In the Household of a Sorcerer

by Nicolette Andrews

  “Maea, you would be better off to forget about me. I will cause you only heartbreak.”

  “Take away her thoughts of you if you like,” he taunted. “It will not change the truth.”

  She looked down at the necklace and then back at me. If she had made the connection and suspected what I was about to do, she made no indication of it.

  “And if I were, would that heal your scars? How could I leave you alone, after everything you have done for me?”

  Her words pierced me. I stumbled and then fell back in my chair. After all my selfish machinations, she was worried for me. She feared for my feelings. She worried I would be lonely. The specter tried to protest, but I forced him back to the outer reaches of my mind—temporarily hidden and allowing me a moment of self-reflection. The necklace slipped from my hand and fell to the floor with a clatter.

  I could not do it. I never had the power to take her memories away because I was selfish and, yes, because I loved her. The war within me was far from over, and I knew the specter had not given up. I also knew I could not risk harming her by returning her feelings, but her love had kindled hope inside me. Hope that maybe there could be another path. Perhaps my life was not set as I thought it was.

  Maea reached to pick up the necklace from where I had dropped it upon the floor. I snatched it from her grasp.

  “What is that?” she asked, and the depths of her violet eyes nearly undid my barriers and forced me to tell the truth. But I resisted. I would protect her to my dying breath, even if that meant removing me from her thoughts.

  She would be better not to love me, but I was too selfish to give up her love, to lose the one bright spot in my life. She was set upon this path, and I could not deny her.

  “It is of no concern to you.” I set it back in the drawer and placed my hands on the tabletop.

  At the back of my mind, I hoped that if there was a chance for happiness, for us to share in that happiness, I would be willing to risk going after it. Damara was right, perhaps my revenge was needless. If there was a way for me to break my pact with the specter and have a life, a real life, with Maea in Graystone, then perhaps I should try to claim it. I looked at Maea, who did not question me but trusted me without doubt. I would not be able to return her feelings until this spell was broken because her love for me, I feared, would be her undoing, and that’s why the necklace waited, should the need arise, and I was satisfied knowing that she would be safe from me if it did.

  Afterword

  Thank you for picking up this short little tale. If you’d like to read more about Johai and Maea you can do so by reading ‘Diviner’s Prophecy’, a continuation of this story through Maea’s eyes. If you you’d like to know more about me, you can connect with me on Facebook, Twitter, my website and on Goodreads. If you enjoyed this story, please leave a review at your favorite book store.

  Other Works by the Author:

  Diviner’s Trilogy

  In the Household of a Sorcerer (A Diviner’s Novelette)

  Diviner’s Prophecy (Book 1)

  Diviner’s Curse (Book 2 Coming Summer 2013)

  The Thornwood Abby Series

  Those That Dwell in the Thorns (coming soon)

  Diviner’s Prophecy Excerpt

  Prologue

  Armor gleamed beneath the noonday sun. Soldiers, grim mouths set, marched in time. Their rhythmic footsteps became a beating drum that pounded in my ears. Blue banners with silver trees upon them snapped in the wind. I held up my hands, and they were those of a warrior calloused and scarred. Without realizing it, I had become one of them. The sky overhead was blood-red. I was no warrior, and the scent of iron in the air sent me into a panic. I must escape, I thought, I do not belong here. If I were better prepared, I would not have made such a foolish detour.

  The procession halted, and a king stepped forth on a platform looming over our heads, both separate and superior. He wore blue and silver and stretched out his bejeweled hand; he pointed into the distance where another army awaited, bedecked in red and gold. The enemy must be destroyed—foreign thoughts invaded my mind. The blood lust overwhelmed my reason, a deadly mistake. I could not get lost in this reality. If I let these thoughts take over, I would never get out.

  The men shouted and surged forward like a wave. The opposing army mirrored our cries and poured down the hill to meet us. I lost myself in the madness as we crashed upon one another with a ringing clang of metal and grunts. Men fell around me as I swung my sword, the shining blade sinking into the flesh of my adversaries. I removed my sword and saw the face of my enemy, not a monster but a young man, not much more than a boy. The barest shadow of hair adorned his upper lip.

