Out of the Shallows

by Samantha Young

  “Mmm,” I agreed, standing up on tiptoes to press a soft kiss to his lips.

  “And of course we have to put up with these two,” Claudia remarked behind us. “We may need vomit breaks.”

  “Oh yeah,” Beck said dryly.

  Jake and I ignored them.

  “I can’t believe we’re in Spain and we’re eating at the Hard Rock,” Claudia said loudly over the music, making a face.

  I laughed, not at all put out. Frankly, I was looking forward to my cheeseburger and fries.

  We’d stepped out of the hotel and started walking east, only to discover the Hard Rock Café on the plaza.

  Claudia had shaken her head at our pleading eyes. “No, I want to explore.”

  “We’ll explore once we’re fed.” I’d grabbed her wrist and pulled her inside the café.

  “Could we be any more American right now?” she said before taking a feisty bite out of an onion ring.

  “I like it.” I leaned back against the diner-style seat and Jake draped his arm across my shoulders. “I’m starting to get a little homesick.”

  “Me too,” Beck said as he watched Claudia chew petulantly. It was so clear from the soft look on his face that he thought everything she did was adorable.

  Stubborn ass.

  “Well, only seven weeks until we’re back home,” Jake reminded us.

  “And then we have all summer.” I grinned. “I wonder what we could get up to.”

  “If I’m going on tour with these creeps,” Claudia gestured to Beck, “you’re coming too.”

  “Uh-uh, no way.” And I meant it. “I’m spending time with my family and Jake this summer, not parading from state to state as a roadie. Close quarters with Matt? I don’t think so.”

  Jake snorted. “I don’t blame you.”

  Claud glowered at me. “But you said I should go.”

  “And so you should.” I laughed at the horrified look on her face. “You’ll have Beck and Lowe. And Denver’s not entirely terrible.”

  “I don’t think that makes up for close quarters with Matt.”

  Beck laughed. “She may have a point.”

  I chuckled at the way Claudia’s eyes bugged out.

  “All right, I’m definitely not going now.” She pinched her lips tight and shook her head.

  “I think you’re all underestimating Matt,” I said, trying not to laugh and ruin my defense of him. “I think underneath the frat-boy attitude is a nice, misunderstood young man with awkward social skills. Who knows, Claudia… maybe the one has been under your nose the whole time.”

  “Matt? The one? He once asked me if I was shaved.”

  “He did what?” Beck looked at her sharply, his tone not at all happy.

  Jake and I exchanged a knowing look.

  Claudia shifted uncomfortably under Beck’s direct stare. “He was really drunk and being more of an idiot than usual. He did apologize later…” Her voice trailed off at the gathering thunderclouds in Beck’s eyes.

  He finally lifted his angry gaze to look at Jake across the table. “Can you believe that dick? What’s the matter with him?”

  “You know Matt,” Jake treaded carefully. “He says shit without thinking.”

  “Yeah, well, I think he and I need to have a talk.”

  “Beck, don’t.” Claudia scowled at him. “It’s no big deal. I shouldn’t have mentioned it.”

  “He crossed the line.”

  “Yes, and he apologized,” I reiterated for Claud. “And don’t pretend you haven’t done assholey things when you’ve been drunk.”

  Beck grunted.

  It was time for a subject change. “I was just telling Claudia I told my parents that I’m not taking the LSATs.” I glanced at Jake for his reaction.

  His eyes lit up with affection. “Proud of you, baby.”

  “Did they hit the roof?” Beck asked.

  “They’re not happy, but I think they realize they’re not going to win this one.”

  “Well, then…” Beck grinned and lifted his Coke in the air. “To Charley, our future sexy cop.”

  We raised our glasses, clinking as Claudia and Jake cheered, “To Charley.”

  We had a fun night even though we got a little lost, walking down one narrow cobblestone street and the next and somehow ending up on the one we’d started out on. Eventually, we ended up grabbing a cab and the driver in his broken English recommended a club called Moog. All wood, iron, and smoke, the place was packed. It wasn’t really our scene, but Claudia wanted to dance her troubles away.

