by R. S James
Carly Present
Several hours later, I wake up and just watch him sleep. I know I must tell him I lost our child, and I hope he can forgive me. Slowly, I slide out of bed and head to the shower. I need to prepare myself for the possibility he can’t forgive me, and he might never want to see me again. I guess, I need to forgive myself, before I can expect him to forgive me. I feel him climb in the shower with me. I also feel his hard cock along my back, and I want that and nothing else in this moment. Turning around, I drop to my knees and take him in my mouth whole. I lick and suck all the way up and down again, again, and again, until he reaches for me under my arms and pulls me up his body.
Wrapping my legs around his waist, he leans me against the shower wall and takes my nipple into his mouth. I reach down between us and grab his thick cock, bringing it to my opening and slide down on it slowly. We start out slow, but our need is too great, as we start fucking hard. I come hard, and he changes positions, as he takes me from behind. One hand is gripping my waist, while the other is holding my hair. I feel him reach for my nipple again, and I grab his hand and suck his thumb into my mouth, like I would his cock, and he slams into me, causing me to come again. He thrusts twice more, before coming loudly. My stomach starts turning, and I jump out of the shower and barely make it to the toilet, before I empty everything.
“Babe, this kind of kills the mood and makes me think me or my cock make you sick.” I just give him a look, but it’s a quick one, as I get sick again. Finally, when my stomach is empty, I slowly crawl out of the bathroom, before Xavier picks me up and carries me to the bed.
I can’t keep this from him anymore, so I start, “Babe, I have to tell you something, and if you hate me after, I completely understand.”
“Carly, there is nothing you can ever do to make me hate you. Whatever you have to tell me, we will deal with together.”
“I was pregnant with your baby, and I lost it. I found out I was pregnant the night after I left town. That is why I went back home. The night at the dance club I lost it, when I got back home. I went to the ER to get checked out, and I’m okay. I’m sorry, so sorry I couldn’t carry our child.”
“Babe, it’s okay. I mean, it hurts so bad that I couldn’t be there with you to hold your hand. I know that when the time is right it will be perfect. I love you and will not ever stop.” We fall back to sleep wrapped in each other. Again, I wake up before him and head straight to the bathroom and quickly empty my stomach. Slowly, I get up and clean up. Walking out, I see that Xavier is still asleep, and I remember that the last time I was sick like this I was pregnant. I slept with Xavier, and he didn’t use protection. I grab my bag and leave quickly, heading to the store. I grab two tests, and I make it back to my room, and he is pacing, like a caged animal.
“Babe, where the fuck have you been? Why do you keep leaving like this?”
Walking to him, I wrap my arms around his waist and lay my head on his chest. “I have been getting sick every morning for the last three weeks. You and I had unprotected sex, so I think I’m pregnant. I went to get tests. I’m sorry I didn’t even think you would be awake, before I got back.” I do a face plant into his chest crying, and he holds me, while I cry it out. Finally, I’m out of tears and need to use the bathroom. Looking up to him, I whisper, “I’m so scared.”
“Baby, I’m here, and I’m not going anywhere. This is my promise to you.” I go into the bathroom, and when I’m done, he comes in, as we wait together. Finally, it comes back negative. I’m relieved, but also disappointed. Holding each other, I tell him how I feel. I’m relieved, as I want some time just the two of us, and I want us to get married, before we have kids. However, I am disappointed. I loved our first child and would have loved this one as well. We get back in bed, as this has been an emotional couple of hours. With my head on his chest, I say to him, “Babe, I want to ask you something, and please be honest and don’t feel like you must do it okay?”
“Babe, just ask, and I will always be honest, and I would never do something I didn’t want to do.”
“I know we talked about and decided to wait to get married, after I was done with school, but I would like to graduate Dr. Carly Allen, if that’s okay with you?”
