Till Death Us Do Part

by V, Krissy

  “Caleb that is so beautiful, no one has ever said anything to me like that. I promise that if I’m worried about anything that I will talk to you about it. Now I think we need to get up before Caleb junior gets carried away” I laugh looking down under the sheet.

  He laughs and it’s such a beautiful sound that I want to hear it again “Actually he doesn’t feel very junior” I say.

  He keeps laughing and then he says “Maybe we should get up, I’m not sure he can restrain himself for much longer if you keep looking at him”

  I roll onto my back and laugh, it feels so good to laugh.

  We get up and go downstairs for coffee, I know I have to get home and make sure Mum knows I’m ok and I want to talk to her about what happened last night. I know I’m not going to be staying with them long, but I still respect my parents.

  After a leisurely breakfast, we walk down town so that I can go and get my car from the office. We hold hands walking along the street and it feels so natural and wonderful. I can feel the love coming from Caleb and as he puts his arm around my shoulders and brings me in for a hug, my heart starts racing. I know I'm majorly attracted to him, but I'm so scared about how the relationship will pan out and I don't want to lose him from my life.

  "What are you thinking about Angel?" He says as he stands in front of me "Don't worry about things that you think might happen. Let me try and put a smile back on your face" he says as he takes my face into his two hands and raises it to face him. He slowly lowers his face until his lips are grazing mine "Tasha I could kiss you all day" and then he takes my lips and devours them. I can feel my heart picking up speed, I am really turned on and that frightens me. I relax into the kiss and enjoy it much more knowing we are standing in the middle of the street and things can't go too far. We finally pull apart and then he takes my hand again and we go find my car. I climb in and ask if he wants a lift "No thanks Tasha, I'm going to go for a coffee and meet Dillon, if I can't be with you then he'll have to do" he laughs, leans into the car and kisses me like he won't see me again.

  "Wow I'll say goodbye more often Caleb if it means you'll kiss me like that every time" I smile at him.

  He laughs and say "I don't want to say goodbye Tasha but I know you have things to do. Will I get to see you tonight maybe? We could go for dinner?" he looks nervous when he asks.

  I reach out the window and touch his face "I will ring you later and make arrangements to see you tonight. I think I would find it hard to go without my Caleb fix" I laugh "I'll see you later Caleb" I smile and then drive off laughing and smiling in the mirror.

  Chapter 59

  I'VE LAUGHED MORE IN the last 24 hours than I have in the last 2 months, I have a good feeling about Caleb but I really need to talk to Mum. I ring her from the car, "Mum I'm on my way home, can I take you out for lunch? I really need to talk to you, I need some Mummy advice"

  She laughs at me "Of course we can go out for lunch, will I invite Dad? or is it a girlie chat?"

  "It's a girlie chat I need, I'll talk to Dad another time" I laugh "I'll be there in 15 minutes so be ready and we can go to The White Lion Bar, it's my favourite place"

  I hang up and think about what I need to talk to Mum about, there are a few things I really need to talk about, I will have to stay focused. I ring Kammie while I'm driving "Hey bitch" she says when she answers the phone. She asks me about my first week at work and how things are with Caleb. I tell her about last night "Way to go Tasha, he is such a nice guy, he cares about you a lot, just don't forget you've been through a lot and he's helped you, but don't mix up your feelings for him just because he helped you, if that make sense" I laugh at her because I do understand. I make arrangements to meet her on Wednesday after work.

  I pull into my drive and when I get to the door Mum is ready and waiting for me, she is smiling at me "You look well baby girl, you look happy" she takes me into her for a hug.

  "Thanks Mum, now I'm going to get changed see you in 5 minutes" I smile as I pull away from her.

  When I come back down Mum is waiting for me, we say goodbye to Dad and get into the car and drive off. We talk about nothing in general as I drive us to the hotel, we go into the hotel, order a drink and then sit where we can see the view out of the window. I don’t really know how to start the conversation, but I just need to get so much out “Mum I need to talk about a few things and I know I will waffle a bit but I need to get them off my chest”

  “Ok Tasha” she says laughing “you won’t say anything that I can’t already guess, so do your worst” she takes a sip of her drink.

  I laugh because I’m nervous “Firstly, I just wanted to say thank you for how you and Dad have been with me over the last few weeks, I know its been hard and I don’t know what I would have done without the two of you to help to get me through what has to be the toughest time of my life, so far” I take a drink and then say “I appreciate staying with you and Dad and I know you don’t think I should sell the house, but I really can’t go back there and live there with all my memories, so I’ve put the house on the market and I’m going to look for an apartment. Caleb has a few properties and said I could stay in one of his, so I might take him up on it”

  “Ok baby girl, I knew it wouldn’t be long before you moved out, I hoped you wouldn’t be moving in with Kammie or Caleb for that matter, I’m glad you still want your independence”

  “Yeah I figured that I need my own space, I sometimes get anxious when I’m with Caleb on my own, not because I think he is going to hurt me, but because Felix hurt me when there was no one else around and no one would have thought that he would do that to me, the one he loved. I feel like I need to have some time on my own for a while to be able to do what I want when I want, not what Felix wanted me to do. Does that make sense?” I take another sip of my drink because I know I’m waffling.

