SCREAMIN' in Pain

by Cynthia Pegram

  He should just leave me except he will not. The more I think about them being together, the more livid I get. I am not even sure why I am feeling this way, I just am.

  I finally decide to do something about it though. I am just not sure when or what.

  Today is Friday, Hugh’s birthday. He quietly comes into my bedroom, “wake up my, sleepy head. I took the day off work. I also gave Mandy the day off. Today we are going to party. We are going to enjoy ourselves. You are going to give me my present today!” He has the biggest smile on his face. He looks very creepy.

  I get up out of bed and go over to my dresser. I open the drawer that holds his present. I hand him a wrapped gift.

  He comes over to me laughing hard, “Not that present!” He throws it on the bed.

  “Go get into the shower; get extra nice, makeup, and all. Then put on the outfit that will be on the bed.”

  I shower then go and get ready. When I walk to the bed, there is nothing on it. I wrap a towel around me as I go looking for Hugh. He is in his office on the phone. When I get to the door, he hangs up.

  “Hugh, I don’t have an outfit on the bed.”

  He comes over to me looking at my face, “go, and put on more makeup, I told you to look extra special! Listen to me, Kristy.”

  I look to him with a puzzling look. Confused about what he is telling me. He does not like me to wear a lot of makeup.

  “Go now! Just do what I told you. Shit, I hate having to tell you something twice!” He spits that out like ice cubes.

  “Today, you will listen to everything I say! You will not talk back to me. For that matter, do not talk at all. Just listen, do what I tell you period. I am going to make today special for me. If you fuck up, you will pay severely!”

  He is pacing the room in circles. Like he is on something. He looks like he has already been drinking.

  “I am going to do something I have wanted to do for a long time. You will cooperate. You are going to go with the flow. Do you understand what I am telling you?”

  I look at him baffled. I am starting to get scared! I do not know what he has in mind. The look in his eyes has evil in them though! I shake my head yes, leaving for my room.

  When I get into my bedroom, my plan is to call Heather. Something in my gut tells me this is all wrong! I just start to dial her when Hugh comes up behind me.

  “You won’t need this today,” he takes my phone.

  He slaps me on my ass so hard it leaves a handprint. It hurt like a motherfucker! I get tears in my eyes.

  “There will be no crying today. Go into the bathroom put on more makeup.” He sits on my bed waiting for me to comply.

  I go back in the bathroom doing what he said. When I come back out, he hands me a bottle of whiskey, “drink this, you will need it.”

  I look at the clock seeing it is eleven in the morning, “Hugh, I can’t drink this early.”

  “You will drink this early, Kristy! You will drink whenever I tell you to.” He is laughing at me strangely.

  I take the bottle taking a sip as he has said.

  “I said drink!” He is now yelling at me.

  It scares the crap out of me whenever he yells! I jump in surprise. My hands are shaking, but I take a big drink.

  He hands me a pink, see through lace top with matching bottoms. He gives me a look that says do not question him. I put on the so-called outfit and he smiles from ear to ear. He hands me some black pumps. I put those on knowing I look like a whore.

  He stands back from me sizing me up and down, “Stay right there I will be right back.”

  When he leaves my bedroom, I look for my phone except I cannot find it anywhere. I sigh out of frustration.

  He comes back with some perfume, which he sprays on me. He also put a diamond necklace on me. He stands back again to check me out, “perfect. You look so beautiful.”

  He puts on me a pink, silk, short robe. He hands me the bottle. He is smiling at me as if he is insane!

  “Remember what I told you; drink when I hand it to you. Without any questions do what I ask you?”

  I take the bottle drinking again. I am getting more and more concerned. Why would he want me drunk?

  Hugh firmly takes me by the arm walking me to the living room. He plops me down onto the couch. Immediately going to put some music on. He comes to me with the bottle.

  “I will get fucked up in a matter of minutes if I have to keep drinking this way!” I tell him so upset.

  He laughs at me, “I will stop you before you get to that point. Today, tonight you might even get to have some fun.”

