Caleb said, and he brought his hand around to her back side and stroked her anus as she rode out her orgasm.

  “Pleeeeaaase,” Tayen quietly whined as the sensations started to overload her brain. She wasn’t sure which way to rub.

  “Breathe,” Caleb commanded as he pushed one finger into Tayen’s backside. When Tayen froze, Caleb commanded, “Ride.”

  Tayen lowered herself gently, felt the burning sensation, and then froze. She stopped, took a deep breath, and then lowered herself further. Everything inside of Tayen tensed.

  “Very good.” Caleb kissed Tayen’s nipple, offering encouragement. “Again please.”

  Tayen raised and lowered herself. Soon she quit counting as everything inside of her spasmed and she grabbed Caleb’s shoulders to keep from falling over. “Caleb, I…” Tayen moaned.

  “For me,” Caleb said.

  “Yes, Caleb,” Tayen whispered as every muscle in her lower half milked him into exploding with her. “For you.”

  * * * *

  Tayen woke the next morning to the smell of coffee. She sat up on the bed and felt the soreness in her nether region. She walked outside to the porch and saw Half Smile grinning at her. When Half Smile took off into the woods with one of the male members of the “tame pack” on her heels, Tayen couldn’t help but grin back at her.

  Yes, they were their own pack, but they still had needs. Tayen walked back into the cabin and saw Caleb making perfect, farm fresh eggs on the hot plate.

  The smile on his face was infectious. The muscles under his skin moved with ease and relaxed grace. Tayen took a moment to enjoy the view as Caleb served her breakfast. As he filled her in on his latest tours and clients, Tayen just grinned. He was hers. She was his.

  This time there was nothing to hide. They had worked through that on the rescue trip. Now was their time. Together. Her heart swelled, and she felt love that she hadn’t felt before.

  Caleb looked at Tayen with softness in his eyes. She was everything he had hoped to find. Everything he had wanted, and here she wa
s. Finally, he felt complete.

  * * * *

  Tayen pulled her Harley into the garage and parked it in Caleb’s open spot. She looked at her Jeep and noted that she needed to get it washed. She checked in with Cindy and Chad and then went upstairs to her room. It felt so closed in. She opened the windows and welcomed the breeze, no matter how it smelled nothing like tilled dirt, warm hay, or fresh pine boughs. She rocked on her bed, hands holding her heart from breaking though her chest, and she cried herself to sleep.

  “She didn’t call,” Caleb said into his phone.

  “She’s a little emotional when she gets back,” David replied. “I went to check on her, and she was crying, so I left her alone. If she cries herself to sleep, she feels better in the morning.”

  “Too bad she doesn’t feel physical pain,” Caleb replied. “I could help her cry with a healthy spanking.”

  David coughed, and Caleb apologized for going sexual with the conversation. David forgave him but agreed. It was too bad. Tayen could probably use that type of release every now and again. Caleb got a beep on the other line. It was Tayen, so Caleb let David go and he answered her call.

  “I’m home,” Tayen said when Caleb answered the phone.

  “Are you okay with being home?” Caleb asked.

  “Not really, to be honest with you, but isn’t that how people feel when they return from vacation?” Tayen paused. When Caleb didn’t respond, Tayen continued, “I am back to work at the store, which I love. I’m following David’s fucking orders, he’s been a bear. I still feel off.”

  “Us?” Caleb asked, knowing what her answer would be.

  “Yes,” Tayen replied. “When will you be home? BOB can’t do what you do.”

  “Call Damien,” Caleb replied.

  “No.”

  “Have David take you then,” Caleb said.

  “No.”

  “Go by yourself to The Cave then,” Caleb said as he started to get upset. It wasn’t like Tayen to be this hostile.

  “No.”

  “Tell me what is wrong,” Caleb commanded.

  “No.”

  Caleb was about to tell her that she was in huge trouble when he got back but the beep in his ear told him that Tayen had just hung up on him. Caleb tried to call her back, but it went instantly to voice mail. Caleb swore as he called Theresa. He wanted the next flight out of Tampa, and he didn’t care who suffered. He wanted to be in Omaha within the next six hours. He had a very rude submissive to punish.

  On the flight back to Omaha Caleb considered all the ways that he could punish Tayen. Bring her to the edge? Show her a machine that would fuck her as he was at the controls? Perhaps force her into a scene? Caleb shook his head at the thought. Tayen wasn’t ready for a public scene. Perhaps, he would just let her feel that she was no longer pleasing him. Caleb shook his head again. Giving Tayen the only pain she could feel was not what he wanted to do.

  Caleb grinned as the plane landed and he realized how controlling his little submissive could be. She hadn’t been rude. She had absolutely goaded him into coming home early. The little innocent, but ever so clever, Tayen had hung up on him on purpose and not answered his call knowing that her disrespect would have him coming home early. Caleb’s chest tightened with the small flame that he was starting to feel again. Tayen had found his weakness and used it against him. Caleb’s weakness was Tayen. He loved her. There was relief in admitting it. He loved her.

  Caleb let himself into Tayen’s home. The only light came from upstairs, so he followed the light. A flickering light came from Tayen’s bathroom, and a soft candle was lit inside. Caleb stepped into the bathroom and watched as his naked Tayen started to softly touch her fingers to the hand drum in front of her. She nodded to the tub and Caleb shook his head at her as he stripped and lowered himself into the bubbling bathwater.

  Even under the water, Caleb could hear the soft beat of the drum.