  I danced with her while the guys skirted the edges of the room, beers in hand, but we were pretty soon pressed in upon by other guys and girls and before we knew it, Jake and Beck were on the dance floor with us, keeping the wolves at bay. They didn’t dance, just kept their eyes on us and shooed off any guys who attempted to get near us. Claudia didn’t seem to mind. In fact, I think she enjoyed tormenting Beck with the gorgeousness that was a dancing Claudia.

  And Beck definitely looked tormented.

  I’d feel sorry for him if it weren’t self-inflicted.

  We got back to the hotel pretty late, buzzed and full of energy. It was disappointing to be that buzzed and not be able to unravel it all with Jake in private, but I wanted to be there for my friend.

  So we went into our separate rooms, and lying in bed, I talked with Claudia about everything and nothing until she fell asleep.

  Collectively we’d kept her calm and taken her mind off meeting Dustin for as long as we could. But now, the morning after, as the four of us walked the twenty-minute journey to Dustin’s apartment, Claudia was so quiet. Jake and I were more than competent with a map, so we got there without any wrong turns. But while Jake, Beck, and I soaked in the fact that we were in Barcelona, staring up at the apartments with their wrought iron balconies, on their quaint narrow streets, small boutiques beneath them, Claudia was too lost inside her own head to take notice.

  As we stepped onto Dustin’s street, I strode forward and grabbed Claud’s hand. “We’re right here with you,” I reminded her.

  Her breathing had grown shallow and by the time we walked up the cramped, dark stairwell to the top floor, she was completely out of breath.

  I held her hand a little tighter as we stood outside the door. “Just breathe.”

  Her frightened eyes met mine and she nodded slowly, pulling air in through her nose and exhaling. Jake gave her shoulder a squeeze and Beck stepped close behind her, leaning down to press a kiss to her temple.

  “You’ll be fine,” he murmured reassuringly.

  Claudia stared at the door, a trembling smile on her lips. “Thanks, guys.”

  She knocked.

  A few seconds later, the door swung open. Staring out at us was an attractive forty-something guy with a dark, graying beard and piercing green eyes. Claudia’s eyes. He wore light slacks and a loose linen shirt rolled up at the sleeves. His feet were bare.

  His eyes swept over us before coming to a stop on Claudia. He took a deep breath and gave her a soft smile. “Claudia?” he asked with an English accent.

  Wide-eyed and more nervous than I’d ever seen my vibrant, confident friend, Claudia nodded. “Dustin?”

  He swept an arm out gesturing us to enter as he stepped back from the door. “Please, come in.”

  We ushered her inside and Dustin came forward to give her an awkward hug. “You look so much like your mother.”

  “But I have your eyes.”

  “That you do.” His smile was a little uncomfortable. He broke eye contact with her to stare at us. “And these are your friends?”

  “Yeah. This is my best friend, Charley, and her boyfriend Jake, and this is my friend Beck.”

  “Well, nice to meet you all. You must all be such good friends to be here for Claudia today.”

  “We are.” I nodded, sizing him up.

  Even more uncomfortable under my scrutiny, Dustin laughed nervously and walked farther into his apartment.

  He had
the whole top floor to himself, the space like a loft apartment. Lots of light streamed in through the windows and I could see in the far corner was his studio. Whatever he was working on was covered up, but paint smattered the floor and walls. A kitchen ran half the length of the adjacent wall and in the center of the room was a massive corner sofa and coffee table.

  My eyes stopped abruptly on the sofa.

  There was a woman on it.

  “Uh, I hope you don’t mind, but I invited my girlfriend Pedra to join us,” Dustin said, hurrying toward the woman. She stood up and eyed Claudia grimly. Pedra was younger than Dustin. A lot younger. Tall, olive-skinned, pretty, with dark eyes and hair, she looked like a model.

  “I brought my friends, so I understand,” Claudia said. She stepped forward, holding her hand out to Pedra. “It’s nice to meet you.”

  Pedra looked at her hand and I thought for a minute she wasn’t going to take it. She eventually did but her grip was loose and the action reluctant. “You have his eyes,” she said, somehow managing to sound flat in her musical Spanish accent.

