Seeing Forever

by Vanessa Devereaux

  “I hope I didn’t wake you?”

  “No. I’m used to getting up early. Are you feeling better this morning?”

  “Yep, much, and thanks for last night.”

  “Glad I was here to help.”

  So am I.

  “I thought I’d make us some breakfast.”

  “Great. Josie put bacon and eggs in the fridge a couple of days ago. I’d like to take a shower before I eat.”

  “I’ll get cooking while you’re doing that.”

  Another creak, which meant Katey had walked away. He couldn’t grow dependent on her so there’d have to be some compromise. No more staying overnight and only an hour’s training per day, max. Yeah, he’d tell her that as diplomatically as he could while they ate breakfast.

  ****

  Katey’s cell phone rang just as she’d put the bacon into the pan. She picked it up and saw that it was Jake’s name and number.

  “Hi, Jake,” she said, turning down the heat under the pan.

  “How are things going?”

  “Really well. Willow’s great and I think he and Luc will make a perfect team. He was a good choice for this assignment.”

  “I thought he would be. I picked up a lab mix yesterday so when I’ve done some basic training with him this will probably be another one for you.”

  “That’s great, and thanks for thinking of me.”

  “So do you have any questions or concerns?”

  She didn’t have any about Willow, but Luc’s nightmare had bothered her.

  “I do, but it’s about Luc.” She lowered her voice. “I stayed over at his place.”

  “You did? That’s great…I mean, that was thoughtful of you.”

  “He woke up in the middle of the night and had a sort of panic attack. He thought he’d been in the explosion again.”

  “Yeah, he mentioned something about the nightmares while Mitchell and I were visiting. It’s fairly common for guys who’ve been through something traumatic like that.”

  “Anything we can do? Anywhere we can send him?”

  “There is, but he’s a stubborn guy. He doesn’t like talking about his feelings with strangers.”

  “I guess I’m like that too. Should I try and get him to talk to me?”

  She squeezed the phone under her chin while she flipped the bacon slices.

  “You can, but tread gently.”

  “I will.”

  “I have to go but I’ll check in again at the end of the week, and if you need anything I’m a phone call away.”

  “Bye, and say hello to Gen for me.”

  Katey pressed the end call and heard Luc and Willow heading toward the kitchen.

  She turned to see that his hair was still damp from the shower. He hadn’t shaved either and the slight shadow his whiskers made, caused her heart to beat faster.

  “Jake called to see how things are going,” she said.

  “I think things are fine, so if you just stop by for an hour a day I’m sure that should cover it.”

  Katey stood with her mouth open. She’d obviously done something wrong because his tone was suddenly brisk and all business. Sure, she’d tried to run out on him last night but she’d been wrong. He needed her as much as he needed Willow and she wouldn’t let him down.

  She’d been supersensitive since she was a kid and now she struggled to fight back the tears after his abrasive tone. She turned off the heat from under the skillet, suddenly not hungry anymore.

  And she needed to leave. To get home, even if it meant spending time with Ruth.

  “I’ll go now,” she said.

  She walked past Luc, who hadn’t moved from the spot by the door. Damn, she remembered the car’s gas tank was empty. She wouldn’t beg for Ruth to come pick her up. Maybe her Dad or one of her buddies would drop by with a can of gas, just enough to get her safely home.

  “Katey, stop.”

  Luc put his hand on her arm and spun her around.

  What a blessing for her that he couldn’t see her tears.

  Chapter Eleven

  He couldn’t help it or fight it for very much longer. He put his hands on either side of her face, hoping he didn’t look like an idiot and kiss her nose and forehead because there was only one place he wanted to put his lips, and that was her mouth. His first time kissing a woman, as a blind man.

  Here goes.

  Luc leaned in hoping for the best. A sense of relief washed over him when his mouth connected perfectly with hers. He pulled her in close, almost scared that she wouldn’t forgive him for his harshness and stupidity. God, he was so frightened she was going to run away and never come back. That’s not what he wanted, but he had himself to protect and hence his rash decision to limit her visits. Katey wrapped her arms around his neck as she opened her mouth to his, and relaxed her body against him.

  He hadn’t been this aroused in ages and it almost felt like the first time he’d had a hard-on when he was a teenager. His cock twitched. He needed to make love to her. Touch every inch of her body so she could feel what it was like. Take in her beauty through his fingertips.

  And what was she wearing? What would he need to take off her?

  He ran his hand in between their bodies. A t-shirt. Luc eased his hand up under its hem making contact with her bare skin. It was soft, smooth, and he sensed just as pretty as her face.

  She fidgeted, causing her body to rub against his erection some more. Luc couldn’t control himself much longer. He kissed her, this time with more urgency, pushing his tongue over her bottom lip. He glided his hand higher over her belly and ribs, finding the bottom of her bra.

  She pulled her mouth away. “Luc, there’s something I have to tell you.”

  Oh shit, I’ve over-stepped the line.

  He wished he could look into her eyes, read her face, see what was written on it.

  “What is it, Katey? If you don’t like me kissing or touching you, I’ll understand. Really I will.”