  There is a loud knock on the front door. Hugh leaves to answer it. A man that looks like he in his forties comes walking into the living room. He is tall, golden brown skin and very muscular. He is rather good looking.

  “Kristy, this is Dewayne. He is a good friend of a work associate and a friend of mine. He is here to celebrate my birthday with us. He will make the day more fun!”

  I look over to where Dewayne is at, he is grinning from ear to ear. I am feeling very uneasy now! I know for sure this is going downhill fast. I think I have an idea about what is going on.

  Hugh makes Dewayne and himself a drink. Hugh comes over to me handing me the bottle, in the process, he gives me a very mean look. I know better than giving him any shit so, I take the bottle drinking a big gulp. Hugh smiles in approval.

  “Take your robe off, Kristy. Give Dewayne a look at you.”

  I put my head down to the floor dropping my robe as he has said. I feel mortified!

  When I have my robe dropped, Dewayne gives a long whistle, “man, she is hot! You should let her dress like this more often. I would let her show off her goods. When she comes to our work party she looks like a grandma!”

  Hugh gives a big hearty laugh, “there is no one who can touch her. Unless I give the say so. If she dressed sexy, she would have men all over her!” They both laugh their asses off.

  I put my robe back on tying it tightly. I go over sitting in a chair crossing my legs firmly. They drink their drinks and they talk about work for a few minutes.

  Hugh gets up handing me the bottle. I let out a huge sigh taking another swig. I finally realize he does not care how fucked up I get. He said he was going to do it his way and he is!

  “Kristy, come sit next to me.” Hugh takes my hand. I am finally starting to feel the whiskey so I get up. I sit next to him on the couch.

  He hands me the bottle once again. I take another big sip. He takes the bottle away giving it to Dewayne. Hugh unties my robe taking it off me, and then he kisses me passionately. Hugh slides his hand inside of my pussy.

  He nibbles on my ear while whispering in it, “You better enjoy this. Don’t fake the orgasm I am going to give you!”

  He slides me further down on the couch, taking off my nightie. He places his fingers deep into me. He keeps doing that repeatedly. When I start to moan he gets on his knees. He sticks his tongue into me. He licks me as if he is enjoying it. I look to Dewayne realizing he is video recording it.

  I am outraged that Hugh would do this to me. Hugh feels me tighten up underneath him. He bites me hard on my thigh. I push him off me to stand up.

  “I am not doing this!” I am yelling now loudly, so mad!

  Hugh grabs me by my arm-twisting it, “yes, you are!”

  He shoves me back down onto the couch. Continuing to lick between my legs. I put my head back feeling very drunk. I am starting to feel very good down there. Hugh keeps playing inside of me. Finally, I cum making a soft sound. Hugh looks up at me so I assume he has heard me.

  He takes my face to his, kissing me again. He then hands me the bottle. I drink some more. Dewayne leaves going to the bathroom.

  “This is rape!” I am so embarrassed and ashamed. I find myself screaming.

  Hugh stands there staring at me. I tightly wrap my robe around me. I am so furious!

  “Try telling that to the police, bitch. You are giving me a birthday present. I will tel
l them this was your idea. I only went along with it. I have a witness to confirm that.”

  Hugh pulls me closely into him, holding me tight, “I am not going to touch you again today. I am going to let Dewayne! You will let him do whatever he wants with you. No problems Kristy, no hassles. I want to hear you when you cum.”

  Dewayne comes back out lighting up a joint. Hugh takes a hit handing it to me. I have never smoked pot although I inhale a big hit. I start massively coughing. They both laugh at me. They continue to smoke it. I did start to feel better. I am feeling numb.

  Dewayne comes over to me, “Kristy, take off your robe.”

  I look over to Hugh seeing he is smiling broadly. I grab the bottle chugging some more. Hugh turns up the music.

  “Give your sexy, handsome, husband a dance, Kristy.” Dewayne tells me with a sly grin.

  I start to give Hugh a dance, slowly taking off my robe. Dewayne again gives a whistle.

  “Hugh, I am going to have some fun with her!” Dewayne comes over to me. He starts to kiss me very deeply.