  “Yup.” Claudia threw me a look that clearly screamed, “Help!”

  “Why don’t we sit?” I stepped forward, gesturing to the sofa.

  “Right, right, of course.” Dustin watched us take a seat. “Can I get you all anything? I have water, herbal tea, and a few beers.”

  “I’ll take a beer.” Beck nodded congenially and I noticed Pedra’s eyes swing to him and stick. Typical.

  “I’ll have a beer as well, thanks.” Jake leaned back against the couch, his arm around my waist, resting on my hip. His grip tightened, telling me to relax, but I couldn’t.

  This situation was too important.

  “Water, please,” I said.

  “Me too.” Claudia gave a long, shaky sigh that Dustin didn’t even seem to notice. I was guessing he was too nervous.

  When we were finally settled with our drinks, the conversation continued to be stilted and awkward. However, slowly, as smiles became less tremulous and laughter less forced, Claudia and Dustin touched on more serious issues—such as her parentage and the fact that her parents had asked Dustin to stay away.

  Pedra sat tense throughout the entire thing, her lips pinched into a sour, disapproving look. I wondered if it was because she didn’t want to give up the spotlight to a daughter.

  It was clear that despite both needing people there for backup, neither Claudia nor Dustin were comfortable discussing the whole situation with us in the room. We talked about college instead and Dustin told us about his artwork and his upcoming show. It was clear that art was his life, his passion; it totally consumed him, turning him from this nervous guy into a pretty intense one. He insisted we should go to Plaça St. Josep Oriol, a square in the Gothic Quarter not far from our hotel where we could view amazing artwork from some of the best local artists.

  After a few hours, Claudia said quietly, “Well, I know you’re busy so we’ll go, but I thought maybe we could have dinner, just the two of us, while I’m here.”

  “Of course.” His seemed genuinely happy and I felt a spark of hope for Claudia. “I’d love that. Tomorrow? I’ll make reservations at El Pintor and email you the details.”

  “I have my phone. Do you want my number instead?”

  “Yes. Let me…” He stood, looking around the space with a furrow between his brows. “Let me just find my phone…”

  “I saw it on the bathroom sink,” Pedra muttered, scowling at Claudia.

  Usually Claudia would scowl back but I knew she was playing nice, so I scowled for her. As if sensing my stare, Pedra looked at me, and whatever she saw on my face made her look quickly away.

  I probably looked murderous. It was the momma bear in me.

  Dustin returned with his phone and took Claudia’s number, promising to text her soon with the details of their date. He gave her another awkward hug and we left.

  As soon as we stepped outside the building, Claudia sagged into Beck’s side and he wrapped his arm around her waist. “You okay?” he asked, concerned.

  She shrugged. “It wasn’t so bad, right? He seems nice?”

  “He seems really nice,” Jake assured her.

  “Dinner will be better.” I smiled. “Just the two of you. It’ll be less uncomfortable without listening ears and Bitter Pill Pedra.”

  Claud laughed shakily. “Yeah, what was that?”

  “Ignore her. You didn’t come here for her. You came for Dustin and he seems really happy to meet you.”

  She grinned, finally relaxing. “He did, didn’t he? Ahh,” she exhaled. “Let’s go explore and get something to eat. I’m starving.”

  The guys knocked on our door half an hour ago to tell us they were ready to face the day, but Claudia and I had just woken up. We promised to meet them for breakfast at a café across the plaza and then rushed around the hotel room to get ready.

  As we did so, Claudia chatted about Dustin.

  Something niggled at me about how well things were going for her with her real father. Perhaps it was the cynic in me, or maybe I was terrified of my friend getting her heart broken, but it took everything within me to not warn her to be careful. I didn’t want to ruin this for her.

  We dressed in shorts and tank tops since we’d woken up to a particularly hot day and headed along the plaza to meet Jake and Beck.

  “So, Dustin says he wants to paint me.” Claudia smiled. Though her eyes were covered with oversized sunglasses, I could hear excitement in her voice.

  “Would you do that?”

  “Sit for him? Yeah. He wants to do a portrait.”

  “Well, you’re beautiful and he’s an artist, of course he does.”