  “It’s not that, but…”

  She didn’t say another word and then she slipped out of his arms and most likely had walked away.

  “What’s wrong?” he asked, hoping he wasn’t talking to himself now.

  “I’m so embarrassed,” she said. Her voice sounded hoarse, like she was crying or had been.

  “Why because we kissed?”

  “No, because I know where this is heading.”

  “And you don’t want to get involved with a blind man?”

  He understood. He was hurt, yes, but he couldn’t blame her.

  “Oh. Luc, no, no, don’t ever think that.”

  She was back close to him, holding both his hands. “I’m a virgin.”

  Had he heard correctly? Were there any virgins left? Well, apart from those ladies living in convents.

  “You mean you’ve never had sex before?” Luc knew what it meant, but maybe her definition of virgin and the official take on it were not the same.

  “Nope, never.”

  He almost wanted to sit down, but knew there wasn’t a chair close by.

  “What, are you keeping yourself for when you’re married, or what’s the deal?”

  “I’ve had a few boyfriends, but somehow we never got to the sleeping together bit.”

  “Do you want to have sex, or is it something you’d rather not do?”

  She squeezed his hands. “Luc, I want to but it’s not fair to you to have a woman who doesn’t know what to do to a guy.”

  “Hell, I’ve always been a good teacher.”

  She laughed and he pulled her in close. “You’ve probably already guessed this: you turn me on like crazy. I have such a hard-on I think my dick’s going to snap.”

  “And my body’s feeling like it’s on fire, especially when you put your hand under my t-shirt.”

  “Would you let me be your first lover?”

  There was no turning back if she accepted.

  “Yes,” she said before kissing his lips.

  “Let’s go upstairs
. And Willow, you need to stay here and take your nap because Katey’s taking care of me for an hour or so. And I have a few things to teach her this time around.”

  Katey burst out laughing.

  “What’s so funny?” asked Luc.

  “He put his head to one side. It was too cute.”

  “He’s a male. He understands these things.”

  He took Katey’s hand and together they made their way upstairs to his room.

  “Would you be honest with me?” she asked him.

  “Of course.”

  “How many women have you slept with?”

  He didn’t want to tell her because it would make her more uneasy about being a beginner. But most of all he didn’t want it to sound like he was bragging.

  “A few.”

  “Luc, I said be truthful.”

  “Probably around fifteen.”

  “And never a virgin like me?”

  “Nope, but I know lots of guys who would kill to be in my position right now.”

  “You’re just saying that.”

  “No way.”

  “You have condoms?” asked Katey. He liked that she was thinking of safe sex.

  “Sure, bedside table, bottom drawer. And you’ll probably have to help me put it on my dick until I get more practice in.”

  He heard her opening the drawer and then the sound of the box going on the top of the table.

  He took his t-shirt off. “You want to take my pants and boxers off and I’ll give you your first lesson.”

  ****

  Katey’s hands shook as she lowered the fly on his jeans. She wanted to do this more than anything else she could ever remember. Not so much the getting rid of her virginity thing, but having a man like Luc, who she was attracted to, make love to her. She reached behind his back and slipped her hands inside the pants and brought them down over his legs and thighs. He stepped out of them and kicked them away from his feet.

  Now the only thing left was his boxers. She reached up to their waistband and tugged it, before easing them over his cock. It sprang up as the material brushed by it.

  She swallowed. She’d seen one boyfriend’s cock when they were messing around one night, but it had been nothing like Luc’s. His was long and so beautiful.

  “You okay?” he asked.

  She was blushing.

  “You touched a man before?”

  She had a little but not in the way she knew Luc wanted and needed to be touched. She shook her head but then realized Luc couldn’t see her gesture.

  “No, well, only quickly when I was messing around with a guy in high school.”

  “Here, give me your hand.”

  Katey slipped it into his opened palm. He turned it over and placed it around his cock. It was hot and smooth as he took her fingers and curled each of them around his shaft’s circumference. He moved it slowly up and down until they got into a steady rhythm.

  “Like this and grip it just a bit tighter,” he said.

  It pulsed against her palm and grew harder with each pass of her hand.

  “Stand up and kiss me,” said Luc.

  She let her hand slip slowly over his dick as she rose to her feet and leaned in to kiss him. He held her tight and then ran his hands up and down her back.

  He pulled at her t-shirt until she lifted her arms and then he raised it off her shoulders and head. Luc fingered her bra, tracing each piece of the lace with the very tip of his pinkie. Easing his hands behind her back, he unclasped her bra and then felt along her shoulders for the strap and pulled it from her body.

  Katey drew in her breath when his hand passed over her left breast. She closed her eyes as he rolled its nipple between his thumb and index finger. He leaned in and kissed her neck as he gently massaged them, lifting each one, which caused her panties to grow wetter by the second.

  Luc slid his hand down her belly making her heart beat double time. He snapped open the button on her jeans, and without any problem, lowered the zip.

  “Let’s get you out of these and also your panties so I can get to work on you.”

  Those words suddenly scared her. She wasn’t dreaming. She was really going to make love for the very first time. Rumor was it hurt like hell. What if she cried out or screamed, not because she had an orgasm, but because she was in pain? What if she hated sex? That was possible, right? Some women dreaded it.