  I let my sword arm drop and gazed about me. They were all men, many just out of adolescence, dying with pikes in their bellies and entrails spilled out on the blood-soaked dirt. The boy fell at my feet, his eyes dimming with death. A comrade or a foe, I could not be certain any longer, cleaved a man’s skull in half. Blood splattered my face, and I felt as if I would retch. I must escape this nightmare, I thought. The pained calls of the dying filled my ears, and their twisted faces overpowered my vision. It hurt. I felt their dying moments as if they were my own. Why this waste? I thought. Why this destruction?

  When everything became too unbearable, driving me to the brink of mental endurance, the vision ended. I was alone with nothing but a black abyss. I blinked in the darkness, the clinging vapors of my vision clouding my present. That was not reality, I had to remind myself, but a reflection of the past. I turned in place, and a light grew on the horizon, and from it a line of people emerged. They stretched into the distance, women of different heights and shapes, one thing bound them together, and that was their ebony hair and violet eyes. They were my ancestors, the diviners who preceded me. Women who, like me, sought to sift through the sands of time, but unlike me, these women did not seek their own past.

  As they passed me by, they reached out to me as if to give me strength for what was to come next. Their combined love and strength uplifted me, and I knew I could carry on. Just a little further, the answers are just beyond your reach, they seemed to be telling me.

  Abruptly, the procession halted. I faced the last in the line. One by one, the women before her toppled over until only she remained standing. My mother smiled a sad, tired smile. As I reached for her, she crumbled to dust. I let the sand slip through my fingers. I ached for her, the woman I had never known. I needed her now more than ever. What advice would she give me if any?

  From the darkness my mother left behind, four flickering lights emerged. As they took shape, they became four white candles set to the north, east, south and west. The scene expanded as if I watched from above. They revealed a cave and a figure kneeling in the circle of light. Again this was not the image I sought, though one that had haunted my nightmares for a very long time.

  The night was still but for the echo of the wind in the distance. The figure spoke in a language I did not know. The tone resonating and bouncing off the walls, it grew with power, and I felt the tingle of expectation on my skin.

  The white face of death, hollow eyes gleaming beneath a pallid, bony mask, glided forward into the candlelight, appearing to consist of nothing more than mist. The kneeling figure, a boy with hair like spun gold, raised his head to the apparition. Shadow concealed the boy’s features. I leaned closer in hopes of finally seeing his face.

  Although the masked apparition spoke in a different language, I understood its words. “You summoned me?”

  The boy shifted, and his curtain of golden hair parted. The dim candlelight revealed only the barest silhouette of his profile. This boy was tied with me, I knew, but how? I felt trapped in a riddle without a solution. I edged forward, hoping this time would be the time his identity would be revealed, but before I could get a glimpse of him, a high cold laugh cut through my consciousness and the image was lost.

  Chapter One

  I returned to reality in panic. My breathing was ragged and pain
ful. Why does every dream and vision end this way? Who is this boy? Why will the water not reveal the man who has done this to me? The heavy maroon curtains surrounding my bed were suffocating me. I pulled them back, nearly toppling over my scrying dish, and revealed the large window. A crescent moon hung outside and illuminated the stone floor in pale light. Nothing made sense.

  The harder I tried to separate fact from fantasy, the more my head pounded. I am a diviner, and yet I can see neither backwards nor forwards. Just the same image over and over. I climbed out of bed and clutched a chair for balance. Anxiety clenched my throat. Or am I? Is that, too, a lie? I snatched at my necklace, and the sharp edges dug into the palm of my hand. A wave of relief washed over me. It helped with my panic but did little to ease the sense of betrayal I harbored as of late.

  My fear subsided, leaving a searing headache in its place. I donned a housecoat and headed for the door. The hallway was empty and dimly lit. I recalled a remedy for headaches I had taken as a child, when scrying gave me pain, a tincture of willow bark. I wandered around the unfamiliar surroundings, my mind puzzling over the visions, once again failing to reach a conclusion. I found a curving flight of stairs ending in a large entryway. I went down, my hand trailing along the polished mahogany. Voices carried from behind a door ajar, and I headed towards them. I paused when the tinkle of laughter escaped from within.