  “Yeah, but also, I’m his daughter,” she added, a little indignantly.

  “Of course. I just meant… of course he’d want to draw you, daughter or not.”

  She grimaced. “I think he might have painted my mother nude. I asked if he painted her and he got all shifty and uncomfortable.”

  I laughed. “Oh, he definitely painted her nude.”

  Claud shuddered. “My mother. The disloyal muse.”

  We crossed the plaza toward the café. “Have you spoken to your mom since you got here?”

  “No,” she snorted. “My parents are pretending this isn’t happening.”

  Typical.

  “Well, my folks emailed last night asking about you. They hope everything’s going great with Dustin and said that they love you.”

  “I adore your parents. Do you think they would adopt me?”

  I would’ve answered but I was too busy staring across the street at the café. Sitting at a table on the sidewalk was my boyfriend and Beck. They weren’t alone. Two girls were sitting in my and Claudia’s seats and Jake and Beck were laughing.

  Something unpleasant pinched my chest.

  I felt a nudge at my shoulder and turned to look at Claudia.

  She lifted her sunglasses off to meet my eyes. “Hey. You okay?”

  I sighed, glancing back at the flirting girls and our flirting idiot male counterparts. “Jake and I are in a great place, but I thought the whole jealousy thing was behind me. But I see that girl, laughing into his face, and he’s not doing much to put her off and I want to kill him. He was like this in high school.” I wrinkled in my nose in annoyance. “And he used to accuse me of being a flirt.”

  “You are a flirt.”

  I frowned. “I am not.”

  “Oh, please. You can’t even help it.”

  “Well, what about you?” I waved a hand in the direction of the café. “Doesn’t it bother you anymore to see Beck flirt?”

  It was Claudia’s turn to scowl. “We’re friends. And girls flirt with him. If we were anything more than friends, I’d have to get used to that fact. Just like you have to get used to the fact that your boyfriend is hot and I hate to say it, babe, but since you two got back together, there’s this light around him… it’s totally attractive.” She patted me on the shoulder. “I gu
ess you’ve only got yourself to blame for the hot señorita flirting with him right now.”

  I groaned. “Okay. So how should we play this? Cool, unaffected… or pissed off?”

  “Let’s be grown-ups and play it cool and unaffected. You know Jake loves you. You don’t need to be jealous. Ever.”

  I shoved the horrible feeling away and let rationale take over. “You’re right,” I agreed, studying her carefully. “When did you get all wise and mature?”

  Claudia tilted her chin up in thought. “Hmm… I think it’s a fairly recent development.”

  “I like it.”

  “We’ll see how long it lasts.”

  Laughing at her, I followed as she crossed the street toward the café. Jake caught sight of us and when our eyes met, I felt our connection zing through me as always. I raised an eyebrow, nodding my head toward the girl next to him, but I wore a smile so he’d know I wasn’t mad. Anymore.

  He shrugged and then tapped Beck on the arm. Beck looked over, his eyes instantly moving to Claudia. He straightened in his chair. Jake turned to the girls and said something. Whatever it was, it had them looking over at us walking toward them. The girls gave us curious looks but got out of our seats, waving flirty goodbyes to our boys.

  A few seconds later, we rounded the table and as soon as my ass was in the chair, Jake wrapped his hand around my neck and pulled me in for a slow, sweet kiss. I smiled softly as I pulled back. “Good morning to you too.”

  “Soooo…” Claudia drawled, relaxing back in her chair. “This is what you guys do with your time when we’re not around. Flirt with gorgeous Spanish girls? It’s a little unfair. If we’d known, we would’ve taken up with those two hot guys on mopeds who asked us if we wanted a private tour of the city.”

  I looked at her with both eyebrows raised.

  She smirked. “Guess it didn’t last long,” she said, referring to her wisdom and maturity.

  I laughed, shaking my head. When I looked at Jake, he had an annoyed furrow between his brows. “Guys? Mopeds?”

  I shoved him playfully. “Claudia’s lying.”

  I thought his expression would clear but now Jake looked worried. “The girls just came over. We didn’t invite them to sit.”