  She’d been deep in thought and hadn’t realized that her jeans and panties were already sitting atop her feet. She clung to Luc as she balanced on one foot and freed herself of the last of the clothing that stood between her and this handsome man.

  Luc kissed her before running his hand over the front of her left thigh and then into her pubic hair. He buried his finger deep in the curls.

  “Open your legs for me?”

  His voice sounded deep and sexy and it made her more nervous that maybe he’d regret taking on a newbie. She trembled while sliding her right leg away from the left one.

  “On second thoughts, maybe we should lie on the bed. I’m going to have to touch you a lot so I can picture in my mind what your body looks like.”

  She lowered herself onto the bed and held Luc’s hand as he joined her.

  He patted her body until her found her mound and then burrowed his finger through her curls again.

  “Are you pink and pretty down here?” he whispered in her ear.

  She knew the answer because a couple of times she’d taken the mirror and looked, all the time wondering when she was going to do the deed, and who would be the guy who’d take her virginity.

  Now she was looking straight at him.

  “Pink, but I don’t know about pretty.”

  He traced her folds with his fingertip.

  “Feels very pretty to me. And hot and very wet.”

  Yeah, she could feel herself burning and sensed a steady stream of moisture escaping from her slit.

  “Just try and relax, Katey.”

  She was trying, she really was, but when he slid his finger inside her, panic set in.

  What if she didn’t come? She’d masturbated no end of times but nothing had really happened, no bursts of lightening, no sense of euphoria like other girls had said they experienced when they had sex.

  Well, maybe having sex was different to self-pleasuring. At least she hoped it was.

  “You sure you want to do this?”

  “Yes…it’s going to hurt, isn’t it?”

  Shit, she was sounding like a big baby, and Luc, the army hero, deserved a real woman.

  “I don’t know, but I’ll try my best to be gentle.”

  He flopped onto his back. Without being asked or instructed, she stroked his cock.

  “You want to get one of those condoms and help me put it on?”

  Her hand shook as she took one from the box and ripped open the top. She dropped it twice onto the bed.

  “Okay, just ease it over my dick.”

  She pushed it on the tip and pushed upwards.

  “Hey, hey, more gently, your nails are digging into my cock.”

  “Sorry.”

  Not a good start. He must have felt her hands shaking because he put his on top of hers and together they rolled it up his shaft.

  “Okay, you’re going to have to guide me now. Lie on your back and spread your legs wide.”

  Katey turned over. This was it, no turning back.

  ****

  Luc raised himself up and gently slid his leg over what he knew to be Katey’s thigh.

  “You’re going to have to guide me to your pussy opening.”

  He didn’t want to hurt her, didn’t want to put her off having sex ever again, but for the last five minutes both his anticipation and libido had been like a pressure cooker whose contents were about to burst forth. He wanted to be inside her so much, and not just because she was a virgin. When he’d fingered her channel she’d been tight and hot, which had almost made him lose it there and then.

  Her hand circled his cock and gently
she pulled it. He felt the tip of it hit her entrance and took that as his cue to wiggle his hips and ease inside her. He’d never done this so slowly before and as he couldn’t see her face and gauge any discomfort she might be having, he listened carefully for any sign that he was causing her pain. Not hearing any sound, he pushed some more.

  “You okay?” he asked her.

  “I think I am.”

  “You want me to stop?”

  “No, I want you to make love to me.”

  Luc started out with tiny thrusts, once again listening for any indication that would tell him to stop.

  He leaned over her body and felt her shoulders close to his hands. He could hear her breathing and then as he picked up intensity he heard her draw in her breath. She squeezed his arm. Luc wanted nothing else but to give her an off the charts orgasm, start her out with something that she’d never forget, but with each thrust that was getting more unlikely. He was getting pretty close to finding his own release, and in record time.

  Damn.

  Luc squeezed his eyes together, trying to imagine what Katey’s gorgeous body looked like underneath his. She was curvy and her skin so soft. He probably should have taken things more slowly and kissed every inch of it. But if she allowed him to, he was going to make love to her again and again so he’d have another chance at doing just that.

  He thrust harder and was sorry that maybe he was hurting her, but he was so close and when he came he stayed inside her and then leaned over, hoping he was in the right vicinity for her mouth. He planted a kiss on her lips and sensed her shaking underneath him.

  Luc pulled out of her and rolled onto his back close to her.

  “You okay, Katey?”

  “Yes, I’m fine.”

  “You didn’t have an orgasm, did you?”

  “No, but it’s not your fault. I mean, it was my first time.”

  He reached out for her hand, which she put into his.

  “You want to stay the night?”

  “Can I take a rain check, because I have to go home and get some things done?”

  “Sure, but I’ll see you tomorrow.”

  “Yes, same time as yesterday.”

  She leaned over and kissed him and then he felt the bed move and knew that she was gone.

  He wiped his face. He was pretty sure that when she’d leaned over to kiss him she was crying. Luc heard the front door closing. He ran both his hands over his face. He turned over and picked up the voice-activated phone Josie had purchased and programmed for him.