  “Sweetheart, of course it makes sense. I can see now that Felix was changing for a while, he wasn’t letting you have the freedom that you should have had and he did it in a way that no one was aware of it. Just because you want to move out doesn’t mean we wont see you anymore, I know for a fact you will be home for Sunday dinner” she laughs, she knows how much I love her Sunday dinners.

  “Thanks for understanding Mum, I knew you would. Now, the other thing I wanted to talk to you about is Caleb” I look at Mum and I see her raise her eyebrows and roll her eyes.

  “He means a lot to me Mum, I know I haven’t known him long and I know he has helped me through a really bad time and that I am probably just grateful to him for doing that, but I think he really likes me and I need to seriously think about that” I take another sip and I can feel a tear in my eye, but I don’t allow it to fall. I tell Mum about last night in the pub and then back at the apartment, I’m nervous telling her because she is my Mum and I’m her little girl but I need to talk about things that she needs to listen to, help me to understand and help me to get through them.

  “Tasha, I know Caleb has a lot of feelings for you, I have spoken to him and I like him, I can see he cares for you a lot. I also think that you might like him as much as you do because he helped you through all of this but, you have to remember, he WAS there for you, he was the one you spoke to about all of this, he didn’t run off, he didn’t tell you to stop talking to him. He knew you were married and he wanted to be your friend with no ulterior motive, keep that in mind, he thinks a lot of you Tasha” she says patting my arm.

  We sit in silence for a while and then I start talking again “I know how much he cares for me Mum, I know I care for him too. He makes me feel safe and secure and I love the feeling, I crave that feeling right now. I told Caleb that I would be his girlfriend and I really want to be with him and give it a go. I know I’ve been through hell, but I just want to forget it, as much as I can and get on with my life. I deserve a bit of happiness and I’m going to take it where I can”

  “Here, here baby girl” Mum raises her glass to mine. I laugh and follow suit.

  “So, the l
ast thing I wanted to talk to you about I think I need another drink for” I stand up and go and order a drink for us both. When I sit back down I say “I want to talk to you about sex” I see Mum’s eyebrows lift up and then she smiles, as if she knew this was the real direction my conversation was going to take.

  “We talked about sex last night, well, he did really because I was so embarrassed. He said that I was to set the pace of our relationship and if I didn’t want to do anything sexual then he was fine with that. I don’t know how, as a man, he can say that and mean it but I really believe him Mum.” Our drinks arrive and this gives me a moment to breathe before carrying on “I’m really attracted to him, Mum, he makes me feel like a beautiful woman and I know that I will want to take our relationship further, but I’m not sure if I can, you know” I blush, it is quite embarrassing talking to Mum about it maybe I should have kept this conversation for Kammie.

  “Tasha, you’ve been through some things that no one should ever have to go through, EVER! You had an operation to repair some of the damage that Felix did to you. That doesn’t mean you should stay celibate for the rest of your life. Yes I think it is too soon, but I’m not you and only you will know whether it is too soon or not, emotionally and physically. I think you will have a lot of flashbacks and it won’t be easy, but I also know that Caleb will only make love to you when you are ready and he won’t force you because he knows what you have been through. We can find a counsellor who specialises in this type of thing if you want baby girl. I think you’ve done so well by yourself, talking to me about it and I know you will talk Kammie about it too, just make sure if you want a serious relationship with Caleb that you talk to him as well. Ok honey?”

  I can feel the tears finally falling down my face and I feel Mum move closer to me and hug me “Baby girl, I love you so much and I worry about you all the time, that will never change, I also know how strong you are, how beautiful you are inside and out and how much you fight for what you want, regardless of what you have to go through to get it. Caleb is a good man and I, for one, am happy that he is looking after you, it makes me feel safe” she kisses me on the side of my head and moves back to her seat.

  “Thanks Mum, I know there are a lot of situations facing me that will be hard for me, but knowing that you will be there for me will help me so much. I hope I didn’t embarrass you Mum!” I say looking down at my drink, I think I am more embarrassed than she is.

  “Baby girl, you can’t embarrass me, I’m your Mum yes, but I hope I’m a friend too. If you need to talk about anything then I’m here for you ok?”

  “Thanks Mum, I feel so much better now. I know I have to have this conversation with Kammie and also with Caleb soon otherwise it will be something that will wedge between us and I don’t want that. I want something good to come out of me and him”

  We sit chatting for a while longer, we laugh a lot and then we decide that we have to go home to see Dad. When we are driving home Mum says “Do you want to invite Caleb over for Sunday dinner tomorrow Tasha?”

  I nearly crash the car, I gasp and say “I’d love that Mum. Are you sure Dad won’t mind, I know you’ll tell him what we talked about and I don’t want it to be awkward”

  “Tasha, if I thought it would be awkward I wouldn’t have said anything, anyway we want to get to know him if you are going to be together”.

  I told her I would ask him and let her know later. When we get home, I ring Caleb to find out how his coffee went with Dillon.