  I give another protest, “get the fuck away from me!” I try to run except Hugh grabs me.

  “Where are you running to, bitch? Do not make this any harder on yourself. I am sick of talking to you.” Hugh slaps me in the face.

  I feel beaten down! If this is what Hugh wants then I am going all out! I kiss Dewayne very passionately. I give him all I have with my tongue.

  Dewayne looks over to where Hugh is at, “where is your room, man?” Hugh smiles taking us to his room.

  When we get into his bedroom Dewayne and Hugh get undressed. I try to get away except Hugh will not let me.

  “Go make that call. I won’t start without you,” Dewayne directs Hugh. When Hugh leaves, Dewayne comes over to me. He pulls me in for a big kiss. I push him away from me. He stands there and laughs.

  I really do not have a clue who Hugh called however, he is laughing when he hangs up. Hugh hands me the bottle.

  “Here, you are going to need this!”

  Dewayne lays me on the bed; he starts to kiss me again. I return his kiss looking back at, Hugh. Hugh looks at me with no expression on his face. He lights up another joint.

  Dewayne lays next to me on the bed with his body propped up by his arm. He is staring down at me, “play with yourself till you are wet, babe” I close my eyes putting my hand between my legs.

  “Look at me! Don’t close your eyes, Kristy” Dewayne demands me.

  I keep my eyes open wide like, he has said, not focusing on anything. At that time, I start to please myself. I notice Hugh is filming me this time. Hugh takes the recorder putting it onto a tripod. Hugh then comes over to the bed. He takes Dewayne’s dick into his hand rubbing him off. He is not looking at me, but at Dewayne.

  “Give it to her hard,” Hugh comments to Dewayne.

  Dewayne rams me so hard. I loudly scream out in pain! He keeps forcing himself into me repeatedly. I put my head back trying to relax. When I cum it is with a scream. I am sure it was not a scream of pleasure. The inside of me hurts like hell!

  Dewayne leaves to answer a knock on the door. I lay there feeling humiliated. I am highly pissed off.

  “What the fuck, bitch! You sound like you enjoy sex more with him. Like he can please you more than I can. You are going to pay later.”

  I look at him so surprised, “you told me to let you hear me.”

  Hugh gives me a hard slap in my mouth, “this isn’t over yet!”

  I have tears rolling down my face. “Please Hugh, no more. I really don’t want to do this.” I am begging him – pleading.

  “Yes, you are. We are just beginning.” He gives a laugh. He is humiliating me, enjoying it.

  Dewayne comes back into the room with a woman. She is tall, blonde, skinny, and beautiful.

  “Kristy, this is, Samantha. She is a friend of mine and Hugh’s.” Dewayne tells me.

  She comes over to me as I lay in the bed. “Damn, she is beautiful.” She takes her clothes off crawling in bed with me.

  “NO!” I scream as I jump out of bed.

  “Honey, I won’t hurt you.” She pulls me back into bed.

  She kisses me on the lips and starts to suck my breasts. I look over to where Hugh is. Dewayne is sucking him off. Hugh is smiling at me.

  “Kristy, I will take it although I won’t give it.” Hugh tells me while he enjoys himself.

  I lay there while the room is spinning all around me. I could not tell you what Samantha is doing. I feel so lost, so hurt. This shit hole I have to live in! I do not have anything at all against gays or bisexuals. I just have a huge ass problem with all the secrets my husband has been hiding from me. He has more secrets than I realized!

  I can feel Samantha put her head between my legs. I lay there staring off in space. I want her off me so I moan. I act as if I am getting excited. I want her to think I am cumming.

  She sticks her tongue further into me. She smiles coming back up to me, “see sweetheart, that wasn’t bad. Was it?”

  Hugh goes over to Samantha making love to her. I have to watch. He treats her with such care - love. Why is my life so bad with him? What can I do to make it better? Lying there I finally figure out nothing will make it better.

  Hugh finishes making love to her then they all take a break. They party for hour. I sit in a chair with my knees up to my chest staring at them. I cannot believe this is happening. What the fuck! I have no idea who my husband is.