“Babe, are you serious right now? I want nothing more than to marry you. I’d do it today, if I thought we could, but your mom would murder me. I love you, and as soon as you can get a full nine days in a row off, we are getting married. Now, I must tell you something. Your mom has cancer and has to go in Thursday and have a complete hysterectomy done.” I start to freak out jumping out of bed and throwing stuff around. Xavier grabs me and holds me tightly, telling me she knows we are together and wants us to wait until tomorrow morning to drive back home. Then it hits me, we will be separated again. I swear to you he can read my mind, because he says, “Carson brought me here to you, so we will drive back together.”
Carly Past
Leaving the hospital with Xavier is a new feeling. I’m glad he’s driving, as I need the time to sort through my feelings and thoughts. The first thought that comes to mind is I’m freed from under my dad. I know it sounds horrible, but it was almost like I was living to please him. If he said pineapple doesn’t belong on pizza, even though I loved it, I wouldn’t get it. If he said Under Armor is better than Nike, then I’d get the Under Armor. Everything I did, I did it, because it’s what he wanted and/or expected. Feeling the car stop going, I look up and see we are parked at a park. I turn to question Xavier, but he beats me to it.
“We are here, so you can sort through your feelings and decide how long you will beat yourself up over telling your dad the truth, and what he has needed to hear for a long time.” Instantly, I get pissed.
“How dare you! You know nothing about my dad and I’s relationship. You have no right to sit there all high and mighty and judge something you know nothing about.” Opening the door, I get out, and he meets me at the back of the car.
“You can be mad, and your probably right, but let me explain myself. First, I’m not judging your relationship. Your dad is your hero, and I understand that. I know enough to know that he deserved everything you just laid at his feet. I have been to the last five track meets, and he hasn’t shown up for any. I was there when you signed with Colorado State for track. I’m here every day, and if I ever even for one second act like that or treat you like that, I want you to punch me in the dick. He’s acting like you owe him for letting you be part of his life, and honestly, he should be so very fucking proud to be a part of yours.”
Leaning his forehead to mine, I whisper, “I just don’t want to get so attached and have it fall through because I don’t think I’ll survive it. I think I’m better off alone, because this pain in my chest that I feel right now, I don’t ever want anyone to feel it, or worse yet feel it, because of me. I’m sorry, but maybe we are better off friends.” Looking up into his eyes, my tears start falling. Standing up on my tiptoes, I kiss him one last time.
Turning around, I walk away. Knowing I’m breaking my own heart, but there is nothing I can do about it. Finally, I make it home an hour later. I needed time to think and to cry out my frustration. I didn’t stay at any of my normal spots long, because I didn’t want Mom, Carson, Molly, or worse Dad to find me. Walking in the door, I see Mom, sitting in her chair with her arm over her head and her eyes on me. I feel like she is trying to look through me to see my thoughts, feelings, anything, and everything.
Finally, I can’t take it any longer, and the dam breaks again. Rushing through the house, I sit on the floor and lay my head in mom’s lap.
Xavier Present
We arrive back at Mom’s, and she and Carly hold each other, until Caitlynn needs her attention. Carly gets down on her hands and knees and speaks to Caitlynn, as if she was the most important person in the world, and really, she is to all of us. She will never know what Carson or Carly went through with their dad. Once I’m sure they are upstairs, I sit down with Claire and Maddox, asking them permissio
n to marry Carly. She already has the ring, but we know what happened, and I asked before, but I feel like I need to ask again. “What if we say no?”
Looking from Maddox to Claire, I take a deep breath and say, “I would be very upset, but I will still be marrying her. I’m not asking for me. I’m asking for her. You two are her parents, and you have shown her how love is supposed to be. I hope that in your eyes I’m good enough to spend the rest of my life loving her.”
“Well, how are we supposed to say no to that? Of course, you have our blessing, Xavier. We know you love our girl and will take care of her, even when she forgets to take care of herself. Thank you for loving our girl.” With tears in her eyes, Claire walks over, and I stand up, as she wraps me up in her arms and squeezes tight. Then, she goes back to her husband, as I head upstairs, because I know Carly has been up there for a long time and is most likely sleeping with Caitlynn. Stopping by the bathroom, I hear Caitlynn, “Carly, please don’t ever leave me again. I’ll be good, I promise.”
