“I’ll talk to Luc. Maybe this weekend if you’re free.”
“I’ll be free. Just let me know.”
“Will do. Thanks for calling. It’s good to know you care.”
“A ton. Have a good week, Benny boy.”
“Ah, I finally got my nickname.”
“What do you mean?”
“Luc had one right away. I was feeling a little left out.”
“His was a little more obvious than yours, but I’m glad we could catch you up.”
I laugh. “Me too. Have a good week, gorgeous.”
“Thanks. Bye.”
“Bye.”
∞∞∞
I grab my things to leave for the day, bumping into Kate on the way out.
“Hi, Ben. How are you?”
“Good, Kate. You?”
“Not bad.” She studies me for a minute. “Uh, Ben…”
I wait for her to say more, but her face goes blank as her cheeks turn pink. “Yeah?”
She shakes her head. “Have a good night.”
She tries to dart down the hall, but I gently grab her hand. “Hey.” Her eyes open wide. “What did you want to say?”
Her brow furrows as she glances down at the floor, then slowly back up to me. “Would you, um, maybe some time, you know, when you’re not busy or something, maybe…” She pauses, exhaling slowly. “Would you like to grab a drink sometime?”
I smile, pulling her a little closer. “You’re asking me out?”
She nods. “I guess I am.”
“I’d love to grab a drink with you, Kate. When are you thinking?”
Her mouth falls open until she catches herself. “Whenever. My schedule is open.”
“What about tomorrow after work?”
“Tomorrow?”
“Yeah.”
“That would be great. Good. I mean, yeah tomorrow after work.”
I step even closer watching her breath catch. “Don’t be nervous with me, Kate. I’m just a guy. I don’t bite.”
She nods, laughing. “Right.”
“Not right away anyway.”
She smiles, squeezing my hand. Clearing her throat, she steps back slightly. “Tomorrow then.”
“Yeah. Thanks for asking. That was cool.”
“You’re welcome.”
I release her hand and walk away, glancing back at her. She waves and turns to go down the hall back to Finance. It puts a smile on my face. She had to build up the nerve to ask me. I pull my phone out of my pocket gazing down at Luc’s name. I guess I should tell them. It’s a courtesy, right? I guess. If we’re fucking I should tell them I’m going on a date with someone else? I fire off a text.
Kate in Finance asked me for drinks tomorrow. I said yes.
My phone rings. “Hey, Luc.”
“She asked you out?”
“Yeah. It was sweet. She was so nervous. I didn’t have the heart to say no.”
“Did you want to?”
“No. I think she’s cute. There’s something there.”
“Yeah, she’s pretty. Think you’ll take her home?”
“How does this work? This thing with us? Would you go out with someone else if it came up?” The silent pause is noticeable. “Luc?”
“No, I wouldn’t, but it’s because I’m not interested in anyone else right now. Just Georgie.”
“Where are you?”
“My office.”
“I’ll be right there.”
I turn around and return to the elevator to take me back up. As I walk down the hall, I can feel the nervous energy building in me. I’m trying to keep things as normal as possible when we’re not with Georgie, but the reality is, Luc fucking turns me on. We need to talk about this.
I tap on the door as I step inside. “Hey, man.”
He gazes up with a serious look on his face before relaxing into a smile. “Hey.”
“I think we should talk.”
“About?”
“Us. Georgie.”
Luc nods, leaning back in his chair. “I suppose it’s time.”
“Am I in your way?”
His brow furrows. “What do you mean?”
“Do you want something different with Georgie? Something exclusive?”
Luc runs his fingers through his hair. “I don’t know what I want right now. I want her, but I…” He closes his eyes for a moment, and when he opens them, my breath catches. “I like what we have.”
“I do too.”
“What are you doing with Kate then? You gonna fuck her?”
“I don’t know.” I stare down at my hands. “I’m fucking jealous, Luc.”
“Of?”
My eyes meet his. “You and Georgie. The connection is different. I can see it. I can feel it. I want someone to look at me the way you two look at each other.”