  Finally, after what seems like an eternity, they give each other hugs and kisses then finally leave our house.

  I head to my room alone. I cry like a baby. I am going to leave in the morning. That I do decide, I cannot do this anymore! Hugh left me alone for the rest of the night.

  Chapter 3

  I wake up to a knock at my bedroom door. Mandy walks in sitting on the bed. She looks at me then rubs my head.

  “Ma’am, he has gone to work. He called me in today. He said they had a lot of work to do. We really need to get you out of here.”

  “I am going to disappear today! I will stay in a hotel until I figure out what to do.”

  Mandy takes a hold of my hand looking at me so sadly, “not today, ma’am, I am sorry. There are two men watching the house. There is one out front with one in the back.” I start crying while Mandy holds me.

  “It will be okay we’ll figure something out ma’am.” I am bawling now. I feel so helpless!

  “He is getting worse, Mandy! I have to do something. I am just so afraid.” Mandy holds me for a while and lets me cry.

  “Mandy, I am fine. I just want to sleep.”

  She leaves my room shaking her head. She does not know the exact extent to what I am going through although she has an idea.

  I get up to grab my phone. I am going to call, Heather. I want to see if she can help me figure out what is going on in my life. I remember Hugh took it yesterday. I go into his bedroom to look for it. His room is clean and everything is in order. I look for my phone except I cannot find it. I also look for the tape. I cannot find that either!

  I leave his room going in the kitchen. On my way, I glance around the living room to see if I can find my phone. Of course, I cannot. He must have figured I would try to leave today. I really wish Mandy would carry a cell phone! She does not care much for technology though.

  When Hugh arrives home, I am hiding out in my room. I pretty much spend the entire day there. I want to feel the peace and quiet. When he walks in, I will not even look at him.

  “Can I have my phone back?”

  He comes over sitting next to me on the bed, “no, you can’t. I want you to know someone will be watching you for a while. What happened yesterday was very exciting for me. I thank you for that.”

  He softly caress the side of my face with the palm of his hand, “Kristy, its only sex it doesn’t mean a thing.”

  I stare at him feeling my blood rush to my face. “Fucker” is what I want to scream. Does not mean anything . . . yeah right!


  “I am glad you enjoyed yourself however, I did not! They raped and you did nothing about it. That makes you a sick man.” I am yelling at him hoping he understands me!

  “You were not raped, baby, you enjoyed it. Besides, you seriously cannot rape the willing!” He is smirking at me, always making me feel like shit. I feel like I am going to throw up. He is such an ass. He just does not get it!

  “I want you to forget this ever happened. I will not ask you to do it again. I love you baby, you were just pleasing me!”

  He stands to leave and turns around, “you can have your phone back when I feel like the time is right.” After he says that, he leaves my bedroom. Good riddance I think to myself!

  For the next week, Mandy has to babysit me. Hugh put two men outside the house to watch me. I did not talk to Heather for that week either. I really wanted to talk to her. Just to hear her voice! She seems to calm me! I had a lot of time to think. I thought about everything.

  I figure I will let what happened at Hugh’s birthday go. I will not say anything about it. I would just ride things out until I could vanish. If I could come up with a plan! Maybe, I should just leave see what happens. Take a risk! Whatever, it will all get better. At least that is what I tell myself!

  Hugh has been extra nice to me for that week. I finally get my phone back. I wake up one morning to find the men gone. I feel like I can finally get back to normal. The first thing I do is go see Heather.

  She is very happy to see me when I arrive at her house. We walk into the living room sitting on the couch.

  “Kris, I haven’t heard from you for such a long time! I thought something had happened. I drove by except there were strange men sitting in their cars outside of your house. I guess he was having you watched.”

  “Yes, he is always controlling me! It does not matter though. I am getting all my ducks in a row so that I can leave him.”

  She is smirking at me, “Kris, you will never leave him. You know that is true.”

  I am starting to believe differently. I will leave although not just yet. In my week of thinking, I decide I am going to find out who his girlfriend is. I still do not know why I need to know. I just do! I feel I have a right to know!