“Oh Caitlynn. Baby girl, I love you, and I’m not leaving you. I promise you that. You don’t need to be better or anything, except yourself. That is the person I love the most in the whole wide world.”
She sounds so sad, and completely rips my heart out of my chest with what she says next.
“My mom and dad didn’t love me or want me.”
“Baby girl, I want you more than anything else in the world and our mom and dad want you. Carson is always talking about his best girl in the world, and Xavier showed me all the pictures of you and him on his phone. I want to make a promise to you right now, babe. I promise that Xavier and I will NEVER leave you for any reason. Okay?”
“If you promise than okay. I love you, sissy.”
“So, let’s get clean, okay? Then, I will read you a book with the voices.”
“Oh, yay! Mom tries, but she isn’t as good as you are. But don’t tell her. I don’t want to hurt her feelings.” Feeling like I’m intruding into their time, I go down to Carly’s room. I need to call my parents and let them know. I mean, they have known that Carly is the one for me from the beginning. What can I say, when you know, you know, and I knew! Laying back on the bed, I listen to the ringing, and then my mom’s voice. “Hey, baby. Is everything okay?”
“Yeah, Mom. Can’t a guy just want to call his mom?”
“Well, yeah, but you have never done that before. The last time we spoke you was upset.”
Laughing, I say, “That’s one way to put it. I was pissed off and panicking. I’m calling to let you know that I’ve got my girl back.” I hear the smile in my own voice, so I know my mom hears it. “She left, and I chased her down.” Telling Mom how everything went down and how I got my girl back lifts a huge weight off my shoulders.
“Oh, sweetheart. I’m so happy you two worked everything out. Hang on your dad wants to speak with you. I want you to know I love you and am so proud you found your one and only so young. Now, you will get forever to be together.” I hear dad in the background, “If he would have listened to me, he could be out chasing tail again still.” Once again, he throws this shit in my face. I don’t know why either. I mean, I could see if she tried to get pregnant and trap me or try to blackmail me for my family money. “Hey, son. Have you come to your senses, yet? There was a new family that moved in just down the street with a girl about your age.”
Clenching my teeth together, I try to calm myself down. “Dad, you know very well I’m not leaving Colorado, and I’m most definitely not leaving Carly. I don’t know what your problem with her is, but you need to build a bridge and get the fuck over it.” I end the call, before he can say something else and piss me off all over again. I sit here, trying to calm my thoughts and heart down. I’m trying to convince myself I’ve calmed down, but every time he tries to call me back, and I read his name and decline the call, as I get pissed off all over again. Finally, looking down at my phone, I see it’s been an hour, since I’ve heard anything from Carly or Caitlynn. Putting my phone to vibrate, I start down the hall to Caitlynn’s room and peeking my head around the door, I see my beautiful girl, sleeping in the rocking chair with Caitlynn on her chest. Lifting my phone to snap the picture, before going in the room and picking Caitlynn up and kissing her, I lay her down and cover her up, patting her back, I whisper, “Good night, beautiful girl. Dream of all the amazing things you’re going to do in this world.”
Walking over, I pick my girl up and take her down to the car to go home. She opens her eyes, when we get out in the car, and she tells me what Caitlynn said to her, and the promise she made to her from both of us. Finally, I need to be honest with her and get this off my chest. “Babe, I hope it didn’t hurt you, when I stayed with your mom, but I couldn’t be at our place without you, and I needed to be close to you.”
“I understand, and I love you for being there for her, when I couldn’t be there.”
“Babe, I love you, too. What are you thinking about so hard over there?”
“Caitlynn told me she is afraid everyone is going to leave her, like Dad did, and that we don’t love her. She broke my heart tonight. Honestly, I would still be sitting in the rocking chair reading to her, even though she was asleep, before the first book was done. Just so she knows I love her.”