Luc studies me for a moment before standing and walking behind my chair. He places his hands on my shoulders and massages them, leaning into me slightly. I can feel my entire body react, but especially my dick. I’ve never had a reaction like this to a man, and I don’t fucking know what to do with it.
I stand up abruptly, turning to face him. We hold each other’s gaze, and Luc gets that look, that accepting, encouraging look that makes me want to fall to my knees. I lean in to kiss him, completely drawn to him, but he blinks and steps back.
“I’m sorry, Luc.”
“No, mate, it’s okay. Just not here.”
“Yeah, I know. It was impulsive.” I step back, taking a deep breath. “I need to be honest.”
“Please.”
“I’ve never been this attracted to a man before. It’s fucking with my head a little.”
“Why?”
“I think about you more than Georgie.” I shake my head. “I don’t know how to process it.”
Luc turns and shuts his office door. “It’s okay. I feel the same way. It’s hard to know what to do with this pull between us. I’ve never been attracted to a man. Ever.”
“But you’re attracted to me? It’s not just because of Georgie.”
“Georgie’s not here, is she?”
“No.”
Luc steps closer, wrapping his hand around the back of my neck. “You said before, it doesn’t mean anything. It doesn’t change who we are. It’s just sex. You didn’t mean it, did you?”
“I try to. I don’t believe in labels. I don’t think a man can only be straight or gay or bi. I believe that every time I’ve done something in the past, it’s been purely for physical pleasure. In the moment. I never thought about the person after or craved it.”
“Has that changed?”
I nod. “Yeah, Luc, it’s changed. I said yes to Kate for two reasons. One, she asked. Two, I want to be attracted to her. I want to feel a desire to fuck her. I want to feel like the things that happen between us are just physical.”
“I understand.”
“You don’t feel that, do you? You don’t struggle to keep your hands off of me. You don’t daydream about kissing me. You don’t want to get on your knees right now and suck me off.”
Luc’s eyes soften. “Is that what you want?”
“All the fucking time. I know you’re not like me. You’re enjoying the moment. You’re enjoying Georgie’s involvement in it. I get it.”
Luc moves in and presses his lips softly on mine. It feels like being given a cold glass of water when you’re dying of thirst. His hands run down my chest, but he steps back, pressing his forehead on mine. “Sounds like it’s new territory for both of us.”
“I’m not freaking you out?”
“No.” He offers a slight smile. “You never have. My attraction to you is different than yours to me, but it’s there. Trust me, I’ve never kissed a man on the lips.”
I laugh softly. “Yeah.” I step back slightly. “Thank you. It means a lot to me that I can be honest.”
“We have to be, Ben. It’s how this thing works.”
I nod, moving away from his touch, and regaining a l
ittle clarity. “I’m gonna meet up with Kate and see what happens. I think you should take Georgie out. You know, just the two of you.”
His brow furrows. “Why?”
“The same reason I need to take Kate out. We need to be the men we are away from each other. I need it. Georgie would love it.”
“Georgie cares for you, Ben. You know that, right?”
“I do. She called today to check on me.” I gaze out the window. “But it’s different. She cares about me as friend. She likes the things we do, but she’s drawn to you. You know that, right?”
“I hope it’s true.”
“Do you have feelings for her? Beyond the sex stuff, I mean.”
“I don’t know. I just know that I want to be around her often.”
I turn back to him and lean against his desk, just inches from his body. “Take her out, Luc. On some level, we all know this isn’t going to be long term. If you and Georgie have something, I’ll get out of the way. We’ll just go back to the way we were, and I’ll find a new woman and be happy for you both.”
“You’re a good man, Ben. The best, really. I’ve never had a mate care so deeply about me.”
“Same to you.”