  “Do not play me for a fool, Damara,” a man growled. “There is naught in that direction you came from but Duke Slatone’s estate, Graystone. Who do you hide and to what end, I wonder?”

  My stomach clenched. I know that place, but what does Graystone have to do with me? Curiosity bid me press my eye to the gap; perhaps they would reveal more about my past. Inside the salon, Damara, my chaperone and foster mother, sat relaxed on the opposite couch from the duke of House Magdale. He and I had been hurriedly introduced before I was ushered away and locked in my allotted chamber.

  Damara wore a russet gown that accentuated her auburn hair. Her green eyes were narrowed as if she were a hawk eyeing its prey before the kill. The duke must be essential to her plan’s success. Her plans for my future, I amended. Now would be the perfect time to escape, but I knew in my confused state that without supplies, it was impossible. I was trapped just as surely as the duke was trapped in her web of intrigue. The duke’s angled brows made him appear perpetually displeased, and a head of gray hair except for a peppering of black lent him a distinguished air, though I doubt Damara had chosen him on looks alone. His head rested on his upturned palm as he regarded her.

  “You always were one to jest, Algernon. We both know I do not fold my hand so easily.” Her lips curled into a dangerous smile that I had luckily never been on the receiving end of. She had not been like this before the night everything changed for me. This conniving manipulative side of her only justified my mistrust.

  He seemed to be unperturbed by her manner. “Nor do I, milady,” he said, inclining his head, “which makes me glad I married my daughter to your son, a mutually beneficial alliance, don’t you think?” He took a sip from his goblet. He’s an ally, then, I surmised. What did they seek, I wondered, money, power, influence? I cursed the man who had done this to me, leaving me to speculate and wait for an escape route that was not forthcoming. Where do I fit into your plans? Why did you let him do this to me? I thought.

  “Indeed, it is.”

  “And you would leave me to believe your intention in coming here was to get medical aid for the girl?”

  Of course, my accident, I thought sardonically. The accident from which I have no physical injury but had supposedly caused my memory loss. As convenient as it would be to accept her explanation, I could not. I remembered the night he took away my past. I still recalled his hands around my neck as he stripped me of everything I was, leaving behind only a confused and empty shell. I suspected Damara was a part of it; what I did not know was how and why.

  Damara shrugged. “You’ve caught me, Algernon. I have an alternative motive. More wine?” She lifted a decanter, refilling his goblet.

  He left it untouched and grimaced as he readjusted his leg. “I would suspect nothing less of you. Who is the strange girl with the violet eyes?”

  “She is the last Diranel Diviner. I’m sure you understand what that means.”

  I inched closer to the door, finally something useful! I had a vague recollection of my legacy, nothing that could aid me in my current situation, however. My powers, a gift from my ancestors, had proved pointless. No matter how I tried, the water only showed me the image of that boy without revealing anything new.

  “Maea, what are you doing out here?”

  My back stiffened, and I turned around. He stepped into the shaft of light escaping the room beyond, and it illuminated his pale hair. Though his hair was white as fresh snow, he was no older than seven and twenty years.

  For a moment, I considered walking away without answering. He trusted me as much as I trusted him, I expected, which was little. Given my importance to them, he was forced to tolerate my presence. I, however, had no need to be agreeable to him and, indeed, used every opportunity to be snide. “I have a headache,” I said.

  “That’s not what I mean. How did you get out?”

  “The maid forgot to lock the door.”

  It had been his idea to lock said door. From the moment I awoke in their care, panic surging through my veins, I attempted to escape them, waiting until I was left alone and making insane dashes for freedom. Each time I was caught within a few feet of our inn, or in one case a half mile, before they found me shivering in the cold and soaked from rain, hence the locking of my chamber doors. In those first few days, I felt a driving need to put distance between me and them as if I would never be at ease unless I was away from them. They kept me close and under watch or, more recently, locked away like a mad woman. Over the preceding week upon the road, the urgency of gaining my freedom had ebbed, but my mistrust had not faded. I had been broken but not beaten, not yet.