Stopping in our driveway, I shut the car off and turn to look at her, taking her hand in mine I speak from the heart. “Carly, she knows you love her, and she is just confused by everything going on, and she thought that she did something wrong, when you dropped her off and left.”
“I’m so sorry I hurt all of you.”
“Babe, don’t be sorry for getting your head on straight. And you had your interview.”
Xavier Past
Tonight, is the night. I’m going to make Carly mine in every way. It’s been twelve months of us being together, but not flaunting it, and after tonight, that will all change. I have a hotel room reserved and dinner at Olive Garden. Carson knows we are going out tonight, but he doesn’t know everything. When I asked about some of her favorites he said, “Dude, she’s my sister ask someone else. I don’t want to know. Oh, one more thing. Don’t fucking break her heart, or I will break your body into tiny pieces.” He patted my chest and walked away. The hotel room is breathe taking, and there are little tea light candles all over with yellow and white rose petals spread out, designed in a heart on the bed. On the right side of the bed, is the hot tub with her favorite bath bomb and larger candles around the tub. The hotel staff will come in and light the candles, when we arrive here, and I’ll call when we are leaving Olive Garden.
Now that I have that cleared and have come home showered, shaved, and changed my clothes more times then I’d like to admit to, and I end up where the first thing I had out. It’s time to go get her. Walking up to her door, my palms are so sweaty you could probably wash a small child. I’m feeling ridiculous because it’s not the first time I’ve had sex, and it’s not our first date. This is crazy. Knocking on her door, I take a step back, when she steps outside; I feel like I’ve been sucker punched in the stomach. All the air leaves my lungs, and honestly, I don’t know why she is with me. She deserves so much more than I’ll ever be. I’ll be dammed if I let anyone take my spot beside her. She is standing there watching me with those magically eyes, dressed in a beautiful summer dress. It’s white with black swirls all over it. Stopping just above her knees, she has her black ballet flats on. Her hair is down, wavy, and pulled back on the left side, and I’m in awe of her beauty. I feel like I’m meeting her for the first time every single time I see her. Keeping my eyes locked on hers, I take her hand in mine and slowly bring it to my mouth, placing a soft kiss on the back of her hand. “Hi. Are you ready?”
Slowly, she pulls her hair back behind her right ear and softly says, “Hi. Yes, I’m ready. Am I dressed okay?”
“Baby, you look like a million freaking bucks! Nobody will even know I’m with you. Come on, I want to show you off.”
“Wait, I don’t want to b
e shown off. I don’t want everyone to focus on me. I just want you to focus on me, while I focus on you.” Leaning down, I brush my lips on hers. Backing off, before we get too carried away, I pull back and smirk at her dazed look. Man, I can’t wait to see her face, when she sees everything I have planned for tonight. Walking her to the passenger side of the car, I open the door for her. Once she is in and buckled up, I shut her door and rush to my door. Getting in, we talk about her state meet next weekend, and how late her practices will be. Getting to the restaurant, once again, I open her door for her. Now, if she was a girl I dated before her, then I’d have taken her to McDonalds and not opened her door for her. Hell, I’d probably just honk the horn. Is that a dick move? Probably, but I knew they wanted me for my dick and money. Not Carly, though. She fought me every step of the way.
I open the door, as she walks in ahead of me. Walking in behind her, I place my hand at the small of her back, as we walk to the hostess station. I told the girl working the station we needed a table for two, and she stared at me, like I was an alien with two heads or something. Apparently, Carly has had enough, and she snaps her fingers in front of the girls face and says, “Hello, anyone home? We need a table for two.”
“Oh, yes, sorry. Right this way.” The girl walks away from us without grabbing menus or anything. With a sigh from Carly’s sweet mouth, she grabs two menus and silverware. I think I better say something, before this night is completely ruined, “Carly, do you want to go somewhere else?”