  “I didn’t think that you played a musical instrument,” Caleb said when he emerged from the suds of the bath.

  “I didn’t when I said that I didn’t,” Tayen whispered softly as she continued the beat. “Maska taught me in the two days after you left.”

  “It’s very good,” Caleb said.

  “It’s just a beat.”

  “The beat is the heart of the song,” Caleb said to Tayen. “Come join me.”

  Tayen put aside the drum and slid into the warm water. “The heart of the song?”

  “The beat of my heart,” Caleb replied.

  “It’s the beat of mine.”

  “It matches mine, Tayen,” Caleb whispered as he pulled Tayen to straddle him. “Now ride me.”

  Tayen lowered herself onto both Caleb’s hard organ and the finger that played with her nether region. She was his, and she loved him. She loved pleasing him. Pleasing him pleased her.

  “I love you, Caleb,” Tayen whispered as the first orgasm started her muscles clenching.

  Caleb growled as Tayen’s sweet wetness pushed him to the brink of control.

  “I love you, Tayen,” Caleb replied as he gently eased a second finger inside her. When she paused, he asked, “Do you need to count?”

  “No, Caleb,” Tayen breathed as she started her downward stroke. Her body was on fire. It needed this release. Tayen needed Caleb so much. “It’s so much.”

  “But not too much, papoose, you can handle it,” Caleb said as he wrapped his arm around Tayen’s hips and forced her down on both his fingers and his cock.

  Tayen sucked in a deep breath as the fullness turned into the most intense need that she had ever felt. Her muscles started to clench, this time from the toes, and she forced herself to ride Caleb hard as her need for him, filling her completely, brought her complete satisfaction.

  Caleb fought his orgasm as Tayen rode him hard. Her firm tits rubbed against his chest, and he leaned to catch one of the hard nipples in his mouth. The steam from the bathwater combined with a thin mist of sweat creating a taste so erotic Caleb moaned. He wasn’t going to hold out much longer, and when he felt Tayen’s rhythm disintegrate as her orgasm threatened, he forced her down on him hard.

  “For me, Tayen,” Caleb commanded as he forced her down again.

  “Only for you, Caleb,” Tayen whispered. Her shuddering body matched his, and she lay panting on him, completely spent. She stifled a moan when Caleb lifted her off of him.

  He picked her up and carried her into her room. He dried her off, and her eyes drooped before he was finished. He helped her into bed and waited only a few minutes before her breathing slowed and evened.

  Tayen curled into a ball and started to softly snore. It was way past the sunset. Caleb noticed that a hammock had been added to her room. The hammock was on a stand next to the open window. Four pine trees in large pots surrounded the hammock which looked like it had been slept in recently judging by the way a very old leather blanket was balled up at one end. Caleb remembered David’s pictures of Tayen as she had slept by the fire in the hammock.

  Caleb extinguished the candle in the bathroom and drained the bathtub. As the light faded from the room, Caleb watched the ceiling come to life. He stood by the bed and stared at Tayen’s ceiling. She had painted the entire ceiling in glow in the dark paint. Several planets emerged, surrounded by clusters of comets and shooting stars. The constellations were disturbingly accurate.

  Caleb understood why Tayen had painted the ceiling. She had made her home feel like a home. He thought of his own home and how it reflected his own memories of the fleeting happy moments in his life.

  Caleb looked down at Tayen as she curled tighter into her blanket and the protectiveness he felt made him shake and nearly fall to his knees. He would give his life for her. She had already admitted, on their rescue mission, that she would happily die if it was to save his life. He crawled into the bed and curled around her, tucking her in his protective embrace. When she sighed and relaxed against his warmth, he felt complete.

  * * * *

  The s
inging coming from the bathroom woke Caleb. He was disorientated at first as he stared at the pine trees, then he remembered the additions to Tayen’s room. David came through the door and held up his hand in a friendly wave.

  “Just picking out clothes,” David mumbled as he rubbed the stubble on his face. “I have an urge to burn all of her leather, but she would probably kill me, very slowly, and I have no wish to die screaming in agony.” He mumbled some more and hung the clothes from the hanger on the inside of the bathroom door and then left the room.

  Tayen bounced out of the bathroom fifteen minutes later and came downstairs in a pair of white capris, a dark-blue, silky tank top, and matching tennis shoes. Cindy already had a large plate of scrambled eggs set out. She also set a freshly washed tomato and potato next to the plate. Tayen smiled at her shyly for remembering and bit into the tomato like it was an apple. She giggled when the juice from the tomato ran down her chin and Cindy handed her a napkin.

  Caleb and David came down later, and Cindy informed them that Tayen had already left to the store. The routine resumed, and as the months went by, the setup became normal. Sean spent the night every night through the week, and on weekends David went to Sean’s. Caleb spent the weekends with Tayen, and she was at his place through the week when he was in town. Otherwise she was at home and at the store.

  * * * *

  Winter came. Tayen had become more comfortable with Caleb being away, and when she felt she couldn’t handle it anymore, David or Damien still would take her to The Cave. Caleb no longer had any trust issues with her though occasionally he had Theresa follow her for fun. Tayen of course always gave Theresa a good chase and then Tayen slipped through Theresa’s fingers. Theresa more than once told Caleb that Tayen really needed to work for Damien at the security agency.

  Tayen walked into her condo after a long Christmas Eve day at the store. She was tired, exhausted, and gritted her teeth as she heard several men yelling at each other in her living room along with an animal howling at the top of its lungs.