  “You should not be out of bed at this hour. You need to rest.”

  He motioned to grab my arm, but I back-stepped out of his grasp, scowling. “You know best, I suppose, since I remember nothing at all.”

  He sighed. “Why do you insist upon being difficult?”

  Because you treat me as if I were a child when I have just celebrated my sixteenth year, I thought and then I replied, “Why do you insist upon treating me like a child?”

  “Because you act as one.”

  It was a simple insult but a powerful one. I hated him for his arrogance and indifference. He seemed to think his seven and twenty somehow superior to my sixteen years of age. Our voices must have carried into the room behind us because Damara came out and said in a tired voice, “Johai, Maea, enough.”

  I glared at him one last time, and he turned away.

  “Maea, you should be in bed.”

  “I’m not a child,” I mumbled.

  Damara laid a gentle hand on my shoulder, which I shook off. She frowned. “True. But I don’t want you to overexert yourself. You collapsed again today.”

  My shoulders slumped in defeat. Had I the means, I would escape the both of them, take to the road, and be free. However, as weak and confused as I was, I had no other choice but to rely upon them. I suffered to be led back to bed, once more their captive.

  *~*~*

  We took our leave the following day. Damara’s head guard, Hilliard, helped me to mount, and as I did so, I caught Duke Magdale watching me as if assessing. I stared back at him, my head held high. The duke nodded in my direction, and a ghost of a smile hovered on his lips.

  He hobbled over to Damara’s mare. “I’ve decided. I’ll meet you in Keisan.”

  “I will eagerly await your arrival.” Damara smiled.

  What awaits me in Keisan? I wondered. What are you planning?

  Johai sidled up next to me on his horse. “You need to restrain yourself. We can’t afford for you to collapse again.”

  �
��I know,” I spat. I jammed my heels into the horse’s ribs and trotted away from him. Hilliard shouted after me, but I ignored him.

  I did not get far before Hilliard caught up. I pulled back on the reins, bringing my mare to a trot.

  “The day we met, you asked me if I was a knight. Do you remember that?” he asked.

  I swung my head towards him and searched his age-worn face. Hilliard and I often played a game called “do you remember.” He would point out different plants and animals and ask me their names. It was supposed to be a good exercise for my mind. He had not asked me about my past before.

  “I do,” I replied.

  He grinned, revealing a missing tooth, and leaned back in the saddle. “You were always a curious child.”

  I smiled at the memory. Of course I remember that; those memories haven’t been tampered with. I thought bitterly. Damara made appearances in the fragmented recollections. My smile slipped away. What happened that night? What changed?

  “I’m not going to tell ye that things will get better. I don’t know what the future holds, and I’m not a diviner like you. But you can make the best of what you have left.”

  I mumbled an inarticulate reply, and he seemed appeased. Perhaps he was right and there was a way for me to fashion a life out of the broken pieces I had left. We rode in silence while I contemplated my future. We reached a copse of trees and stopped to wait for the others. Hilliard went to scout, his hand hovering over his sword belt.

  He had not gone far when he shouted for me. “Maea! Come here!”

  I cantered over to him with my heart pounding in my chest. When I reached him, he had his arm extended, gesturing across a meadow that lay before us.

  “What’s wrong? Is it bandits?”

  “No, see in the distance.”

  I followed the line of his finger. A scattering of small farms filled the landscape. In the distance, the crescent shape of a city wall emerged from the hilltop. It backed onto a cliff worn smooth, and ships were harbored at its base. Their bare masts appeared skeletal against the blue of the sea. Along the rise of the hill, rows of shops and homes spread towards the center of the city, and smoke wafted from their hundreds of chimneys. Further up the hill, a secondary ring began with a few grander houses. In the center, at the cliff’s edge, turrets erupted along high walls.