I stand to leave, but Luc pulls my wrist to him, wrapping his arms around me. He smells good, like he always does, and it takes every ounce of energy I have not to tear at his clothes. When I step back, he cups my face, holding my gaze. I want him to kiss me. I want him to tell me he wants to fuck me. I want him to tell me we can stay this way forever. I can fuck him on the side when Georgie needs a break. I want to swallow his cock, feel him buried deep inside me. I want fucking everything. When he moves closer, I close my eyes anticipating the feeling of his full lips on mine. His tongue teases mine, flicking quickly out, but then hiding away again. It’s brief, too brief, but fucking fire.
“Thank you.”
I tilt my head. “Why are you thanking me?”
“You know.” He lets his hands slide down my neck. “Wanna head out now?”
“Yeah. You going home?”
He nods. “I need to catch up on some reading for work and maybe get a little sleep.”
I smile. “I’m gonna go run off some energy at the gym.”
“You telling Georgie about Kate?”
I nod. “I’ll call her later. Then you should call her and make plans.”
“I will.”
“Good.” I pat his back, exhaling slowly. “Let’s get out of here.”
∞∞∞
After my run, I walk to the elevators to go up to my apartment, but I can’t get Luc out of my head. What the actual fuck. I take a shower, turning the water to cold, but it does nothing to cool me down. Ignoring my erection, I lie down on the bed and pick up my phone to call Georgie.
“Hey, Ben.”
“Hi, gorgeous. Got a minute?”
“Of course.”
“Yeah, so, it probably doesn’t matter to you at all, but out of respect, I wanted to let you know I’m going out with a coworker for drinks tomorrow.”
“A coworker?”
“Her name is Kate. She asked me out.”
“Oh.” She’s silent for a second. “Does that mean you don’t want to do our thing anymore?”
“No, I do. A lot. I just need the break, I think.”
“Why? Is something not working for you?”
I rub my forehead. “Georgie…”
“What, Ben?”
“Everything’s great. It is.”
“Okay. Okay, but you’re going out with a girl named Kate.”
“Just for drinks after work.”
“What are you doing now?”
“Nothing. I just got out of the shower.”
“Can I come over?”
My eyes open wide. “Uh, why?”
“I want to see you and talk to you. Can I?”
“Without Luc?”
“This is between us.”
“Yeah, of course. If you want to.”
“I want to. Text me your address. I’ll be there soon.”
“Okay.”
We hang up and I’m hit with a mixture of panic and guilt. Twenty minutes later, the buzzer rings. I press the release to let her in and wait by the open door. When she comes off the elevator, her appearance takes me by surprise. Gone is the glamorous woman in heels and sexy dresses with perfect makeup and hair. She’s wearing leggings and an oversized t-shirt with her hair piled in a bun and not a stitch of makeup. She’s fucking beautiful like this.
She smiles, throwing her arms around my neck. “Hi.”
“Hey.” I kiss her cheek. “Come in.”
“Thanks.” She passes me, glancing around my apartment. “Nice place.”
“Not bad for a city apartment.”
“Not at all.” She smiles. “Thanks for letting me come over.”
“Anytime. Can I get you a drink?”
“Sure. Whatever you have.”
“Be right back.”
I go in the kitchen and grab a bottle of red wine, pouring each of us a glass. When I come out, she’s sitting on the couch, flipping through the men’s magazine I had on the coffee table.
She gazes up at me and smiles. “Thank you.”
I nod, sitting next to her. “You look fucking amazing.”
She laughs. “Really?”
“Gorgeous. Has Luc seen you like this?”
She shakes her head. “No.”
“He’d shit if he did.”
“Thanks.” She sips her wine. “We need to talk, and I thought it would be better in person.”
“Okay. About what?”
“Us. All of us. Why are you going out with someone else?”
“Kate’s a nice girl. She’s pretty. Why not?”
“But we have a thing.”
“Says the woman who was dating two men at once.”
She laughs softly. “That was before we had a thing. Don’t you want Luc and me anymore?”
I lean back on the couch and drink some wine. “Yeah, Georgie, I do.”
“Then why Kate?” She grabs my hand. “Tell me the truth.”
I allow myself to meet her concerned eyes. “I need to feel normal again.”
“Normal?”
“Yeah. Normal as in into women.”