  "It was good, we talked about last night and what happened after we left, he said everyone had a few drinks and only talked about us for about 20 minutes" he laughs "How was your day Tasha?"

  "I had a good day, I went to the White Lion Bar for a coffee with Mum, I felt like I needed to talk to her about a few things. I feel better for having had the chat" I clear my throat "Erm Mum asked if you wanted to come to Sunday dinner tomorrow?"

  "I'd love to Tasha, you must have told her nice things about me if she wants me to come to dinner. I'm glad you spoke to someone, you know I'm here when you want to talk about anything"

  "I know Caleb, thanks. Now I missed you this afternoon, can I see you tonight?"

  He chuckles "I don't think you missed me as much as I missed you and yes you will be seeing me tonight. I'll collect you at 7pm and I'll come to the door because I want to thank your parents for their dinner invite tomorrow. Do you mind if we come out to my beach house, there's something I want to show you?"

  "That would be lovely Caleb, will I plan for staying over?" I ask, embarrassed.

  He laughs "Of course you can stay over, I didn't want to push you but hell yeah" I can feel him smiling.

  "Great, well then I have to go and get ready for my hot date" I laugh and he does too "see you at 7"

  "You definitely will Angel" he says goodbye then he hangs up.

  I go downstairs and tell Mum and Dad that Caleb will be coming to dinner tomorrow and that I will be going out with him tonight and staying over. I don't feel embarrassed because I know I'm not ready for sex and I know Mum will tell Dad about our chat.

  I go back upstairs and run the bath, I want to just sink into the hot water and think about my relationship with Caleb. I climb into the bath and sink under the water. When I come back up I lay there thinking about Felix and how he changed so much and how much I hated him for doing what he did. Then I started thinking about Caleb and how he makes me feel. While I'm thinking about him, my hands slip under the water and start running over my breasts, and down my stomach to my pussy. I gasp because I have not been touched there since Felix attacked me, I thought it would hurt, but it doesn't it feels great. I rub my fingers along my clit and then push one finger inside to see does that hurt, it doesn't so I use my other hand on my clit while plunging my finger in and out. A lot quicker than I expected I can feel the pressure building, I don't slow down because I really need to find the release. When I cum it makes me cry out because it feels so good. Maybe sex won't be so difficult after all.

  I wash my hair while I'm in the bath and then when I step out I cover my body in oil to moisten my skin. I can see my cheeks have a bit of colour in them from my orgasm, it suits me. I start laughing because I started thinking that I need at least one orgasm a day to start to look healthy, I found this thought amusing.

  Chapter 60

  ONCE I'M DRESSED I head down stairs and have a glass of wine with Mum and Dad, they tell me I look nice. Just then the door bell rings and Mum answers the door, it's Caleb and she asks him in. He shakes her hand and says "Thank you for the dinner invite tomorrow, I'd love to come along"

  "You don't have to shake my hand just give me a hug" she says as she draws him into a hug. She whispers in his ear, but I can hear her "I hope you will save my baby girl and not hurt her more" I hear him answer "I will do my best to make her happy and I'm in this for the long haul Jean"

  I'm so embarrassed but I try not to let them know I heard them. Dad stands up and goes over to shake Caleb's hand, he's a little more dubious but I'm sure Mum will put him straight when we've gone.

  "So I hear you have a house on the beach and you're going there tonight, well I hope you have a good time and we can all catch up tomorrow at dinner" Dad says while shaking his hand.

  I'm mortified so I say "Ok that's all the introductions needed, come on Caleb let's go" they all laugh at me and Caleb picks up my bag by the door "See you tomorrow for dinner" and we walk out the door.

  Caleb opens the passenger door for me and helps me in, then he puts my bag in the boot and then gets in the driver’s side. The car journey is quiet, but it’s not uncomfortable, I can't see much out of the window because it's getting dark. "Caleb how long have you had your house on the beach? You don't mind me asking do you?"

  He reaches across and takes my hand and lifts it to his mouth and kisses it gently "Of course I don't mind Angel. I've had it for about 5 years and I love it. It was an instantaneous match, I walked in and just knew this was going to be my home. I bought
it because I want to get married and have a family and this seemed like the ideal place to do that. I want my children to wake up to this everyday and see how beautiful it all is."

  Wow I wasn't expecting that answer "Did you have someone for that role when you bought the house? Or are you still looking?" I was blushing because I didn't want him to think that I would love to be in that position, I didn't want to force myself on him.

  "No I didn't have anyone in mind when I bought the house and there has never been anyone who I've felt close enough to to even bring them out to see the house, until I met you Tasha. I want you to fall in love with the house, then you might fall in love with me" he looks at me when he says this and smiles.

  I smile back at him, I don't really know what to say "Well I already love the house, so let's just say I'm working on you" I take his hand to my lips and kiss his hand.

  "That makes me very happy Angel, now I'm cooking dinner tonight, will you watch me and talk to me please" he asks.

  "Of course I will, I like watching you in the kitchen Caleb"

  The rest of the journey is spent in silence and when we arrive at the house, I gasp because I forgot how beautiful it was. "Caleb you are so lucky to have a house like this, this is only a dream to me. Thank you for letting me feel welcome here"