Her face softens. “Oh, Ben. You’re worried about that?”
I nod. “I’ve never wanted a man so much. It bothers me a little.”
“I think I understand. I’ve never wanted a woman, but my best friend in college, I wanted her. We got drunk one night and did a bunch of shit. I loved it. I panicked and thought I was a lesbian.”
“Yeah?”
She nods. “So I tested it. I went out and picked up a woman. I wasn’t into it at all. It was exclusive to my friend. We just had a super deep bond. We fucked around the entire school year, but then she got a boyfriend and called it off.”
“Were you hurt?”
“Yeah. They broke up like six months later, and she came back to me. That was the best night. By then I knew it was only her. I wasn’t gay.”
“You’ve never done it again?”
“No. Don’t want to. I’m all about the D.” We both laugh. “What I’m saying, Ben, is it’s just Luc. He’s special to you, and I think on some level, it’s because he’s let himself go there with you. He trusts you.”
I nod, playing with her fingers. “He is special. To you too, right?”
She smiles. “Yeah.”
“Wouldn’t you rather it just be the two of you?”
“No. I absolutely love what the three of us share. It’s so sexy and passionate and freeing. I’ve wanted as long as I could remember to have two men worship my body. I never thought I’d get so lucky to find two men like you.” She cups my face. “I love watching you go down on him. I love your face when he enters you.” She rubs my thigh. “When I’m fucking his mouth and you’re sucking his dick…” She shakes her head. “It’s mind blowing to watch.”
“Shit.”
She grins. “Am I making you excited?”
“Fuck yeah.”
“What does it feel like? Having his fat cock in your ass?”
My eyes open wide. “Damn, your mouth, woman.”
“It must feel amazing. You’ve wanted him for so long and he gave himself to you. He put his mouth on you. I bet you want to tear up his virgin asshole.”
I shift and try to move her hand from me, but she puts it right on my dick. “I don’t turn you on as much. You’ve fucked a thousand women, but only one Luc. It’s okay to tell me. I know how you feel. I can see it.”
I swallow hard, nodding.
“I get it.” She’s whispering now. “He’s so sexy. So charming. So delicious. If he were here right now, we could share his cock, but when he came I would let you have all of it.”
I throw my head back. “Fuck.”
“I know, baby. It’s hard to want him so much. You think about him all day. You crave him.”
I grip her chin. “Do you?”
She nods. “I do. I want him right now.”
I blink rapidly. “I don’t like it.”
“Why?” She climbs onto my lap, straddling me. “There’s nothing wrong with it. He wants you too. He indulges his desire for you all the time.”
“It’s not the same.”
“But it’s still good.” She puts my hands on her tits. “Do you want to fuck me right now? Do you want to pretend I’m Luc and slide in my asshole? Or should we call him over?”
“Why are you doing this to me? You don’t want to fuck me right now. I know you don’t.”
“I want you to admit it. I want you to tell me what you want to happen next.”
“Fine. I admit it. I fucking want Luc.”
“You want him more than me. You want him more than Kate.”
I nod, feeling my eyes get teary. Fuck. I’m not gonna fucking cry. She pulls at my chin, forcing me to look at her. “Stop.”
“No.” She leans in and kisses me softly. “What are you afraid of? Not your sexuality. I know you’re secure in that. So what is making you so upset about how you feel about Luc? You can tell me.”
I let myself just feel it all for a moment before looking up at her. “I don’t want to get hurt. I don’t want to lose a friend. I don’t want to fall in love with a man. I want to be who I was before Luc.”
Georgie strokes my face. “Aww, Ben, none of us can go back to who we were, and that’s a beautiful thing. Luc is finding a new part of himself, a part that loves and trust his best friend so much, he can free himself sexually. He can experience this with you. You’ve made a long held fantasy for me come true. You’ve made me feel like the most desired woman in the state. You’ve made me so happy.” She kisses me softly. “And you, you’ve been able to experience passion and desire on an entirely new level. Luc won’t hurt you. I won’t hurt you. We love you.”
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